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[kerkellz]

“Wanna hear about me meeting Raine...?” He slowly teases out, to build up the impact and shit of it all as a grin slides onto lips, feeling like now that the air was clear, he could finally get to the Good Part...

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

“For sure,” he agrees, a little curl of a smile moving onto his own lips as he sees the lil bit move onto hers, like...how would she know that Charlie was...whatever the fuck his deal was, that not even being like...relevant any more now that the air was cleared, like...Charlie was cancelled...no, C*****. Wasn’t even worth giving him airtime, the real estate in his mind, really, when he was always on some bullshit, before a full smile curls onto his lips, moving to pick up his fork and...snatch a bite, all sneaky like, a playfulness moving onto his lips.

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

Sex with him? Almost doing a kneejerk scoff at That before stopping himself, would be a valid Question if it was anyone else other than fucking Charlie, probs. “Hell no, just wanted to talk with him in person, realized it was a dumb fucking idea, stood outside, watched him drive off, didn’t even speak to him, and then Evie let me in,” he recounts, giving the main play by play of how the night unfolded, figuring he could give the Actual cool parts of the night later, like meeting Raine, after talking through the whole...Charlie bullshit, if she still even..y’know, wanted to hear them,

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

“No,” Kerry answers, without even a second thought after the question, as he looks into Beej’s eyes, “I’m in Love with You. I want to be with You,” he seriously states as a soft passion moves through his eyes, before he continues on to explain, “I Love him but I’m not In Love with him, and I don’t want to Be with him. I just wanted to be…Friends with him, want him to have good things and shit, but we’re just fucking…toxic for each other, so guess true Closure shit just was never meant to happen there, and…it is what it Is.” Giving a little shrug of his shoulders, knowing that…he just had to let it Go. For his own sake and for the sake of shit with Beej.

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

Kerry blinks his eyes as he sees no motion to take the phone, moving to close it, as he just...takes a deep breath in through his nostrils before saying. “Part of me still Loves him, that part of me still wants him in my life, but he’s...fucking difficult and that part of me is Stupid.” He explains, as his eyes meet Beej’s, fucking stupid, like what the Fuck was he thinking.

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

“Yeah, just...” Looking down for a beat, before pulling up his phone, opening his text conversation with Charlie to let Bijou look and see Everything if she wanted, before meeting her eyes. “Got caught up being angry at him and shit, but don’t wanna keep any of this shit from you,” he says, a bit of a softness to his tone even as he like...fuck, wishes he Hadn’t been so caught up in this bullshit when there...were more important things sitting right there in front of him, stupid fucking Charlie.

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

“The night of the Met Gala and shit, trying to be mature and all like...Closure and shit and congratulate him and dunno, try and be friends and not just an Angry Aries, but...shit all went south,” he lets out as a deep breath moves through Kerry, fuck Charlie, fuck him.

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

Kerry gives a little nod as he finishes up paying, moving to take a seat before getting back to the shit, the shit...the beginning, right... “So you know that whole thing about having the heart to heart with Charlie...?” He floats out, remembering her text about having a heart to heart with Him and shit, figuring that was a good place as any...to start, even though, fuck him...

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

“You’d think, but nooo…” Kerry teases out with a chuckle, before…feeling like he had to be real abot he shit… “Can I start at the Beginning?”

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

A chuckle moves out of Kerry as he hears the whole shebang about having to be billed for two... “Hey, gotta keep my Sweet Uncle Fred costs down,” he teases back, before hearing the question about what he had been up to Today, shit...”What if I told you I spent the day sleeping off the Met Gala afterparty...?” He floats out, it almost being amusing if not for the fuckfest that had led him There, like who the Fuck would believe that he was at the Met Gala afterparty, or that he actually saw Raine, like that was some real hot girl shit...though Someone else, on the other hand, was really Not on their hot girl shit...gritting his teeth a bit as he thinks about You Know Who again, stupid fucking You Know Who...

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with…the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was…mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like…loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest…

[kerkellz]

Talk to Me [September 14, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

- Around 2:00 P.M. -

Kerry makes his way into Little Collins, a chuckle moving through him in spite of himself even as his mind was clouded with...the Bullshit from last night, the stupid fucking grade A steaming pile of Bullshit that he still was...mmm, a crack of a smile moving under his mask as he sees Beej Already there, moving to give her a lil shoulder nudgeeee, all playful like, “Looks like the Sweet Uncle Fred is on me.” Because that was part of the whole bargain, just like...loving fucking Charlie still probably wasn’t, a voice cuts in that makes the smile drop from his lips, thank Fuck for masks in the moment, about time there was Something that came out of this grade A fuckfest...

[kerkellz]

“I’d say...let’s explore it together. Learn about it and shit, let it tell us all its secrets...” He teases out as he moves back over towards her on the bed, sitting beside her as his eyes alight with a playfulness as they connect with her own...

