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[kahnia18]

EX BESTFRIEND

Dear ex bestfriend you were my only friend I loved you more than I should have at one point in my life.

You were there when I needed you.

And I was there for you.

Everything is different now I’ve grown,

I’ve changed. Im not the same person you remember a year ago or two.

I hit rock bottom where I had to put myself back together.

Nothing I can do to make up for the shit I’ve said or done to you I loved you.

I still love you from a distance.

Being friends with you at the time wasn’t good for me or you.

You were trying to learn to love yourself while with a guy who would end up being your person for life.

But I’m glad you met him you’re happy now.

Don’t be sad I won’t be there at the wedding just know I’m happy for you.

All I have ever wanted for you was to be happy.

From - sunshine

8-9-2022

[kahnia18]

GREEN DRAGON 🐉 ✨🖤

She came without a warning.

Who would have known she could make feel something again.

She has these gorgeous eyes that I can stare at forevers.

I don’t think this DRAGON 🐉 knows how beautiful she is….

Her scales are this emerald GREEN.

Her eyes are GREEN as well.

I remind the GREEN DRAGON 🐉 of how beautiful she is everyday.

Sometimes I don’t like how some people stare at the DRAGON 🐉 because I know they aren’t admiring.

The DRAGON has some battle scars that she is still healing from I hope she knows that I will be here for her.

Sometimes the strongest DRAGONS 🐉 need help.

GREEN DRAGON🐉🖤✨

-K .Herrera

June 28, 2022

[kahnia18]

100 LETTERS

Thank you for being a great and horrible chapter in my life.

Thank you for teaching me how to love someone and that my partner needs reassurance.

You taught me to never jump to fast in a relationship till I know what my partner wants out of it. I was ready to give you everything. I was ready to marry you, get a place with you have kids with you and adopt your brother and sister for you.

It’s been a little bit over year since we’ve talked and broken up, I still look back on our relationship and all the things I should’ve done throughout our relationship.

I should’ve treated you better. I was too young to know any better you were my first ever girl friend. Everything was new to me and to you too.

I know my parents were part of the problem I apologize for them.

You wrote me letters but never gave them to me because you were scared that I would have known how you felt about me cause you were scared to open up to me.

So this is my letter to you.

Maybe one day we will pass each others galaxies. I wish nothing but the best for you.

I will always love our chapter it made me grow into a better person, a better partner in a relationship.

100 LETTERS

By - KAHNIA .H

9-3-21

[kahnia18]

✨! COLOR BLIND!✨

Everything is BLUE,

Her AURA, Her car.

The COLOR of Her rims were BLACK with GOLD chips inside.

The GOLD chips would SPARKLE ✨ like Her BROWN EYES in the SUNSHINE.☀️

I’m waking up every morning and it’s not with you.

I wish I was COLOR BLIND because every time I’m out I’m always finding myself searching for your BLUE car.🚙

You were BLUE and you liked me because I was RED. You touched me and realized that PURPLE wasn’t for you.

All I wanted was you.

I wish I was COLOR BLIND so I can’t see your car anymore.

Everything is BLUE.

✨! COLOR BLIND ! ✨

By. K .Herrera

6-23-2021

[kahnia18]

DO YOU THINK OF ME ?

I hope he treats you well.... better than I ever did.

Do you think of me? while you're with him doing the things we used to do.

Do you think of me? of me when you're on the phone with him?

Do you think of me? when he's laying in your bed where I used to be.

Because I think of you while I'm trying to move on, trying to let go forget you like how you forgot me.

Now here you are in my mind ruining ever single happiness I get because I still love you but I also hate you,

Because my heart can't let you go.

Your roots grew so deep where I can't reach them to cut them out, If you don't cut weeds right they always seem to grow back.

Seeing you do the things we planned together you're doing with him.

Your weeds are killing me.

DO YOU THINK OF ME?

3-30-2021

BY - K . HERRERA

[kahnia18]

STOP LIGHTS....

Every stop lights reminds me of you because I used to steal a kiss from you.

I couldn’t get over your lips......

It’s been 6 months and it’s 5 in the morning and you’re still going through my head.

If only I could explain myself why I broke things off. 

I still ask myself why the hell did I do that.

we used to stay on the phone every night, now I can’t even call you *this phone number is no longer in service.*

“Hows baby? I bet she has got bigger since the last time I’ve seen her.”

