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Broken, this fragile thing now.

And i can’t, i can’t pick up the pieces.

YO YEARS OF BEING HIATUS ON TUMBLR AND I’m back with my emo jeonnie boi agenda 💕

for said boi: *sad violin bgm* you are my only my only oneeeeee 🤡🤡✨✊🏻

*signing out again*

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Entire sentence tbvh. There’s no knowing what will come, but hard work will get us somewhere.

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I’m supposed to write a long ⭐️ss heart-wrenching post about the last bts fm (4) but I can’t bc I’m gonna cry right away (what even lol) soooo next time when I’m ready (and have time, this is the actual reason 🤣)

So here’s tokyo film 🌙

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Anjsjsjsjs if this isn’t me

“I desire stars
 Why do l only yearn for
 what is out of reach”

—

Nicholas A Browne

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I’ll just leave it here

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Oh nooooooooo my fav kinda place

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From okzk to (you name it pls 💖✊🏻)

“Chin up. You never know, sometimes it’s a surprisingly short walk from nowhere to somewhere.”

— note to self (via c0ntemplations)

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And also as always, good teasers stay on my tumblr page. WATCH THIS AT LEAST ONCE IN YOURLIFE PLS. PLS LET GUKKIE’S VOICE ENLIGHTEN YOU ✨💖🌸

BTS (방탄소년단) ‘Euphoria : Theme of LOVE YOURSELF 起 Wonder’

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Letter for jjk

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It’s indeed euphoria bc we all know it’s temporary. BUT HUHU 💖✊🏻

you are the cause of my euphoria 

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““I cry sometimes, not because I’m weak. It’s because I’ve been strong for too long.””

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- Kathy B.

shoujoismybigtoe submitted to wnq-writers

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If you have a bad day, just look at these gifs

jungkook trying to hold in his laugh is the cutest thing ever

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January 2018 (III) 🌻🌻🌻🌙🌙🌙

It’s kiki again (for the 2754725947544 times today)

here we go on part 3! :D

21. Music that makes you feel adventurous

duh tricky question. this is war album.

and disconnected (5sos)

22. Three words that describe your style

cute concept no more

I CANT WRITE IN 3 LEMME PUT THOSE OK

but i still freaking love dusty pink

23. The last fiction book you read

how about the last fan fiction story i read instead? LMAO.

I HAVE PLENTY OF LIST OF THAT but mostly text fic which i love the most. place to learn recent emerging memes, bad jokes (BUT I LAUGH OUT LOUD LMAO), and bad pick up lines. I LOOOOOOVEEEE TEXT FIC SO MUCH MWAH.

s/o to all my fav textfic authors in ao3 i love you!

24. A project you’ve been putting off

Obviously my science blog project because i feel like there’s so much responsibility to write one, you know. Like if you want to put your argument or simple comment for one topic it has to be based on scientific evidence and I- idk it’s hard I’m very afraid that i might say / write something stupid UGH.

25. The thing that frightens you

THE. FUTURE, FULL STOP.

26. A person you would like to meet.

because the prompt is i would like to meet not I DESPERATELY WOULD LOVE TO MEET ASAP (lol the answer to this is obviously hello @/ my significant other WHERE THE HELL YOU AT? LMAO) so the answer is *drumrolls*:

JEON JUNGKOOK

UWU <3

*forgive me*

27. A change to make

Speak out my mind and my opinions more, like don’t be afraid of making mistake bc basically i’m beyond afraid that i’ll make stupid comment / question so instead i’ll just shut up and keep it for my self. But i guess it’s time to change, esp in this scientific world, i need to change for the better. uhu. pray for me.

28. Thoughts about today’s event

FRIKKING HELL. I just recovered from a major shock last night. there’s water leakage in my neighbour’s room (next to my room oh fuck) and the leakage touched the electricity plug for the gas generator (how do i say it but YEAH). No one was in the apartment last night except my neighbour at the first floor (WHICH DIDN’T CARE AT ALL WTF) but thank God my colleague came to help me overcome the problem (IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT IN THIS COLDEST WEATHER OH MY GOD) so we stopped the water supply from the main machine (?) and called the gas company and even called my landlord (this morning) HAH WHAT A WEEKEND. (and oh fk orjep)

Full story of this drama can be found on my twitter ehe.

29. One thing you will always do

be kind to everyone wherever i am even in the shittiest kind of place.

bismillah.

30. Something new to try

(still) Write a science blog? oho.

31. Your fav part of the past month

HEHE. I met my exchange bestf, stef in osaka during weekend.

Got a very huge amount of catching up here and there incl reminiscing our exchange year the goods the bads, visited whale sharks at kaiyuukan, eating here and there (WE ATE GYUKATSU MOTOMURA TWICE LMAO IT WASSSSSS SOOOOO GOOD AKKKK). Stef is (BEYOND) kind enough to bring all my stuff from indo (LIKE 20 kgs OF EM). I LOVE YOUUU!

and also the part when i thought my research went shit downhill but the rest of the lab think otherwise and very kind to me. (my trust level increase become 75% from 10% oke thank you and don’t disappoint me pls) ahaha <3.

Soooo that’s all for January 2018 prompts! 

