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kmtrkai · 24 days ago
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BREAKING BAD 3.08
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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headcanon, romance and mirko.
dabi does not believe in love; not in the way it is defined by permanence, safety, or emotional reciprocity. he was raised inside a home where affection was earned through utility, where attention was conditional, and where failure was punished with silence or force. his father treated love as currency—something given in exchange for perfection. when that perfection did not materialize, he withdrew all recognition. dabi was not nurtured; he was engineered. and when the experiment failed, he was discarded.
he internalized that failure early. his mother, traumatized and institutionalized, became a ghost long before she was taken away. his siblings bore witness to abuse but could not prevent it. he watched his younger brother get beaten for existing out of line. he learned, slowly and painfully, that in his family, violence was the only consistent language. what others call intimacy, dabi associates with danger. what others call connection, he experiences as threat. he does not form bonds with those he is attracted to; he forms fixations.
psychologically, dabi exhibits signs of chronic dissociation, emotional detachment, and trauma-induced antisocial behavior. his sadism is not aimless; it is targeted, often theatrical, and layered with retribution. his antisocial behavior traits; lack of empathy, criminal behavior, disregard for moral codes, calculated aggression—are not organic. they are constructed responses to a childhood shaped by coercion and performance. he does not feel guilt in a conventional sense. he does not seek validation through compassion. he seeks control; he seeks presence; he seeks to be unforgettable.
his fixation on mirko emerges from this framework. she does not coddle or pacify. she does not look at him with pity. she meets him in violence and returns it without hesitation. this makes her visible to him in a way others are not. she registers as real; independent, untouchable, uninterested in reforming him. that resistance is what draws him in. not admiration, but challenge. not romance, but the desire to break her.
his obsession is not rooted in love or longing. it is rooted in corruption. he does not want to stand beside her. he wants to change her shape. he wants to watch the clarity in her eyes dissolve into something darker. he wants her to suffer because of him; to lose herself the way he did. her strength fascinates him, but it also enrages him. because he sees in her what he was never allowed to become—powerful, intact, autonomous. his compulsion is not to protect it; it is to destroy it.
he shows up where she works, not to advance any mission, but to test her. to provoke her. to study the fault lines. he memorizes how her body shifts before she strikes, how her breath catches when she starts to enjoy the fight. he reads these moments like scripture. not because he wants to connect, but because he wants to invade. she becomes a ritual, a necessity, and a target. if she walks away, he will follow. if she comes closer, he will consume. he wants her exhausted, disoriented, altered.
his goal is not to be with her. his goal is to undo her. to dismantle her certainty. to be the reason she questions herself. if she ever hesitates in a fight because she is thinking about him, even for a second, he will consider it a victory. he does not crave peace. he craves evidence that he leaves behind a scar.
if she kills him, he will die satisfied. if she stays, he will keep pushing until something breaks. and when it does, he will not apologize. he will call it proof.
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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hasil farrell, the outsiders.
A CASE STUDY IN: APPALACHIAN GOTHIC, GENERATIONAL TRAUMA AS THE WEIGHT OF BLOOD, NATURE'S WRATH, ALIENATION, SURVIVALISM, LOYALTIES, COLLECTIVISM, RURAL CULTURE, ANTI-GOVERNMENT, OLD-WORLD MAGIC, ECONOMIC AND ECOLOGICAL ISSUES, GRIEF AS GROWTH, ISOLATED HOLLERS, SPILL BLOOD ON SCARED LANDS, CYNICAL NATURE OF VIOLENCE.
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full  name:  hasil  farrell age:  early-mid  20s, verse dependent. birthday:  unknown.  he  was  born  in  the  dead  of  winter—when  the  wind  bit  hardest  and  the  trees  snapped  under  frost.  named  days  later  by  clan  elders.  sally  ann  tells  him  it  was  probably  january.  the  word means  little  to  him. gender:  male place  of  birth:  shay  mountain,  morgan  county,  kentucky ethnicity:  white  appalachian, heavy scotch-irish ancestry; orientation:  heterosexual status:  alive, with a werewolf au in the making; residencies:  born  and  raised  on  shay  mountain.  briefly  lived  in  the  town  below.  tends  to  drift  when  untethered; sleeps  in  his  truck,  by  creeks,  or  on  porches  he  builds  himself. highest  education  level:  none  formal.  learned  from  firelight,  hunting  trails,  and  the  way  the  wind  shifts  before  a  storm. occupation(s):  hunter,  gatherer,  moonshiner.  bare-knuckle  fighter  in  underground  circuits.  sometime  mechanic  when  he  needs  town  money.
