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Ambience of sin

2.Nov.2021

The ambience of sin flows beyond your shadowed eyes,

Blind and deafened you wait, silenced

You wonder

What exactly are you waiting f o r

and how do you know of its a r r i v a l ?

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Short Poetry

ambience of sin

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Short poetry

Longer poetry

[khavier]

𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

𝚆𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

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𝚆𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

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𝚃𝚅 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

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𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

𝙼𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

𝙱𝚘𝚘𝚔 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

𝚃𝚅 𝚜𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚎𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

𝙰𝚗𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚛𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠s

𝙼𝚊𝚗𝚐𝚊 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

𝚆𝚎𝚋-𝙲𝚘𝚖𝚒𝚌 𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠𝚜

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𝚂𝚎𝚊𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚘𝚗𝚎

𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠

Season one of Hannibal on Netflix really wasn't what I had been expecting. Going into it with the very basic knowledge I had did, however, have its charms.

We are introduced to our protagonist Will Graham who's occupation is teaching at an FBI academy due to him not passing the field exam for being too unstable. Will is placed on the autism spectrum which is what causes him to be somewhat unstable. After a bunch of girls go missing a man from the FBI by the name of Jack Crawford hires Will as a special investigator to help solve the crime, he hired Will because he had this so called talent that allowed him to feel complete empathy for strangers which allowed him to place himself in the mindset of said criminal.

Everytime Will would allow himself to think like a killer he would be left alone at the crime scene due to his social anxieties.

Due to Will's mental state however, the FBI assigns him a Psychiatric by the name of Hannibal. Will is not an official client to Hannibal due to the circumstances therefore the patient confidentiality does not take place when it comes to higher up's in the FBI, but even with this Hannibal refuses to share much of anything unless deemed crucial.

Hannibal would also sometimes accompanies Will to crime scenes.

Jack Crawford is warned by a friend of Will's to not let will get "too close" as they'd call it, referring to not letting Will reach a breaking point.

During the first episode some bodies start to show up mounted on Antlers and a serial killer earned the name the Minnesota Shrike.

At the end of the first episode Will pieces together who might be the kidnapper and the murderer of all the girls. As Will leaves the store, ready to go question the individual Hannibal is seen calling the number of the new-found suspect, telling the man on the other end that "they know" and are now after him, "they" being the cops.

When they get there they find the suspect, Garret Jacob Hobbs, holding his daughter, Abigail, hostage with a knife to her neck and his wife, already murdered.

In Order to prevent Abigail and others from dying, Will shoots Garret Jacob Hobbs dead and his daughter is sent to the hospital. Those two things happen to be quite important in the way things flow in the first season. The murder of Garret Jacob Hobbs has a deep impact on Will as he starts to see hallucinations of an "evil" reindeer and since he killed Abigail's father he has had a growing feeling of fatherly affection towards her.

Will and Hannibal eventually become Abigail's legal Guardians.

After this case, during therapy sessions with Hannibal, Will admits that killing that man made him feel good. This unsettling fact can lead people to believe that Will would start killing for the simple act of doing it.

The plot hidden within the crimes of each episode is not truly that hidden. Within some episodes we see some random act that does not correlate to the case at hand, in the background they seem to be focused on catching the Chesapeake Ripper or its copy cat.

We are then introduced to a journalist, Freddie Lounds, who gets her stories in very unprofessional ways which some would even consider to be illegal.

Over the course of season one we go through Will's journey of completely spiraling mentally the more cases he helps solve.

While this is silently going on in Will's head we meet a prisoner who habits at the prison for the criminally insane, who claims to be the Chesapeake Ripper. These claims to make sense at the beginning due to the evidence given but over time it slowly starts to lose its credibility.

We are also given glimpses of Hannibal's cannibalistic tendencies.

This is where season one really starts to get more interesting.

Will starts going through a psychotic break, he is dissociating, acting out and delusional, he no longer has control of what he is doing and people quickly catch onto this. Will we could say kidnaps the man who claimed to be the Chesapeake Ripper, Abel Gideon, but only because his delusion made him hallucinate Abel as Garret Jacob Hobbs.

Thinking Hannibal is the only person who would ever understand him he heads there.

