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Made a little felt hat for my little Kieran! Also featuring my first try that I blindly made without measuring and it was way too big lol

It was a fun little thing to craft and I think it would be a neat little optional add on for the plushies when I can renew the listing soon as the merch comes in :3

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I dunno why but I swear I always notice these things when I'm at work and multitasking

But this dialog moment gosh

Tell me this man isn't autistic with how he absolutely missed that social queue and just goes "it looks like you're reading :D"

Then gets quieter after catching on like he's so me

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I am once more running around excitedly as merch is on the way to me!!!

Plushies restock plus some Sean keychains but hopefully my note for the design went through and it's as I intended guhh

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Got a video on my feed of the Kieran interaction when Jack is throwing rock at him when brushing the horses and YOU CAN HEAR HIM REGULATING HIS BREATHS TO CONTROL HIS ANGER AND AT MOST JUST WAVING HIS BRUSH AT JACK

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A clip from last stream because I thought it was funny after the fact

But on my second run and now knowing everything, it's on sight with Micah

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Tism moment when a random person joins my stream and tries to sell me on commissioning them for a banner or something and the whole time I'm doing a Kieran mission and going "my wife!!! <3 <3 <3 oh right huh? I missed your message- oh no I'm okay- KIERAN!!!"

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Remember when I said I'd stream at a normal time one my days off?

So anyway, stream at 11pm because why not

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hey so yall know that “kieran doesnt die” au ive been writing. um. i drew him.

more notes about this design below the cut :3 tw for eye trauma n torture.

-first off branwens only there bc i was trying to figure out how to draw horses & fill up space… so say hi branwen. he is like. the reason why kieran doesnt end up dying in this au. so he deserves to be here.

-surviving that whole ordeal messed him up pretty bad, physically and mentally. however, being so defensive about his blind side and determined to prove himself caused him to be more active i think. hes still that nervous stableboy for the van der lindes, but he doesnt shy from volunteering to go fishing/hunting with someone or joining jobs. hates using his blindness to gather pity pennies but hey, nobody is gonna suspect the obviously blind dude is working with criminals like the notorious van der linde gang.

-he also gets a little healthier. the rest he got while healing did wonders for him, he hasnt had a days rest since. well before the o’driscolls picked him up, probably. now hes a little less skinny, a little less greasy, and a little more alive <3 the only non-healthy habit he picks up is he does smoke more often than he already did. his nerves are all over the place. Especially when he’s on the edge of camp or out on the trail with someone.

-kieran’s left eye is completely gone. his eyelids and corners on both eyes are scarred up as well, since the o’driscoll who took it gouged em with his thumb. he wasn’t able to get past heavily scarring the right eye, so kieran gets to keep that eye.

-although he keeps his right eye, that doesnt mean its any good. HEAVY corneal scarring and ocular trauma, paired neatly with a small infection, means he’s permanently partially blind in that eye. he can see figures (silhouettes against light) and its all very blurry, but he can Technically still see enough to do his job and a little more. hes extremely photosensitive and it cost him his color perception for the most part in his remaining eye.

-because he’s so photosensitive, the hat kinda needs to stay on anytime hes outdoors. trelawny and mary-beth steal him tinted glasses from saint denis but he doesnt like them very much. the feel of anything, including glasses, so close to his eyes freaks him out. especially bc the lens bridge sits on some scarring on the inner corner. the corneal scars sorta make it feel like hes got something in his eye like all the time. bro cant get a moments peace LMAO.

-the left eye is usually bandaged up. getting any foreign material in the socket is Bad and hes like working with animals. literally brushing fur into the air like nine hours a day. so most of the time hes got that covered and he doesnt like it but. its necessary.

-arthur brought him the cane after remembering seeing blind man cassidy with one. was up in cumberland forest exploring anyway, saw a person sized stick and was like “ok this might work.” left it with mary-beth because he didnt want it to become a Thing that hes gone soft or whatever if that makes sense. its a bit large, but kieran doesnt mind bc he can kinda lean on it if he needs to or get a good sense of how far an object is from him. depth perception was also a little skewed.

-speakin of mary-beth, the new necktie is a little gift from her :3 yall might recognize it from the cut outfit

-kieran wrapped the cane up because he was getting splinters from it which was Annoying. he takes his knife and sharpens it or smooths it out as needed sometimes. out of boredom or necessity (the soft ground in shady belle and lakay are. decidedly. not great if you already are tripping over everything)

-the little notch at the top is great for hangin up lanterns. which tends to hurt his eye and gives him migraines bc its so close to his face, but it can be useful for holding the light out and seeing figures in the dark that hes lookin out for. or showing others where he is in the dark.

-i just didnt wanna draw his holster, but he can still shoot and ride horses. branwens a good companion :3. as for shooting, he just kinda shoots at figures and uses audio clues for where to aim and fire. hes better with his revolver than anything else, but give him a low sniper position with a high accuracy firearm like the carcano and he could probably get some kills.

-as for riding horses, hes been doin that for years. he just gives branwen cues to stay with other horses or on certain trails, or he can tie the reins to someone elses saddle (but he doesnt like doing this)

i have more thoughts so PLEEEASSEEE ask about it if you have questions or thoughts but these r just like some of the big ones that have to do with his actual design ❤️

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Reblog to give prev the power to write their fanfiction

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First time drawing Mary-Beth, so as always, chatacter study time :3

Finally drawing her so I can draw a comic idea I've had in my head for a while lol

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"I will draw!" I say as I do half a sketch then go off and bake a pizza and fries then take silly pictures and videos of my pigeon

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i went to draw angst and ended up drawing comfort art sighhh

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do these resonate with any of you

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As much as I love Kieran and always will, I wanna expand my merch to other rdr characters that don't get much attention or merch too

I'm already throwing Sean in there with upcoming stuff but now I'm wondering whomst else to add

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He's tired, let that man sleep!!!

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Chat it's his first time drawing what do we think

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my little squidward