knottyforlegoshi

[knottyforlegoshi]

i very much appreciate all the kind comments in the reblogs, tags, and askbox!! <3 valentines went by so fast but it is one of my fav holidays. perhaps i'll upload some lovey dovey legoshi content for a late vday?

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trying to figure out what kind of fic this dialogue would go well in 🤔

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sound bites from the bedroom.

how legoshi sounds in bed. not sfw

"Ah.... Ah...!"

Legoshi does his best to stifle his grunts and moans; he finds them embarrassing and usually has a hand clasped over his jaw to stop himself from getting too loud. When he learns his partner has a kink for his voice though, he does his best to accommodate their wish to hear him while not doing anything too out of his comfort zone.

"God... you're so perfect..."

He usually thinks this while you're riding him. He's clutching your thighs, being careful not to dig his claws into your thighs, but fuck, does it feel too good. He often ends up accidentally blurting out something sweet aloud though, and he always gets embarrassed by it.

"Use me... ngh..."

Legoshi's wet dreams and fap material often centers around the thought of you riding him. He's much too nervous to take control, even in his fantasies, but he does like to think about gripping you fully, helping you take him faster, deeper.

"I want to make you mine."

Legoshi can't suppress his possessive instincts and the need to make you his. He's overwhelmed by the idea of claiming you in such an intimate way.

"I'm about to... I'm gonna c-come inside you.... Tell me I need to stop! Ngh."

He does like to warn you just in case you want him to finish elsewhere. He really really enjoys finishing inside you, but he wants to do what you're comfortable with first and foremost.

"I'm cumming! I can't... control... nghhh."

He's the most vocal when he's cumming. He tilts his head back and whines and whimpers as he slowly bucks his hips into you, making sure to fuck every drop into you. A big thing about Legoshi is control, even in the bedroom. He doesn't want to get too wild and risk hurting you or scaring you.

"Mmph... ah.... I love you."

It's not sex with Legoshi if he's not declaring his love for you. Snout pressed up against your neck as he pants his adoration for you, his hips slowing their thrusts, the two of you joined by his knot. Even balls deep inside you, eyes clenched shut as you ride him. He can't help but blurt out those three words out at the most random moments. Sex with him is very intimate.

"Take it. Fuck... yes. Take it...."

In his rut, he can be quite different. Focused solely on the task before him, of reassuring his and your mutual pleasure. He'll often urge you to take his knot. He enjoys the sight of it disappearing inside your slick channel.

"You're mine."

He gets incredibly possessive during his ruts. He's already pumping load after load into you, his knot not deflating in the slightest. He's already left a bite mark on your neck that proves to any carnivore who bothers sniffing around you're his. It's just the verbal proclamation that seals the deal.

In his rut, he's unfiltered. Lots of growls and groans and curses. His deep voice sending tingles down your spine as he rocks into you. Unashamed of the sheer carnality of his urges. Usually he's not much for dirty talk, but in his rut, he very much leans towards his carnal/possessive side.

"Everyone outside is going to see... how you're mine, and only mine."

He likes to say this when he's indulging in his breeding kink. After filling you up so much to the point you're leaking, to the point where his smell is all over you, inside you. Another claim to show you're his.

"Come for me. I wanna feel you tighten around me. Gonna stuff you again."

Again, he's much more unfiltered and confident in himself in his rut. He becomes much more dominant as well.

"I'm sorry... did I hurt you?"

Legoshi is doting after his ruts or after a rather intense session in general. He takes his time to scan you for any bruises or scratch and feels immensely guilty if he sees any. He's very dutiful about washing you up, cleaning you off, making sure you're comfortable.

"...You liked it? Oh. Okay."

He likes hearing what you like and dislike in your sessions. He always wants to be improving. It still surprises him when you like him to be rough with you. He's so worried about hurting you, but the knowledge that you trust him enough to let him hurt you? He tries so hard not to get aroused by it, but it's hard. (Also he is. Hard.)