Will breaks down in Hannibal's dinning room and this is where we see Hannibal's true colours more clearly. As Will is panicking about "Garett Jacob Hobbs", Hannibal assures him that he's hallucinating and that there is no one else in the room with them, despite the fact that there was. His intentions not being clear but also not being for the well being of Will.

We also witness earlier in the season Hannibal lying about Will's brain scan results which clearly indicated a problem, but he allowed Will to continue thinking that he was just really mentally ill.

During this psychotic break Will suffers a mild seizure which allows Hannibal and Abel to speak. When will comes to, Hannibal insinuates that his friend might be in danger and Will leaves to go protect her.

Once he arrives he sees Abel Gideon and shoots him.

Later on Will is starting to be suspected of being the copy cat Chesapeake Ripper.

Will takes Abigail back to her own house where he yet again suffers from a psychotic episode and comes to in a plane on the way home, not remembering how he ever got on in the first place.

While sleeping that night Will suffers with his usual night terrors and wakes up hastily. He does not feel well and eventually starts to choke and he makes his way to his sink, thinking he was about to vomit. When he does end up vomiting he realizes that he did not vomit but choke out an ear, said ear was later confirmed by the FBI to be Abigail's ear and Will is to be arrested and sent to the prison for the criminally insane but before this could happen, will pieces together that Hannibal Lecter is either the copy cat killer or the genuine Chesapeake Ripper.

There's a lot to unpack in this as in, why would Hannibal choose to lie to Will about his brain scan and his delusions? We do not get a clear motive or reason during this season for his actions. Another is what is truly causing Will's psychotic episodes because, yes, working crime scenes can be difficult but it was such a dramatic switch that was very out of no where. Other than the questions the first season provided up, it is a very good show so far, but it was decently slow paced at the beginning.

I would definitely recommend this show to others.

[khavier]

𝚆𝚒𝚗𝚍 / 𝚆𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛

A lot of people find both wind and water to be beautiful, others fear them. Some can be found somewhere in between. Some can find comfort in the feeling of the wind gently breezing through their hair or hitting their face, others find it terrifying of what it is capable of. Wind can easily knock down trees, knock people off their feet, take roofing off our houses and create natural disasters.

The same could be said with water, some people enjoy the cooling affects of bathing in it during a hot sunny day. Others fear the endless darkness beyond what we can see and the possibility of going under and never being able to get back up, their lungs filling up with water... Getting heavy... And losing consciousness.

Tsunamis are quite the force of nature, wind and water working together to make something so deadly yet there will always be people who will continuously love the two.

How can they live with loving something so beautiful yet fearing it just as much.

But what about those in between? The ones who fear it but can still take time to appreciate it.

Enjoying the nice relaxing breeze on a Thursday morning yet fearing what it could mean.

Enjoying how much water can cool you down yet fearing the endless possibilities of what lurks inside of it.

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𝙼𝚊𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚛𝙻𝚒𝚜𝚝

𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

Poems

𝚁𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚎𝚠s

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𝚆𝚘𝚛𝚍 𝚙𝚛𝚘𝚖𝚙𝚝𝚜

𝙲𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 / 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍

𝚆𝚒𝚗𝚍 / 𝚠𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛

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𝙲𝚘𝚏𝚏𝚎𝚎 / 𝚜𝚞𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚎𝚍

I sat alone at a round table in a small local café. It was a cold yet sunny day and I could feel the warmth of the sun caressing my face even through the windows. I enjoyed the warmth and took a sip of my coffee, it was very hot and sweet... Quite sweet, I might've added too much sugar in it. I eventually found myself sighing while looking at the time, they were late. I was to wait there for another 10 minutes with just a warm cup of coffee but though it wasn't much it was enough to somewhat keep my anxiety and worries suppressed. I order another coffee and continue my wait but I realize that they were probably not going to show up so i decide to pay for my drinks and start to leave.

As I was walking out the door I run into them outside. They were out of breath like they had ran here and I chuckle at the realization that they had probably overslept and were not trying to stand me up. I wait for them to catch their breath with an amused expression on my face before heading inside. We seat ourselves at a booth and I order more coffee. This many cups of coffee was probably unhealthy but I did not care at the time, I did not want them to feel bad about how long I had been waiting. At the end of the outing I look down at my now empty cup and smile, glad that I was able to keep my fears and doubts about waiting suppressed.

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