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[junipers-jungle]

Ah, Ravelry.. I believe I know of it? Though maybe there’s something off with the internet here, as looking through the crochet patterns I have saved, some of them are credited to the site, but when I try and trace them back it says the content isn’t available! I wouldn’t doubt that it was because of how far out my community is.

As for why they care so much, I worry I’ve misrepresented them, I promise they aren’t trying to restrict for any bad reason, they’re like my family, truly, in a few cases they actually are! Girls like me and my friends can be affected negatively by their curiosity, and sometimes we get into things we shouldn’t, so there’s people who care about us and guide us to think about things that won’t harm us. It truly just is to keep us safe.

honestly i respect the whole "idgaf about time" attitude. time is a scam invented by communion wafer companies to stop you from eating all the gender.

I.. huh??? What??? Gender?? Communion wafer??? What the heck… and what do you mean about time? Goodness.. the people on this site continue to confuse me.. like I know most of those words on their own? Kind of, anyway, together though..

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I.. apologize, for my absence. The last time I was on here I was speaking with a very helpful individual, and though I do not understand a lot of what they’ve told me, it’s gotten me thinking, thinking about how different the world outside our little town is. It’s also gotten me to question things, about why these are things that people such as myself and Kory have been so unaware of. All in all I’ve simply been.. confused, and Father noticed, so he’s had me more involved in his work lately. Girls shouldn’t think too much after all, that is something I know well, and yet it is so much harder than usual to put everything out of my mind.

It’s disgraceful, but I’ve also been thinking about time, and if anything that makes me more confused. I just.. I don’t know.

[junipers-jungle]

You were.. worried about me? I apologize for my absence then..

Truly you and I seem to live in different worlds.. I know how badly the others in my community would react to my thinking about this, but I can’t stop myself, from thinking about the world you must have done from, where things are so different.

As for me though, I.. truly am not sure? I’m aware of other places, that there are other places anyway, but I’ve never heard of them, or been told about them. In this community we tend to stay away from the internet, however we are allowed to use it for sewing patterns and recipes, most websites are unable to be accessed as our home is rather remote and I’ve been told the connection to the internet isn’t great. My friend Kory found this one, and as you could imagine we’ve both sort of become captivated.

honestly i respect the whole "idgaf about time" attitude. time is a scam invented by communion wafer companies to stop you from eating all the gender.

I.. huh??? What??? Gender?? Communion wafer??? What the heck… and what do you mean about time? Goodness.. the people on this site continue to confuse me.. like I know most of those words on their own? Kind of, anyway, together though..

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I.. truly don’t think it is okay to think about time. I’ve been told many times before, a Woman’s place is in the present, and so, should she think on things she shouldn’t she’ll grow tired and irritable! A woman should enjoy the simple life she lives, and thinking too much about these things causes her to forget this. Often times she’ll grow anxious, finding a perverse pleasure in bothering those she should be helping, horribly too, her fertility suffers and so does her child if she is able to bear one, it’s distressing and dangerous. Though, admittedly you seem to have been raised much differently than I, so I understand you may not know these things! It may be important to remember though, I’d truly hate to see someone suffer.

Speaking of things not known, however, why is it you put those symbols in that word? F—k? I don’t quite understand, nor do I understand that little thing at the top of your blog! I believe it’s called your header though I could be wrong, the things like “she/her” and “transfeminine”. I truly do apologize for all of my questions, it’s not like me to be so curious!

honestly i respect the whole "idgaf about time" attitude. time is a scam invented by communion wafer companies to stop you from eating all the gender.

I.. huh??? What??? Gender?? Communion wafer??? What the heck… and what do you mean about time? Goodness.. the people on this site continue to confuse me.. like I know most of those words on their own? Kind of, anyway, together though..

[junipers-jungle]

I do appreciate your attempts to assist me in understanding all of this! But if I may ask a couple more questions? What is ex-catholicism or catholicism? And what about my attitude towards time evokes this ah, idgaf thing (I’ve never heard of the word, though it’s certainly not the first or last word I don’t understand)? I mean, I know it’s measured by days and such, I don’t think it’s a scam, but it truly isn’t something a woman should think about, right? I apologize if any of my questions are disrespectful or anything! I truly am trying to figure out what all of this is!

Also what’s batman?! A man who is a bat sounds terrifying

honestly i respect the whole "idgaf about time" attitude. time is a scam invented by communion wafer companies to stop you from eating all the gender.

