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demisexuality didn't exist until 2006 when neil josten looked at all of his teammates and said "am I gay? or?" and then summarily decided no probably not but I will keep kissing andrew for as long as he wants to be kissing me

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touch my body tender

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Daily reminder that Nathan Wesninski died with his toes out

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Something that stood out to me in my aftg reread was how unhinged the upperclassmen actually are.

Matt fucking Boyd and his willingness to absolutely go at anyone, anywhere, any time. There's a scene where Kevin tells him to foul another player on the opposing team and Neil specifically points out the unrepentant grin he has on his face as he waltzes off court after it happens. He also is described as the best player on the foxes line up multiple times by Neil and his play style is aggressive, he uses his height and build to his advantage and he doesn't hold back.

Allison and Andrew have the exact same style of serving cunt, in that if you don't interest them they will not even acknowledge your existence. A player from another team attempted to score on the goal and both Allison and Andrew stood still and watched them miss with such bitchy indifference it probably gave that player ptsd. They also both have a habit of cutting through bullshit and demanding truth ESPECIALLY regarding topics other people would shy away from. Badass blonde bombshells.

Dan Wilds is just as rabid about Exy as Kevin and her every first thought goes to the game first just like Kevin. She's just better at making her second thought go to something else. She literally knew the second Seth was out of the picture that there was an opportunity there and she didn't even really hesitate to talk to Matt about it. She looked at Neil and whatever fucked up little thing he had going on with Andrew (as it would have looked to an outsider, let's remember that they all knew Andrew took him to Columbia and drugged him) and was like, how can we use this to make the team stronger. Like Nicky used Neil to manipulate Andrew but Dan did it better and with much more calculation.

Renee I don't even really need to talk about because Neil was always wary of her but there is one scene where Neil let's slip about his father's penchant for knives and Renee's reaction and understanding gave me chills. Renee uses that part of her to protect and that's really great because she would be terrifying otherwise.

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~TSC Spoilers (kinda)~

Decided that I’m blaming Kevin for Jean’s silly vocabulary

“Tedious malcontent”, “feckless child”, “abominable cockroach”

Like these have to be words that fell out of one of Kevin’s history books why else is Jean talking like a 19th century lord

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i love that neil spends majority of aftg being like omg they cannot find out that there is something wrong with me i have to be normal. and everyone who interacts with him is like Bro what the fuck is wrong with you

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Riko, Ichirou & "The importance of sibling bonds" ✨️

No one asked for it, but I needed to draw this scene 💅

Idk why. (Maybe because it's loaded 👀 with so many emotions)

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The voices told me to share this

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Omg yessss I’d be so thrilled w aroace jean

I don’t think Nora understands how feral I’ll go if jerejean becomes canon in tsc. I am going to be chewing on the walls like a rat I am going to be insufferable to everyone around me I am going to be mentally unwell

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someone name aaron’s baby for me thx

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New year, new obsession 🦊

I'm glad I looked past the first sentences of aftg, which really made me want to just close the book and never open it again. After a while, I somehow fell in love with that mess 💓

No specific scene or anything, just thought about how I imagine Andrew, Aaron and Kevin could look like (kind of at least)

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I don’t think Nora understands how feral I’ll go if jerejean becomes canon in tsc. I am going to be chewing on the walls like a rat I am going to be insufferable to everyone around me I am going to be mentally unwell

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RL footage from when I had to name (and number) all 29 Trojans + their 4 coaches + their 3 waterboys/assistants + their 3 team nurses + their mascot

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My absolute favourite piece of discourse started by the extra content is whether or not Andrew smiles again. Nora says no, however, he’s fictional and whatever happens after the end of the series is just headcanon, regardless of whether or not it’s the author saying it.

Anyway, my not so hot take is that a lot of people (myself included) relate to Andrew. Whether we’re survivors of csa, former/current foster kids or just struggle with mental health in general, a lot of people in the aftg fandom get it and have been in a (maybe not quite so) dark place like Andrew. Part of what makes Andrew fabulous, despite all his horrible actions, is his ending. He’s got Neil, a family, a future and he’s a massive symbol of hope for those of us who relate. So, I think he does learn to smile again, even if it’s a decade later. Because I want to keep that hope that things do get better and it’s possible to heal. It might not be realistic, but neither is anything that happens in the series. One day I want to be happy too, and if I want to project the idea of healing and having a happy family and a good support system onto a five foot tall fictional man I will.

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why's the quality sm better on here than instagram istg. anyway hot neil ;)