appearance dark  blue  eyes;  cut  from  glacier  water  and  moonlight—too  intense  for  his  youth.  lean  but  wiry,  all  tendon  and  bone  from  years  of  scrapping  and  foraging.  his  hair,  dirty  blond  and  shoulder-length,  is  usually  tied  back  or  left  loose  when  unbothered.  skin  weathered  and  sun-marked  from  mountain  life.  tattoos  scrawl  across  his  upper  arms  and  back. crude,  hand-inked  knotwork  and  antler  motifs,  more  ritual  than  aesthetic. scars  lace  his  knuckles,  forearms,  ribs.  each  earned  in  silence.  clothes  are  always  worn  in; patchy  flannel,  torn  denim,  heavy  boots  with  fraying  soles.  carries  a  small  leather-and-bone  necklace  passed  down  from  his  father’s  father.  keeps  it  tucked  against  his  skin,  always. faceclaim:  kyle  gallner  (in  outsiders) voice:  quiet,  rasping—like  gravel  softened  by  creekwater.  doesn’t  raise  it  unless  it’s  for  a  warning  or  a  name  he  can’t  forget. eyes:  pale  steel-blue,  faraway  when  unfocused hair:  long,  dirty  blond;  usually  tied  back,  unkempt body  type:  slight,  sinewy,  compact  with  coiled  muscle distinguishable  marks:  rough-cut  tattoos,  small  scar  on  upper  lip,  burn  mark  on  right  shoulder  from  a  moonshine  still weight:  approx.  155  lbs height:  5'9"  (175  cm)
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  none  formally  diagnosed.  likely  suffers  from  complex  trauma  and  emotional  suppression;  grief,  survivor’s  guilt,  internalized  shame  from  both  worlds. psychological  profile:  hasil  exists  between  two  systems—raised  in  a  world  outside  society,  drawn  to  something  softer  he  doesn’t  have  a  name  for.  he  is  protective  by  instinct,  observant  by  need.  struggles  to  reconcile  brutality  with  tenderness.  he  can  love,  but  doesn’t  know  what  it  means  to  be  safe.  when  cornered  emotionally,  he  withdraws  like  an  animal  that  learned  to  heal  in  silence. positive  traits:  fiercely  loyal,  resourceful,  protective,  emotionally  intuitive  (even  if  unspoken) negative  traits:  violent  under  pressure,  suspicious  of  outsiders,  emotionally  stunted,  reckless  in  love alignment  type:  chaotic  neutral  with  strong  tribal  loyalty personality  type  (MBTI):  ISFP  –  independent,  earthy,  reactive,  avoids  structure phobias:  losing  family,  being  caged,  drowning mannerisms:  tends  to  fidget  with  leather  pouches  on  his  belt;  eyes  always  moving,  tracking;  touches  his  knife  sheath  when  anxious;  crouches  more  than  he  stands hobbies  &  interests:  carving  wood,  tuning  engines,  watching  animals  in  silence,  watching  sally  ann  laugh  like  he  ain’t  never  seen  nothing  brighter
strategic  analysis combat  style:  dirty,  instinctual,  efficient.  hasil  was  never  trained—he  learned  to  win  or  go  hungry.  he  favors  hand-to-hand  combat,  fighting  low  and  fast.  he  aims  to  disable,  not  dazzle.  fights  like  someone  who’s  used  to  being  the  smaller  body  in  a  fight  and  knows  exactly  how  to  make  that  into  an  advantage. weapon  of  choice:  his  fists,  his  knife,  whatever’s  in  reach—rocks,  rebar,  shattered  bottle. hand-to-hand  proficiency:  high.  excels  in  grappling,  chokeholds,  body-weight  throws.  can’t  take  many  clean  hits,  so  he  doesn’t  let  you  land  them. tactical  strengths:  adaptability,  high  pain  threshold,  unpredictable  strikes,  quick  recoveries tactical  weaknesses:  emotionally  provoked,  overextends  to  protect  others,  tends  to  underestimate  opponents  in  structured  combat signature  techniques:  feints  that  pull  toward  the  body,  takedowns  from  the  ground,  go-for-the-throat  headbutts pain  tolerance:  extremely  high.  learned  early  not  to  make  noise  when  it  hurts. defensive  skills:  good  at  dodging  in  close  quarters.  will  use  terrain,  distraction,  and  chaos  to  his  advantage.
affiliations  &  relationships family: –  silas  farrell  (father):  deceased.  fell  from  a  cliff.  hasil  was  young. –  rowena  farrell  (mother):  died  in  childbirth.  hasil  only  knows  her  from  stories  and  the  necklace  she  passed  down. –  farrell  clan:  large,  violent,  protective,  fractured.  he’s  loyal,  but  not  blind. –  sally  ann:  town  girl.  she  sees  him.  he  don’t  know  what  to  do  with  that.  sometimes  he  thinks  that’s  what  love  is. alies  &  associates:  other  shay  mountain  youth,  the  moonshiner  elders,  a  few  scattered  contacts  in  town  who  owe  him  favors rivalries:  anyone  who  disrespects  his  blood  or  treats  the  mountain  like  it’s  less  than  sacred enemies:  town  men  who  hunt  his  people  for  sport;  those  who  call  them  animals romantic  history:  mostly  fleeting—lust  mistaken  for  meaning,  until  sally  ann.  everything  changed  when  she  looked  at  him  like  he  deserved  gentleness.  notable  friends:  a  cousin  who  taught  him  how  to  throw  a  blade.  a  mutt  who  follows  him  on  quiet  mornings.  both  dead  now.
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  wakes  before  sunup.  starts  with  fire,  feeds  the  dogs,  checks  traps.  spends  most  of  the  day  hunting,  fixing  gear,  or  trading  under-the-table.  drinks  at  night,  rarely  alone. diet  &  nutrition:  meat-heavy,  foraged  berries,  moonshine.  eats  like  he  might  not  get  another  meal. exercise  habits:  natural; climbing,  tracking,  wrestling.  his  body  is  work-worn. grooming  habits:  washes  in  rivers,  trims  his  beard  with  a  open, straight razor. substance  use:  moonshine.  when  it’s  quiet,  when  it’s  not. sleep  patterns:  light  sleeper.  sleeps  in  shifts. personal  aesthetic:  mountain-worn:  flannel,  leathers,  dirty  boots,  stitched  jeans.  gear  always  on  him.  carries  grief  in  the  way  he  walks. favorite  books:  doesn’t  read and never learned how to read 'english', but is learning. listens  when  sally  ann  does.  remembers  the  words  like  spells. favorite  music  genres:  old  country  ballads,  wind  through  pine. favorite  art/architecture:  none in the formal sense. but he carves into trees—deer, wolves, sometimes just patterns that remind him of breath and blood. it started as a way to mark territory, then became something else. there’s one deer he returns to every winter.
special  notes  &  redactions –  hasil  has  never  seen  the  ocean.  he  doesn’t  believe  it’s  real. –  the  tattoos  aren’t  decoration—they’re  history.  –  he  killed  a  man  once  at  fifteen  and  didn’t  tell  nobody.  not  even  the  clan.  buried  the  body  where  the  moss  grows  thickest. –  he’s  not  trying  to  escape  the  mountain.  he’s  just  trying  to  figure  out  if  there’s  a  life  where  he  ain’t  always  running.