Something About Wearing All Black [July 24, 2021]

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Kerry sifts through his closet, his eyes narrowing as he focuses, f o c u s e s, in on the whole artistry and shit vibe of things to try and pick out some good black clothes for the next matching outfit idea, Thanks Reez, a little amused smile curling onto his lips even as a bit of…mm, frustration, crosses through him at all his black clothes basically being workout wear, and that wasn’t the like…Vibe or whatev, or…aesthetic, the word popping into his memory in tá a fhios agat cé hé‘s voice, eh, ehhhhh, whatever, who invited That thought in there, fuck him, finally finding a really fucking…aesthetic…shirt, fuck you very much, as he realizes it was also courtesy of…tá a fhios agat cé hé, but mmm…he was on his grown ass shit, his aesthetic shit, and NatBrat was gonna get butt ass naked for charity, the whole Thing making him snort a bit internally even though it was kinda irrelevant…for him, at least now, not culturally…or whatevah, the faux-Boston meets ✨ holé but make it “sexy” ✨ What The Fuckery NatBrat sometimes fell into almost sarcastically crossing through the corner of his mind as he turns around to present the shirt for Beej to see. “Feeling this…?” He offers out to her, doing a little weighing scale motion with the shirt as he presents it for her to judge…see if it was the right vibe, or whatevah.

[kerkellz]

“I...Like it too,” he admits, a little half smile curling upwards onto his lips as he takes in just how the shit like...was laying (?) and like...shit, not exactly knowing the right fashion-y way to describe it, but just knowing it was like...A Good Fit, he admits to himself, because Cee knew his shit, as shit as he could be, he was all grown ass and Mature enough to admit That, as he looks at himself in the mirror, his fingers moving along the collar, before he looks back over his shoulder at Beej, even as a thought crosses his mind on this whole like...grown ass New kinda shit, on...mmm, not really liking the idea because Fuck him, but also, still...he was in a Good Place Now. A different one, so...before filing that away for Later, wanting to focus on the Here and Now, the little smile already curling upwards. “Already got thoughts on what you wanna do for yours...?” He curiously asks, wondering what ideas were calling to her.

Something About Wearing All Black [July 24, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

Kerry sifts through his closet, his eyes narrowing as he focuses, f o c u s e s, in on the whole artistry and shit vibe of things to try and pick out some good black clothes for the next matching outfit idea, Thanks Reez, a little amused smile curling onto his lips even as a bit of…mm, frustration, crosses through him at all his black clothes basically being workout wear, and that wasn’t the like…Vibe or whatev, or…aesthetic, the word popping into his memory in tá a fhios agat cé hé‘s voice, eh, ehhhhh, whatever, who invited That thought in there, fuck him, finally finding a really fucking…aesthetic…shirt, fuck you very much, as he realizes it was also courtesy of…tá a fhios agat cé hé, but mmm…he was on his grown ass shit, his aesthetic shit, and NatBrat was gonna get butt ass naked for charity, the whole Thing making him snort a bit internally even though it was kinda irrelevant…for him, at least now, not culturally…or whatevah, the faux-Boston meets ✨ holé but make it “sexy” ✨ What The Fuckery NatBrat sometimes fell into almost sarcastically crossing through the corner of his mind as he turns around to present the shirt for Beej to see. “Feeling this…?” He offers out to her, doing a little weighing scale motion with the shirt as he presents it for her to judge…see if it was the right vibe, or whatevah.

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Kerry lets out a small breath as he lets Beej take it all in, it kinda feeling Good, to get the little bit off his chest, before a little half smile cocks up on the rightmost corner of his lips. “Yeah. Let’s see. Gotta see how this shit feels and looks, right?” He offers, wanting to give the shirt its Fair Shot, why should the shirt suffer for the sins of its maker? Or some shit like that, yeah, moving to hoist his t-shirt above his head before moving to draw the other one back over his head, the materials and shit and the what was it...je ne sais quoi? Snorting a bit as he almost hears that French shit in Kel’s voice, not remembering Exactly what it meant but basically getting the vibe of of what the phrase meant, of the shirt, like you could tell the difference, between that and a normal old t-shirt, it just Felt Different, hit Different, damn...if there was one thing he never could knock Cee for, if was his hustle, his passion for all the fashion shit, his like...artistic je ne sais quoi full stop Kel-approved shit...he was Good at what he Did. He was grown enough to admit That. At least. Moving to strike a few poses with a bit of playful...je ne sais quoi, yeah, he offers the shirt to Beej for her full verdict. “Well...? How’s it look?”

