jt-padalecki

[jt-padalecki]

[Text] Hi

[Text] Hi. I'm glad to hear you're alive.

[jt-padalecki]

(text shay) when are you getting home? also i'm going to try and get out but the floor in the dining room is currently stained.

[Text] my flight actually lands in about an hour and a half..wasnt sure if i was heading home or if you'd rather i get a hotel or..something idk

[Text] you don't have to leave..I don't want you to

[Text] What happened to the floor?

@carpemitchell

[jt-padalecki]

-later-

[Text-Taylor] They're starting the process to wake her up but they said they dont know how long it will be before she actually wakes up. They dont think there was any brain damage based off the tests they've run but they won't be sure until she wakes up.

[Text] Do you want me to tell her anything for you?

[text] thank you

[text] no...not even sure what to say. this was a mistake

@soflylikeat-swift

[jt-padalecki]

[Text-Taylor] They're talking about taking it out if her brain activity keeps showing good signs. They have her in a coma and they're going to wake her up soon from what it sounds like.

[Text] She normally tells me things. She never told me about this. Are you two back together now or was this another temporary thing?

[text] That's good..at least

[text] Yeah , we were kinda. started a little side affair because we continually cycle.

[text] Thank you for letting me know.

@soflylikeat-swift

[jt-padalecki]

[Text-Taylor] You know I've always been you guys' biggest fan but she was finally doing so good, I dont understand why she would do this.

[Text] She took a whole box of benadryl. She's on a ventilator right now.

[Text] Oh..shit.

[Text] I didn't know that...

@soflylikeat-swift

[jt-padalecki]

[text-Taylor] Well, we can start at the affair and end with Lucy being in the hospital

[Text] Yeah the affair happened and blew shit up rightfully so / as expected

[Text] what the hell do you mean she's in the hospital? What happened?

@soflylikeat-swift

[jt-padalecki]

[text-Taylor] We need to have a conversation

[Text] About?

@soflylikeat-swift

[jt-padalecki]

(text shay) yeah, i love you. and i hate you for doing this again.

[Text] I hate me too. Im sorry. I wish I could do something to make anything better but I do the opposite

@carpemitchell

[jt-padalecki]

[Text] I decided to stay in Austin and suffer. I always blame my bipolar and use some substance or person to feel better and I never allow myself to feel. I made a choice and I have to live with the consequences.

[Text] At least for now. The more I sit here the more I want to be held.

[Text] Cant say I don't understand

[Text] How's it going today?

[jt-padalecki]

[Text] Can i come see you? I dont wanna be by myself anymore.

[Text] would it get you in trouble?

[jt-padalecki]

(text shay) exactly, so now i’m done and im going back to la.

[Text] i love you .

@carpemitchell

[jt-padalecki]

[text] We started this for a reason. That reason will always be there no matter how hard we try to forget it exists. Ending it doesn't seem like an option to me. With or without their acceptance and approval. With or without them staying with us.

[text] It feels like if we end us, we'll circle back again. Because we always do. feels like im stuck in Limbo. I'm sure you feel the same..

[jt-padalecki]

(text shay) i thought we worked out last time. but now i don’t know how we do. you lied for a whole month, jared.

[text] I know, and i know thats the least of my sins.

[text] I don't want to lose you, but clearly Lucy isn't someone i can just fully be rid of. I do have feelings for her too that are not going away despite the time thats passed and I stupidly thought just for a minute that doing both would be a good idea.

@carpemitchell

[jt-padalecki]

[text] I'm not in a downfall. I'm grieving the end of my marriage.

[text] Are you ending things between us?

[text] No I assumed you were. i don't know what im doing right now other than just sitting here in a hotel room for a few more days

[jt-padalecki]

(text los) you can leave her with me for now. you don’t have to rush to come grab her by the way. she’s fine with me.

[text] im probably going to have to for a bit. I can't be back until June 2nd.

[text deleted] and i trust you not to be a dick to her because you're more than aware that its me , not her. im sorry.

[text] i appreciate it.

@carpecarlos

[jt-padalecki]

[text] I think right now she's better off with her siblings. I know Belle isn't handling being away from me and if you take Sam away I think she'll have a harder time. I trust Carlos to take care of her.

[text] I don't wanna be alone either. I was thinking about going to see Carlos but he doesn't want to see me.

[text] I assumed by now you'd have sworn to Shay you're done with me and tried to fix things with her. I've been waiting for the 'this is over' text

[text] Of course he doesn't want to see you. I made sure of that. Again. And now im the one causing your mental downfall, again and hurting not only my kids, but yours as well. This was a bad idea. I'm sorry.

[jt-padalecki]

(text los) becuase i left lucy and she didn’t want the girls. and sams still my step daughter and i wasn’t gonna leave her with lucy while she was a mess.

[text] understood.

@carpecarlos