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mxsesiiisms:

      her smile only seemed to grow more as she scented his fear. getting closer to the male, lucifer hugged him, so sweetly it made anyone sick.“ welcome home…“ the being whispered near his ear, letting go of him after a short while.

muscles go rigid when the other’s arms wrap around .  it’s as if all air was squeezed from his lungs , a tightness that served to constrict and lower the apostle into his RIGHTFUL place .  arms remain at his sides , fists clenching tightly despite the defeat evident in the way he doesn’t pull away from .  a panic behind hazel eyes as the other whispers in his ear , causing his skin to crawl as it dots with goosebumps .    ‘  ------ you  welcome me ... but i deserve NOTHING , not even this .  ’

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                        TELL ME :

                                                      AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH ?  

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falziist:

          human emotions are always very complicated things to him. why they felt the need to touch what they could not. why they felt the need to rebel against natural order. why they didn’t appreciate being included in a natural, higher plan. they called it betrayal and manipulation. such awkward, weird animals. the archangel glances down at the palm failing miserably at keeping him at bay, Zeekstriel letting the other’s palm meet his chest as his hues flicked back up at the man. yes — he is powerless to stop the higher being. Zeekstriel wants to convey that.            “ why are you still troubled by our actions ? what’s done is done. why can’t you just accept your role and move on ?? still you harbor these dark feelings in your heart. I can them, they sing to me. are you still thinking about Him ? He isn’t here anymore. He has ascended. “

it’s only when palms come in contact with the other , does he truly realize how POWERLESS he is .  a defeating blow to the apostle who has to come to terms with his place in the world that he can’t seem to rid himself of .  a disbelief in the teachings of the rabbi’s kingdom , a BETRAYAL of the man who had loved him so dearly .  all these things had condemned him to the world below , and only now did he finally believe in the preaching of his teacher .  poor judas , if only you had listened then !  a small groan leaves his lips before hands drop back down to his side , shoulders curving inward in a silent defeat .  but that doesn’t stop him from listening to the other despite his anger towards .  hazel eyes shoot upwards , focusing upon the angel as jaw clenches at the mention of his old friend .    ‘  i REFUSE to accept it just as you refuse to let me be !  ’     words spat at the other , annoyed by his presence .  why must he TAUNT him so ?    ‘  you say he has ascended , but why then does he HAUNT my every thought ?  ’

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do u ever feel like ur not even friends with ur friends

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the sight was one that stained his memory . even now as he closes his eyes , he can picture the rabbi covered in his own blood .  he didn’t know how it had gone so WRONG so quickly !  mind races over the previous day , trying to figure it out .  but he’s unable to think clearly , the taste of iron already filling his mouth .  and he curls inward on himself , a heavy HEAVE as he tries to mask the sounds out of the crowds that surround the temple .  a jerk of his body when he hears his name in the midst of it all , startled by company that he KNEW he didn’t deserve . 

but head is dipped and hiding his face from view .  even hearing the familiar voice of mary , he couldn’t force himself to look up .  how could he face the world when he had CONDEMNED his teacher ?  fingers tighten in curly locks , a deep breath drawn in before torso lifts , exposing a face stained with tears to the other .  oh judas , how PITIFUL you’ve become !    ‘  you must believe me , they said no harm would come to him ...  ’    a thick swallow before a hand extends , reaching for the other as he searches for some sort of COMPASSION ------ surely there must be some still left for him !    ‘  but he knew ... he knew what would happen this whole time !  ’    another heave is drawn from the apostle , tears falling down his face as he speaks .    ‘  why didn’t he try to stop it ... ?  ’

                       to   witness   Him   battered  ,   bloodied  ,   chained   as   if   he   were   a   snarling  ,   VISCOUS   creature   had   her   heart   in   a   vice  .   a   cry   of   horror   had   rung   out   in   jerusalem   but   none   louder   than   hers  .   this   wasn’t   meant   to   happen  .   no  ,   He   crafted   a   path   of   peace  .   but   ALWAYS   there   was   one   to   walk   the   road   less   traveled   by  .    his   was   a   lonely   one   &   she’d   known   her   dear   friend   had   acted   out   of   concern   for   their   Teacher   .  .  .   here   he   lies   now   as   a   broken   man   proven   wrong  .

                     when   pink   lips   part   to   speak  ,   she   can   taste   the   salt   of   her   tears  .                               ❛        JUDAS   .  .  .     ❜     it’s   a   shaky   start  ,   catching   wisps   of   hair   in   her   mouth  .          ❛        i   know   you   can’t   be   proud   ;   i   know   you’re   a   good   man  .   what   i    don’t   know   is   .  .  .   is   how   you   failed   to   see   this   coming  .    ❜          //     @kissdeceiver.

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sleep & i shall soothe you, calm you & anoint you  // myrrh for your hot forehead, oh.

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glory or wisdom ?  love or power ?  violin or piano ?  fire or water ? air or earth ?  forest or river ?  black or white ?  left or right ? heads or tails ? theatre or cinema ?  give or take ? dawn or dusk ? gold or silver ?  art or music ?  morning or night ?  venus or mercury ?

TAGGED BY: @missgwendolyne​ TAGGING: @falziist​ @demonbitch​ @coffinvixen​ @clownleading​ @devilsitter​ @blcodmoney​

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what if? that’s a big question what if we had lasted? what if i never met you? what if i loved myself as much as you did? ‘what if’s’ are also the words of a dreamer

(via perfectlilwitch)

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watch me follow all the musical theater muses . bc yes , my blog is jcs influenced.

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heart stops rapidly in his chest , that is if it’s even still there after everything he’s done .  a pause as TERROR runs thick through his veins --- poor judas , to think he did it all out of love !     ‘  ... i thought i had finally been rid of you .  ’

      “ oh, did you miss me on your way down here?“ of course, lucifer would be the one to greet judas at the gates of HELL.

✨  ➖  starter call  //  @kissdeceiver  ➖  ✨

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“what am I now? i am as old as the stars, but even they do not recognize me.”

— i didn’t think this was how a fairytale would end (m.m.)

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some asshole: “Why do you even like that character?”

me: “Because they’re a great character.”

asshole: “But they’ve done so many shitty and problematic things, you can’t just excuse-”

me: “I said a GREAT CHARACTER not a GOOD PERSON you imaginationless wet napkin, this character is an asshole and a human disaster who deserves everything coming to them but they c a n s t i l l b e m y f a v o r i t e”

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JOHN 12:13 ─ they took palm branches and went out to meet him , shouting : " hosanna ! blessed is he who comes in the name of the lord ! blessed is the king of israel ! "

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‘ do you want a blanket? ’

this world was unlike the old , it was much harder to find a place to sleep with no money or credentials .  the irony of it all did not go unnoticed to the apostle who now sat on the concrete step of shop that closed hours ago .  he didn’t know where to find shelter , or how he could even begin to attempt to with so little money in his pocket .  what had god EXPECTED him to do ?  was this part of the struggle ?  and he’s nearly asleep when a voice catches him off guard , causing grey eyes to open and focus upon the stranger before shifting back against the cold ground .    ‘   yes …  ’    the word trails softly from his tongue , unsure of whether to trust the man who extended the first offering of kindness judas had seen .  perhaps the teaching of the rabbi did not go FORGOTTEN after all !    ‘  do you have any food too ?  i haven’t eaten in days .  ’

QUESTION STARTERS   /   accepting !