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legoshi fluff alphabet;

a ctivities - what do they like to do with their s/o? how do they spend their free time with them?

legoshi’s favorite activity is really just to be around his s/o. it doesn’t matter what they’re doing. some would find that boring, but he’s entranced just by watching you go about your day, as creepy as that may sound. if he had to pick a favorite thing you two do together, it’s having cute little meals together. legoshi can’t explain it, but part of him really enjoys seeing you full and satiated. it makes him feel like he’s taking good care of you. he also enjoys listening to you ramble about things that excite you. 

b eauty - what do they admire about their s/o? what do they think is beautiful about them?

god, like everything about you? legoshi is a sweet soul. when he falls for someone, he finds everything about them undeniably, unbearably attractive. if he had to pick his favorite thing about you though, it would be your smile, as cheesy as that sounds. 

c omfort - how would they help their s/o when they feel down/have a panic attack etc.?

legoshi is no stranger to feeling down, but his strategy is to shove it down. whether or not he makes a convincing case for being fine is... debatable. he’s a little too well known for brooding. the upside to his tendency to ruminate is that he is hyper attuned to your moods. the type to wrap you up in his arms and let you cry into his chest, never letting go. he knows he can’t always say the right thing, but this is how he intends to comfort you, to let you know he’s always going to be there for you. if he finds out that you enjoy distractions more, he’ll start listing off random facts about beetles and animal biology to get you to brighten up. it’s cute.

d reams - How do they picture their future with their s/o?

married, preferably. legoshi’s big on commitment. he sees it as the natural progression from dating, and it surprises him that not everyone views relationships the same way. he wants a cute little apartment with you, a small backyard for the two of you to lounge together in, and your hand firmly in his, a simple ring glistening on your finger.

e qual - Are they the dominant one in the relationship, or rather passive?

ooh, i’d say he chooses to be passive. legoshi doesn’t trust his own strength, or desires. he’d much rather have you take the lead. but when it comes to some things (i.e. him being jealous), he gets quite assertive. he also has a pretty strong sense of justice, so if relationships decisions need to be made where someone gets hurt as a result, he wants to do the opposite. with simple things such as where to eat or who does the chores, he’s amenable to almost anything. 

f ight - Would they be easy to forgive their s/o? How are they fighting?

he will almost always forgive them. unless they did something that completely went against his belief systems, like eat a herbivore if they’re a carnivore. i think that legoshi would even find a way to forgive his s/o if they cheated, though it would certainly still nag at him every time they were together.

you’re his lover, and he prefers to not fight. if he thinks there’s even a chance he may be wrong, he’s quick to apologize. BUT if he thinks he’s in the right and you’re putting yourself in danger, he can he can be incredibly stubborn. 

g ratitude - How grateful are they in general? Are they aware of what their s/o is doing for them?

he’s very grateful. he’s not used to people doing anything for him, so he treasures any extra bit of attention or gifts that you give him. he’ll literally keep a bracelet you make him the first month of dating, in a box full of other paraphernalia that reminds him of you. 

h onesty - Do they have secrets they hide from their s/o? Or do they share everything?

depends. for the most part, he is an honest, earnest guy. he doesn’t like to keep secrets, but he does so because he doesn’t want to worry his s/o. for example, his training, or even where he got that new, gnarly scar on his arm. he thinks that the key to protecting his s/o is keeping them on a need-to-know basis. his secrets are never related to infidelity. 

i nspiration - Did their s/o change them somehow, or the other way around? Like trying out new things or helped them overcome personal problems?

his s/o definitely inspires him! legoshi is the type of guy who draws strength from those close to him. his s/o encourages him to open up, to be more true to himself, and to be confident in his skin as a carnivore. 

j ealousy - Do they get jealous easily? How do they deal with it?

incredibly so. jealousy is legoshi’s one greatest sin. he has faith in you, yes, but not in anyone else. after all, if he is utterly entranced with you, other people might be as well. he doesn’t think you’ll cheat on him, no, but if he sees someone getting handsy with you, a bit too friendly, he can’t resist the urge to bare his fangs. 

k iss - Are they a good kisser? What was the first kiss like?

he’s not the most experienced kisser. he has to cover his teeth with his tongue in order to not bite you. he is very careful with you though, because the last thing he wants to do is nick you. he definitely tries to put his all into the kiss, making sure to nuzzle his snout against the nape of your neck after. your first kiss is probably a brief, chaste one, as legoshi gets used to any possible differences in anatomy.

l ove Confession - How would they confess to their s/o?

he’ll kind of just say it aloud without thinking about it. maybe to jack or one of his friends. and then he has to stop and ruminate. is what he feels for you really love? it’s not too hard for him to realize, yes. yes, it is. he’s very eager to tell you and get the timing right, but unfortunately it doesn’t always work out that way. 

