marvel only let matt murdock have a two minute cameo in that movie because if he had been in the third act he and andrew's peter would have fallen in love
just... just for a little bit, i want to not be sad
i want to look out at the world and not be sad, for once
i want to see good things happening
i want to look at my life and not be sad
why can't i be ignorant? just for a little bit? i wish i could pretend that everything's okay even though it's not
i wish i could focus on the good things and ignore the bad for just a little bit without feeling like a selfish piece of shit, without everyone else flaying me alive for not supporting every single cause, for not constantly thinking and talking and reading about terrible things, for not giving up my all of my rapidly dwindling savings to a million different causes and charities
i want it to be okay to be a little selfish, just for once
my mom didn’t believe in lying to children so when I first asked about santa claus as a small child she was like “oh santa claus is another name for a man named saint nicholas who lived a long time ago. he was a very kind and generous man and he loved giving people presents and he would do things like put presents in people’s stockings when they were hung up to dry by the fire, so they would find them and be surprised. so now when we give presents at christmas it’s fun to pretend saint nicholas or ‘santa claus’ brings them. and we hang up stockings by the fire and when we get up in the morning there are presents in them, just like if saint nicholas was still alive to bring them!”
so that thanksgiving one of my uncles said jovially “so mac, are you being good for santa claus?” and little (not quite three year old) mac looked up and raised an eyebrow and said witheringly “he’s dead.”
when actors have to put on an accent for a show or movie or whatever but their character gets to use the actor's natural accent for a joke or disguise and the other characters make fun of them for their "bad accent"