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ive discovered something recently, i never really miss people because i never get close enough to miss them. i never feel comfortable enough around people to act like myself, as i feel like others wouldnt like the real me. i have taken risks before by acting like myself and communicating more clearly, and others actually liked me and it was wild. idk if this is really something you can give advice on but yeah, im working on it. its slow but i am :)

also no i havent been diagnosed with anything but my audhd friend thinks im autistic lmao

I'm glad it's going well for you, kiddo! Learning to let yourself breathe and be yourself can be incredibly difficult but I am so proud of you for managing to do it. Little steps is all you need to take, and soon you won't even be able to see your starting point since you've came so far.

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Thank you. You're a lot more deserving of the title "dad" than mine is

I just screamed at the top of my lungs from this /vpos

thank you, kiddo! I wanna be here for you in anyway I can!

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i don’t like myself.

i hate this body.

Sometimes bodies don't match how we feel or look internally.. and it sucks.. it can feel suffocating and trapping and horrible. And while you can't completely change your body, you can learn to tolerate it. You don't have to fully love your body, but tolerating it can make it a lot easier.

I think you're a wonderful person, kiddo.

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I wish my parents would believe me even once when I say something without needing to yell or scream or shout or argue or have the entirety of the internet and Google being on my side before I'm even allowed the possibility of being right. I don't think my father especially will ever understand the reason I left, despite being the cause. I just wish I could've been me and not the fake mask of happiness and joy I wore because I was scared of what others would do upon seeing me unhappy if my own parents reactions were so negative... I just wish I felt safer to just hug someone and cry and sob without having to hide myself to any degree at all...

Sometimes the people who are supposed to raise and take care of you fail.. and it isn't your fault. You did absolutely nothing wrong, you were a child. It is not your responsibility to appeal to your parents because your parents should love you even if you don't follow in their exact foot steps.

Kiddo, you deserve to be able to take off that mask and actually breathe fresh air. You deserve to be able to relax and to be heard.

I'm here if you need me. I'll be here for you.

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ppoke,,?

heya kiddo!

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i’m so fucking tired of being tossed aside.

to be just there.

to be just the fucking service animal.

i’m so tired of not knowing who or what i am 90% of the time.

i’m tired of dealing with humanity.

i’m tired of not being appreciated.

i’m tired of being the bad dog.

all i’ve ever wanted was love.

oh kiddo...

you're not a bad dog. you're absolutely amazing and I'm so proud of you.

It's okay to not know things. You never are obligated to figure out everything. Everyone is so complex and intricate, it's impossible to know everything.

You don't deserve to be tossed aside. You are not a piece of trash, you are wonderful and amazing and more people should know.

I love you kiddo. /fam /p

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"I will be your anchor. I will help you stay grounded and be the one you can lean on for support."

Heya kiddos! Welcome to my positivity blog! I'll pop in to post or reblog some positivity for y'all! I may even post a few (dad) jokes! This blog is open for vents, rambles, screamings, or whatever to be sent in!

Don't be afraid to call me dad, father, whatever! /nf

I just want to make life a little more bearable, anyway I can! You kiddos are all so wonderful and amazing, and I want to see how each and every one of you grow.

(Main blog is @bites-and-crunches)

"I'm proud of you all. Let yourself rest. Let yourself be loved."