he just blurts it out. he knows what he feels. he’s the first one to say it. if it’s his choice, he confesses to you in some place that is special to you both--maybe the site of your first date, the first time you met, a memorable night, etc. 

m arriage - Do they want to get married? How do they propose? What would the marriage be like?

oh definitely. for him, it’s the natural progression of a relationship. he loves you and has no plans of being with anyone else, so why wouldn’t he want to set your relationship in stone? if his partner has cold feet about getting marriage, legoshi gets a bit nervous. do they not want to be with him? is he not the love of their life? if not... how can he become that kind of person to them?

for proposals, it’s much like the first date where he wants it to be a special moment, but something gets in the way, and he ends up just having to blurt it out. he does bring a ring though; he’s saved up months’ worth of his salary for a simple but pretty ring. 

the marriage is gonna be lowkey and private unless his s/o is fond of an audience. even so, legoshi gets nervous around crowds, so he’s going to want to keep it as small as possible. your good friends and close family will be there, but that’s about it. legoshi might be persuaded into inviting his drama club friends from cherryton, but it’s more likely that they have a high school reunion and he randomly mentions he’s been married for several years.

n icknames - What do they call their s/o?

he prefers to just call you by your name. he loves the way it sounds on his tongue. he finds nicknames a bit juvenile? he doesn’t mind if you refer to him by one though. 

o n Cloud Nine - What are they like when they are in love? Is it obvious for others? How do they express their feelings?

we have all seen legoshi in love. he’s a total simp. it’s so obvious to everyone that he’s in love. and while legoshi may show physical manifestations of his adoration around you--wagging his tail, ears perking up, etc.--in terms of his face... he tends to look even more melancholy. he has resting worried face. he’s especially pensive when he has a crush. he’s in his head too much, thinking about when to make his move, how you feel about him, what is the proper next step for your relationship, etc. 

p DA - Are they upfront about their relationship? Do they brag with their s/o in front of others? Or are they rather shy to kiss etc. when others are watching?

i think legoshi likes to keep a certain deal of privacy in his relationships, but it’s pretty obvious to anyone around that he likes someone because he doesn’t try to hide it. he’s not the type to brag, but he will mention that he’s been hanging out with someone quite frequently, which is why he can’t do x... he’s quite shy with PDA, but he does like being able to rest his paw on your back, hold an umbrella over you, etc. small, cute ways to show you’re his.

q uirk - Some random ability they have that’s beneficial in a relationship.

he is so dedicated to making things work out. it doesn’t matter what problem you two have, or even if its solely your own hesitations or baggage. he will always do his best to figure out the best solution and will love you regardless. 

r omance - How romantic are they? What would they do to make their s/o happy? Cliché or rather creative?

he is so romantic, but perhaps not in an outlandish way. he has certain ideas of how he should act in a relationship and what would make you happy, but he gets a bit too embarrassed to do all of it. he is definitely the kind of guy who focuses on actions--he cooks for you, does your laundry, helps brush your fur out if it gets tangled, makes sure to list the makeup you’re running out of if you need it, etc. he can do some genuinely romantic things such as pick flowers he sees that he thinks you’d like, save up to take you out to your favorite restaurant (you were wondering why he was only eating instant ramen for several meals straight), pick you up and carry you home if you’re drunk, etc. but legoshi doesn’t really see these things as romantic, per se. he thinks it’s normal to want to care for and treat one’s partner. he’s definitely not going to be the best at verbal displays of affection, since he gets too caught up in his doubts about expressing himself, but he will tell you “I love you” at least once a day.

s upport - Are they helping their s/o achieve their goals? Do they believe in them?

he thinks it’s only natural that he should be his S/O’s biggest supporter. and he hopes they do the same for him. no matter what it is, legoshi is always going to be cheering you on from the sidelines. 

t hrill - Do they need to try out new things to spice out your relationship? Or do they prefer a certain routine?

i think legoshi enjoys routine because sometimes his life can be wildly unpredictable. he finds himself at peace in the mundane. he doesn’t get bored easily. if anything, it’s his partner who often suggests trying new things.

u nderstanding - How good do they know their partner? Are they empathetic?

