kaiju420

[kaiju420]

one day postcanon, lan xichen is offered a miracle: he can bring exactly one dead person of his choice back to life.

upon resurrection, the chosen person will be restored to the height of their physical power and wellbeing, after which they will be able to live and die as a normal human being. if this person was a cultivator, they will be resurrected as a cultivator; if this person was a non-cultivator; they will be resurrected as a non-cultivator. the chosen person's soul will also not be negatively impacted by this resurrection at all, and will be able to enter the cycle of reincarnation normally upon their second death. resurrection itself will not bring any harm to any third-party individuals.

[kaiju420]

i really Really love how clearly this fic defines their prior relationship before going at it with a sledgehammer

srsly, astolat had some incredible wincest too. if ur not destroying something where's the fun of it all.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/25814

missing persons reading thread(long post?)

(lol passage posting post?)

....why are all my ships the same.

i understand. qijiu need to be blood-related.

i Would search for lingxi caves tag but parched in middle of pacific ocean-ass situation.

if i see them acting weird again /sj feminization i will deactivate my account.

... everything isn't qijiu.

but like. damn. 2013-ish first time. hm.

stg i haven't read this in at least 5 yrs. but yep; shroedinger~~

[kaiju420]

kinda wish i was in the mindspace where i could make those kinda goreposts-ish stuff it'd feel good at least fuck.

fuckkkkk. missing persons i'm sry i've been neglecting u lyk this, i wanna see don fuck his brother, shake it the fuck off.

u know if u pay attention. idk the kind of lives other people lead so i can't speak too authoritatively on that but mine at least there's a lot of stuff u'll see that makes u realise living for other people is shit.

i want to do this thing and i think it'll be useful 2 me. i can't care 2 much abt them bc we do lead v. diff lives. okay. um. fic. i shld read fic lololol. haa. *finger guns* man this is such bull & i can't even tell j cos they'll have a very impractical sort of rn.

feel kinda bad that i get to see his posts and they don't get to see mine tho. but what can you do~

[kaiju420]

this site is such . okay not that bad but why no mute fn. why only scroll fn.

... i dont Want to make a fucking alt.

u know if u pay attention. idk the kind of lives other people lead so i can't speak too authoritatively on that but mine at least there's a lot of stuff u'll see that makes u realise living for other people is shit.

i want to do this thing and i think it'll be useful 2 me. i can't care 2 much abt them bc we do lead v. diff lives. okay. um. fic. i shld read fic lololol. haa. *finger guns* man this is such bull & i can't even tell j cos they'll have a very impractical sort of rn.

feel kinda bad that i get to see his posts and they don't get to see mine tho. but what can you do~

[kaiju420]

u know if u pay attention. idk the kind of lives other people lead so i can't speak too authoritatively on that but mine at least there's a lot of stuff u'll see that makes u realise living for other people is shit.

i want to do this thing and i think it'll be useful 2 me. i can't care 2 much abt them bc we do lead v. diff lives. okay. um. fic. i shld read fic lololol. haa. *finger guns* man this is such bull & i can't even tell j cos they'll have a very impractical sort of rn.

feel kinda bad that i get to see his posts and they don't get to see mine tho. but what can you do~

[kaiju420]

oh yeah!!! the other thing has been progressing well!!!

ah i really don't want it to inadvertantly help her but i will bring it up. whether or not~~ there is any understanding~~ there is My vent~~

oooh i can do smth rn. i am nyot a saint and i dont actually want 2 be, also the church is bullshit actually so im snapping out of this now, every sec spent thinking abt her is a sec wasted.

v will do thing and obtain blessed relief. yay~~~

no. His bullshit i will find a way. motherfucker one way or another i will deal with you.

Her bullshittery has had be reacting but in an overly honest upright manner. why. principles dont work with certain people.

i cant keep losing ny shit tho. so a vent is also necessary. dont want it 2 be someyhing that makes Me feel bad. so it's going to be smthn irrational that she shldnt've been being a dick abt in first place.

lets see. what Can i do.

[kaiju420]

sksksksk. this is very childish, very bullshit but it Would upset her if it worked. even if it didn't, i would be satisfied by attempt i think.

lol she's the person who's always had me fucking scheming if she dropped dead it would be such a relief. but anyway.

i will deal with motherfucker. anyway not fucking shielding him of all things. would be useful confirmatory test as well abt a couple other things. Yep~~

v r anyway nyot planning on certain shit anymore so it Does leave other options available when dislike can shine bright and true.

4now while we can we will use what we can. whatever else will come will come. que sera sera sksksksk.

oop! v can~ also~ do that~ make it a priority~ dont let manners of all things stop u~.

aigoo exercising ur autonony feels so good. still. missing persons beautiful fic. i miss it. will read. also some of Task. yay~~

no. His bullshit i will find a way. motherfucker one way or another i will deal with you.