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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KYLE GALLNER as HASIL FARRELL Outsiders | 1.12 "All Hell"
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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CHARACTER THESIS Q AND A
to him: maybe your empathy’s just a comforting lie; have you ever thought of that? maybe you think you know how the other person feels, but you’re only feeling yourself; maybe you’re even worse than me. or maybe we’re all just guessing. maybe the only difference is that i don’t lie to myself about it — blindslight. to her: ‘ i’m fine.’  a moment of silence, followed by the unmistakable click of a phone hanging up. i end the conversation before it starts. about names, possessions, and everything i have never told anyone: i gave you a false name when we first met; it was comfortable. you called me by it for several weeks before i gave you my real name, out of principle alone — you already knew i was lying. you have the innate ability to weaponize anything, including knowledge; it’s why you’re so prone to destruction and self-destruction.  sometimes, it hurts.  most times,  i am unaffected. to angels: we need modified symbols of humanity to console us; it’s easier to speak of angels than a god. they’re less threatening, you see them in your image with wings and a halo. in 1985, cosmonaunts vladimir solevev and oleg atkov claimed to have seen angels while performing medical experiments in salyut 7 high above the earth. this isn’t the first time i’ve heard of similar incidents happening in the vast emptiness. a former colleague claimed to have seen something lurking in the space shuttle, describing it as an encounter with an angel, describing it with vague description and a sense of awe. he was subsequently silenced and demoted to office work with contractors. unsurprisingly. in the official reports, i attributed it to fatigue.  question to death: i’ve never been particularly comforting to others regarding this. when asked about death, my response is factual. informative, at best. dismissive, at worst. it’s part of nature’s recycling system based on the conservation of matter, returning to our origins. no room for frivolous philosophies on the afterlife.  ‘ death, scientifically, is the cessation of life processes. the body’s energy transforms, not vanishes. ’  my response remains unchanged. questions to the body: do you want to be human?
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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this is a private, character-driven multimuse built around headcanon expansion and narrative reconstruction. written by kai. individual character profiles are linked within the roster.
roster includes:
from anime – dabi (my hero academia), kakashi hatake (naruto) from television – cordelia chase (buffy the vampire slayer / angel the series), hasil farrell (the outsiders) from comics – rogue (marvel comics / x-men), sam wilson (captain america) from literature/film – clove kentwell (the hunger games), jannah (star wars, special requested), annie (sinners, special requested) from video games – kuai liang (mortal kombat) from original worldbuilding – park joohyun (astronaut / speculative fiction / grayscale mythos)
my name is kai. my pronouns are she/her. i’m of legal age / 33. central standard time. mun=/=muse, that typical statement.
01: mutuals. this space is reserved for mutuals who are 21+ only; please respect my boundaries and the intended audience for my content. personals, do not reblog. if you’re a personal blog, do not reblog my headcanons, writing, or any of my content—interacting outside these guidelines will result in being blocked. thank you for understanding!
002: additional. this muse is very plot-heavy, and this blog will reflect that focus. i’m deeply invested in character development, and my level of selectivity will reflect those priorities. i primarily follow blogs that post role-play content, headcanons, meta, and other writing-related material—i’m here to write and collaborate, first and foremost. i’m open to following both canons and ocs and welcome them with open arms.
003: blocking. i’d love to write with everyone immediately, but realistically, that’s not always possible. i’m a university professor (poli sci!) and preparing for law school, so i may be slow at times—but i will write with you! feel free to shoot me a message, and we can plot. mains get priority when it comes to replies and edits. please note that guilt trips won’t work for me. i don’t get involved in anyone’s drama—yours or others. if i don’t like something, i’ll simply unfollow or block. if it’s something genuinely horrifying or in violation of tumblr’s terms of service, i’ll report it. i fully participate in block culture, and it’s a two-way street. if you don’t like what i post, please feel free to unfollow and make yourself comfortable. simple as that.
004: banning. i don’t have any banned fandoms or faceclaims. however, i do have a personal preference not to roleplay with light-washed faceclaims, meaning i avoid canonically dark-skinned characters with faceclaims who have a lighter complexion. if a person has explicitly stated they are uncomfortable with their likeness being used in roleplay, fanfiction, or similar contexts, i will not interact with muses using their likeness. i am very mindful of the black characters i choose to follow because too often, roleplayers reduce them to harmful stereotypes or tokenistic representations. if i observe you using black face claims solely to fill a 'diversity quota' or perpetuate stereotypes, this will result in an instant block.
005: basic info. follow the basic roleplay rules—no godmodding, metagaming. my asks are always open if you want to chat or discuss anything. if you think my characterization is off, that’s your opinion, and i’m not here to cater to everyone’s interpretation. character profile template and psds primarily gloomglimmer
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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kakashi hatake, copy-nin.
