kazaa

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some of yall are way too comfortable shitting on transmascs and trans men and making social media a scary place to exist (sometimes even in your own community) and it shows.

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still away from everything but i've enabled booping, so if you want to boop, feel free!

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The Future of Kazaa

or: "The Inevitable, possible End(?)"

(please read this post in its entirety)

hey! hope youre all well

over the last 10 years, i enjoyed the time spent on tumblr. i've lost and gained friends, changed fandoms and blogs, even got a callout for some stupid shit (that was mostly not my fault tbh)!

however, while other social media have definitely gotten even worse, tumblr is not exempt. bad apples have always existed and algorithms have always been kind of shit, although it has definitely increasingly gone downhill. not only has tumblr's general atmosphere gotten worse, there is almost as much drama and bullshit like twitter was and still is.

no matter how good you curate your experience, no matter how much blocking/muting words and no matter how much you try to fight tumblr layout changes, there seems to not be positive (long-term) change.

as such, i have decided to shelf and put kazaa on a possible indefinite hiatus. [PT: shelf and put kazaa on a possible indefinite hiatus.]

please understand that this wasn't a light decision and i may return at some point, but currently i feel no need and interest. i will still continue to like posts and converse over IM (or other socials, hit me up!) from time to time, so i won't be away entirely.

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crying sobbing because i cant get the boop badge for my blog because its a side blog

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REBLOG TO GET SUPER BOOPED!!!

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2023-07-27

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imagine going to your manufacturer and being like, alright. hear me out. we’re doing a super ultra double plane and its gonna be so fucking powerful

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if anyone is interested its actually called the D:\ drive bc C:\ is the main hard drive and A:\ and B:\ were originally 2 floppy drives

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I get why a lot of trans guys & transmascs become alienated or disenfranchised from the various trans and queer communities. A lot of trans men & mascs end up completely leaving queer spaces because they feel invisible, pushed out, unseen, unheard, or like they're taking up someone else's space. We are often invisible, even in our own communities, and it makes a lot of transmasculine people try to distance themselves from their own queerness.

It's okay if you feel this way. It's okay if you've become a jaded, tired, bitter, or angry trans man or masc. We walk a difficult path, many people refuse to even acknowledge that we exist to begin with, others will violently fight and oppose us, and police our identities. Many will tell us how we feel and identify and force us to comply with threats of violence and being cut off from housing and resources.

Transmasculine people experience an extremely high rate of homelessness. We are often completely stranded. It's okay to be pissed off when you continuously struggle to be seen, heard, and supported. It's okay to not want to explain what a trans man is for the hundred thousdanth time. It's okay to be a little fucking angry that nobody knows that you even exist.

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i love being intersex. there's no punchline i just love being intersex

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flat fuck friday

[i have commissions open now]

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RABBIT SEVEN BY MEGASCULPTURE

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also i modeled the circuit board for some reason

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officially 27 as of two hours ago.

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as the new year comes up, my only new years resolution is healing.

i've been very away and gone from tumblr and have had a hard time talking to people regularly, sorry about that. i have no excuses other than "its been rough". some of you may have seen me liking posts and stuff, if i am at a point where i'm better i will reblog these posts and set up a queue again.

right now, i'm genuinely struggling. i'm safe, but i'm kinda losing my mind not gonna lie. i'm talking to people who've gone through similar things until i can get something settled for therapy where people in my head won't immediately shut the idea down again and prevent me from going. until then, i'm collecting worksheets and bought a few books to work through it myself, as is usual.

until my next post. be well, everyone.

[kazaa]

almost scheduled reminder i'm still alive, merry christmas eve as well.

i'm recovering from a massive mental breakdown still, i've had massive amounts of stress happen since september and it culminated in being without testosterone for over a month.

i'm back on it now with an even better doctor than before and i hope he remains nice, i really need that.

so yeah, thats the current state of things