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kaynadoesalot · 9 months ago
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the worst thing to be, free with all the time to think yet empty with no thoughts. my dad always told me, 'an empty mind is the devils workshop' i dont think i realised until now how deep the quote goes.
as you grow older, burdened with responsibilities somedays you just cant give it your all. like today, i cant give my all to even write anything that's how empty my mind feels so im gonna end this here
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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I’m begging you to write for yourself.
“But readers don’t like—“ who cares?
The only reader of your story that you should care about is yourself.
Do you like your story? Yes? Then it’s perfect.
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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Falling in love with someone is like losing yourself in their world and still finding a home in it.
-kayna 11.05.24
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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So true hahaha
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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Chapter 2: truth or dare?
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everyone was gathered around the fireplace trying to figure out how the rusty but vintage camera works.
"hm, strange I can't find any camera like this on Google. How old is this thing?" ryle asked, a little distress on his face presented by the scrunch of his eyebrows.
"It's okay, just a camera," said Ava, grabbing it and studying it for a few seconds before figuring out the mechanics of the cryptic device.
"ah here we go, just click this silver button here and we are good to go" said Ava, pointing at the button with a satisfactory look. rest of the group looking at her in admiration.
"wow Ava that was so cool, how'd you do it" exclaimed Noah
"I dont know it just came to me" shrugged Ava as she took her place before Olivia.
"Okay you guys, I see a timer button. I'll set it for 5 seconds. be ready" said Matthew, placing the camera on the table in front of them.
Everyone grabbed a spot, holding each other close, swinging an arm around their shoulders. Mia and Ryle coincidently being placed close together but if Mia saw the look in Isabella's eyes, she knew it wasn't accidental but on purpose. Ryle looked at Mia and smiled as he wrapped his arm around her waist, she looked away and straight to the camera, her face flushed.
"get ready!" exclaimed Noah as he heard the camera beep thrice over the chaos. Everyone looked at the camera except Ryle, who was still admiring Mia silently, one more second and he would have had a lifelong memory of this moment until Mia nudged him to look ahead. Just as he did, the camera clicked.
matthew grabbed the camera, trying to look for the picture but to his disappointment, this was a film camera.
"oh you guys we will have to get them developed"
"oh that's alright, we can click pictures all night and look for a shop tomorrow" suggested Mia
"yeah sounds like a plan" Ava chimed in agreeing with Mia
"come on you guys, let's hit the dance floor, and get the party started"cheered Olivia as daniel agreed with her, joining her with a glass of vodka in his hand.
Ava is already on the job of connecting her phone to the speaker, putting on a playlist curated by everyone before coming to Shadowvale, this way everyone gets to enjoy the music.
"let's rock this night you guys" wooed Isabella.
soon, everyone joined the makeshift stage they had made out of the living room, the lights dimmed, the music loud, the fireplace giving them the warmth they needed and the booze giving them the heat and slowly stripping them of their consciousness.
isabella too, for once wanted to let loose especially because of all the negative vibes she experienced today. She was probably the most drunk after Ava.
noah and Daniel helped her stand on her feet as she danced her heart out even though they were equally as drunk.
matthew holding onto Olivia for support as he was close to passing out.
the only half-conscious ones now were Ryle and Mia. They were still having fun, now let loose of the awkward tension from before. they were laughing together as they watched everyone trip, and do all sorts of crazy things they would never do sober.
mia already pulled her camera out, recording Noah and Matthew twerking together while Olivia and Ava threw tissue papers at them instead of cash. at one point they thought driving out to get some vodka was a good idea so they took out the huge couch cushions and rode them to the kitchen while intimitiating traffic sounds.
it was a hilarious night, mia had ordered some takeout to sober everyone down to minimise the effects of the hangover. She also ordered the ingredients for her famous hangover smoothie.
once they were all a little dried out and starving, Mia and Ryle bought out boxes of beautifully packed up boxes of pasta and risottos. it was a group favourite so she knew what everyone liked. She gave them each a glass of lemon water along with it knowing they were all going to thank her the next morning.
after stuffing themselves full and sobering up a little they decided to continue the party but with less booze now.
"we should totally play truth or dare" suggested Ava, still very much buzzed but excited nonetheless.
"oh yeah I dont mind" agreed Matthew, everyone giving in after a few comments about the game being childish.
"Okay Mia, you start," said Olivia, clearly wanting to poke Mia since she knew how much she hated the game.
Rolling her eyes Mia agreed and chose truth. After about a minute of choosing truths for her, they all landed on one thing they were curious to know. Mia was an amazing friend but she was uptight about a lot of things. Especially her love life, the only person who knew anything was Isabella and that was also only because she was present when Mia broke up with her first boyfriend, that's how their bond was created.