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basics full  name:  kakashi  hatake known  alias(es):  copy  ninja  kakashi,  kakashi  of  the  sharingan,  sixth  hokage age:  late 20s  during  shippuden;  early-30s  during  the  fourth  great  ninja  war gender:  cis  male birthday:  september  15 heritage:  japanese-inspired;  son  of  sakumo  hatake,  a  legendary  shinobi  known  as  the  white  fang  of  the  leaf religion:  none  formally  practiced;  guided  instead  by  internal  ethics,  loss,  and  the  unspoken  rules  of  the  shinobi  path sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  ambiguous—has  shown  little  outward  interest  in  romance,  keeping  emotional  intimacy  locked  behind  practiced  detachment status:  alive;  lives  semi-retired  in  konoha,  having  stepped  down  from  the  hokage  seat  after  years  of  service residencies:  a  modest  apartment  in  konohagakure,  sparsely  decorated  but  always  clean,  with  a  small  window  overlooking  the  memorial  stone highest  education  level:  graduated  from  the  ninja  academy  at  age  5;  joined  anbu  at  a  young  age;  trained  under  the  fourth  hokage occupation(s):  jonin  instructor,  former  anbu  captain,  sixth  hokage  of  konoha,  occasional  advisor  on  high-level  missions
physical  exam facial  features:  sharp  jawline  mostly  obscured  by  his  signature  mask,  lone  visible  eye  expressive  yet  unreadable,  the  scar  slicing  vertically  over  his  left  eye  a  remnant  of  battle faceclaim:  animated  source, will update with a real life face inspiration voice:  smooth  and  unhurried,  slightly  amused,  always  carrying  the  weight  of  someone  who  has  seen  far  more  than  he  says eyes:  dark  grey;  left  eye  was  once  a  sharingan  gifted  by  obito,  later  lost  during  the  war hair:  silver-white  and  perpetually  tousled,  spiking  in  all  directions,  untouched  by  vanity body  type:  tall  and  lean,  built  more  for  speed  and  technique  than  brute  force distinguishable  marks:  scar  over  left  eye;  always  masked—his  face  is  part  myth,  part  memory  to  most  who  meet  him weight:  approx.  67.5  kg  (149  lbs) height:  181  cm  (5'11")
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  carries  unspoken  grief  and  long-term  trauma,  likely  experiences  chronic  symptoms  of  survivor's  guilt,  and  mild  dissociative  tendencies  from  childhood  loss  and  battlefield  desensitization psychological  profile:  hyper-observant,  emotionally  withdrawn,  and  intensely  introspective.  guided  by  a  code  shaped  more  by  loss  than  by  rules,  kakashi  masks  his  grief  in  calm  detachment  and  dark  humor positive  traits:  brilliant  strategist,  loyal  to  a  fault,  grounded  in  principle,  capable  of  deep  compassion  even  if  rarely  expressed negative  traits:  emotionally  distant,  difficult  to  read,  self-isolating,  can  be  fatalistic  in  private  moments alignment  type:  lawful  neutral—follows  his  own  evolved  moral  code  rather  than  blind  loyalty  to  institutions personality  type  (mbti):  INTP  –  analytical,  private,  deeply  internal,  intellectual  with  flashes  of  sharp  wit phobias:  failing  to  protect  those  who  depend  on  him,  repeating  his  father’s  fate,  growing  too  close  only  to  lose  them mannerisms:  always  late,  often  distracted  mid-conversation  by  internal  thoughts,  casually  leans  on  railings,  absently  flips  pages  of  books  he’s  read  dozens  of  times hobbies  &  interests:  voracious  reader  of  the  Icha  Icha  novels  (a  mix  of  escapism  and  nostalgia),  visits  the  memorial  stone  often,  occasionally  trains  alone  in  obscure  parts  of  the  village
strategic  analysis combat  style:  adaptive  and  deceptive;  uses  sleight-of-hand  tactics,  clones,  misdirection,  and  calculated  bursts  of  deadly  technique weapon  of  choice:  kunai,  lightning-infused  blades,  his  former  sharingan  eye hand-to-hand  combat  proficiency:  exceptional  taijutsu  skills;  uses  agility  and  technique  to  outmaneuver  physically  stronger  opponents tactical  strengths:  unparalleled  battle  analysis,  capable  of  learning  and  mimicking  enemy  jutsu  mid-combat;  operates  with  surgical  efficiency tactical  weaknesses:  formerly  depended  on  his  sharingan  for  advanced  techniques;  emotionally  compromised  by  the  deaths  of  close  comrades signature  techniques:  chidori  (lightning  blade),  lightning-style  clone,  thousand  years  of  death  (humorous  feint),  earth  wall  defense,  former  use  of  kamui pain  tolerance:  remarkably  high;  trained  from  childhood  to  fight  through  physical  and  emotional  wounds  without  faltering defensive  skills:  excels  in  counterattacks  and  spatial  awareness;  uses  terrain,  clones,  and  anticipation  to  avoid  direct  confrontation  when  possible
affiliations  &  relationships family:  sakumo  hatake  (father  –  deceased);  their  bond  was  fractured  by  the  weight  of  expectation  and  tragedy,  but  it  shaped  kakashi’s  core  values allies  &  associates: –  team  7:  naruto  (sees  his  growth  with  pride),  sasuke  (monitored  from  a  distance,  mourned  what  could  have  been),  sakura  (respects  her  strength  and  intellect) –  might  guy:  his  closest  friend  and  rival;  the  only  one  who  truly  cracks  his  quiet  facade –  yamato:  trusted  comrade  from  anbu;  shares  a  unique  understanding  of  moral  gray  zones rivalries:  might  guy  (lifelong  competition  grounded  in  genuine  affection  and  trust) enemies:  former  anbu  targets,  akatsuki,  any  threat  to  konoha romantic  history:  undisclosed;  has  kept  his  personal  life  private  for  decades,  with  no  known  relationships—intimacy  seems  elusive,  possibly  even  avoided notable  friends:  naruto  (mentee  turned  peer),  lords  of  fire  (respected  his  leadership),  jiraiya  (former  mentor  figure),  tsunade  (colleague  and  drinking  companion)
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  rises  early,  appears  late,  vanishes  when  he  needs  solitude.  alternates  between  present  action  and  quiet  withdrawal.  often  seen  napping  on  rooftops  or  reading  in  shade diet  &  nutrition:  functional  eater,  leans  toward  simple  meals;  enjoys  onigiri,  green  tea,  and  the  occasional  dango exercise  habits:  trains  solo  regularly;  mixes  combat  drills  with  meditation grooming  habits:  neat  but  never  flashy;  keeps  himself  clean  out  of  discipline,  not  vanity substance  use:  none—occasional  sake  in  social  settings sleep  patterns:  insomniac  tendencies;  light  sleeper,  dreams  rarely  remembered personal  aesthetic:  muted  shinobi  uniform,  signature  mask  always  in  place,  forehead  protector  tilted  to  cover  his  left  eye.  never  overdressed,  never  disheveled.  understated  presence  with  myth-like  weight favorite  books:  the  Icha  Icha  series—not  just  for  the  romance,  but  because  it  was  written  by  someone  who  lived  freely,  unlike  him favorite  music  genres:  traditional  shamisen  and  ambient  instrumental—nothing  distracting favorite  art/architecture:  prefers  functional  architecture—defensive  layouts,  fortified  spaces,  open  rooftops  with  clean  vantage  points
special  notes  &  character  redactions –  his  grief  is  quiet,  but  omnipresent.  he  carries  the  dead  with  him,  every  day. –  his  mentorship  to  team  7  is  one  of  the  only  things  that  brought  him  back  from  isolation –  he  is  respected  not  just  because  he  is  skilled—but  because  he  bears  the  weight  of  his  failures –  the  mask  hides  more  than  his  face.  it  protects  the  man  who,  behind  all  his  precision  and  poise,  is  still  learning  how  to  forgive  himself
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cordelia chase, vision girl.
