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this australian guy wrote about the columbia protests when he was a student here. he hid his substack and deleted his social media apps before he went on a trip back to the US to visit friends. he was detained, interrogated extensively about palestine by two border patrol agents, then deported back to australia.

^ that's a quick summary he wrote after the experience. the longer new yorker article is really jarring. link without paywall here

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i want to be in this field BECAUSE i care, because i think it's important to have people in tech and ai that care about sociology and politics and ethics beyond the capitalist machinations of it all. and yet. it is so draining. i feel like my entire academic career has been one instance of "don't meet your heroes" after another, people i look up to casually revealing their callousness and breaking my heart in the process. they abdicate responsibility for the way things work as if they don't wield a tremendous amount of influence. i've been vulnerable in front of them because i trusted them and they just turn around and start treating me like a liability or a disobedient child because i [checks notes] have health issues, or care about the scientific value of what i'm doing, or feel upset by having to work alongside someone who fucking sexually assaulted me. now i'm the problematic lab member. the one who's asking too much. if i'm distressed by the news, by people i care about being targeted by the fucking government, they tell me to just not think about it. turn your phone off. stop caring. work harder. work longer hours. work alone and don't complain. i think i am simply not made of the same stuff as these people. and trying to pretend i am is starting to actually kill me

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"gambling addiction" is kind of like if people regularly opened pits with spikes at the bottom in public areas and made lots of money from people falling into the pit and so they started greasing the edges and putting these pits in every public space and lobbying to be allowed to install them in people's homes and when someone fell into the greased spike pit in their house they said "oh thats so tragic, they had an addiction to deadly spikes, we obviously support everyone having a safe and healthy responsible relationship with the greased spike pits we're building"

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much less alarmed by the 'cognitive impact' of LLM use than I am by the fact that so many people apparently believe your brain can atrophy or permanently lose function in the space of four months because you used fancy sparknotes to write a couple of essays

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Are you fucking kidding me

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eating a tuna quinoa & herb salad i made from a cookbook and it tastes??? so strange. not even bad strange just like all the flavors cancel out

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Me and the terrifying supercomputer i pulled by understanding the sexual allure of the machine

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guys will literally call you a quirked up white boy and then sexually harass you

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y'all it's about to get really fucking humid and hot

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"Sir Behr" Red Desert, Wyoming

Photo by Living Images by Carol Walker

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like we figured out how to put atoms together in different ways to make different kinds of stuff. crazy

insomnia will have me pacing around my apartment at 2am eating toast and being grateful for the existence of mass. like physical stuff. solids and such. very cool

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insomnia will have me pacing around my apartment at 2am eating toast and being grateful for the existence of mass. like physical stuff. solids and such. very cool

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me in five years when i still don’t have my life together:

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it is incredibly frustrating to see people who never gave a fuck about environmental racism or the affects of data centres until they realised they could use it to talk about AI pass around articles about how AI is the reason behind this shit rather than. you know. everything else lol

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having anti punitive justice morals sucks because you want to say "man that guy sucks he should get hit with hammers until he dies" but you also want to make it clear you don't think anyone should be put in charge of the 'hit people with hammers until they die" machine.

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good god when the vasovagal syncope hits

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Everyone I know in Gaza is messaging me saying they can't find internet anymore and are barely able to connect using esims that are running out. Please don't stop donating esims.