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feral.

i was going through my drafts..and i came across a bunch of .. like a bunch of my writing of mc x caleb. like ive said before, it's important that it's mc x caleb bc the one topping here is her.

i will just..um. post them right here and leave it here for all of you to see how unhinged i was. no idea what was i on but have fun!

also, tw! implied coerced sex, implied cheating, necrophilia? it's the dead dove kinda and it's implied but just proceed with caution. when i say psuedo-incest, i mean it. the tw for psuedo-incest is there bc mc calls him 'gēge' and i just want to play it safe.

i don't know if ive posted these before but as far as i remember, i don't think i did. but yeah. um, as you can see. i am still very much hooked on feral mc and caleb being a bottom for her. and i typed gēge wrong in my notes 💔💔💔

for my fellow self-inserts like (x reader, x you), don't worry! take it as you lock him up and you keep him by your side. or better yet, he drunkenly got into a one-night stand with you and you blackmail him into sleeping with you more and well. if you want to take it further, you are working with the doctor and you are poisoning his mind (removing that 7% that remembers mc) so he can be with you and only you.

yeah! of course, this can definitely be angsty. and for those who want the better/good ending, you let him go eventually bc you realise that he will only ever remember her and you can never replace her in his mind no matter what. so you sleep with him for the last time and you let him go.

thing is, will he allow himself to leave you behind? (atp the stockholm syndrome warning should come in place gdi).

okay thank you once again for hearing me out. hahaha....i swear im not insane...

on another note, i'll probably add on caleb's declining mentality abt how he was only taken in bc you favoured him and that's why grandma josephine was at least treating him nicely. yeah. okay i'll stop here.

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i think it's cute if mc were to disturb caleb in the middle of the night. can't sleep? just disturb him! he's always doing that anyways - it's just that she's always fast asleep to even notice.

wakes up with moustache on her noise, cat whiskers on her cheeks, and an ugly picture on her forehead. this happens every now and then - maybe often, depends on whether both are home for the holidays. depends on how young they were.

still, this means that if he takes it too far, mc would definitely hang out with zayne for the entire day or two - she can't last a week. she's petty but trying to ignore him for a week when the both of them hardly see each other is really a pain.

at least for a good day or two, she can see how much a good boy he's acting. getting up from the couch to grab her something, inching away to make space. buying her her fav snacks? buying her her fav meal? and more.

it's a pleasure to always quietly watch him do these things for him, no matter how mean it can be because it means that caleb feels sorry, that he is desperate to make it up to her.

OR. that's why he pretends to fall asleep so MC can exact her revenge. there's this line that he says 'i hope i can fulfill our old promises one at a time' or something like that. i wouldn't put it past him to actually allow her to exact her revenge on him on purpose.

sighs..i love them sm..

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pinning or pining?

Oh MY GOD IM GOING INSANE.

I just started playing the event but GOD. Caleb, if I pin you down rn, I think you'll just be on your knees like the good boy you are. I'm going to pull my hair out. I love you MC. I love you so much.

Has anyone ever written an MC x Reader? It should be a thing. Actually, is that considered as yumeship? Nevermind. Oh, Caleb. Caleb, I missed you so much.

Yeah, not much rambling from me for now. I need to catch up with the event. I'll ramble in another post about him being a bottom again. HAHAHAHAHA..man I love Caleb..He's such a good boy. He can take the teasing too. Can dish it out and can take it.

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soo, there are a bunch of songs that fit caleb. some songs can be quoted and some songs as a whole can fit him. right? right.

...what do you think of 'no longer you' for caleb? like. okay, each epic the musical songs fit the LADS men. maybe that can be another post for another time but genuinely. like. do you see the vision???

caleb is losing himself each and every day, it won't take long before he loses that 7% of himself too. the song 'no longer you' SUITS him. it screams him.

maybe i'll write something for it, for him. rambling halfway through has me brainrotting for more ideas of fwb!caleb. im doomed. maybe i should change my name is 'obviously-obsessed'. oh god.

anyways, likewise, here are some ideas that would probably never be fleshed out at all so y'all can jst read them.

some of the songs like - i know those eyes/this man is dead, or wildflower, just screams him sometimes that i curl up in a shrimp and began frantically typing only to lose my ideas halfway. my brain hates me

01: you didn't mean to hurt me so i kept it to myself (wildflower).