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basics full  name:  cordelia  chase known  alias(es):  cordy, queen c age:  mid-20s, early 30s, teenhood, verse dependent. gender:  cis  female birthday:  may  23,  19xx heritage:  black  american,  born  and  raised  in  southern  california.  maternal  grandparents  came  west  from  texas  during  the  energy  boom.  the  family  money  is  old,  from  oil  leases  and  mineral  rights—not  flashy  wealth,  but  steady.  inheritance  came  with  conditions,  and  silence  was  one  of  them. religion:  non-practicing,  culturally  protestant sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  heterosexual status:  alive  in  some  timelines,  deceased entity  in  others—status  varies  by  verse. half-demon in current, main verses. residencies:  apartment  in  downtown  los  angeles; shared with a ghost,  previously  sunnydale.  spent  summers  in  houston  until  high  school. highest  education  level:  high  school  graduate  (sunnydale  high),  no  formal  higher  education occupation(s):  investigative  partner  at  angel  investigations,  former  commercial  actress,  vessel  for  higher  powers  (briefly)
physical  exam facial  features:  striking  bone  structure,  clean  brows,  expressive  eyes  that  rarely  give  away  more  than  she  wants.  full  lips;  beauty  that  demands  to  be  noticed,  but  she  doesn’t  ask  for  your  approval. faceclaim:  savannah  lee  smith voice:  fast,  unflinching,  slightly  elevated  tone  with  strategic  inflection.  sarcasm  used  like  a  weapon.  can  disarm  without  raising  her  voice. eyes:  deep  brown,  expressive  but  not  soft.  hair:  long,  dark,  well-maintained.  flat-ironed  or  curled  depending  on  mood.  rarely  unstyled. body  type:  tall,  athletic,  holds  posture  like  she’s  always  in  front  of  a  camera. distinguishable  marks:  light  scarring  near  ribs  from  demonic  altercations,  invisible  unless  looked  for weight:  approx.  130  lbs height:  5'8"
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  no  formal  diagnosis.  experiences  persistent  psychic  distress  due  to  prophetic  visions—headaches,  blurred  memory,  dissociation.  compartmentalizes  trauma  until  it  surfaces. psychological  profile:  emotionally  intuitive,  highly  reactive  under  stress,  performs  confidence  even  when  unraveling.  uses  fashion,  control,  and  wit  as  grounding  rituals.  carries  deep  shame  over  needing  help  but  still  shows  up  when  others  don’t. positive  traits:  charismatic,  loyal,  strategic,  protective  of  people  who  can’t  defend  themselves negative  traits:  sharp-tongued  when  hurt,  sensitive  to  condescension,  stubborn  pride,  emotionally  avoidant alignment  type:  chaotic  good personality  type  (mbti):  estp phobias:  becoming  irrelevant,  loss  of  autonomy,  seeing  something  she  can’t  stop mannerisms:  adjusts  earrings  when  anxious,  crosses  arms  when  uncomfortable,  rarely  looks  away  first hobbies  &  interests:  skincare  routines,  fashion  history,  low-budget  crime  dramas,  annotated  prophecy  texts
strategic  analysis combat  style:  reactive,  high-speed,  emotionally  driven.  improvises  well  but  not  trained  for  prolonged  engagement. weapon  of  choice:  crossbows,  metal  bat  from  the  trunk,  verbal  cutdowns hand-to-hand  combat  proficiency:  can  hold  her  own  when  it  counts.  quick  reflexes, trained by angel. tactical  strengths:  reads  energy  in  a  room,  redirects  conflict,  turns  dismissal  into  leverage tactical  weaknesses:  runs  on  emotion,  can  push  too  far,  takes  risks  to  protect  others  without  calculating  cost signature  techniques:  vision-induced  guidance,  fast  verbal  de-escalation,  knowing  when  to  hit  and  when  to  talk pain  tolerance:  high,  but  cracks  emotionally  when  pushed  past  psychic  threshold defensive  skills:  agile,  makes  use  of  environment,  rarely  repeats  tactics
affiliations  &  relationships family:  no  contact  with  parents  since  financial  scandal.  the  oil  money  does not exist anymore and her  name’s  not  on  it  the pennies that linger.  she  was  raised  in  comfort,  but  learned  the  hard  way  how  fast  it  disappears. allies  &  associates:  angel,  wesley,  gunn,  fred.  sometimes  spike.  tied  to  the  powers  that  be  through  vision  transference. rivalries:  women  who  underestimate  her,  men  who  test  her  boundaries.  anyone  who  thinks  beauty  means  weakness. enemies:  demon  factions,  failed  prophecies,  people  who  think  suffering  gives  them  authority romantic  history:  dated  xander  harris  in  high  school.  complicated  emotional  history  with  angel.  briefly  involved  with  groosalugg  during  a  moment  she  needed  to  feel  chosen. notable  friends:  fred  (deep  bond),  gunn  (trust  built  slowly),  willow  (past  tension,  present  respect),  lorne  (understood  her  even  when  she  didn’t), angel (complicated loyalty, best friend, once-in-a-lifetime intimacy masked in battle lines and unsaid things), phantom dennis (comfort, stability; her first true home was haunted, and she never felt safer), doyle (half-demon who passed her the visions—his death shaped her grief, his gift reshaped her purpose after sunnydale)
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  inconsistent  but  ritualized.  starts  with  coffee,  ends  with  painkillers  if  the  visions  come.  keeps  a  schedule  when  she  can. diet  &  nutrition:  clean  eating  with  the  occasional  binge.  keeps  up  appearances  even  when  emotionally  worn  down. exercise  habits:  sporadic.  prefers  stretching,  self-taught  yoga,  fieldwork  movement  over  the  gym grooming  habits:  meticulous.  skincare  is  both  ritual  and  armor.  mascara and lip-gloss even  during  apocalypse  hours. substance  use:  drinks  socially.  knows  her  limit.  occasionally  numbs  psychic  overload  with  wine  she  can't  afford. sleep  patterns:  light  sleeper.  most  nights  interrupted  by  visions  or  headaches.  sometimes  falls  asleep  on  the  couch  in  full  makeup. personal  aesthetic:  structured  silhouettes,  neutral  tones,  gold  jewelry.  looks  expensive  even  when  she  isn’t.  combines  practicality  with  presence. favorite  books:  celebrity  memoirs,  occult  texts  with  post-its  in  the  margins,  articles  she  pretends  not  to  read favorite  music  genres:  early 2000s pop, girl group anthems, power ballads. soundtrack of someone who performs confidence like choreography. britney, beyoncé, solange, and every underrated one-hit wonder she still defends. favorite  art/architecture:  modernist  interiors,  minimalist  sculpture
special  notes  &  character  redactions –  visions  cause  cortical  swelling  when  frequency  increases –  psychically  attuned  to  interdimensional  energy  shifts –  the  powers  chose  her  because  she  was  unexpected,  not  because  she  was  ideal
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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alien oc.