Now we are acting like strangers after all the  things we have been through.

I wish we fought through our situation.

It’s hard to move I’ve tried but I can’t because Im still in love with you.

STOP LIGHTS......

BY- KAHNIA .H

1-23-21

[kahnia18]

💫🪐💔BEYOND INFINITY🪐💫💔

We used to stay up on the phone so late and it slowly moved to us falling asleep on the phone with each other, waking up that morning still on the phone.

We didn’t even know how hard we fell for each other until the words rolled off our tongues “I LOVE YOU.”

You were “MY HONEY/ WORLD”.

And I was your “SUNSHINE”.

And then who ever said---- “I LOVE YOU MORE , I LOVE YOU MOST,  BEYOND INFINITY, BEYOND THE GALACXIES, BEYOND THE LIGHT YEARS AND NO TAKE BACKIES.” First meant the they loved the other one more.

Maybe right person wrong time was us.

I still love you and I am truly sorry for everything.

Hopefully we will cross each others GALAXIES again someday or another life time.

BEYOND INFINITY

BY- KAHNIA HERRERA.

[kahnia18]

THIS IS NOT AN APOLOGY. (ALAURA)

With you I was at my happpiest, I Thought I fell in love before but when I was with you I knew I was in love for the first time.

I thought I could be everything you needed but I couldn’t.

You hurt me not phyiscally but mentally.

*Gives 20 bucks to homeless guy*

A- “I don’t want to hear you say you don’t have any money later.”

*works a 9hr shift*

A- “hey babe come over.”

*Comes over just to watch movies with you and your cousin.*

*Dozes off from working a 9hr shift*

*Hears in my sleep*

A- “I didn’t know she was going to come over just to sleep.”

I don’t think you know how bad you mentally hurt me.

I was blinded by the love I had for you and the love I still have for you.

I couldn’t ever hangout with my guy friends because you think something would happen between us.

I couldn’t be friends with sierra cause you thought she liked me but she wanted to get to know you and she supported our relationship. But you told me to stop talking to her.

And I did for you!!!

What hurt the most was that you didn’t fight for us, like you wanted me to leave.

You never said sorry for the things you did.

I was always the one to apologize.

I am thanking you because I will never let anyone treat me like that again.

I know my worth.

Hopefully one day you will see that the things you do and say are toxic, And learn to trust your future partner not everyone is the same you shouldn’t bring bad stuff from your past relationship into your new relationship with someone else.

I’m wishing nothing but greatness for you i hope you learn and grow into a better person.

THIS IS NOT AN APOLOGY.

BY- K. HERRERA

12-26-20

[kahnia18]

FAKING IT!

I was never faking until the memories flooded my mind of you with her.

Seemed like you liked her more than me, you were so quick to do it with her.

I don’t think you ever loved me.

I did at one point but anymore.

The memories of you and her haunt my brain,

it put me through pain.

Everytime i look at you I just tink about you and her together.

I don’t think I can’t ever love you like i once did.

I will always care for you but nothing more.

You put in more effort with her than you did with me and you said you didn’t love her.

FAKING IT!!!!

BY- K. HERRERA

12-24-20

[kahnia18]

JUST A MOMENT.💔😗

We had A MOMENT.

Your face was so close to mine, I wanted to kiss you but its never the right time.

I know I’m not in love with you, But that MOMENT just brought up all my old feelings for you.

I wanted that MOMENT to last forever.

I wish something happened instead of us laughing acting like nothing happened at all.

Like if it was all in my head.

I know you felt what I felt.

I wish you told me what you were feeling or what you were thinking.

It’s always mixed signals with you.

I want to know what you were thinking when we were laying in your bed and when you had your hands all over me..

I believe you want me but only.....ONLY!!!! when you feel like it.

It was JUST A MOMENT, That meant totally nothing to you.

I couldn’t bare to look at you for what just happened...

Because I don’t know what just happened for those 30 min in your bed.

In that moment I knew I wasn’t totally over you.

JUST A MOMENT.

BY- KAHNIA . HERRERA 

[kahnia18]

KISS KISS!

This kiss is something I can’t miss.

You kissed me?

Why? I have no clue but I’m dying to know why!!

“I can make you feel better with a kiss” you said.

Me thinking you were joking.

You came in close without a warning!!!!!

I closed my eyes and smiled because you kissed me on my cheeks it was cute, you came in closer and kissed me on the lips.