Something About Wearing All Black [July 24, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

Kerry sifts through his closet, his eyes narrowing as he focuses, f o c u s e s, in on the whole artistry and shit vibe of things to try and pick out some good black clothes for the next matching outfit idea, Thanks Reez, a little amused smile curling onto his lips even as a bit of…mm, frustration, crosses through him at all his black clothes basically being workout wear, and that wasn’t the like…Vibe or whatev, or…aesthetic, the word popping into his memory in tá a fhios agat cé hé‘s voice, eh, ehhhhh, whatever, who invited That thought in there, fuck him, finally finding a really fucking…aesthetic…shirt, fuck you very much, as he realizes it was also courtesy of…tá a fhios agat cé hé, but mmm…he was on his grown ass shit, his aesthetic shit, and NatBrat was gonna get butt ass naked for charity, the whole Thing making him snort a bit internally even though it was kinda irrelevant…for him, at least now, not culturally…or whatevah, the faux-Boston meets ✨ holé but make it “sexy” ✨ What The Fuckery NatBrat sometimes fell into almost sarcastically crossing through the corner of his mind as he turns around to present the shirt for Beej to see. “Feeling this…?” He offers out to her, doing a little weighing scale motion with the shirt as he presents it for her to judge…see if it was the right vibe, or whatevah.

[kerkellz]

Does he Love it. Taking in the shirt again as he half wonders why the fuck he still even Has it, like hell whatevah ass even kept any of his old shit, or whatevah, but also it was Expensive Designer Shit, or whatevah...the NatBrat whatevah in his head suddenly getting really Old, ugh, but like anyone was gonna stop talking about NatBrat any time soon, ugh, the whole Him being all over the internet today and being associated, pft, associated was putting it lightly, more like perpetually attached at the hip, really, with Him kinda just...letting out a sigh, before sitting down on the bed next to Bijou, looking at her, just feeling...good, having her with him, she was something Good, and she made him feel loved, and like...shit...his lips curling upwards a bit as he looks at her, before drawing her into a deep, lingering kiss, before a playfully sly grin crosses his lips as he pulls back. “Just That,” he lets her know with a little wink, before the fucking...shirt, yeah, might as well be Real with her on that whole shit, what was that shit Mar liked on twitter kinda shit today? She knew what she was talking about...sometimes, maybe, he admits in his head. “It’s from Charlie and he still kinda pisses me off, if I’m being real, but like...shouldn’t waste a perfectly good shirt just because He’s an Ass, right?” He gets himself to admit, like...even with things being as good as they were, shit still...fucking stung, in that place, obv because Charlie was a...fucking ass, and had shit taste, and he had to Live With That, but still like...that wasn’t the Shirt’s fault, right?

Something About Wearing All Black [July 24, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

Kerry sifts through his closet, his eyes narrowing as he focuses, f o c u s e s, in on the whole artistry and shit vibe of things to try and pick out some good black clothes for the next matching outfit idea, Thanks Reez, a little amused smile curling onto his lips even as a bit of…mm, frustration, crosses through him at all his black clothes basically being workout wear, and that wasn’t the like…Vibe or whatev, or…aesthetic, the word popping into his memory in tá a fhios agat cé hé‘s voice, eh, ehhhhh, whatever, who invited That thought in there, fuck him, finally finding a really fucking…aesthetic…shirt, fuck you very much, as he realizes it was also courtesy of…tá a fhios agat cé hé, but mmm…he was on his grown ass shit, his aesthetic shit, and NatBrat was gonna get butt ass naked for charity, the whole Thing making him snort a bit internally even though it was kinda irrelevant…for him, at least now, not culturally…or whatevah, the faux-Boston meets ✨ holé but make it “sexy” ✨ What The Fuckery NatBrat sometimes fell into almost sarcastically crossing through the corner of his mind as he turns around to present the shirt for Beej to see. “Feeling this…?” He offers out to her, doing a little weighing scale motion with the shirt as he presents it for her to judge…see if it was the right vibe, or whatevah.

[kerkellz]

Something About Wearing All Black [July 24, 2021]

IN PROGRESS

Kerry sifts through his closet, his eyes narrowing as he focuses, f o c u s e s, in on the whole artistry and shit vibe of things to try and pick out some good black clothes for the next matching outfit idea, Thanks Reez, a little amused smile curling onto his lips even as a bit of...mm, frustration, crosses through him at all his black clothes basically being workout wear, and that wasn’t the like...Vibe or whatev, or...aesthetic, the word popping into his memory in tá a fhios agat cé hé‘s voice, eh, ehhhhh, whatever, who invited That thought in there, fuck him, finally finding a really fucking...aesthetic...shirt, fuck you very much, as he realizes it was also courtesy of...tá a fhios agat cé hé, but mmm...he was on his grown ass shit, his aesthetic shit, and NatBrat was gonna get butt ass naked for charity, the whole Thing making him snort a bit internally even though it was kinda irrelevant...for him, at least now, not culturally...or whatevah, the faux-Boston meets ✨ holé but make it “sexy” ✨ What The Fuckery NatBrat sometimes fell into almost sarcastically crossing through the corner of his mind as he turns around to present the shirt for Beej to see. “Feeling this...?” He offers out to her, doing a little weighing scale motion with the shirt as he presents it for her to judge...see if it was the right vibe, or whatevah.