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hey everyone - long time no see. no, i am not returning to my eddie blog - but i did want to address an issue that happened roughly ten months ago and my involvement in everything that went down regarding mox. not only that, but right out the gate i want to apologize to mox for not fighting harder for the call out to not be made - NO ONE deserves to be harassed for ten months straight. having someone come to me and tell me that shit is still happening to her? honestly disgusts me. grow the fuck up. block someone if you do not want to interact. move on with your life. be a fucking adult. 

i don’t believe in dash call out culture - i believe in either; talking and handling issues like adults if they can be worked through, i believe in calling out your friends for shitty behavior one on one OR unfollowing/blocking and moving on with your life, which is a practice i have done on other blogs i have since created and briefly resided on since the drama and night in question. when the rumor mill started to churn that mox was bowie - i along with ari - sought out others to help; others who had involvement with bowie just to see if anything lined up since we were hard pressed to believe it without proof. we did not know who bowie was at the time, though had heard the name circulating in the mcu before. by this time a call out had been posed which i was against from the moment the idea was even pressed. i offered a different solution, i wanted a couple people from our group of friends to address the issue with mox one on one. i did not feel like it was my place to discuss this with mox at the time as i did not feel like mox and i were necessarily close. nor did i have enough information in my lap PROVING to me that mox was bowie. i did NOT intend this chat to be a group activity as i didn’t want mox to feel like she was being ganged up on/attacked. what i wanted and had intended was for those people that were closest to address it with mox in private. this was in no way what happened. the originator of the group invited the entire group of friends into this chat, i was at work and wasn’t talking in the group with mox. but i did call out the person off to the side in another chat that this wasn’t what i had suggested that we do; because exactly what i thought would happen, happened. by the end of this chat the call out was pressed again which the group made it clear we were against. a friendship was tarnished due to my suggestion back lashing - i suggested we just block each other and move on. but that’s not where it stopped because by then, the call out was continuing to be pressed and under the cover of darkness the call out in question began to be created under my nose and in a side chat that i was not privy to. however, i will not lie and say that i did not know about it at all. i found out about it just as the information was being put into a tumblr post; i would love to tell you what was said that caught my attention and set off the “what the fuck” meter, but i’d be lying if i said i remembered, but what was said at the time was enough to draw my attention back to the voice chat i had long checked out of. at this point, i reiterated my dislike for any sort of call out - i, along with ari, pushed for the callout to not happen at this point. at this point i felt like my words fell upon deaf ears. others involved were completely disregarded and their input disrespected as to how they felt towards it (as two people were asleep at this time and would soon be dragged into drama that they had no intention of being in). for this mox, i owe you an apology - whole heartedly - because i did not try hard enough to put a stop to it. you deserve every right to be able to thrive on tumblr as you wish and be stress free. i am sorry for everything that you have gone through since the night that call out was posted and i do hold myself accountable for not putting my foot down and putting a stop to it. you did not deserve to be treated that way in any way, shape, or form - not to mention for a whole ten fucking months. you deserved better. 

i would like to end this by saying that i denounce the entirety of that call out post. i never wanted to be involved with it but found myself dragged into it with manipulative words and bullying.

mox, i wish you only the best on tumblr and in life. you deserve every right to move forward with your life and your hobby just like everyone else does. 

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life has been a bit hectic this week! so i’m a little late on pulling giveaway winner names – but i will be doing that today and reaching out over IMs and/or discord to gather giveaway winner information! <3

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                    B E E P   B E E P   M O T H E R F U C K E R S

well, well, well – look what we fucking have here. i don’t know if you all took a wrong turn or what – but here we fucking are. honestly – i’ve never had so many fucking talented people following me at the same time and i wouldn’t be here without you guys. fucking flat out. every single person that puts up with me in general down to those i have had the pleasure to spam with my keyboard smashes, my late night shenanigans on discord, struggling over IMs (when they’re fucking working of course), and patchy as all fuck plotting chats – i love you. whether we have talked extensively or we have yet to have the pleasure of talking to one another yet – i fucking love you. really, i don’t know where i would be without you all – i sure as fuck wouldn’t be hosting my very first fucking giveaway on tumblr that’s for goddamn sure.