[ thinking of how mc doesnt push for things even though she should, each time he leaves and he doesn't reach back to her makes her feel queasy - is there others out there? others better than her, someone who isnt as broken, shattered and hurt as her? the feeling of betrayal will never go away, it still lingers and it hurts her sm. ]

you would wake up disoriented sometimes. You remained oblivious of course, to the implications of what it could've mean.

you would shrug it off because they were no different from your terrible nightmares and that eye that stares down at you.

you shouldn't think so much about it, right? Then, why? Why would you see this person before your eyes, kind and warm and gentle, holding you so close..

why was his expression..

you should ask, but each time, he holds your hands and introduces himself, his warmth only melts away this terrible pain and that hole that feels wrong-

it's filled with him, like an apple that has been stripped down to its core. you would be whole again when he is around.

02: this man is dead, he is no more. he died a little each day. : in which zayne watches mc lose her mind, become grief-stricken with her loss of caleb. and now that he is back, he knows that that isnt caleb but what can he say against someone who loves and bleeds and lives only for him? so he quietly observes from afar. tldr, mc dancing with caleb and zayne watches. angst, angst, angst.

think of it as ballroom dancing with caleb. a masquerade party to be specific. but nothing beats zayne's eyes and he sees you dancing with him. you are only too happy, oblivious to the one standing before you is long gone.

man, there are more. i want to spam more but more means involving other characters and im already scared that i might be tagging it wrong. do you have to mention their names if the blog is 75% abt caleb? no? anyways. i would do a playlist..but 😞 im not creative like that.

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mermaid theater.

So, are you guys okay with hearing about rafayel from me? my oc? no? it's okay i want to talk about them anyways and y'all can listen to me.

ive brainrotted quite a lot during work bc. it's rafayel. and mermaid theater by kanon69 sounds so majestic i would write stories bc of them. so hv ideas that i would probably nvr write.

right now, i am the princess. : royal scandal au! rafayel is mina and mc is prince albert. just someone who wishes to pursue royalty. tldr, pretty my little mermaid x cinderella au for these two bc im soft and iw my slight angst AND I LOVE THIS.

who do you see in your gaze, my nameless prince?: another one would be a play by the same song, directed by thomas. ft my oc - Araxie.

ironically, i came up with my OC - Araxie - who happens to be quite similar to Rafayel. except for the entire .. um .. falling in love part. so, Araxie was initially an OC for Genshin's Enkanomiya Lore. then, the whole thing happened and I don't really bring her up often again..until now, ofc.

This is her. I'll probably make a much more lore-accurate one next time in LADS. She is old, and I really love her. I don't ship her with Rafayel, because even though she is old, she is like my child OC so I just see them as having a siblings bond at most.

i feel like im going to go MAD bc iw them to interact. iw to write interactions between them. i want to SO badly but im so scared at the same time. will rafayel be misrepresented in here? will he be too ooc? is it okay? is it fine?

he's my bby as well as caleb so im terribly afraid to write him as wrong 😭😭😭

thank you for listening to me ramble. im so horrible at this wtf

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desperate.

brainrotting hard bc i cannot function rn. im high on angst and even though it's valentine's day, i want to inflict pain so here.

you can take it as a continuation from my previous post bc this time it's MC. or actually maybe don't bc that's fwb thing and this is an entirely different one - moreso, related to canon.

since it's canon that mc quite literally doesn't know where caleb goes, worries abt him and doesn't know when he will come back, do you think she will snap if he doesn't rmb her?

im taking this a dark turn btw bc genuinely i think all this time, caleb has always assured her that he will be by her side and that he will protect her. yet, this promise he breaks again and again and again until mc probably has had it.

she starts out sane at first ofc, she holds him close and tries to reason with him. however, no matter how much she tries, he doesn't remember. it can take a week, to a month, to more.

slowly, she can start to lose it and she just starts to lock him up. "dw caleb, soon enough, you'll rmb me again" > crazy talk fr. ooc maybe but she will jst be unhinged (or maybe not so ooc,, considering MC's canon behavior around caleb..) will cook for him, will talk about the past, will assure him that you will be by his side and it's okay for him to take his time now bc he isn't going anywhere now.

he won't go anywhere now. what does he mean he has to go back? go back where? there is nowhere to go except here. his home. her. he called her his home so why is he flying somewhere else?