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basics full  name:  unknown,  currently  identifies  as  “park  joohyun” known  alias(es):  none  verified age:  appears  late-30s,  actual  age  unknown gender:  cis  male birthday:  none  assigned,  legally  documented  as  january  12,  1984 heritage:  non-terran  origin,  passes  as  ethnic  korean religion:  non-practicing,  occasional  references  to  systems  of  balance  or  cosmic  order sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  homosexual status:  alive,  presence  on  earth  unconfirmed  in  official  records residencies:  apartment  in  seoul  (university-subsidized),  former  temporary  units  in  cambridge,  houston,  cologne,  moscow,  tsukuba highest  education  level:  phd  in  aerospace  engineering  and  physics,  caltech occupation(s):  university  lecturer,  aerospace  researcher,  military  consultant,  former  nasa  contractor  (redacted  missions)
physical  exam facial  features:  angular  bone  structure,  hollow  cheeks,  visibly  fatigued  under  most  lighting.  expression  neutral  by  default,  but  rarely  empty.  most  assume  he’s  older  than  he  is.  the  face  of  someone  built  to  hold  silence. faceclaim:  gong  yoo  (the  silent  sea) voice:  low  and  steady,  rarely  raises  it.  speech  is  slow,  structured,  slightly  off-tempo,  like  he’s  used  to  needing  translation. voiceclaim:  (tbd) eyes:  dark  brown  with  slight  ash  tint  under  sterile  light.  unfocused  when  processing  internally. hair:  black,  cropped  close,  slightly  tousled,  and always styled body  type:  lean  and  tall,  lightly  muscled  but  efficient—built  for  containment,  not  strength distinguishable  marks:  surgical  scarring  along  left  scapula,  mostly  faded.  light  freckling  across  forearms. weight:  68  kg height:  177  cm
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  undiagnosed.  earth-based  diagnostics  are  insufficient.  isolation  indicators  present.  behavioral  files  note  flat  affect  and  compulsive  order-maintenance. psychological  profile:  detached,  observation-oriented,  prioritizes  structure  over  sentiment.  memory  inconsistencies  exist  around  key  life  events.  grieves  in  private.  does  not  form  new  attachments  easily.  still  catalogues  data  from  old  ones. positive  traits:  intelligent,  patient,  highly  observant,  self-sustaining negative  traits:  emotionally  avoidant,  secretive,  disconnected  from  human  empathy,  sometimes  manipulative  under  pressure alignment  type:  neutral,  preservationist personality  type  (mbti):  intj phobias:  memory  degradation,  vacuum  drift,  forced  grounding mannerisms:  rarely  touches  objects  with  full  hand  contact,  carries  gloves  even  in  summer,  tilts  head  when  analyzing  speech,  prefers  standing  to  sitting hobbies  &  interests:  building  quiet  machines,  stargazing  through  low-res  lenses,  decoding  abandoned  tech,  old  space  telemetry
strategic  analysis combat  style:  precise,  non-emotive,  escape-priority  unless  cornered weapon  of  choice:  energy  rifles,  gravitational  anchors hand-to-hand  combat  proficiency:  enough  to  escape  or  incapacitate.  lacks  stamina.  doesn't  improvise. tactical  strengths:  high-level  problem  solving,  long-range  forecasting,  total  control  under  pressure tactical  weaknesses:  poor  team  coordination,  low  verbal  transparency,  can’t  parse  emotional  manipulation signature  techniques:  atmosphere  destabilization  via  energy  field  deployment,  silent  movement  through  narrow  environments pain  tolerance:  extremely  high.  likely  compartmentalizes  sensation. defensive  skills:  high  evasion,  excellent  escape  mapping,  mild  shielding  ability  under  unknown  tech
affiliations  &  relationships family:  all records list a mother, father, and older sister—living in incheon. public photos exist. holiday calls are made. but emotional data is absent. he knows when to send gifts, what stories to reference. nothing slips. the original park joohyun has not been seen since 2012. allies  &  associates:  korean  military  contractors,  ghosted  nasa  files,  unnamed  data  engineer  (civilian) rivalries:  none  confirmed enemies:  unknown.  possibility  of  surveillance  by  non-earth  entities romantic  history:  former  long-term  relationship  with  a  u.s.  air  force  pilot.  deceased.  no  documented  partners  since. notable  friends:  university  assistant  referred  to  as  “bae yoonseo”  proximity  inconsistent,  but  noted.
