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when you’re a kid and you’re feeling weird and detached and you fall asleep in the late afternoon with school clothes still on and you wake up and its dark and dinner is almost done and time feels like a thick jelly 

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When your dad tries to guilt trip you into visiting him: “well I guess I’ll just spend the weekend all by myself...”

You say “glad to know we’re on the same page.” Slowly, he will have to adapt to just outright telling you what he thinks instead of playing mind games.

When your friend tries to hint that they’re mad at you without saying anything: “Oh, I’m fine, clearly you don’t need to worry about me,”

You say: “I’m glad you’re doing well. Call me if you want to talk, though!” Soon enough, they will accept that they can’t be passive aggressive with you.

When your boyfriend says: “All your friends are great, I really love *insert male friend* especially.”

You say: “I’m so glad you like my friends! I should invite them back soon.” He needs to understand that if he has a problem with your friends, he needs to just voice his concerns instead of being sarcastic and accusatory.

As someone who has lived through several toxic relationships and has an abusive father, I think one of the most important manipulation tools a toxic person has is excessive subtext and hidden meanings in their conversation. It hides all of the actual fighting from the eyes of onlookers while still hurting you, which is scary and makes you feel like you’re making it all up. Don’t put up with this bs. Make them stop hiding.

Make. Them. Say. What. They. Mean.

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Unsplash -  photography, illustration, and art

Pixabay - same as unsplash

Pexels - stock photos and videos

Stockvault.net - stock photos

freepngimg - icons, pictures and clipart

Veceezy - vectors and clipart

Kissclipart and kissPNG - more vectors and clipart (often transparent!)

Getdrawings - simplistic images and drawing tutorials

Gumroad - photoshop brushes (and more)

Canva - needs login but has lots of templates

Library of Congress - historical posters and photos

NASA - you guessed it

Creative Commons - all kinds of stuff, homie

Even Adobe has some free images

There are so many ways to make moodboards, bookcovers, and icons without infringing copyright! As artists, authors, and other creatives, we need to be especially careful not to use someone else’s work and pass it off as our own. 

Please add on if you know any more sites for free images <3

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I'm sorry for being a horrible friend the past few weeks DX

I'm hopefully getting an apartment secured soon and calming down a bit 💜

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i might just fuck around and put a loaf of bread, a wedge of cheese, and an apple into a handkerchief, tie it to a stick, and hop on a freight train headed west 

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I'm old. My whole body hurts.

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Has this been done yet?

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if you’re not into some dumb embarrassing shit you’re not living your truth

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When you write a fic with that one reader in mind (and they comment on it ❤)

When you leave a comment on that perfect fic (and the author replies ❤)

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TODAY! Today is the one day!!

I FINISHED A MULTI CHAPTER FANFIC!

🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉

One day I will finish a multi chapter fanfic 🌼

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Anxiety Tip

So, I have social anxiety and when I first got into counseling I told my counselor about a few of my struggles and she gave me some tips, which I’m utilizing now, and I want to share with you.

Say you say something dumb on the internet or repeat yourself or maybe say “Have a good night” in the middle of the day.

How much does this matter in on a scale of 1-10 for the rest of your life?

Probably less than .00001.

That one botched interaction is pretty much a grain of sand in a desert of your life.

What is the worst thing that could happen vs. What is likely to actually happen?

It’s very likely that the other person won’t realize or notice even though you did, or if they aren’t a shit bag they will empathize, because everyone slips up sometimes.

It’s not easy, but confronting these irrational beliefs can really help how you react to situations and help you calm down and think logically, or at least it does for me and some others.

If you are struggling with simple interactions like these, don’t be ashamed or lose faith in yourself! Reach out and talk to therapist if you can, and if not, just keep going how you can.

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i’m so proud of u zev

@justhanderspositive

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things you can do at any stage in life:

love yourself

have a fresh start

go back to school

recover

make new friends

fall in love

go to therapy

learn a skill

discover your passion

repair relationships

change the world

find a new hobby

be happy

it isn’t too late for you. you’ll be okay. there’s no time limit on happiness.

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It's a struggle.

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when u get a new special interest

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For reference, this is what she’s talking about :

In conclusion: Fanfic is important, there’s nothing wrong with writing or enjoying it and the cast and crew of Good Omens are a gift.

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Had this weird dream last night that was like a mix between 4th July, Christmas, and a Pride parade. There were these fireworks right on the road as I was driving. I freaked out at first, but they didn't hurt the car. Then I turned into downtown and there were light curtains all over the homes, lit up in rainbow. There was confetti and people cheering everywhere and I legit was sad to wake up