"is there someone you like who is in the room right now?" asked noah
Mia froze, she didn't know what to say. She could say no but that might give Ryle the image that she didn't like him and if she said yes its going to be too obvious for him. Today isn't the only time with awkward interactions. he knows, she knows, and almost everyone does but they love teasing these two indirectly.
"uh, yeah" mia nodded, shifting a little as she cleared her throat sipping on her cocktail later
"Who is it, who is it" Ava jumped up excitedly
"hey, one question only" Mia rolled her eyes tiredly
"fine okay Matthew it's your turn" said Ava
"Okay, I'll choose to dare."
"Okay I got this, I dare you to go up to the attic and record a dance for 4 minutes," said Mia
"the attic? why there?" Matthew questioned
mia leaned in closer to him, " because there are spiders there" she whispered, loud enough for everyone to hear and they all laughed at Matthews's reaction. he was absolutely terrified of spiders, and despised them.
"you guys are the worst," he said, standing up.
They all just laughed and walked him to the attic giving him song suggestions until they settled on the only dance he knew. Love nwantiti. He was scared but he stayed there and a danced to the song, everyone laughing at his recording as he kept looking over his shoulder and near his feet for the prospect of spiders crawling around him.
everyone was laughing and having fun except for Isabella, Ryle noticed and walked towards her.
"Hey, you've been too quiet all day today. What's wrong?" he inquired
"oh no it's nothing, I'm just exhausted from today's trip" she smiled, lying through her mouth and smiling through her eyes.
"I dont want to believe you, and I don't. if somethings wrong you know you can come to talk right?" he said
"yeah I know Ryle, thanks" Isabella smiled as she patted his arm and walked away
mia noticed the interaction silently until she locked eyes with Ryle and then immediately looked away.
"I can feel them on my body, I hate you guys" Matthew hissed as he looked at everyone annoyed but deep down everyone knew he wasn't really mad.
"Okay guys, it's 2 am I think we should call it a night. We've got a long day ahead of us" said Mia, everyone nodding in sync, exhausted after tonight's fun events.
"Who's gonna clean up though? I don't think we would have time in the morning" asked Ava.
"Oh that's okay I'll do it" Mia said with a smile, the least drunk out of all of them.
"No girl are you crazy, it's a mess you can't do it alone" said Olivia with a frown.
"I'll help her out" volunteered Ryle, already moving his feet towards the living room.
isabella nudged Mia and whispered in her ear "Take your chance" and walked along with the rest of the group waving goodbye to Mia.
mia walked to the living room, seeing Ryle already on the job. he was picking up the pasta boxes and cleaning off the wrappers of chips from the table.
"Hey, thanks for volunteering" Mia smiled at Ryle helped him with the boxes and went over to the kitchen to throw them in the bin. She came back with a cloth to clean up the table when Ryle bent over to help her out by taking it from her hand. He was right beside her and he straightened himself, looking at Mia.
"hey listen, I need to say something" he said
"What's up?" Mia asked with a smile even though the proximity made her nervous.
"I want to say that you have done enough for all of us so why don't you get some rest and let me do the cleaning hm?" ryle suggested
"what? no, I'm not letting you clean up alone" Mia frowned and shook her head
"I'm not asking Mia, you have to rest. you're getting pale and I know it's not long before you get sick if you don't rest" Ryle said, this wasn't what he originally wanted to say but he couldn't go through with it. nervous, just like Mia.
but something about tonight was making Mia crave him. maybe it was the alcohol, the atmosphere, the corridor situation, everything in her screamed at her to just throw herself at him.
"oh you're stubborn aren't you" Ryle rolled his eyes when she didn't say anything, he grabbed her arms and just as he was about to turn her around and direct her to the stairs, the camera which quietly sat on the table, clicked.
no one touched it, there was no timer, yet it clicked. both Ryle and Mia looked at it with a suspicious look. wondering if they just heard it but then it clicked again.
"what the fuck?" said Ryle.
mia picked the camera up and kept it in the case, leaving it on the couch.
"leave it, go to your room. now," said Mia, remembering Isabella's look when she saw the camera.
"i am not going alone, you're coming with me" Ryle stated as he grabbed her wrist and took her with him, he walked her to her room.they both stood outside, silently. knowing that there is something they want to say but are compelled not to.
"um, goodnight ryle" initiated mia
"yeah goodnight Mia," Ryle said with a smile as he leaned in to hug her
surprised by the hug, Mia let out an 'oh' before hugging him back. th hug lasted for a while. it was as if they were silently saying everything they wanted through the hug.
"I should get going," Ryle said as he pulled away. mia nodded and watched him walk away from her, once again.
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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echoes of the film
hi, this short story was inspired by Natz's writing prompt on Instagram.