i took one long hell of a break away from tumblr – but coming back in to this fandom, into this corner of tumblr, has by far been the best experience i have had on the site. i had no intention of ever coming back unless it was to a space where i could be comfortable – to a character i knew i would be comfortable on and in a fandom that had such amazing people. so with this i would like to thank you all for following me, for being patient with me, and most of all being fucking amazing people. not only has my passion for eddie kept me here, but so have all of you with your kind words and just generally fucking fantastic selves.

alright, i know you dickwad’s didn’t come out to hear me ramble – so, how about we get down to fucking business?

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Once I had a love and it was a gas                                                                      Soon turned out 

                                                                           had a heart of glass

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Hi hello! Ur amazing beautiful and loved as well as valid your beautiful and ily okay?

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small & angry

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Do you have headcanon for Myra and / or their sexlife?

hello nonnie – i do have a headcanon for eddie’s sexlife/relationship with myra. i discussed this previously over on THIS headcanon in the last 4-5 paragraphs. but i headcanon for my eddie (as a nod to the mini-series) that he is a virgin and is demi-sexual.

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if i never watch chapter 2 then eddie never gets hurt i am a genius

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You're my favorite Eddie Bear, but don't tell anyone ❤️

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"What if our extinction will be caused by a sneezing alien?"

“….. DO YOU KNOW SOMETHING?!?! WHAT IN THE FUCK?! IS THERE A DISEASED ALIEN RUNNING AROUND SOMEWHERE?!” Wheezing in a breath eyes dart around as hands immediately fly to his pockets looking for his inhaler, “SOMEONE GET ME SOME FUCKING HAND SANITIZER PLEASE?!?! ANYONE HAVE ANY?!?!”

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so i don’t spam the dash with answering the – ☆ Put this star into the inbox of your favourite blogs. It’s time to spread positivity ( ´ ▽ ` ).｡ｏ♡ 💞 – i wanna thank @richatire, @couldntcutit, @guiltwrote, @stutteringfear, @faegrifted, @downpaths, and @hawkinsbabysittcr for sending them in. i’ll just be sitting here sobbing in this chili’s tonight. i love you all so much.

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lurking around at work and hopping between here and my oc - might be easiest to catch me on discord or IMs. will be here after work to get some stuff out since yesterday i didn’t really have the brain capacity for both.

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hey y’all. i know it’s a long shot, and it’s super short notice, but my city basically went nuts overnight. the temperature dropped a good amount this week, and the entire population decided to freak out. there’s no room in the shelters, at least not the ten or so that i called in my area, and it’s pride weekend here, so everyone’s in town. it’s a nightmare. that being said, it’s also jacked up the prices for the weekend.

if i can come up with $250 today, then i’m golden until sunday, and i work most of the day tomorrow, so that’d be a huge help. i’m happy to pay people back once i’m on my feet, and i hate having to ask, but i have been having a hard time making it work this week. so please, if anyone can help this last time, i should be able to work stuff out for next week. i have to make this happen as quickly as i can.

$ 40 / 250

cashapp: $leelal00 paypal: paypal.me/daedfred95

please, even just reblogging to boost the signal is a huge, huge help. thanks, everyone.

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The person I reblogged this from is awesome as fuck.

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Happy national coming out day

Here's to:

Everyone who is out and keeps to themselves

Everyone who is out and proud

Everyone who has been out for years

Everyone who just came out recently

Everyone who has come out more than once

Everyone who can only come out once

Everyone who can not come out for safety reason

Everyone whp can not come out becuase they do not want too

Everyone who wants to come out but can not

Everyone in the lgbtq community💞💞 i hope you have a wonderful coming out day!!