I.. huh??? What??? Gender?? Communion wafer??? What the heck… and what do you mean about time? Goodness.. the people on this site continue to confuse me.. like I know most of those words on their own? Kind of, anyway, together though..

[junipers-jungle]

Another friend from our little town joins this enigma of a site!! Welcome Olive!! ^_^ <— this is like a face, just learned it!

what is this website

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honestly i respect the whole "idgaf about time" attitude. time is a scam invented by communion wafer companies to stop you from eating all the gender.

I.. huh??? What??? Gender?? Communion wafer??? What the heck… and what do you mean about time? Goodness.. the people on this site continue to confuse me.. like I know most of those words on their own? Kind of, anyway, together though..

[junipers-jungle]

Oh thank all that’s pure! Even if it was a herder why would they be on all fours? Either way, there’s no shame in being a bit more cautious right? Glad you’re safe hon

...of course I say that and immediately see someone off in the distance. Definitely not one of the herders, this guy looked more animal than human. Muddy hair, ragged clothes... It might've been a trick of the light, but I swear he was even running around on all fours like a beast... Like a Wolf.

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There’s people in the woods????? Since WHEN are there people in the woods?? Please come back to town! Goodness knows what he could be capable of!

...of course I say that and immediately see someone off in the distance. Definitely not one of the herders, this guy looked more animal than human. Muddy hair, ragged clothes... It might've been a trick of the light, but I swear he was even running around on all fours like a beast... Like a Wolf.

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Trust me, I get it, has your papa noticed dark circles? Mine has. He’s also noticed me looking over my shoulder a bunch, I keep having to firegaze. This stuff is really just irritating at this point.

Was walking back from the market just now and saw a gigantic Wolf pawprint by the roadside... Guess I'm in for another round of nightmares about getting mauled, huh?

[junipers-jungle]

Please be safe honey!! You’re the only person I can talk to in this town, and I care for you!

Was walking back from the market just now and saw a gigantic Wolf pawprint by the roadside... Guess I'm in for another round of nightmares about getting mauled, huh?

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At least ONE of us has been able to tear ourselves away from the house, papa’s been keeping an eye so close on me :(

Sitting in the blackthorn grove with my sketchbook or my spindles is surprisingly relaxing, still, for a place I keep dreaming is on fire.

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I really have to consider myself lucky, what with papa being a jeweler and all, we can afford so much and once a husband is found for me papa will be likely to make my choker and cuffs! If I could take pictures I would, his work is beautiful.

He had me try on one of his client’s chokers today, since she has similar measurements to me, it really was beautiful, but.. I don’t know, it didn’t seem to fit me? I mean, physically it did of course, it fit like a glove! But it stuck out so much on me, uncomfortable.. I hope I get used to it by the time I get a husband. Watching papa make the ring to go with it, I cant help but wonder how it would feel to have a ring instead, you know?

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Is it weird to almost appreciate this situation? In the times where it’s slightly calmer I realize that this has brought me and Kory closer than we’ve ever been. We’ve always been close, but now we’re inseparable at times. It’s.. nice, the one good thing that comes out of this.

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On my way, wait for me, I’ll let myself in

I dozed off again, and now it's back to just plain old nightmares. Fighting the Wolf with nothing but flowers, in the smoldering ruins of the blackthorn grove.

It didn't even cut off when the Wolf bit me this time. I felt its jaws, felt the pain, and the dream ended in a bloody mess.

I think I need to firegaze for a while and settle down.

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Kory, hon are you okay? I don’t know if you should be alone right now, I want to make sure you’re alright, especially after that one night. Firegazing tends to help I know but, you’re already a bit in your head.

I dozed off again, and now it's back to just plain old nightmares. Fighting the Wolf with nothing but flowers, in the smoldering ruins of the blackthorn grove.

It didn't even cut off when the Wolf bit me this time. I felt its jaws, felt the pain, and the dream ended in a bloody mess.

I think I need to firegaze for a while and settle down.

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I got to Kory’s place a little bit ago, she’s had so much tea, she’s barely awake at all right now, I’m worried for her.

Poor thing’s shaking and fidgeting, her face is all red and even though she’s passed out now she wouldn’t let me go more than a few feet away since I got here, right now her head is laying in my lap, poor girl :( I can barely tell which symptoms are from the bleeding sickness or which are from these dreams and how they’ve been making her feel.. I wish I could help her.