This kiss was one to remember.

Your lips were so soft.

Never knew our first kiss would be that night.

I loved the kiss it was sweet,

Not only did it make me feel better but also confused.

It’s just a kiss right?

Moments like that are supposed to special.

Wish it was me who kissed you not you kissing me, but I was okay with it.

That kiss still plays in my head about 5 times a day.

Kisses mean a lot to me especially if you’re my best-friend my moment will be my moment.

Just because I told you not to kiss me again doesn't mean I won’t kiss you again.

Our kiss is something I won’t forget and it won’t be our last.

KISS KISS 

BY -KAHNIA HERRERA

10-22-20

[kahnia18]

I HOPE!

I HOPE she cheats like you did to me.

I HOPE when you kiss her, you think of me.

I HOPE when you kiss him, you think of me. 

Why do yall have to be so heartless. 

I HOPE he cheats.

The hardest part is letting yall go.

Momma told me to watch out for people like yall.

But my heart is still reaching out to catch yours,

But all your heart did is ripped mine into two.

Why I can’t I start over with someone new.

It’s not the fact you like her it’s the fact you broke our promise to wait for each other.

Stop making promises you can’t keep!

I wish I can un-love you and him.

I can’t start over with someone new when planned our whole future together.

I wish I could love myself as much as you loved me.

I need to stop wasting all these tears on you, they’re not going to bring you back.

I asked momma if you could die from a broken heart.

I loved you both so much.

How do yall sleep at night knowing how I feel.

I shouldn’t feel bad for kissing other people.

How else am I supposed to get over yall.

I wish I never met yall.

I’m better off on my own.

I know you’re kiss him right now.

And I know you’re kissing her right now.

Yall can kiss my ass.

I HOPE.

BY - KAHNIA HERRERA.

10-13-20

[kahnia18]

NEVER MET!

I think about you all the time,

Even when you left.

I wish I never responded to all those text.

I think it would be better if we never met.

I used to miss the song we used to sing to,

But now I hear it on the radio and I hate every word to the song.

Sometimes I wish we never met.

You’re still the one I’ll be after.

It sounds like you’re happy with out me...

I look at my phone waiting for the call saying you miss me.

But I sit here never receive a call or text.

This is how I know its really over.

I WISH WE NEVER MET.

NEVER MET.

BY- KAHNIA .H

9-19-20

[kahnia18]

HER. Vol.3

With HER I was HAPPY.....

For a minute I was getting BETTER,

For a minute I had HOPE, 

But in a minute I lost HER all over again.

HER.

Who would have known HER love was addicting.

And for HER I’m never going to stop loving HER nor lose feelings for.

I lost myself trying to please you, And now I lost you by trying to find myself.

She will always be the love of my life even if we aren't together.

HER, Vol.3

BY. KAHNIA .H

8/31/20

[kahnia18]

TONIGHT IM GETTING OVER YOU!!

Tonight I’m getting over all the promises you told me.

Tonight I’m getting over the way you made feel,

The way you touched me, The way you looked at me.

TONIGHT IM GETTTING OVER YOU.

Tonight I’m getting over the permanent smile locked in my head.

Tonight i need to get over all of you.

Tonight I’m getting over all the memories we had.

TONIGHT IME GETTING OVER YOU.

[kahnia18]

AS I WATCH HER🥺💜✨

As I sit in front of her I can’t help but stare,

I notice everything she does her facial expression, the way she talks, the tone in her voice.

There’s just something about this beautiful girl I can’t get over.

Am I in love with her ? If I am then I’ve never felt this feeling before and I like it.

I love looking at her I love her eyes the way they sparkle as she looks back at me.

I want to marry her I love her.

As I watch her get dressed in the morning is my favorite.

As I watch her I love when she crinkles her nose at me and then smile.

As I watch her🥺💜✨

[kahnia18]

DEAR LARISSA

You were my babes, my bestfriend.

We had our ups and downs but who doesn’t.

I wish the best for you I love you.

And I hope you get everything you want.

And I can’t wait for you to achieve your goals.

I’m sorry for making you feel less about yourself that was never my attention.

I wanted you to make you strong so when time came for us to part ways you could handle yourself.

I know you don’t like me right now but just know I love you and still care for you.

Ps. you will forever be my goofball

DEAR LARISSA

BY-KAHNIA .H