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Self Decay

I gave a lot of time

To people who poured poison

With actions and words

Trying to tag along with their actions

I gave them complete control of me

I feared to be left out 

Trying to avoid being pulled into the dark space

A prey to manipulation 

A miserable soul filled with frustration

Is what I had become

Circled in the same path of pretended love

Now I can mimic the act to be completely alive

When everything inside me is dead              

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Many brutal wars have been fought

To become this soft

A lot of god’s given light 

Has been used to heal other broken hearts

Turned into water

Unafraid to touch open wounds

Not expecting the same favor in return

But a small beg to not be scared

While I mend yours

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The earth smiles through flowers

Clouds cry through the rain

Sun screams through the humid heat

When nature has the freedom to express

Why do we stitch our mouths tight

When we are given the chance 

To point out why we are hurting

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Habits

Rip to all those 

Who has been buried 

Somewhere deep in my heart

Where I can't find them

Now I am on a hunt

To find someone new

Who break me completely

So I can dig a new grave

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Is it possible to not feel like a sheet of paper going through the shredder every time we try to portray love?

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People who leave without a word

Never become a stranger

They are disguised as the words in poems

People in the pictures hunged up on the wall

Memories that remind you of them

Sometimes even in dreams

You remember those people more often

More than the years you have known them

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Bookstore hopping

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The little girl inside me

Grabbed onto the fake promises

Until it completely broke her

People ask when did the innocence die

It died when people who promised to stay 

Left without a notice

It died when I failed to let my voice out

For everyone to hear

The little girl inside me

Still makes me fight battles every day 

Hoping I heal her someday 

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With open arms society welcomed chaos

Encouraged it to outstay its duration

Burned down the love persisting 

Between the beloved ones

Until the hearts rusted 

Society makes people triumph in chaos

Teaches them that this is the way

Life should be lead

Over time chaos becomes a comfort

Making you a part of the society

Now you are one of them

Because chaos is the reason 

You smile

             ~Now I am society

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As a child I felt

The moon chased me

The subtle light falling 

On every step I take

he never failed a chance to disappoint

This small fragile heart  

It's the comfort I found in him

That I failed to find in most people

That surrounded me 

He healed the deepest scars 

Made by the ones who betrayed

Brought back the happiness 

That was once taken away 

A feeling of freedom under the night sky

The moon made me feel alive again

~K.S

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My mother showed me

That fear is a failure’s talent

She gave me the strength 

To find brightness in the darkest corners

She reminded me that it's no shame

To awaken the devil inside me

Your worth is gold she repeats

An epitome of grace and strength

Underestimating her naiveness

Is a man’s biggest mistake

As she can sustain the deepest wounds

To protect her beloved

Her heart is my home

She wipes the tears off my eyes

And hands me a sword

Remindes me

The most beautiful souls have scars too

Never sacrifice for anyone or anything

She is a woman

My mother

She has fought many wars

Yet she rises from the storm with grace

She is power

She is unstoppable 

She is a gift

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“The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.”

— Sylvia Plath

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don't give up

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trying to fit

fluid bodies trying to fit into everything everywhere

sometimes into someone's heart

but unsuccessful

how much space can someone make for you

a space you can't always fill with love

how much ever you want to call their heart your home

it is not easy you realize

heartaches and trauma are what you have carried from your past

how fast can you heal before showing love to a whole new soul

~K.S

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tragic endings

in this world of chaos

not all endings are tragic

~sunset