oh he knows them so well. he keeps a mental checklist of things you like, favorite foods, favorite movies, etc. if he forgets, he really beats himself up over it. when he’s out and about, he adds things to his checklist of things you’d like. i.e. if you like ramen, there’s a new ramen place in town with good reviews, so he take you there next date night... if you like lilacs, there’s a bush of them near his work, so he should pick some for you when you’re having a bad day... he’s very empathetic, but he may have trouble showing it!

v alue - How important is the relationship to them? What is it’s worth in comparison to other things in their life?

it’s so important to legoshi. he’s very much an all-or-nothing guy when it comes to romance. his relationship and concern for others takes the utmost priority in his life--even to the point of ignoring his own needs. 

w ild Card - A random Fluff Headcanon.

he likes to use blankets that your scent has rubbed off on. sometimes instead of throwing them in the wash, he keeps one for himself in his closet. he just mostly loves your smell, and being able to pull it out and smell you on it when he misses you.  

x OXO - Are they very affectionate? Do they love to kiss and cuddle?

he’s very affectionate in private! odds are he’s bigger and lankier than you, so he enjoys being the big spoon. he loves being able to hold you fully in his arms, protect you from the world, whether that’s through cuddling or curling himself up around you as you read or game or scroll on your phone. he kind of just always likes to be hugging you in private. he loves to nuzzle his snout against the top of your head or behind your ear in this position. 

y earning - How will they cope when they’re missing their partner?

he just mopes. so hard. if they’re away on a trip, he acts especially gloomy. it takes jack or someone else pressing him to do other things to take his mind off of it. but he literally counts down to the time when you’ll return. and he’s the first one to offer to pick you up or give you a ride when you’re back. 

z eal - Are they willing to go to great lengths for the relationship? If so, what kind of?

oh definitely. this man would trek through hell for you. he’s an incredibly loyal canine. some of the things he would do include: sacrifice his own happiness for you (sad), learn to be around herbivores to be with you, rescue you from yakuza, etc.

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i swear i saw something about paru itagaki saying that if beastars is twilight, edward is haru because she's more assertive and legoshi is bella because he's more passive but i disagree!!!

who else loathes their own instincts like legoshi does? "you're like my own personal brand of heroin"--you can't tell me legoshi wouldn't tell haru that if he was in a cringe early 2000s YA romance novel!

also breaking dawn, when bella is literally begging edward to give her the sparkly disco stick--is this not haru expressing sexual desires and legoshi being spooked by them

not to mention the theme of do i love her or do i want to devour her. the parallels are so good

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Hot Take: Legoshi is a switch. I see everyone describe him as a dom! He seems like he does both

YES.

he is totally a switch, but leaning dom. this pup wants nothing more than to please you and make you feel good, but he can't deny his more carnal instincts to pin you down and claim you. he's for sure a service top. <3

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what i gave is yours to keep

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legoshi as your boyfriend; 

— so awkward when it comes to the object of his affection. he’s a guy who spends most of the time in his head. whoever catches his eye is subject to a ton of brooding stares, conversations that trail into silence as legoshi overthinks the next thing he’ll say. he comes off as hot and cold without realizing it. he spends more time fretting about possibilities rather than taking chances. but once he gets comfortable around you, you’re surprised by how easy he is to get along with.

— he absolutely melts at physical affection. if you’re a herbivore, of course it comes with his own reservations; he can’t be too careful with his strength. even if you’re a carnivore, he’s tense and unused to physical affection. but once he’s comfortable enough, he craves every bit of it. he won’t demand it from you, but you will notice his tail wagging when you reach for his hand in public, or when you pat his head.

— dates are usually lowkey affairs. he considers any prolonged time spent around you as a “date,” even if it’s something as mundane as shopping for groceries together. he prefers doing things at night, like staying up in bed to talk about the mundane, watching shows together, or perching on the roof to watch the stars; even though he’s acclimated to daytime, the evening is when legoshi is  most energetic. he also prefers secluded, private dates since he gets angsty around large crowds--his protective instincts kick in.

— gives great hugs once he’s in the habit of them. definitely the type to give you awkward “dad hugs” or pats on the back when you first start dating. but once he knows how to handle his strength, he likes to drag you into his lap and curl his tail around you. 