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  rigid.  begins  at  4:00  a.m.  includes  private  research,  public  lectures,  transit  walks,  and  evening  silence diet  &  nutrition:  plain,  clean,  repetitive.  favors  root  vegetables,  bland  proteins,  and  mineral  water.  avoids  stimulants. exercise  habits:  solo  running,  light  resistance  work,  stretches  meant  to  simulate  microgravity  conditions grooming  habits:  minimal.  short  nails,  unscented  soap,  dresses  clean  but  without  effort. substance  use:  does  not  drink  socially.  one  bottle  of  liquor  kept  in  drawer—only  used  once  a  year. sleep  patterns:  rarely  exceeds  four  hours  per  cycle.  sometimes  naps  sitting  upright. personal  aesthetic:  all-black  or grey  clothing.  outerwear  with  hidden  pockets.  one  jacket  lined  with  hand-stitched  star  maps. favorite  books:  cold  war  space  archives,  declassified  star  missions,  speculative  cosmic  philosophy favorite  music  genres:  neo-soul and r&b played late and low—likely inherited from the real joohyun, but the taste remains. favorite  art/architecture:  brutalism,  orbital  linework,  structured  decay
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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basics full  name:  toya  todoroki known  alias(es):  dabi age:  early-mid  20s gender:  cis  male birthday:  january  18 heritage:  japanese.  born  in  tokyo,  raised  under  the  weight  of  expectation  and  fire. religion:  none.  believes  only  in  the  cleansing  power  of  flames. sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  heterosexual;  grayromantic status:  alive,  though  barely  holding  together; verse dependent. residencies:  transient;  squats,  abandoned  buildings,  rooftops highest  education  level:  dropped  out  early;  self-taught  in  survival occupation(s):  villain;  lieutenant  in  the  paranormal  liberation  front
physical  exam facial  features:  pale  skin  marred  by  patches  of  scarred  flesh  held  together  by  surgical  staples.  faceclaims:   generally  for  aesthetic  and  overall  aura,  sen  mitsuji;  kazuo  kiriyama  (battle  royale) voice:  raspy,  low,  with  a  mocking  undertone eyes:  blue,  often  half-lidded,  exuding  a  sense  of  detachment hair:  dark,  messy,  with  hints  of  white  at  the  roots,  his  natural  hue  body  type:  lean,  wiry,  with  a  posture  that  suggests  both  tension  and  lethargy distinguishable  marks:  extensive  burn  scars  across  face  and  body;  multiple  piercings,  including  triple  nose  piercings  and  several  in  both  ears weight:  approx.  140  lbs height:  5'10"
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  ptsd,  dissociation,  possible  borderline  traits psychological  profile:  sadistic,  vindictive,  and  emotionally  detached.  exhibits  a  hyper-focus  on  goals,  often  at  the  expense  of  personal  well-being. positive  traits:  strategic,  observant,  determined negative  traits:  reckless,  nihilistic,  self-destructive alignment  type:  chaotic  evil personality  type  (mbti):  estp phobias:  being  forgotten;  losing  control mannerisms:  lights  matches  absentmindedly;  smirks  during  confrontations;  fingers  twitch  when  agitated hobbies  &  interests:  dismantling  societal  structures;  observing  human  behavior
strategic  analysis combat  style:  prefers  long-range  attacks  using  his  quirk;  avoids  close  combat  unless  necessary weapon  of  choice:  blue  flames  capable  of  incinerating  targets  instantly hand-to-hand  combat  proficiency:  limited;  relies  more  on  quirk  than  physical  strength tactical  strengths:  high  pain  tolerance;  psychological  warfare;  unpredictability tactical  weaknesses:  physical  deterioration  due  to  quirk  overuse;  emotional  instability signature  techniques:  cremation  blasts;  area  denial  through  intense  heat pain  tolerance:  exceptionally  high;  often  ignores  injuries defensive  skills:  relies  on  offense  as  the  best  defense;  minimal  use  of  traditional  defensive  tactics
affiliations  &  relationships family:  enji  todoroki  (father  –  estranged);  rei  todoroki  (mother  –  complicated);  siblings  (shoto  –  rival) allies  &  associates:  league  of  villains;  paranormal  liberation  front;  twice  (close  associate);  toga  (ally) rivalries:  pro-heroes;  especially  hawks  and  endeavor enemies:  hero  society;  anyone  upholding  the  current  system romantic  history:  limited;  relationships  are  brief  and  often  transactional notable  friends:  twice  (deep  bond);  toga  (shared  ideology)
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  erratic;  driven  by  missions  and  personal  vendettas diet  &  nutrition:  inconsistent;  survives  on  minimal  sustenance,  often  neglecting  meals exercise  habits:  sporadic;  physical  activity  tied  to  missions grooming  habits:  minimal;  appearance  reflects  internal  chaos substance  use:  smokes  frequently;  uses  substances  to  dull  physical  pain sleep  patterns:  irregular;  plagued  by  nightmares  and  insomnia personal  aesthetic:  a  fusion  of  industrial  goth  and  japanese  streetwear—black  leather  jackets  with  metal  studs,  distressed  layers,  and  asymmetrical  cuts.  accessorized  with  multiple  facial  piercings,  studded  belts,  and  heavy  boots.  his  look  is  a  deliberate  statement  of  rebellion  and  identity,  drawing  from  visual  kei  and  punk  styles. favorite  books:  rarely  reads;  when  he  does,  it's  often  materials  related  to  his  objectives favorite  music  genres:  industrial,  punk,  anything  with  a  rebellious  tone favorite  art/architecture:  ruins;  places  that  reflect  decay  and  destruction
special  notes  &  character  redactions –  overuse  of  quirk  leads  to  severe  physical  deterioration –  maintains  a  facade  of  control,  masking  deep-seated  trauma –  driven  by  a  desire  to  expose  the  hypocrisy  of  hero  society
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kmtrkai · 1 month ago
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rogue.