Her bullshittery has had be reacting but in an overly honest upright manner. why. principles dont work with certain people.

i cant keep losing ny shit tho. so a vent is also necessary. dont want it 2 be someyhing that makes Me feel bad. so it's going to be smthn irrational that she shldnt've been being a dick abt in first place.

lets see. what Can i do.

[kaiju420]

can't keep putting myself in passive reactive position.

i think i need to fuck shit up 4 her.

no. His bullshit i will find a way. motherfucker one way or another i will deal with you.

Her bullshittery has had be reacting but in an overly honest upright manner. why. principles dont work with certain people.

i cant keep losing ny shit tho. so a vent is also necessary. dont want it 2 be someyhing that makes Me feel bad. so it's going to be smthn irrational that she shldnt've been being a dick abt in first place.

lets see. what Can i do.

[kaiju420]

no. His bullshit i will find a way. motherfucker one way or another i will deal with you.

Her bullshittery has had be reacting but in an overly honest upright manner. why. principles dont work with certain people.

i cant keep losing ny shit tho. so a vent is also necessary. dont want it 2 be someyhing that makes Me feel bad. so it's going to be smthn irrational that she shldnt've been being a dick abt in first place.

lets see. what Can i do.

[kaiju420]

and i can't even bring it up bcoz of that other bitch. v r reading missing persons.

i pray a truck runs u over 2night amen.

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

bitch mofo didn't even want to keep it as a one-off. kept trying to get follow-up like. that woman who doused guy+set him on fire is my hero.

idk how i shld tag shit lyk this.

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

i no want to fix u. blz permanently break urself. gudbye.

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

mofo just wouldn't drop it. went back to that topic three fucking times. do u think ppl are stupid. why dont u just die.

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

like i dealt with it but i'm very sick of having to deal with that kinda shit. fuck male loneliness if ur that lonely try to join all the ppl in the afterlife.

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

oh and once again i really really hate the guys around here. why r u asking me if i apply that thing to my entire body. why r u being so much of a fucking creep. why.

[kaiju420]

dear diarying as hell but that thing was hell-ish to look through. i could not look at the thing again after like my mind does not need that much privacy actually. either what u can in public or stfu.

there's this sense of anxiety i think of as very intricately connected to my adhd i don't kniw how accurate that is but meds help with brakes and to switch inertia sometimes but not much else. i don't really want to switch them either since i don't trust myself enough for that.

and i Did look this one up, maybe nit Extensively but enough, definitely and i Know the risk is small. but what if something happens. so i'm still like. microdosing it idk.

right anxiety like i know im not doing what i should i know it will fuck things up i cant switch task. maybe i Can idk but i am not switching task. it is simply not happening. i can control task vs no task i can't control switch task.

oh and i think i've dispelled his ideas, like, the guy's kinda soft so i'm trying not to make it a thing at all.

and i contacted them. well they contacted me(back), and they're mad but they're pushing it down i think so i will prolly do call soon and freak out abt tone shifts and probable meanings👍

so only thing i know to fix anxiety /somewhat/ is to do Something that i will have done later or will be helpful later. something anything.

anxiety's like, only thing that works against it is concrete facts. i dont know how ppl who dont exercise their memory enough do it.

idk if it should be a do not engage situation.

i'm too comfortable being anon here but wth.

[kaiju420]

thing is Usually i wait till person is too sleepy/tired/distracted to actually register what i'm saying when i say things like this so having text out is always kind of freaky.

okay whtvr.

i have started The Task. and it is definitely kicking my ass.

but like. it is in progress. still terrifying but what can u do but 'do it scared'. sugar baby option just wouldn't work for me so i just have no option what to do.

there's this sense of anxiety i think of as very intricately connected to my adhd i don't kniw how accurate that is but meds help with brakes and to switch inertia sometimes but not much else. i don't really want to switch them either since i don't trust myself enough for that.

and i Did look this one up, maybe nit Extensively but enough, definitely and i Know the risk is small. but what if something happens. so i'm still like. microdosing it idk.

right anxiety like i know im not doing what i should i know it will fuck things up i cant switch task. maybe i Can idk but i am not switching task. it is simply not happening. i can control task vs no task i can't control switch task.

oh and i think i've dispelled his ideas, like, the guy's kinda soft so i'm trying not to make it a thing at all.

and i contacted them. well they contacted me(back), and they're mad but they're pushing it down i think so i will prolly do call soon and freak out abt tone shifts and probable meanings👍

so only thing i know to fix anxiety /somewhat/ is to do Something that i will have done later or will be helpful later. something anything.

anxiety's like, only thing that works against it is concrete facts. i dont know how ppl who dont exercise their memory enough do it.

idk if it should be a do not engage situation.

i'm too comfortable being anon here but wth.