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I feel like I’m @mxflowercheck’s family, friendship is fascinating. He invited me to his graduation, I am sitting next to his mother and feel proud for him:3

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Hey so what the hell was that

I was looking into the void too much!

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before you make a major life decision you should ALWAYS make sure that you are going through something that could be described as an "episode"

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i'd like to think that daniil was adopted by a stray cat back at the capital. being a single man living in a small apartment with a balcony, he's prime real estate.

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so everyone (me and two other people) have been talking about the whole burda sculptor x painter au and i remembered about this small comic i made a few months ago

translation: [hey, can we go already?]

and a few thoughts about my vision below the cut

so paradoxically i see daniil as a person who does not understand modern art, does not respect it and doesn’t like it. i mean, in his eyes, there are a bunch of tala ted people who just ???do nothing???? with their skills and ideas. it annoys him af, because if ‘all those skills and ideas were applied on practice (i.e something that has a ‘proper utility’. miracles are supposed to work for people’s sake, they must serve us as natural resources do. so, he respects basically any artist who experiment not on the canvas, but right here, before themself. he respects architects, directors and those who try to make impact on a person or challenge their mind through the art that physically exist, those who prepare theoretical part of miracle. well, you can argue with a lot of points here. i can argue. i do not agree with him on how art utility works, there are many contradictions, and i find his approach to the art wrong. (also there are many nuances i can’t care enough to discuss it with myself (or anyone else) in this tumblr post

contrary, artemy, as a person who feels, as a person who’s lead by love and intuition, as a person who knows lines - any art that was made with a concept, with a thought, any art is special to him. he can feel this art, almost can hear what it says or that it’s silent. it speaks with him and he listens. he loves it, he finds it interesting and intriguing. art doesn’t necessarily needs a utility, miracle does not need a human nor does it have to serve humanity.

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*in the middle of a breakdown* Omg wait. this is just like the character

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My pathologic 3 irl experience is going from total apathy to literally shaking after having half of a cup of coffee. I used to drink two or three without such consequences….

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Life is a mess but Harry had it worse

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Every cow is a pathologic reference and every disco sphere is a Disco Elysium references

What I fucking LOVE about fandom? If you're delusional enough - EVERYTHING IS A REFERENCE AND EVERYTHING IS A HEADCANON

I'm looking for the cheese I need and at the same time I'm thinking what cheese does my blorbo eat

Random ass building with a familiar ornament? REFERENCE BC I SAID SO

that shirt? that's a fandom shirt right here (At least for me)

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Imaginary Kim Kitsuragi does not help to keep things up anymore, i really have to invest points in Volition or Endurance

I’d also try Electrochemistry, but I already take three prescribed drugs and caffeine every day just to keep going…

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Kim “there will be time for sitting on benches after we solve the murder” Kitsuragi sits on the swings with you for at least an hour without a single complaint, not rushing you, playing along with whatever silly conversation threads you start, waiting for you to realize on your own that the crashed motor carriage in front of you is your own. He gently leads you towards this profoundly upsetting information, the most damning evidence thus far of how completely fucked you are, just, like, as a human. Reckless, impulsive, suicidal. When you eventually piece it together, he comforts you with sincerity. This is the man who reminds you at every conversational tangent that you are on a deadline, who has to be cajoled into playing a board game with you for a couple hours. And yet he sits with you on the swings until the tide goes out, all so he can catch you when you start to fall apart.

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It’s not just anxiety, it’s the Inland Empire trying to tell me something

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in english🐱

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“Sunrise, parabellum” mutter I to myself as I am going to write my last exam

Good luck to me, I guess?

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kim kitsuragi the king of sass

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Maybe I didn’t do perfect on my math exam but Kim Kitsuragi would say it’s okay. I passed, I did what I could, and I should not be so harsh on myself for this. Even the best of us make mistakes sometimes.