— his love language is most definitely acts of service and quality time. he struggles with wanting to tell you all the sappy things he thinks about you, like how your smile makes him forget all his worries, or how whole he feels when the warmth of your fingers brushes against his own. these are things he keeps close to his heart. instead, he tries to show you what he can’t tell you. if you have trouble reaching the top shelf, he lowers everything down for you so you can grab things. if you don’t like spicy food and the restaurant serves you something hot, he’ll offer to switch plates with you. he also just... enjoys being around you. the two of you don’t even have to be doing anything special. he could be feeding his insects and you could be on your phone. he just feels more at ease when you’re in his presence.  

— he’s incredibly stubborn and loyal to a fault. legoshi will never break up with you first. even if you two are going through a rough patch, he’s more worried that you’ll break up with him. this makes it a bit hard to have open communication with him. he’ll shove everything bothering him down if he could. even if he didn’t, he has a problem with idealizing his significant others. nothing really bothers him, though; he’s patient and understanding to a fault. unless, of course, you make him jealous...

— he feels the sting of jealousy incredibly easily. part of it stems from his insecurity--he’s aware he’s a reticent person, not the most expressive, and constantly worries that he’s not enough. the other part is that wolves are highly possessive by nature. when you’ve been together for awhile, you notice legoshi rubbing his scent on you. it’s subconscious at first--you mention you’ll be around other men, and legoshi’s rubbing his muzzle into the side of your neck. to other canines, it’s a sign that you’re taken.

— because of his fervent attempts to stay together, he gets blindsided by breakups. he doesn’t realize how much fretting about your perceived dissatisfaction with him might become a self-fulfilling prophecy. 

not sfw

— praise kink. god, he is the definition of praise kink. tell him how much of a good boy he’s been, and he’ll lick at you even more enthusiastically. he doesn’t like to admit to it, but he enjoys being recognized for his efforts. he likes knowing he’s worthy of your praise. 

— pleasing you really gets him off. legoshi could—and has—cum untouched just from the feel of your thighs clamping around his head, your moans in his ears, as he licks at your most sensitive parts.

— he isn’t aware he’s big until the sight of you grimacing in pain to take him.  then his size becomes a point of embarrassment for him. legoshi will actually get so upset to see you struggling to take him that he goes soft; it takes him awhile to learn to be okay with his natural assets. and lots of lube or slick.

— sex for him is very much a mental and emotional endeavor. he can’t truly let go and ignore his anxieties until he knows you’re his. because of that, i don’t think legoshi is the kind of guy to do casual sex. he needs to be in a committed relationship before he truly can let his guard down and give in to his baser urges.

— goes absolutely crazy when you go down on him. because he’s so inexperienced, he’ll literally cum with five seconds flat of your tongue on his cock. he has to take breaks from oral, regulate his breathing, think about feeding his pet beetle, etc. luckily, his refractory period isn’t that long, and he’s able to get hard again in a few minutes. 

— when he’s in a rut, god, he’s feral. it’s so unlike him, to absolutely lose control, but he can’t help it, especially if he’s partnered during his ruts. he does his best to inform you beforehand, explain that he doesn’t want to force you to be around him and that he has trouble controlling his urges, but none of that really prepares you for the ferocity and carnality that accompanies his ruts. for the first few days, he prefers to keep you in bed so he can fuck you nonstop. it’s really just pump and go again, pump and go for another round. he’s got insane stamina for days. after seemingly endless rounds of fucking though, at some point legoshi becomes aware of how sore you are, how exhausted you look. he takes pity on you and makes sure to wash you, bathe you, hug you, etc. 

  — in his rut, loves using his cum as extra lube to keep fucking you. he’s just a whooole different animal when in his ruts. 

— one of his less obvious turn-ons is when you pull on his tail. for some reason, it gets him hard like nothing else. pulling your tail as well. 

— he does enjoy the soft, squisher parts of you. resting his head on your chest, or your tummy, or thighs. he finds his own body to be hard, muscled, and unappealing. he much prefers a softer partner. 

— he really dreams about that super intimate, face-buried-in-your-chest, slow fucking. he definitely prefers it to jerking off. legoshi finds masturbation kind of... empty in comparison to sex with you. he will however resort to it if he’s in “male mode” and you’re not in the mood. 

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legoshi in a throuple

even though i highly doubt legoshi is the type of guy to share his significant other, especially with his jealous streak, it’s fun to think about your dynamics in these throuples. 

legoshi + louis 

— out of all the couples here save the last one, this is the most likely pairing to work out. legoshi and louis are quite alike in fundamental ways, and legoshi has the patience to deal with louis' mood swings. louis on the other hand encourages legoshi to let his inner beast out at times.