Chapter 1: the arrival
Chapter 2: truth or dare?
Chapter 3: coming soon
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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Chapter 1: The arrival
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the rhythmic clattering of the train was a soothing sound to the group of friends with a wide smile as they laughed together, awaiting their stop in the town of Shadowvale.
"Oh Ryle stop being such a nerd, relax a little on our one chance for a break from the city life" said Olivia flipping her dark hair over her shoulder.
"Hey, looking at the history of an unknown town is just being safe. plus you should know where you're staying just in case things don't work out our way" said Ryle with a wink his glasses catching the light.
olivia rolled her eyes while the others laughed at their usual bickering.
"cut it out, you guys. it's going to be an awesome week, I still can't believe you talked us into this Mia," said Daniel his eyes bright with excitement.
Mia laughed softly, the mastermind behind the whole trip. She was known for being resourceful and always up for an adventure.
"Trust me, Dan, this is going to be the most adventure you will ever have" Mia replied
"How is this house anyway? ryle did you find something about the house?" questioned Ava her curiosity piqued.
"yeah, it's like a hundred years old and hasn't been resided in for a while now"
"yeah no wonder why" Noah joked, earning a chuckle from everyone.
"as long as it's not creepy, I think it's fine," said Isabella her green eyes scanning the passing scenery.
"I mean it's a little creepy, but it looks cool. kinda gothic" said Mia with a grin.
"how much longer for us to reach?" inquired Matthew who had just woken up from his nap, successfully missing out on the fun bickering.
"just the next stop," said Mia as the others laughed at Matthews's ruffled-up hair.
The train began to slow as it approached its destination. The excitement was palpable as they gathered their bags and made their way to the platform. Shadowvale station was small and quaint, starkly contrasting to the bustling city they had left behind.
"holy shit this is so much more beautiful than I expected it to be," said Noah looking around in awe.
"yeah no shit, I told you it's going to be awesome" replied Mia with a satisfied smile.
"Mia thank you for this it's so pretty" chirped Isabella, already clicking pictures of the station.
"You're welcome Bella, come on you guys let's go our cabs waiting out front. noah and Dan you'll go with Ava and Bella, and Ryle, Matthew, me and Olivia will go together. is that okay?"
everyone complied as they walked towards the exit with their luggage. the guys helping set the bags inside while the girls communicated with the drivers.
"It's all set then, the house is about 45 minutes away you guys, rest up as much as you can cause we are not sleeping tonight" Mia winked as she showed everyone a glimpse of a bottle of vodka from her handbag.
"girl where did you get that, how did we not catch you" gasped Ava
"resourceful Mia is at it again" commented Noah.
mia chuckled and ushered everyone in the cabs and they all drove off to their final destination for the night not knowing the things waiting for them out there.
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"i am going to loose count of how many times mia is surprising us on this trip" exclaimed daniel as his mouth was left wide open at the sight of the beautiful gothic structured house
"holy shit that is literally the most gorgeous house ever, mia you are awesome" Matthew said and side hugged mia as everyone commented on the house and thanked mia and appreciated her.
"thank you everyone, wait till you see the inside of the house come on lets go."
they all made their way to the house. walking through the freshly mowed lawn and the earthy smell left by the rain. mia knocked on the door, it was answered by a man in his late fifties. with a smile on his face he welcomed everyone inside.
"you must be mia, im alaric. i own this house but it has not been resided in for awhile so I have to warn you about specks of dust and some friendly insects." alaric said with a small laugh.
everyone laughed along with him, except for Isabella she was unusually quite. ryle nudged her, mouthing the words, 'are you okay?' she simply smiled and nodded ,not wanting to ruin the mood.
" hi alaric, yes im mia and this is everybody. ryle, Matthew, noah, daniel, Isabella, ava and Olivia." mia introduced everybody to alaric, all of them waving when their name was called for a clearer introduction.
"awesome, well i hope you have a great time here. anything you might need I have written down on the notepad on the kitchen counter, I also bought some basic groceries for you lot, have a good time here." he smiled warmly as mia thanked him. he looked at everyone and said goodbye but before making his way out he caught Isabella starring at him with a knowing look in her eyes. the others were already settling in the house but Isabella stood there and whispered.
"i can sense it" and alaric ran out of the house, not waiting to look back.
isabella laughed and matthew rolled his eyes at her, witnessing the whole interaction.
"seriously, you didnt have to scare the poor guy he was already leaving."
"its fun" said isabella, but she only laughed because she caught Matthew from her peripheral vision. she can sense something, but she doesn't want anyone to worry without a strong reason so she resorts to ignore the feeling until she notices something stronger than a hunch.
isabella and matthew join the others on the huge couch in the middle of the living room, blending in the conversation of the Itinerary mia has planned.
