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God fucking dammit just say whatever you wanna say–you are interfering with my tarot cards and i really do not appreciate that.

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For a week i tried to implement the feeling of belonging and feeling one with the rest of people. But no.. You know what, no matter how many piercings, how much trauma, how quirky, how dyed the hair or how alternative somebody is.. Or lack thereof.. I still am not one of you. Any type of group, culture, collection of.. Characteristics.. All of them, i don't think i can truly be called one of you.

Maybe its just mental illness, or maybe it's something ancestral, astral in nature, maybe it's nothing but a delusion, something to make me feel better. But does it? No. It only reinforces pain and suffering. Solitude at a magnitude it could crush anything and everything.

Yet still, I dont feel part of you. Even if you say you do. Even if you relate, even if you tell me your story, even if.. No matter. I still dont believe it, i cant feel it. I dont see it. Youre there, in your world with all the others, and im here.. Standing and staring, waiting for all of this to be over.

We are not the same

So stay the fuck away from me

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Hate me. I don’t give a fuck anymore.

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So fukin funny how this boss was telling me about my coworkers and said shit like " so x is studying to become a judge, y is studying to become a psychologist, and k is studying to be a doctor." ( all in this order) "so what do you do?"

Me; dunno man, im just tryna, you know, escape my horror past and life

I dont think theres any humanity in all people in society, they never reason with actually seeing people. All they do is data and calculate profit, its like... Everybody is a psychopath. That term has become loose when we live in a society devoid of emotion and feeling, the only goal of mankind is to produce some kind of status and success.

Basically everybody is patrick bateman.

So i suppose in a way, in a world like this.. People like me truly are something special

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Imagine tryna do good but all paths lead you towards mass murder

Crazy, right?

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i be like "i'm okay" then show signs of psychosis

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Still unemployed coz i cant work 8h a day

But jokes on them... I had plan b all along hehe

Plan b ->

Theres no plan b.. This song bangs and ill listen to it to comfort myself

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There was a song i thought it was stupid when i saw the title but i tried it anyways and since then i only listen to that one song on repeat and if it was injectable i would inject it into my veins

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history | evil women

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bella

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