— the one qualm to this pairing is that both men are incredibly stubborn. legoshi is more likely to cave and adjust his behavior, while louis struggles to not let his perfectionist tendencies and need for control push away those he cares for.

— you definitely are the odd one out since louis and legoshi have history. they also have a terrible habit of trying to keep you safe and away from their business, whilst also being incredibly uncommunicative about their motives.

— rating: 7.5/10

legoshi + riz

— legoshi does not even want to share you. he doesn't trust riz at all. doesn't want you near him. 

— the aftermath of tem’s death has left a bad taste in his mouth regarding him. and part of him is genuinely confused as to why?? you like riz?? unfortunately he turns that confusion inwards and starts to doubt why you even like him. is he just a placeholder? is it because riz is stronger, better, more in tune with his nature? self-doubt festers in this pairing.

— in a soulmate au where your soulmate is born with the same tattoo as you, legoshi is less than pleased to see that riz has the other half to his tattoo, the half that completes the picture and mirrors the one on your forearm. if he could, he would rip the damn bear’s arm off. 

— rating: 1/10

legoshi + bill

— the thing is, legoshi can’t trust bill. he knows bill likes to indulge in herbivore blood.

— but unlike riz, legoshi finds bill unlikable for a total other reason—he’s a total fuckboy. legoshi is a romantic, and the way bill has casual dalliances with other animals doesn't make any sense to him.

— bill will do things like come onto you aggressively, grope you and slap your ass in public, and it makes legoshi seethe. 

— the only way this coupling would work is if you were really into bill. legoshi will try his best to be civil (bill won’t--he loves to stir the pot), but he does prefer having separate dates. he also tries his best to erase the feline stench of him on you when possible. 

— rating: 4/10

legoshi + jack

— another great couple. jack and legoshi have natural rapport as childhood friends and fellow canines. unlike the other throuples here, where legoshi and the reader are most likely gonna have to get together first, you’re either with jack first and legoshi does a poor job of hiding his gigantic crush, or jack encourages legoshi that both of them should pursue you. 

— jack is an affable guy. whenever legoshi’s moody, he manages to pull him out of it. his positively is absolutely infectious. 

— the healthiest couple out of all of these. jack is a great grounding presence. the only thing is, legoshi once again starts comparing himself to jack and wondering if you like him better, especially if you two have more history.

— rating: 8/10

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is 2025 year of the furry bc i’m back on my beastars shit

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raise ur hand if you've fallen hard for an anime wolf 👋😔

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Postcolonial Love Poem, ‘Wolf OR-7′ by Natalie Diaz

[ID: I confuse instinct for desire - isn’t bite also touch?]

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forgot to post these on tumblr, but March 29 was Louis’ 20th birthday!

(ft. The Fang Purification festival from beast complex 14)

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lunch date

Summary: You forget your lunch. Legoshi, the ever-thoughtful boyfriend, decides to drop it off for you and uses this opportunity to address something that’s been bugging him.

As if your day at work can’t get any worse, the incessant growling from your stomach makes you realize that you forgot to bring lunch. You can picture it now: the checkered-gingham-wrapped bento sitting innocently on your kitchen counter.

“I made sure to pack all your favorites,” Legoshi muttered, voice groggy from the dredges of sleep. He must have stayed up preparing it after his night shift, so it would be ready for you the next morning.

But due to your rush to find your car keys and make it on time that morning, you forgot to grab it.

Damn. You bite down on the inside of your cheek, mentally going over the vending machine fare on the first floor of your office building. You had chips for lunch the other day, so this time…

A packaged sandwich and apple juice it is.

While your day seems to get progressively shittier, it takes great restraint for you to avoid texting Legoshi about it. Your canine boyfriend is a kind soul, and never turns you away, even in your less-than-ideal moods (which are quite frequent). He always offers his shoulder to cry on or ear to vent to, no matter how awkward he is about it.

But lately you've been worried that your negativity has been irking him. You decided to stop venting to him, no matter how natural it is to you. It's time you learned to be independent! So you do something you haven't done in forever--you turn your phone on silent and leave it in your desk drawer. Cracking your knuckles together, you decide on making the best out of your shitty day.