After discussing everything and relaxing for a while, everyone decided to get dressed and have a mini-party. They all went to their rooms, Ava and Mia were staying together, Olivia and Isabella, Matthew and Noah, and Daniel and Ryle.
mia was the first to get ready, she bumped into Ryle in the hallway. he gripped her arms to prevent her from falling as she was too engrossed in the list of things Alaric left them.
"hey, careful there." ryle smiled softly and looked down at Mia
"oh thanks, yeah I was just going through this list um do you want something? I'm grabbing blankets for Olivia."
"Oh, um no I'm good. do you want me to come help?" offered Ryle, both of them still close.
"no it's okay I got it, you should go get ready" replied Mia as she cleared her throat and took a step back to create some distance.
ryle nodded and left while Mia stood there for a second, taking a deep breath and then noticing Isabella at the corner, grinning at her.
"you guys are so into each other, why aren't you making a move Mia?" Isabella walked towards her and hooked her arm with hers. taking the list and walking to the attic with her.
"come on, the only thing he is into is a newspaper not me," Mia said.
"so you admit that you are?" Isabella laughed
"Bella! dont say that so loud"
mia hushed her and climbed up the ladder to the attic, pushing the door open as the scent of old wood and forgotten memories hit her nose. She rummaged through a few boxes before finding one with clean blankets. She passed the box to Isabella whose smile was now gone.
"what? do you feel something?" Mia asked, knowing the look on her psychic friend's face.
"Now who's being loud? yeah I do but let's not dig into it much, its nothing strong"
mia nodded, putting her foot on the ladder and gripping the door handle to shut the door but she caught something from the corner of her eye, a leather case. it looked so out of place, it intrigued her so she picked it up and brought it down with her.
"what's that?" Isabella asked
mia opened up the case, finding an old film camera sitting prettily.
"oh wow a vintage camera, we should check out if it works."
Isabella eyed the camera, not loving the vibe but it's just a camera.
mia suggested and they walked back to their rooms, getting dressed for the only peaceful night they would have for the week.
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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Beautiful
do you feel beautiful? when you wear that 'reserved for the perfect day' outfit or the necklace saved for the day you feel best? do you feel beautiful when you leave your hair down or up?
do you feel beautiful when you wear your pajamas? do you feel beautiful with your hair a mess and imperfect days?
do you feel beautiful when you are with your friends? do you feel beautiful when you are alone at night?
do you feel beautiful when you're the real you? do you look at yourself and think ' I'm perfect' or 'when will I be beautiful?'
tell me.
whatever you may think, you are beautiful, 8 and the 18 year old you, the 28 and 58 year old you. you are a beautiful soul, thank you for existing ❤️
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kaynadoesalot · 1 year ago
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Chaotic
Messy, clumsy, what? I'm sorry I didn't mean to spill my coffee. So many people, why's it s empty? Birds have an annoying chirp,it's so quiet today. There's so much work to do that I have no purpose. I want to see the world. Can I just stay under the sheets forever? I love being alone! Will I ever have someone to love me? I love being with my family. Why are they so annoying? This pasta is delicious, I should starve myself. I love working out it makes me so energetic. Will I ever be perfect? It's so nice to walk in the woods. Can I just disappear? I love myself, but do I? Yes, no, you don't, I do, I don't... how can I love someone so chaotic?
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kaynadoesalot · 2 years ago
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Be honest, who do you think about at your lowest?
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kaynadoesalot · 2 years ago
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Loneliness
What a peculiar word. We are lonely in this world, if not in the current time but we were at some time. It's an emotion and a phase we all go through. Suffering in silence, battling with ourselves and weather we should initiate something to get rid of the nagging feeling of being lonely. Why do we feel that way? Why aren't we enough for ourselves? Why do we cling on to people who don't care enough to notice our unspoken battles? How do I overcome this phase? Is it a phase or am I locked in a cage? How do I tell everyone that I like being alone and not lonely? How do I get rid of this gnawing emotion that makes me feel so helpless?
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kaynadoesalot · 2 years ago
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Memory
I have a bad memory, I mean I don't intend to or want one but it's not in my control. everything about my past is hazy, everything about you is hazy. I don't remember all our conversations the way I want to but I still remember your favourite meal, or how you could never stop drinking your orange juice,d how your all-time favourite movie is Matrix, how you said that 'careless whisper' is our song and it ended up really being it because that's exactly our story, and how you said you didn't love me anymore. I remember all of that. you haven't changed much except you don't follow your no-hate policy and I am not the person you text at 3 a.m. anymore. so I don't know if I should curse my memory for remembering so vividly or thank it and be happy that I can keep you in my mind if not in reality. I will never know if memory is a curse or a boon but I do know that you are my best memory.
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