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“It’s weird, being depressed and yet so scared of death.”

— X

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“A dying friend once told me, ‘I wish I hadn’t spent so many Mondays wishing it were Friday. I also wish I had made better use of those Fridays, for better stories on Monday.”

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Whats the point of life anyways? To go through the same routine everyday, just trying to get by? If thats the case, I want to cancel my membership...please and thankyou.

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I feel myself getting worse. I'm scared because I havent been suicidal in so long. Now I keep visualizing myself ending my life. I even think about how people will respond to it. Life just keeps letting me down and I'm just not good enough for this world. I'm stupid, unlovable, annoying, and most of all worthless. I'm told and shown all of these things constantly and I 100% believe them.

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Would you recognize me if we met?

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I failed as a daughter, as a sister, as student, as a friend and as a human being. I'm sorry.

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“ i cannot help but feel that you knew what you were doing, and that there was never a time that you didn’t.”

-a book that’ll be too hard to write

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I don't feel like a burden anymore, it became obvious that I am one.

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Dear Diary,

I think it’s selfish for someone to say that I shouldn’t kill myself because people need me. If people needed me then I would receive responses to my messages, they would talk to me, or check up on me. They would interact if they wanted me around. But its dead silent. They don’t want or need me around. Them saying “it’s selfish” is the most selfish fucking thing to say. I’m here all the time when people reach out but I receive nothing in return. 

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“The thing about being brave is it doesn’t come with the absence of fear and hurt. Brave is the ability to look the fear and hurt in the face and say move aside, you are in the way.”

— Melissa Tumino