I promised my self I want to write more (SINCE JAN 2017 LOLS) but something always come up (that something also could be jeon related matters or not but mostly yes) so heres to more writings in 2018!

Hope you have a good january. It was pretty rough for me I felt I’ve lived half year through 2018 but it’s only january. Hard times but people around me have been unexpectedly very kind UWU. 

Hamdalah.

till next post! 

uwu 

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January 2018 (II) 🌻🌻🌙🌙

Here comes part 2 AYYYEEEE~

11. A challenge you have overcome

WOW. the answer will be a challenge to live at this kind of society (OBVIOUSLY) (AND YOU TELL ME)

and i think i’ve overcome it (90% or- idk but yeah YEAYS BTCH)

P.S: try to live a life like mine here, you’ll cry non-stop for 2 years i’m sure. bye. (sorrry i’m being salty af ehe)

12. A need you can meet

Ugh, tbvh i don’t really get the question. Maybe like i need a distraction in my sad sad life here, and attending gigs is the best medicine i could have. so. yeah. and I regularly attend gigs if i find said gigs is interesting. Some people may think it’s such a waste but i love attending gigs since forever so sue me. and i might go crazy with the life here if i don’t do it so thats the need that i can meet (?)

13. A place you have been recently

Sendai including its fox village. yeah foxes are cute but less cute than i thought they would be. THEY’RE SCARY ASF WTF. LMAO. For the love of fox, if you don’t like fox that much trip to sendai is pricey as fuck so i don’t recommend. I just went there to meet my old best friend whom I haven’t meet in ages, if it’s not for visiting him in his place where he’s staying now, I won’t go LMAO. I could talk about sendai in 10 pages of essay but don’t wanna lols. just, maybe a trip that i never knew needed to be sure of something in life. HA. thank you and bye-bye i love kuki (and myself) <3.

14. Someone who made you proud

Can i answer this with jeon or not? or if i answer this with jeon people will think that I might be joking around? (BUT I’M NOT, joking)

so yeah jeon. jeon jungkook.

and also, my babi brother of course AHE UWU.

15. A good idea

How if I start writing my science blog in 2018?

Or this is a bad idea instead?

16. What are your personal gifts?

OHMYGOD. mmmm idk though even though i’m not that caring person (i have my own way and my own definition of caring OK), and somewhat ignorant (KIKI ROASTING HERSELF WTAF lols) i think i have a big big heart bigger than pacific ocean (BAD JOKES) and also a kind soul (idk people might have this assumption of me that I don’t show my true self to others BUT HELLO I HATE FAKENESS THE MOST so i’m trying to be honest all the time - oh yes except hiding something from your parents and money game with your cousins and brothers LMAO NAH) i don’t get it why there are some people who are kind but expect something in return or have their own intention, ewwwww. get out.

but yeah, once someone do something very bad to me, then it’s a game over i’ll cut him/her off so that i don’t need to suffer all my life between still want to be kind for them even though they hurt me, so bye-bye.

And also, uh i’m sincere and will put my 129828734826428% of efforts in doing something important.

I TALK TO MUCH WEEEE (and prolly non-sense)

17. A quote that inspires you

Can i put a verse from holy qur’an instead?

They plan, and Allah plans. Surely, Allah is the best of planners. (8:30)

words to live by.

18. A mistake that help you to grow

DIRECT ANSWER Y’ALL: coming here and accept this 5 year contract.

and indeed it helped me to grow (LIKE A LOT). FIN.

(back to the verse i put on the previous question)

19. When you feel most rested

What kind of question is this? Obvsly it’s when I have my beauty 8-9 hours of sleep. TAAA-DAAAA. I’ll wake up happy and beyond jumpy the next morning lols.

xoxo, resident polar bear.

20. Words you want to share with others

Mental health is one of the major concerns people talk about the most last year, and I found a good article about that. (it’s in islamic way point of view but it’s really good. Here it is)

https://www.islamicfinder.org/iqra/feeling-hopeless-and-depressed-heres-the-islamic-way-to-cure-it/

if you’re too lazy to open the whole article (YA KAYA ADA AJA YG BACA POSTINGAN INI KI HAHAH), i’ll copy some of them here. When i read this part, i feel like i’ve been slapped so hard. so i want to share it here ehe. 

“It is rooted in a sense of sheer helplessness where you feel like nothing is in your control. But that is the truth; nothing IS in your control. It is in Allah’s (SWT) control. Take a moment, embrace your lack of control over your circumstances, and know that the one in control is the best of planners and loves you more than you can imagine. Surrender your attempts to control your life, leave it up to Allah (SWT), and trust His plan for you. Sometimes, the human mind is unable to understand Allah’s (SWT) ultimate wisdom behind every single thing that happens to us. However, by accepting that Allah (SWT) is in control and welcoming His plans for us ultimately leads to the enrichment of our mind, body and soul.”

nangis sih tbvh pas baca itu heheee. like i mean i could relate in a spiritual lvl to those kind of situations when i blamed everything icl myself because everything that happened here. wow. emang perlu banyak2 diingetin yaaaa :’).

sooooo that’s part 2! 

till next time (in mere seconds LMAO depends on the speed of the internet)

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HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND

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