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Snupin is definetely a ship I can get behind... Not to mention F/F Snupin. My good fellow, you have persuaded me, I'm inspired, I'll paint them.

Inspired by @fafodill 's musings on fem! Snape, I grabbed my tablet and did some sketching. I absolutely fell in love with this character all over again.

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Inspired by @fafodill 's musings on fem! Snape, I grabbed my tablet and did some sketching. I absolutely fell in love with this character all over again.

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We talk so much about Sneep (all hail the Sneep) is very feminine, even from childhood - wearing his mother's clothes, fantasizing about his walking in his mother's magical path, making friends with primarily girls, having a soft voice, having very feminine handwriting, etc. A lot of people even headcanon Sneep as being transfem post-war. However, if Sneep were a cis girl, would she be super feminine or a tomboy? Sneep leans feminine, so would fem!Sneep love being feminine with heels and dresses and long hair? Or, would she long for the freedoms of a man after being raised by a lenient/absent father and an overbearing or abusive mother? And, if we flip the gender, would Eileen give fem!Sneep the standard order mommy issues? Would her friendship with male!Lily (Leon?) be different in terms of power balance?

I think fem!Snape would have struggled with the beauty standards of attractiveness in the same way canon!Snape did. She wouldn't have been super pretty (at least by Harry's standard at least if we take into account what he said about Severus's mother)(and I do think she would have looked like a carbon copy of her mother expect for her nose). Now I do think she would have tried to conform herself to some of these standards but found some compromises as well. I don't think she would have been hyper-fem since she wouldn't have felt comfortable embracing garnments that wouldn't suit her peculiar beauty and I don't think she'd have been super interested in fashion either because of that. Of course Lucius/Narcissa would have gifted her some exquisitely tailored dresses and robes but I think she'd never wear them as she'd struggle too much with her feminity.

Because of course she'd consider herself absolutely repelling as she'd have been teased endlessly about her nose and lack of curves. Which is bullshit as we know.

Now it's interesting to imagine fem!Sev as some sort of tomboy, especially because of her childhood in Cokeworth. I can imagine her teenage self with a ponytail, beating the shit out of some guy because he insulted her family. I can see her wearing worn out jeans and oversized shirts in the same way his male self is often pictured.

But in the wizarding world I think she'd fully embrace the feminine-cut robes, even if she'd still drown her thin silhouette under her cloak. I imagine her hiding her curves and frame in a cloud of black to the point of people wondering what she might actually look like. I'm just wondering how she would wear her hair. To me it's either they're super long and lanky (hi Sadako) or she'd wear it in a tight and severe bun like McGonagall (maybe with two large strands on each sides to still be able to hide behind it).

She wouldn't wear jewelry. Or maybe earrings gifted by the Malfoys (it's silver and black of course, and I'm imagining clip-ons and nothing that would dangle) or a family heirloom from her mother.

Of course she'd have mommy issues. Truth is we have no real idea what Snape's mommy issues are like, but I'd suspect maybe she'd have been even more determined to not repeat her mother's mistakes? Depending on why her parents got together, she'd maybe vow to not fall in love or absolutely never get pregnant and be terrified of a man tying her down. Maybe she'd have been a raging misandrist. I can imagine her as being ready to bite really fast when feeling threatened by a man and this would have been quite disastrous for her relationship with the Maraudeurs and Leon as well.

Speaking of Leon she could have seen him as 'the only nice guy' she ever met for a long time and by the time their fifth year comes around and their friendship is dwindling, she'd have to face the fact that no, Leon wasn't that nice. But maybe she'd be in denial about it as well. We could imagine romantic of platonic feelings but the outcome is the same.

I think she'd be still quite feminine coded but more open with her anger. She'd have developed a really tough skin in Cokeworth and somehow I see her as less soft-spoken than male!Snape. She'd be more openly angry at life, less controlled.

Also not to be too cliché but as a woman, I can't help but think that her hormones would indeed make her more prone to fits of anger and be more emotional ateast once a month.

She'd still manage to become a really impressive occlumens but it would maybe take her a bit more work. But she'd really need it to also not be pointed as being a hysterical harpy.

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Book severus isn’t calm at all unless it’s dealing with the dark lord, so it’s funny to imagine that some death eaters are just bamboozled to find out he almost loses his mind with his students every other day, like one slyhterin boy tells their death eater parent how professor snape screamed and threw a jar because somebody melted their cauldron and made the place a biohazard and the parent is like you’re joking right?

LMAOOO. that’s actually hilarious to think about. imagine if there was a recording of his crashout in PoA and all the Death Eaters and Voldemort sat and watched it 😭

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The Exit Was Always Coming?

If Severus hadn’t said Mudblood, how much longer would the friendship have lasted? Or was Lily simply waiting for a moment that felt righteous enough to walk away?

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Destiny Creeping

Working on value before color. Needs more work but I got it somewhere I like which is better than previous attempts.

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y’all ever read a fanfic that you cannot believe an author just wrote for free?? what an honor it is to read a piece of someone’s soul they shared out of nothing but love for a piece of media. what a privilege it is to be allowed their talent because you share an interest!!

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Okay I like the scenario of 'Severus coming back from a bad DE meeting, stumbling upon Sirius in Grimmauld's Place and plot ensues'.

But what if he stumbled upon Molly?

And she absolutely saw that something was wrong and would not let him go?

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The new year starts

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Maybe this was a mistake…

Regret is pooling and he hasn’t even seen him yet

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When Severus got the job, it took Finch a couple years to adjust…

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The half-blood prince

A man who was defined so much by mistakes made in his youth. The nickname he gave himself is such an example of this I think. Like was he ever embarrassed of the edgy nickname he gave himself when he was in school?

cardboard crown for a childhood title

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Shaving

I go back and forth on whether I think Severus would be well groomed or not. He does some hygiene stuff for sure (like shaving), and I’ve heard some reasoning for his oily hair that is hygienic. But the books seem to insist he is gross. I think there is value of a character being gross and not retconning to be more pleasing. But also… jk was wack as fuck and called fat ppl pigs if she didn’t like them… so idk if I should care about source accuracy.

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Severus needed summer jobs too.

The season of applications, minimum wage, and garish uniforms. Severus joins the workforce for the summer and he is glad to get out of the house, even if he hates his coworkers.

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Snape: I'm so good at Occlumency that the Dark Lord has no idea I'm lying to him.

Voldemort after 2 seconds in Snape's mind: Yikes on a bike. Never going in there again.

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“The Snape fans are always excusing his crap and trying to paint him as a good person, when the whole point is that he wasn’t a good person, he was a bad person who did some good things.”

No, sorry, but that passive-aggressive take is rubbish. Snape wasn’t a bad person, he was a person with a terrible attitude and a difficult personality, and that’s very different from being bad. We, his fans, are fully aware that he was insufferable, and we like him for that. But that doesn’t mean we’re going to attribute to him a kind of cruelty or wickedness that simply isn’t there.

Because a bad person doesn’t spend their life trying to make up for their mistakes. A bad person doesn’t give up their own life to repay a debt. A bad person doesn’t risk everything to protect people who constantly scorn him, distrust him, judge him, and throw dirt on his name. A bad person doesn’t die to help bring down the villains. That’s not what bad people do.

What makes Severus such a complex character isn’t that he was a bad man who did some good, it’s that he was a good man, deeply flawed, often harsh, and far from pleasant or likeable. And that, precisely, is what makes him so compelling.