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[Dorian] was abducted from the home of Lord Ulio Abrexis–absent at the time, though his son was present–and spirited back to Qarinus by ship.

In an effort to contain the scandal, Magister Halward evidently kept Dorian a veritable prisoner in their Qarinus estate for months. When Dorian finally escaped, he fled into the countryside with not a coin to his name, vowing never to return. (World of Thedas v.2, p233-234) 

Halward Pavus was an abusive father long before blood magic ever crossed his mind. Halward thinks that lying to and manipulating Dorian is a perfectly acceptable way to make Dorian do what he wants. (He tricks Dorian into a meeting he knows Dorian doesn’t want to have, and when Dorian calls him out on it, he apologizes for lying to the Inquisitor, but not to Dorian.) If that doesn’t work, he physically forces Dorian to do what he wants. (see above!) If that still doesn’t work, hey, there’s always blood magic!

Blood magic wasn’t a sudden act of desperation. It was the next stop on a road of abuse Halward had been on for a long time. It just happened to be the stop where Dorian got off. 

Halward doesn’t want to heal his relationship with Dorian. He wants his obedient son back, and he’s maybe willing to make a few small concessions to get that. Halward is manipulating Dorian in that conversation. In no particular order, here are some of the highlights: 

”*gasp* I should have known that’s what this is about!” implies that Dorian’s entire reason for joining the Inquisition was shallow and the way it’s worded is accusatory. 

“If I knew I would drive you to the Inquisition…” has a not-very-subtle implication that Dorian is doing this to hurt Halward on purpose. 

“Once, I had a son that trusted me,” is pretty fucked up too, considering that it’s Halward throwing Dorian’s words, Dorian’s anger, back in his face, and since Halward said this before he said anything that even approached an apologized, it just comes off as another accusation that Dorian is doing this on purpose, just to hurt him. At the absolute best, he is trying to get Dorian braced for a fight, so that Dorian will feel off-balance when the apology finally comes. 

“*sigh* This is how it has always been!” is a judgement on Dorian, at the very beginning of the conversation. Why is Dorian being so difficult? 

“I only wanted what was best for you!” Okay Dorian calls him out on this in canon. It shouldn’t even need an explanation.

Considering that this conversation is supposed to be about Halward apologizing, a Hell of a lot of it is spent discussing Dorian’s [supposed] flaws and what Dorian [supposedly] did wrong. Halward makes bullshit excuses, calls Dorian shallow and difficult, and twice tries to make Dorian feel guilty for hurting Halward before Halward says anything that even approaches an apology. This conversation is four fucking minutes long. Halward did all of that in four minutes. 

And when the apology does come, Halward gives no indication that he understands what he did wrong and will not do it again. He makes vague comments about betraying Dorian’s trust, but he doesn’t even respond to Dorian’s comments about how he tried to change him. At no point does he in any way affirm that Dorian is good enough for him as Dorian is. At no point does he validate or really respond to anything Dorian says about his feelings, so that Dorian feels heard in this conversation. 

Meanwhile, Dorian keeps trying to walk away. Dorian keeps trying to walk away from this meeting that he was tricked into attending. To be fair to Halward, it’s the Inquisitor who keeps sending Dorian back, not Halward chasing Dorian, but the fact remains that Dorian clearly does not want to have this conversation, and finds it extremely emotionally distressing. 

Which is another important point, honestly: Apologies generally should not be upsetting for the person being apologized to. Dorian is yelling, defensive, and on the verge of tears for more than half of that conversation. That’s a flashing neon sign that something is very wrong with this “apology.”

Halward Pavus is a horrible, abusive man, His apology does nothing to reassure me that the cycle of abuse is broken and not just in the honeymoon phase, and Dorian keeps trying to exit the conversation.  

Just some things to keep in mind if you’re ever conflicted on whether or not your should send Dorian back to talk to his father.

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sketch commission for @duskflight !!

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Saw a post about how halal and kosher meat will likely be the only reliably safe options in the US because their safety and cleanliness standards aren't dictated by what's the barest legal minimum that government food safety regulations demand.

So you're like 5 years away from "ever notice how the musulmans and jews never get sick from bad meat? clearly this is proof that they are poisoning us" right now.

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nothing has been more important to my being queer than when i went to my first pride parade, got seperated from my group, had a panic attack about it and was sitting on the side of the road holding a tiny genderfluid flag and freaking out. then this six foot five drag queen in four inch heels appeared from literally nowhere and sat down next to me. i, this scared-shitless trans bi kid at pride for the first time, very nervously told her she looked pretty and i told her my name and that i got lost and didn't feel like i should be at pride and she held my hand and said "oh, honey, everybody deserves to be here, especially you. pride is for everybody who's ever gotten lost, who's been scared of who they are or where they are. you think we never been scared before? pride's for you, honey, because you're scared. you don't have to be proud right now, but you're gonna be one day, honey, i'm sure of it."

i found my group soon after that and i never saw that queen again but to this day i am convinced i met an angel.

so yeah. pride is for you. pride is for all of us.

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dr seuss yaoi

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hey uh new type of ao3 spam comment just dropped. (I know it's spam because the fic they left this comment on . doesn't have chapters. lmfao). Report this kinda comment as spam and don't take it personally it is literally recycled bullshit

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my c/ ommissions are available again!! links below!!

regular commissions/painterly

Chibi

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did I doodle this mostly so I had an excuse to draw this spite reaction image?

(YES HAHAHA YES!!!)

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Reblog to give a trans person a fresh and perfectly ripe mango wait huh

It's the wikipedia image??? How big could it be

What

Huh???

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i got these knockoff boots online and instead of the brand name on the tag they have the name of an apparently nonexistent martin scorsese movie??? what the fuck

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Tryst ☀️🌙

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people should remember that the word "hunk" exists

no, unless he's a young father, that's not a dilf, that's a hunk. If you want to call a childless man a dilf, at least make him middle aged

no, that's not a bear, that's a hunk. Bears must be fat and hairy

no, that's not a himbo, that's a hunk. Himbos must be dumb, beefy and kind simultaneously, if he's just dumb and beefy that's a hunk

like, cmon people, there's nothing wrong with a humble hunk. Why are you so mean to him?