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But one is a stranger, a woman she notices while she sits on a bench, gathering herself. It’s a type of woman she has never seen before, because there are no old women in Barbieland. When Barbie looks at her, she finds her beautiful and tells her so. The woman already knows. Suddenly Barbie, the fraught aspirational figure, has beheld someone she might aspire to be, and it is a radiantly content nonagenarian, reading a newspaper on a Los Angeles bench, who knows what she’s worth.

“The idea of a loving God who’s a mother, a grandmother — who looks at you and says, ‘Honey, you’re doing OK’ — is something I feel like I need and I wanted to give to other people,” Gerwig says. When it was suggested that this scene, which Gerwig calls a “transaction of grace,” might be cut for time, she remembers thinking: “If I cut that scene, I don’t know why I’m making this movie. If I don’t have that scene, I don’t know what it is or what I’ve done.”

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some little reminders i needed today <3

@lilcowgirl7 \ anaïs nin mirages: the unexpurgated diary: 1939-1947 \ jeanette winterson why be happy when you could be normal? (via @weltenwellen) \ @sunsbleeding \ dante émile it’s winter, i’m not in love yet but i’d like to be \ franz kafka the diaries of franz kafka, 1910-1913: “january 2, 1912” (via @dailykafka) \ sheryl st. germain going home: new orleans \ mary oliver dream work: “wild geese” (via @lesbianherstorian​) \ @inkskinned \ bryan washington visitor (via @typewriter-worries) \ nia vardalos tiny beautiful things (via @julykings​) \ ada limón the hurting kind: “it’s the season i often mistake” (via @firstfullmoon​) \ lev st. valentine there’s this game i play every morning (via @darkerthanerebus​) \ raymond carver rain (via @figtreeification​) \ anis mojgani songs from under the river: “here i am” (via @saintsebastiensbf​)

buy me a chai latte

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I did something terrible: can I be forgiven?

Fuck no! Hell for you my friend.

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hey (with the intention of brainwashing you into loving me forever)

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they should invent a someone that will love me if they never see me again and will love me if they see me every Tuesday

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if someone told me to come and listen to the wind blow with them i would do it. if someone told me to come and sit on their bed while they get dressed i would do it. if someone called me late at night to come and walk with them i would not hesitate and i would do it... i would do it to be there

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yeah im perceiving the horrors but i’m also perceiving the beauty of life as well

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how many people have i really fallen for?

i think at this point, maybe 3.

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i've been told that desire is torture, that it is arduous and sometimes painful.

i wanted to prove them wrong and show them that it is easy and simple. but oh they are so right.

everyday you torture me and it is a new hell.

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call me darling and i'll call you sweet

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maybe next time

i lent u a lot of things. my favourite hoodies, my sweatpants and even my favourite songs.

but the thing is, they're still mine. i still find the same joy in them, hear the same beauty, and i feel the same warmth.

maybe next time we see each other, we can feel the same things.

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[ID: Tweet by Fiona Robertson ♿️ @FionaSNP “I am loving that #DisabilityTwitter is using ‘are you helping or are you just buttering the cat’ as a phrase for ‘is this a useful accommodation.’ And a friend recommended the Tamarian ‘Jorts, his fur unbuttered’ for ‘this person’s access needs have been met.’ @JortsTheCat”]

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i am so tired. i am exhausted of taking care of myself. i am done with constantly being independent and alone and having to be strong.

i get it. im strong. im tough. im brave.

but for once can i please be weak? can someone please take care of me?

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it's just a no

i wish it was worse than this

i wish it was a heartbreaking, gut-wrenching, life-changing moment. i wanted it to make me feel like the world was ending and i was never going to recover. i wanted your no to be so impactful on my life that i would get to write an almost break up album.

but it was just a no. and then we just, moved it along. it felt so normal.

i wish it wasn't normal.

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sun showers are so pretty!