she is so sick and tired of trying to be his equal, to fly to a place where he is always so far. he talks abt how he loves her, how he will be there for her, but this is not the caleb that she knows. that she grew up with. this caleb is a stranger.

bonus points, if he treats her warily, a machine fully controlled by the doctor and doesn't want to entertain her. bonus bonus points, if he probably likes it (bc a part likes it, somewhere inside there but he can't like the enemy he can't).

play cure by ivantill bc these two are living through it. damn.

anyways, tldr; I just want mc to lock caleb up bc caleb is such a hypocrite i love this man and hate him at the same time. makes me want to gnaw on his neck sometimes. also, side of angst bc if he fully turned into a machine + aftermath of main story. hahahaha...happy valentine's, if it still is 😭🫶

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pitiful.

to kind of cleanse y'all's eyes after that post bc what. that's me when im desperate to pin caleb down myself - i mean what.

i gen think caleb is a loser when it comes to mc. like it's not been said enough times. he will do anything for you, buy you chocolates, give you his chocolates, give you his flowers, give you his snacks, his drinks, his food, his snacks, everything.

it's precisely this behavior that would put him in the worst kind of scenarios if mc was mean. fwb? them? caleb just being desperate enough to feel love and showcase his affections for his one and only, even if he would be treated like crap?

caleb would cling onto her, would make sure she is clean and well-rested, and yet. if it came to him, she wouldn't care for him. while this is ooc (and very much so, if you understand that mc really does match caleb's freak in ways more than one), it's not entirely impossible.

fwb! calebmc as he showers her with sweet aftercare, but mc unwilling and pushing him away most of the times. caleb desperately convincing her to stay for dinner, and mc brushing it off.

just the sheer idea of having wet, sad puppy caleb staring at her longingly, feeling his heart ache and hope dim in his eyes as he tries again and again, only to be used by mc.

anyways, yeah. i love calebmc guys. even more so, if i get that sweet angst. dw calebreader/calebyn lovers, i still love that idea if it's reversed. hahaha....caleb taking you behind if you dress up as mc....

anyways, happy early valentines' day 🫶 im going to spend the whole day, brainrotting over this. doesn't help that ive written scenarios of this before....

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MC x Caleb

Adding on to my previous post about MC matching Caleb's freak,,,

Ironically I wrote something small for it and this was before I took that screenshot so enjoy..I guess???

Edit: This came in soo late because I was cringing BUT I was BRAINROTTING LIKE BRO. He really will let MC do anything to him, cling to her and plead for her to stay, chain her up, etc. Oh and I'm also awful at writing such scenes so just have my manic rambling/writing instead 😔

TW: Um, breeding kink. Sub! Caleb and Top! MC. Does this count as hate sex? Psuedo-incest???

v specific word choice bc mc is the top this time.

mc matches caleb's freak in every way so this time, instead of everything, it's MC who holds him down and pins him down and rides him

she chains him and she makes sure to tease him, show him what he's been missing (he's been missing nothing)

"that's right. that's my good brother. lay still and let your beloved sister ride you." "haha, you're insatiable aren't you? like a dog?" "come now, surely you can give me more. fill me up, dog. fill me up and breed me like the horny bitch that you are. that's what you want, don't you? to impregnate your own sister? you get off to it, don't you?"

it's crazy and it's maddening. to talk to him like that, to whisper as her nails rake down his spine as he shudders from the blatant teasing, whispering promises that he WANTS to fulfill bc it's her. it's her and -

in the end, all he can do is accept it and allow her to do as she pleased. After all, who is Caleb without her? What is he without his owner?

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He is NOT HELPING. Oh, how can I call you a top when you are such a bottom for MC? Oh my god. This is what I mean by, is he really a top if he allows MC to do as she pleases with him? MC, we may not be similar but at least you SHARE MY BRAINCELLS HERE 😭😭

Anyways, have more screenshots of MC 'topping' Caleb.

I placed 'topping' bc right after she teased Caleb, she did this:

I'm not a good photographer nor am I good at timing my pictures right. Ugh. It's okay, the words are what counts the most. 😞

No title bc it's probably another piece to the 'MC kinda is...' post. Man, MC and Caleb... (I'm ignoring the angst and the surefire way that my heart will be smashed into smithereens,,, hahaha,,, haha....Doctor Lucius, it's on sight when I see you...)

