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the way the yj team encouraged Shauna to be violent has massive effects on her character. She’s forced into a violent role for so much of their time in the wilderness that it ends up becoming a coping mechanism. They all are surprised when she (who they appointed as butcher, after her best friend died while pregnant) turns to violence but they actually encouraged her behaviour.

For example: when her baby died Lottie tells Shauna to “let it all out, we need you.” And let’s Shauna beat the shit out of her. It teaches Shauna (who was already In an incredibly fragile mental state) that the way to subside her pain is to hurt others.

They unintentionally force her into this violent, gruesome role that she eventually starts to enjoy since it’s her only outlet.

in some ways I think she misses Jackie so much because Jackie was the last person to treat her like a person and not an animal. When shaunas anxious or upset Jackies first instinct is reassurance and playful teasing. Which sometimes causes the situation to become worse but also allows Shauna to relax. she isn’t offered gentle reassurance or companionship after Jackie dies. The closest she gets it’s taissa, who was struggling with her own problems, but ends up inadvertently making Shauna feel alone and scared.

They expect her to carry out all these gruesome acts (butchering Javi, Attempting to Kill Nat during the first hunt, etc.) and don’t stop to wonder how this effects her because she DOES end up enjoying it.

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i don’t think jackie would have immediately forgiven shauna unless she was specifically woken from her death dream by shauna. if it doesn’t snow and she wakes up the next morning alone, she feels humiliated and disempowered. her control over shauna is the only thing she has left (jackie clinging to their friendship, jackie terrified that shauna was abandoning her, jackie holding shauna’s infidelity over her head) and even that left her. without love, without reputation, without control, what does jackie have? nothing, so she must be nothing then. if she’s nothing, there’s no part of her that’s salvageable. shauna can’t cure her suicidality, and if she does try, her efforts will prove lackluster. if shauna doesn’t deem her worth saving, why should jackie try to save herself? shauna sees the worst of her insecurities and her flaws so surely she’d be right if she deemed jackie a lost cause. and if somebody else brings jackie inside? she’s so beyond hurt that it wasn’t shauna, that her best friend apparently gave up the title and the obligations that come with it without letting her know. it’s another way jackie’s been replaced. she’s not the captain guiding her team through rough circumstances. she’s allie, cut from the heart of the team without exiting the team’s formation. she’s a dead spot which everyone knows, including shauna. a liability, a person to play around without meaningfully addressing. shauna wants to feel powerful, and while she ultimately feels disempowered by the loss of jackie and the identity she’s created around her, she isn’t aware of herself enough to recognize that. shauna assumes she’ll feel powerful if she feels like jackie. if there’s already a jackie, shauna can’t adopt that role so she’s still striving to feel powerful specifically by dominating jackie. her identity, her previous role in the group, the life she thinks jackie would have had simply because it’s the life shauna had. shauna is trying to find her identity outside of jackie which is impossible for her because of how formative jackie is to her adolescence. shauna didn’t stop trying to do that when jackie died so she definitely isn’t going to do that if jackie lives. jackie doesn’t really have a backbone, but she does commit herself to her image. if jackie lives, i think the image she commits herself to for a good while is one where she doesn’t need shauna. she’s better than ever, even if that’s not quite true.

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i think fiction should be abolished. if yo uwrite about a character dying you should be put on trial in real life for murder

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Today I saw a pic of a baby cowbird next 2 its nest "parent" and it was so much bigger!!!!! Which is the sort of thing that gets normal people upset about the injustice of nest parasitism but makes *me* worry if baby cowbirds get bird dysmorphia

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no animal was harmed during the making of this video. not one. for the few minutes that we were shooting film, the guns of each hunter fell silent. the industrial bolt throwers observed a moment's peace and the jaws of every predator hung softly open. no fish bit any hook and the bait worms held off on drowning only until the cameras stopped. the tails of ruminants ceased to flick just as their attendant flies, in unison, landed on their flanks to catch their tiny breaths. a spider instantly stopped winding silk around a wasp, patiently waiting for the caesura to end. a young veterinarian paused with the syringe in their hand. somewhere, a colicky baby stopped biting its mother's nipple and nursed happily for the very first time. we're sorry. we're sorry it couldn't have been longer. we didn't know this would happen.

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i feel strongly about this

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big day for tumblr sexyman enjoyers and weird fags everywhere

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celestia meets jesus on accident

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Spent tonight at a local short film festival. One of the shorts was made by two 12 year olds in their backyard and it was the best short of the entire night

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Shauna so badly needed someone to understand the pain she went through, to share it with her, to be able to grasp what she endured for the sake of the group. But when the moment finally came, Shauna still held back, shielding Nat from the full weight of it, even though no one had ever done the same for her.

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a phrase that kinda bothers me when talking about women's historical roles in europe is "cooking, cleaning, and taking care of the children." you hear it so often, those exact words in the same order even. and once you learn a little more you realize that the massive gaping hole in that list is fiberwork. im not an expert and have no hard numbers, but i wouldnt be surprised if fiberwork took up nearly as much time as the other three tasks combined, so it's not a trivial omission.

it's not a hot take to say that the mass amnesia about fiberwork is linked to the belittlement of women's work in geneal, but i do think there's a special kind of illusion that is cast by "cooking, cleaning, and taking care of the children." you hear that and think "well i cook and clean and take care of children (or i know someone who does) and i have a sense of how much work that is" and you know of course that cooking and cleaning were more laborious before modern technology, but still, you have a ballpark estimate you think, when in fact you are drastically underestimating the work load.

i also think that this just micharacterizes the role of women's work in livelihoods? cooking, cleaning, and taking care of the children are all sisyphean tasks that have to be repeated the next day. these are important, but not the whole picture. when we include all kinds of fiberwork—and other things, such as making candles or soap—women's work looks much more like manufacturing, a sphere we now associate more with men's work. i feel like women's connection to making and craftsmanship is often elided.

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If i was a gay male whenever my girl friends come down the stairs in a gown id say oh my goddess in the softest voice you can imagine and itll light up their day and make all of us squee but im a woman whos attracted to women so ill just build them a chair or whatever im supposed to do. #BUTCHES WHO SQUEE

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Tumblr is the reason why I have something I call the cashier test which is, if i told this to a random cashier at the grocery store, would they think you're crazy at best or at worst would they be warranted in leaping over the counter and beating the shit out of you. Karl Marx mpreg is crazy, but not beating the shit out of you crazy. The cashier will probably talk about you to their coworkers and it might even make their day. Telling someone they're complicit in their own oppression by working a minimum wage job at a grocery store makes them warranted in leaping over the counter to beat the shit out of you.

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I know that HRT gives you secondary sex characteristics in one direction or another, but we HAVE to stop telling nonbinary people that they “can’t pick and choose.” Of course, you can’t tell your testosterone that you’d rather not grow chest hair, but there are things you can do!

You could go on T so your voice drops and start shaving so you don’t grow a beard. You could start HRT and then stop once you get the permanent changes you like. You can pursue sterilization instead of bottom surgery. You can get top surgery without being on T. You can go on E and work out a bunch to bulk out your muscles. You can pursue laser hair removal or electrolysis to remove unwanted hair, with or without HRT. You could even just start hormones to see if you like it and then stop if it isn’t to your taste.

Obviously, you can’t order secondary sex characteristics a la carte, but we have to stop being so awful to nonbinary people. We should discuss the options we have, not shut down the conversation with “that’s what you get.”

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late 90s 01/02 on our backs magazine covers from bishopsgate institute archives. | originally posted by on your.knees on instagram.

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y'all it's about to get really fucking humid and hot