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basics full  name:  anna  marie  (last  name  withheld) known  alias(es):  rogue age:  early  30s gender:  cis  female birthday:  august  28th,  198x  heritage:  black  american,  deep  south.  raised  along  the  mississippi  river  basin,  between  decay  and  baptist  revival. religion:  raised  baptist,  no  longer  practicing.  still  carries  psalms  in  her  mouth  when  it  hurts. sexual  &  romantic  orientation:  bisexual status:  alive,  but  rarely  at  ease residencies:  x-mansion,  motel  rooms,  foster  homes  that  didn’t  last.  one  trailer  off  a  gravel  road  in  memphis,  untouched  since  she  ran. highest  education  level:  informal.  self-taught,  xavier-trained,  educated  by  what  she’s  absorbed occupation(s):  mutant  operative,  field  protector,  reluctant  symbol.  used  to  run.  now,  she  just  moves  forward.
physical  exam facial  features:  strong  profile,  full  mouth,  eyes  that  have  seen  too  much  and  don’t  blink  easy.  beauty  shaped  by  survival,  not  performance. faceclaim:  taylor  russell  (bones  and  all,  waves) voice:  low,  shaky  around  the  edges.  southern  lilt  like  lullabies  sung  in  abandoned  houses.  doesn’t  raise  it  unless  she  means  to  break  something. eyes:  deep  brown,  heavy-lidded.  always  watching. hair:  natural  curls,  shoulder-length,  often  unbrushed  or  tied  back.  white  streak  cuts  through  the  crown  like  a  lightning  scar.  body  type:  tall,  solid,  always  pulled  inward  like  she’s  bracing  for  impact distinguishable  marks:  scarred  knuckles.  thin  burn  along  left  wrist  from  the  first  time  her  powers  activated. weight:  approx.  140  lbs height:  5'9"
mental  evaluation mental  illnesses:  carries  trauma  like  muscle  memory.  occasional  dissociation,  memory  bleed  from  deep  absorption.  doesn’t  trust  her  mind  to  always  be  hers. psychological  profile:  hypervigilant,  deeply  empathetic,  guarded.  shaped  by  shame  and  absence.  feels  too  much  and  won’t  let  it  show.  trauma  isn’t  an  excuse—it’s  just  there. positive  traits:  fiercely  loyal,  emotionally  intelligent,  protective,  observant negative  traits:  self-isolating,  prideful,  slow  to  forgive  herself,  avoids  touch  at  all  costs alignment  type:  neutral  good  with  antihero  edge personality  type  (mbti):  isfp phobias:  losing  herself  in  someone  else.  being  touched  by  someone  who  won’t  survive  it. mannerisms:  pulls  at  gloves  when  anxious,  turns  her  face  away  before  admitting  truth,  holds  her  breath  before  striking hobbies  &  interests:  reading  beat-up  paperbacks,  repairing  old  jackets,  listening  to  other  people’s  stories  like  they’re  her  own
strategic  analysis combat  style:  direct,  impact-heavy,  built  for  immediate  shutdown.  fights  like  she  doesn’t  want  it  to  last. weapon  of  choice:  her  body—skin  as  threat,  fists  as  follow-up hand-to-hand  combat  proficiency:  high.  trained  by  logan.  brutal  when  cornered.  no  flair,  just  force. tactical  strengths:  can  absorb  memories,  powers,  and  abilities  through  skin  contact.  physically  strong,  emotionally  anchored  in  crisis. tactical  weaknesses:  can’t  touch  allies.  emotionally  destabilized  by  memory  bleed.  avoids  long  combat  when  drained. signature  techniques:  knockout  touch,  rapid  absorption,  pain  transfer pain  tolerance:  extremely  high.  doesn’t  flinch  unless  it’s  someone  else’s  pain  in  her  skull defensive  skills:  threat  posture.  uses  fear  of  her  touch  as  protection.  reads  motion  like  a  second  language
affiliations  &  relationships family:  priscilla  (mother,  vanished).  owen  (father,  absent).  aunt  carrie  raised  her—hard-edged,  disciplinarian,  never  said  “i  love  you��  out  loud. allies  &  associates:  storm,  logan,  kurt,  jubilee,  sometimes  charles.  mystique  raised  her,  but  love  was  never  safe  there. rivalries:  those  who  romanticize  her  curse.  women  who  underestimate  her.  men  who  want  to  test  her  limits. enemies:  anti-mutant  extremists.  anyone  who  treats  power  like  possession. romantic  history:  remy  lebeau—love  and  distance,  ache  and  orbit.  magneto—brief,  sharp,  ideological.  attraction  born  from  power  and  loneliness. notable  friends:  storm  (anchor),  logan  (combat  kin),  jubilee  (lets  her  laugh),  kurt  (the  closest  thing  to  family  left)
habits  &  lifestyle daily  routine:  sparse  and  quiet.  coffee,  gloves,  observation.  doesn’t  waste  movement  or  words. diet  &  nutrition:  eats  light  unless  homesick—then  it’s  cornbread,  greens,  fried  catfish,  and  hot  sauce  on  everything.  mostly  lives  on  protein  and  whatever’s  easy  to  make. exercise  habits:  physical  strength  matters.  trains  often.  doesn’t  like  being  caught  unready. grooming  habits:  clean,  stripped-down.  hair  natural,  clothes  practical.  nothing  showy  unless  it’s  armor. substance  use:  smokes  on  rooftops.  drinks  when  the  voices  in  her  head  won’t  shut  up. sleep  patterns:  light,  interrupted.  some  nights  she  doesn’t  sleep  at  all. personal  aesthetic: sun-bleached denim, thrifted blouses with loose threads, beat-up boots. gloves always on. cross on a chain. outfits stitched from gas station racks and secondhand shops—soft cotton, faded prints, and the kind of layers that say don’t look too long. dirt under the nails, sometimes. blood under the sleeves, sometimes too. favorite  books:  southern  gothic,  survivalist  literature,  worn  poetry  books  passed  from  hand  to  hand favorite  music  genres:  gothic  americana,  deep  mississippi  blues,  low  r&b  songs  that  carry  silence  between  notes favorite  art/architecture:  weathered  porches,  crumbling  stonework,  anything  that’s  still  standing  when  it  shouldn’t  be
special  notes  &  character  redactions –  absorption  events  longer  than  sixty  seconds  may  cause  personality  fragmentation –  first  kiss  put  a  boy  in  a  coma.  she  hasn’t  kissed  anyone  skin-to-skin  since. –  she  never  tried  to  “fix”  her  mutation.  just  learned  to  build  a  life  around  it.
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