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Caleb and Reader or Y/N

I saw someone post abt them needing a Caleb x Reader angsty fic and I'm..actually not here to deliver 😭,,,

Those who knows Royal Scandal would know Rosetta and Chelsea and Louis, right? Chelsea can be MC, Louis can be Caleb, and Rosetta can be Reader.

There is also Death Is The Only Ending For The Villainess..? An AU? Where Caleb is Callisto and MC is the girl. At this point, I only read snippets of it but I don't remember the full story. Reader can be the villainess.

Basically, transmigration au but treat it like, Reader is taking MC's place (maybe this can happen after the Sixth Love Interest taking out her heart, this killing her - an after-ending sort of thing) and Reader is trying to navigate MC's choices AGAIN. Having an identity complex bc others love her as MC except for her herself, knowing she would never be loved as herself as she is seen as a replacement for MC. (Yoosung's Route flashbacks, anyone???)

Um, yeah. That's all I can flesh out for now for the angsty ideas. ..ORV AU anyone? Okay, I'll stop. Basically either Royal Scandal AU or Transmigration AU 😞

Placing aside the possible fic ideas (anyone can use them if y'all understand what im talking about, just let me know..I guess???), their dynamic would be more like exasperated reader or Y/N listening to Caleb go on and on and on abt MC.

There is during the experiment Y/N or Reader and also after the experiment Y/N or reader.

Number 1: Test Subject 003, Left to die by Caleb but wasn't abandoned bc you got taken in by Granny. First one to move out of the house. Bittersweet memories bc you existed before MC but you can't hold a light to her. You probably blame yourself for not being strong enough to break yourselves out. Caleb doesn't blame you, but bc he priorities MC over you, he might as well do.

Number 2: Like I've mentioned, existed before MC. Left home first and didn't come back. Won't come home at all bc MC and Caleb are extremely close and don't want to break your heart. Only comes home for Grandma.

There could be more elaboration but this is what I think could be their relationship. Friends to strangers in a blink of an eye. I could be wrong though.

If you got to the bottom of my rambling, thank you for trying to decipher my manic and nonsensical writing 😭😭😭

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hi bestiee :3

hii oomf 🫶

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MC is kinda...

mc's as freaky as him and im pretty sure this is tamer compared to other things mc has said to him,,,

anyways, do you think caleb is a top bc he is one or bc he just wants to rail MC desperately? like is he a top TOP or a bottom TOP?

difference in the second one is that, he is only a top bc MC wants him to be one. i have no idea what am i blabbering anymore but if anyone understands, thank you. if not, it's okay.

i went insane bc this man has consumed my thoughts and mind 😭 (but mostly mc. girl is freaky like him and she's bringing it OUT to match his freak omg,,)

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𝗌𝗎𝗇𝖽𝖺𝗒! 𝖼𝖺𝗅𝖾𝖻

thinking of how similar sunday and caleb possibly are,,,

caleb thinking of how pure and innocent you were that surely you must be an angel sent from above

you following behind him like a lost puppy, like a bird that grew attached to him. seeing you is always enough to calm him down no matter what

those researchers would allow you to stick around, to trail behind him like a shadow. you listened to his ravings with such wonder in your eyes and wasn't that sublime? delicious? he wanted to taste you, wanted to have you, wanted to take you-

your voice was so sweet and soft, always ready to break, always on the brink of crying. how utterly fragile you were that he could only hope to keep you within his reach forever

this love was twisted and he hoped to taint you.

he would hold you close and whisper oh-so-gently what it would be like if he held you like this too, if he touched you like this too.

such thoughts permeate in his mind, driving him insane. his wants consume him and his desire burns him alive.

so, he must pray all the more. he confesses his sins and his problems, clasping his hands together to hope for an Aeon to save him from these delusions.

who was he kidding? he knew it wasn't enough.

each time, those doe eyes stared at him, his fingers twitched. each time you smile so brightly, he wants to kiss you, feel you, taste you, claim you, *claim you*, claim you-

but he can't, no no no no-

disgust overwhelms him and he is forced to put himself to more work. to rid himself of such filthy thoughts, to control himself more.

you only sees him as a childhood friend, one close enough to be considered as family. how dare he think of such, when he should see you like his *own* sister?

he gasps in pain for the amount of times he has attempted to take extreme needs to cleanse himself, to hope that with this, he could finally be free from this worldly filth.

to take part in baser desires makes him feel a guilt that penetrates him deeper than those imaginations.

he just wanted to give in and that does it.

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