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#spitdat doc action! @spitdatdc @Brokeballer
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#NaPoMo 5/30 "He's Always Been God"
I have been thinking about my father a lot lately. This is an old unfinished poem with new additions. I miss my father. This is an unedited version. Poets feel free to give feedback.
my daddy
Had a judas scent
Love and betrayal
Dancing from his pores
Assisted my intoxicated
Stumble
Carrying a cross
For his glory
Bled for his attention
Wore a crown of insecurities
And let my innocence
whip my ability to hate him
My daddy
Has always been God
somewhere
between pain and pride
perhaps he lost
his admiration for the sky
choose to live
an ordinary life
afraid
to be a God of mistakes
i should've told him
it was okay
his tears were never ignored espcially those
that fell behind closed doors
felt his core
In the palm of his hand
couldn't understand
why he left
and didn't choose me
but now i know
he could handle
his own disbelief
mine
would've just proven his defeat
he has always been God
Just needed him to know
I never lost my faith
showing him the holes in my hands became redundant
in retrospect my reluctance
was human
His doubts divine
daddy has always been God
Just never understood
why he kept
sending me back to calvary
until now
it was never for humanity
it was always for him
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3/30 #NaPoMo "I woke up like this"
At first,
She was volatile
A ball of triggers
Surrounded
By set trippin’ mirrors
Gang banging reflections
Stainless Steel, crip walking across
Glimmers of hope .
Long sleeves
And hidden scars
In summer
Bridges
And eyes gazing
Into the Potomac
Somebody prayed for her
Had her on their mind
Eventually
She realized
No matter
How much she tried
Pill bottles emptied
Drunk drives
At midnight
With an appetite
For concrete walls
She wouldn’t die
Somebody prayed for her
Had her on their mind
How else
Can you explain
Her now
Had to be God
She is so Job
I bet God
Was talking shit
on her behalf
Told Satan
To go ahead
She’ll still
Love me
And credit me
For smiles
That come natural
I bet
she’ll tell the world
Wearing short sleeves
Showing scars
To all of the Thomas’
Of the world
That don’t believe
I bet she’ll
Be substance
Evidence of things
Unseen
At first,
She was volatile
A ball of triggers
Surrounded
By set trippin’ mirrors
Now, She is me.
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2/30 #NaPoMo "Dear Daddy"
Dear Daddy,
I miss you.
The way
Jesus
Misses God.
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I am human. And beautiful. My heartbeat is the answer To all. I am powerful. And great. And patient. And ready. #GoodMorning #LoveOnSomebodyToday #SmileAtaStranger #JustMaryBowman #JMBsings
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#Philly Valentine Behavior... don't really want to leave. :-(
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At a meeting physically but mentally I am somewhere else... Here's a poem. Watch me crumble And dance Be bop your way Into facades Tell them You love me Grab me By my hand And spin me Into illusions Of grandeur Show them we're Fine And tell Me To believe it Smile While i crumble Be glad Your deciet Is exquisite and quite On time After all We're Performers On the stage Of insecurities And inability The show Must never Stop Like My insides Watch me crumble And call yourself Noble Hold Your head High No point In chins Down trodden Watch me Cumble Call it Picasso In the midst Of the "norm" Tell them You are A collector Of abstract art And Pain Just watch Me crumble And know That I dont mind For now At least. . .
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I remember a few years ago, the extent of my self care when asked by my therapist was my morning shower and teeth brushing. Now look at me, taking my meds regularly n sh_t! Making doctors appointments and keeping them. Meditating and working out... im even working on my diet. #HIVPositive #SelfCare #TreatmentIsPrevention #MyGirlFriendTakingMeToThePoconosWhenMyViralLoadUndetectable #MyGirlFriendIsBetterThanYours lol
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#NBHAAD National Black #HIV #AIDS Awareness Day S/O to my @realtalkdc_ fam! Free testing and you can win something special by getting tested.
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#ThingsIamBecomingAccustomedTo #Style #YouCantAffordToWalkInMyShoes #IpaidTooMuchForTheJourney #FuckWithMeYouKnowIgotIt
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#GoodMorning #Inspiration #IwokeUpLikeThis #LoveOnSomebodyToday #SmileAtaStranger #TheDayIsAsAwesomeAsYouMakeIt
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Snack time #HealthyEating changing my lifestyle.
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#ReadingIsFundamental #SupportTheArtist @yayabeybay
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Do it. If it was your mama you'd call.
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#Selfie at the drs office. This year is about wholistic health for me. Mind, body, and spirit. I love my new dr! He was stuck with an infected needle and had to take HIV meds for about a month and he said it has given him a special insight into what he was asking his patients to do. I appreciate a dr who isn't just trying to get a paycheck. He is about what ever is best for the patient. And he gave me prescription discount cards! Wooot wooot! Take care if yourselves people!
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