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Do what YOU want. Forget your parents expectations, forget what your friends want.. forget all that and do you. Friends fade, family can drift but the one person who’s there from the moment you’re born till the day you die, the one person who knows your every thought and feeling is you. Live your life people!!

-Austin

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I need someone who will talk to me about life, and crazy conspiracies..and make me wonder… make me think thoughts I should only think if I was stoned 😂

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Need me a girl who damn well knows how ugly I am but still comments stupid emojis like ‘😩😍’ under my pictures 😂

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My happiness always depends on someone else.. I’m always worrying about either someone’s safety or their honesty. Don’t try to come into my life if you’re not prepared for this. I will get attached quickly and I’ll worry my ass off about you.

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Time won't stop long enough

I lay here and wait for the sweet release of death as the days go by and the humid summer nights become chill autumn winds and the leaves on the ground become a harsh and reality shattering noise that brings me to the realization that even tho my mind stays in the past, the world around me continues as if I haven’t just had my whole world wrecked, the seasons pass and the calendar turns even as I stay locked in my memories

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I’m tired of falling in love and trying with everything I am to make them love me too, only to crash and burn every time

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I'm tired of falling in love and trying with everything I am to make them love me too, only to crash and burn every time

-kinda.dead/lit.depresstion/raw.heart

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Time won't stop long enough

I lay here and wait for the sweet release of death as the days go by and the humid summer nights become chill autumn winds and the leaves on the ground become a harsh and reality shattering noise that brings me to the realization that even tho my mind stays in the past, the world around me continues as if I haven’t just had my whole world wrecked, the seasons pass and the calendar turns even as I stay locked in my memories

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Idk how to explain it.. she just has this way about her, like she does this cute little smile thing w her tongue sticking out and throws the 🤘🏼🤘🏼 and just the way she looks sometimes and her eyes. Ugh I could write pages and pages about her eyes. And even her hair is just amazing to me it's so silky and it's cut short bc she got ticks in it Bc of her and I in the woods and she just can make me smile like no one else can. She's hilarious and chill and it's great but she also has her guard up all the time Bc of how much she's gotten hurt and she seems to let it down and I see her perfect lips curve into a smile and her sad eyes widen and awaken.. and her little dance moves 😂❤️ ugh I can't handle her at all. She's just so goddamn adorable and precious even tho she has a savage attitude. And she just doesn't understand how sad it makes me when she hurts herself Bc to me she's so amazing and again, precious. She's a princess and a big heart in this shitty world and the world doesn't deserve her.

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Girl Logic

"I've dated guys just like this before. He broke my heart and lied to me. This new guy is just like him. But he's tall and cute so yolo"

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My happiness always depends on someone else.. I'm always worrying about either someone's safety or their honesty. Don't try to come into my life if you're not prepared for this. I will get attached quickly and I'll worry my ass off about you.

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You don't remember the last few seconds or minutes before you fall asleep because that's when they come out and put you out

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Doesn't it suck when you can't tell anyone about the thing you can't stop thinking about?

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Dog Filter Challenge

Walk or drive out to a wooded area at night, with it being pitch black walk in 100 steps (make sure you can’t see the whole time.. after 100 steps pull out your phone and pull up Snapchat, bring up the filters and click the dog filter, turn around and with the camera facing the way you came take a picture.. if there isn’t anything there you win, go home.. but if a face is captured by the app and a dog filter is produced, you lose… run! -Austin Kirklin//@austin.kirklin

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I told my ex I’d send her the song I wrote for her that I had deleted from SoundCloud.. instead, she revived a file telling the bitch to fuck off

Austin//@lit.depression

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tell you the truth I don’t care what you think I shouldn’t do.. My life.. I’m done being scared of you and mom.. I’m going to do what I want, especially with words/music..

I care more about me being happy than you being happy

And you two always talking bout getting respect?? You’ll get it when I do… using a program meant to protect preteens when they first get a phone

And why? Bc I smoked weed…which I lied about btw Edith had nothing to do with that, in fact she was the one who first told me to stop and I was too stupid to listen Also Brice had nothing to do with me smoking... I wanted to and I did, he didn't make me or reply even ask me to I wanted to.. Besides what’s that got to do with my phone? Even if it did I have more ways I communicate; Instagram, fb messenger, email, twitter

Speaking of Edith it was your guys fault our relationship was the way it was.. from the moment you guys heard about her you were calling her a hoe and putting me on edge and made me overthink everything she did

You people have ruined my life, My best and basically only friend is too scared of mom to even text me back most of the time… I miss Brice more than you’d understand

I’m not letting you dictate what i listen to… it’s retarded you got it so I have to send a request, they won’t stop a single thing.. in fact the stuff that plays on my pandora is way worse than khary (xxxtentacion for one, you’d hate him)

And making me turn in my phone at night? That’s the most moronic thing you could do

Night is when I get most depressed, how is taking one of the few things that makes me happy doing anyone any favors?

You people are bible thumping idiots, not every single thing offends whatever god you’re thinking cares about all that

You people are holding me back in life!!!

I CANT MF PROGRESS IN THIS WORLD WHEN IM TOO DEPRESSED OR SCARED TO DO ANYTHING!!!!

I can’t wait till I get home and you try to convince me I’m wrong… I’m not…

sorry I’m not a perfect son, maybe because mom got horny and let my dad smash when they were way too young

That’s her fault.. don’t see why that makes her think imma act the same as her, I don’t need to be oppressed bc I’m a bastard, I already have all these mental problems that I have;

ADHD and sensory for sure but probably Bipolar, I have mild signs of schizophrenia and this is the age that usually starts manifesting… I’m paranoid, I’m anti social, I’m depressed, I’m short(not mental but probably most debilitating) I’m also irrational 24/7.. oh and don’t forget I got the strange combination of being an ugly narcissist.. oh yea and my brother who is two years younger than me has more freedom, is taller, actually gets girls, and is athletic ect..so that does something to a person

Why are you people trying to make me hate life more? It’s a hard job but you are passing with flying colors

Always telling me I’m smart and can do all these things but you clip my wings..

I’m sorry my mother decided she wanted to be a hoe but that doesn’t mean you guys gotta treat me like I’m some baggage she brought with her, I’m not the ghost of my dad here to haunt you, I’m here bc they did what they did

I am my own person.., honestly just kill yourself if you think I want to be anything like you. Stop trying to make me be…it’s the last thing I want.. You’re not something to aspire to be

I will be me and you will deal with it or you can get out of my life

You should be honored, you’re only the second person/people I’ve ever wrote something this long to 😉

You barely know what I listen to.., you think chance is a risqué? Try Lil Uzi Vert, XXXTENTACION, Earl Sweatshirt, Tyler the Creator, Odd Future in general, Lil Yachty , Future, Lil Boom, Ugly God, And yea some Khary ,. Also Kodak Black, J.Cole 💙, Blackbear, Childish Gambino, Hopsin 🙏🏻, G-Eazy.. you know Eminem, Migos, Wiz Khalifa

Love your idea of listening to my jams together💯 love to see you listen to some of them😂

I’m being serious.. I can’t wait till the lecture I get from this.. I’m not gonna ‘learn’ anything.. you have no idea how long I’m been holding this in.. or how long I’ve been censoring my music

I’m probably forgetting a lot but I’m gonna end up talking about it eventually.. I can’t sit on this too long or I will never send it so here