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People keep promising me thing that they can't fulfill, really really hate this feeling

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Again one of the lowest days in my life. When you know you can never get things on your way. Crying but no use. Everyone thinks that I have a perfect life. But only I know what I wen through or going through right now. I used to believe yes, woman can live independently but now I don't think I can. I need someone in my life, to bring me to places that I can't go, to bring me out whenever I feel like going out, bring to to restaurant when I'm craving something.

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I didn't know why, but seriously i never made my parents proud, not even once

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Just feel my life is extremely pathetic

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One thing Abt not getting a job, another feeling of keep losing friends

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Keep losing friends, since I've known , i never really had close friends who stuck more than 2 to 3 years 🥲 always jealous of those keep posting Abt their friendship

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Life is keep screwing me over and over again

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2022 resolutions

1. To at least get myself be enrolled in a master course

2. To lose at least 10kg from the 1st Jan weight

3. To be stronger than before

Dear future self, please be proud of yourself if you have achieved at least of of the above. Some things take time. Please love yourself, as no one can better than yourself. ❤️

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Too tired even to cry. Feeling so low. I wonder why i was born so stupid, having over achieving siblings is tiring, but sadly the whole world thinks is a good thing, but only i know how depressed i am. Since small being compared to

Mom is always so scared of sis, sis is allowed to get moody, and mom is always scared to talk to sis and always find the right timing to talk to her Abt anything. But if i ever get moody, I'll get scolded worse, been crying alone ever since i remember , always feel alone left out from others .

Sometimes feel why life has to be so unfair

Sis is in holiday for three weeks but the dad only turn to me to ask for help, like every single time and he fight with me the most

Really tired with this life

Tried to open up to some ppl, but whenever i say what I'm going through, my thoughts are disregarded, they say i think too much, it's just what I'm thinking and not the truth,so why need to open up?

Just bottled up every emotions i have

Nice to cry out sometimes, cry alone typing this with tears non stop rolling down from my cheek

Yes I'm grateful that i managed to get a gred promotion, thank you God, but i still feel lousy, i feel useless, stupid, ugly, fat,

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Was crying so badly, and suddenly realised the whole world gone black, then I thought I gone blind. Try opening my eyes, still look the same, tl took some time to realise that the current suddenly went off 🤦🏻‍♀️

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Yes I never been in a relationship. So I didn't know when someone gets into a relationship, their whole world is surrounded by their bf. And the friends become less important. Yes this happened to me. My bestie got into a relationship, yes I was very happy for her for finding 'the one' for her. But I didn't know it was the end for our friendship

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I need to start writing again. I can't believe I'm back to loneliness. Seriously , a few months ago I was thanking God for giving a best friend that I always wanted. I didn't know it's a just a short time.

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Whether your tall or small, it’s important to just be kind. Instead of taking a advantage of people’s weaknesses, it’s honestly best to just be nice. If you can tell someone’s struggling or maybe you even know what they’re struggling with, a little kindness can go a LONG way.

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Back to the lonely person i was

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So, I've lost my best friend

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Two ways to my future but one could be blocked soon

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Can't imagine in 11 days my future will be decided