However, that’s probably why you don't get Legoshi’s calls or texts once he notices the bento left on the counter. Cocking his head, he figures that since he has the day off, he'll bring it to you. Truthfully, he wants any kind of excuse to hang out with you; you've been quite distant lately, and these days he hears less and less from you. While the small texts from you throughout the day managed to put a smile on his face at work, nowadays he struggles with the crippling disappointment at the lack of notice from you.

If it was just that, Legoshi wouldn’t be as concerned. But you've also been brushing him off whenever he asks about your day, leaving room for the self-doubt to start trickling in.

Is there a reason you're pulling back? Is it something he did?

Is it something he could fix?

Legoshi wants to get to the bottom of things, before his anxiety eats away at him like it tends to.

As soon as you clock off for lunch, you're surprised to see a familiar figure arguing with the security guard at your work.

“Ah… I’m just looking for (Y/N)… Do you know which floor…?”

Legoshi shifts his weight onto one leg, rubbing the back of his neck self-consciously. You're more than certain he's aware of the way the badger security guard cowers at the sight of him.

“N-No, I don't!" he squeaks.

“Legoshi!” You call, and his ears twitch. He turns his head swiftly, his eyes lighting up at the sight of you, the corners of his lips pulling upwards into his version of a dopey smile. He acts like he hadn't seen you just this morning--like every time you lock eyes is the first time.

It's stupidly cute. You can't help cracking a smile yourself.

He calls your name, jogging over to you. Then leaning down, he presents the bento to you between two large hands. “You forgot this.”

“Thanks! I was just about to grab something."

Legoshi pauses, and when you glance at him, he seems to be staring at you intently, as if trying to anticipate your reaction. He clears his throat. “I was wondering if we could uh, eat together?” he asks, procuring his own wrapped lunch.

"Ah, sure!”

“We haven’t done this in awhile,” Legoshi comments as the two of you sit on the grass just outside your workplace. He offered to let you sit on his sweater, in case you ruin your work pants, but you declined.

"We haven't," you agreed, untying the cloth wrapping. You sigh happily when you see the lunch he packed you; it was simple, but he took great pains to make it presentable, even adding cute little food picks to the vegetables. It's adorable.

He waits for you to take a few bites, watching you as he chewed thoughtfully on his egg salad sandwich, before he speaks up. "It, uh, seems like I barely see you nowadays. Or... hear from you."

Legoshi tries to come off as casual, but he feels like there is one obvious message relayed in the downward cast of his brows, in the way his voice falls flat.

I miss you.

"Yeah, uh... work's been pretty busy," you say absently, fiddling with a cherry tomato in your lunch pack. "Sorry."

Legoshi stifles a wince. Okay. Distant answer. Not very promising. But he persists, because if there's one thing he is, it's determined to figure out what he did wrong.

"How've you been doing?"

"Oh, you know." You offer him a tight smile. "The same. Usual... stuff."

"Really? You don't seem very..." He purses his lips, thinking of the correct word.

"Yeah," you say, frowning slightly. "It's been, ah..."

This is awkward, even by his standards. Legoshi frowns at the gap between you two that he can't seem to bridge, no matter how much he wants to. When did you two become so distant?

He sighs, leaning back on his hands. His mouth a thin line, his gaze travels to your surroundings, to the grass--anywhere but you, his mind abuzz with thoughts. 

You seem frustrated yourself. "Look Legoshi, I--"

Here it comes. He wonders idly what it is that he’s done. Are you really going to break up with him? He hides the slight tremble of his hands by digging his claws into the earth beneath him, before exhaling softly.

"I-I get it."

"It's just been so hard to not--to not jump on the chance to complain about things even second of the day!”

His gaze snaps to you. "W-What?"

"I know--I really should be less pessimistic. I mean, my therapist said I should. I feel really bad about complaining to you all the time and--"

"You're not... mad at me?" he says slowly.

"And like, you're so nice. You never even tell me to stop. But sometimes I wish you would! I worry my bad mood is rubbing off on you. I know you're a sensitive kind of guy and--"

"Wait." Legoshi jerks forward, gripping the tops of your arms before relinquishing his hold when he notices how sharp his claws look against your arm. You stare at him wide-eyed.

His brow creases. "You're... you haven't been talking to me because you're worried it’lll..."

"Bring your mood down? I mean, yeah." You blink as if it's the most obvious conclusion to come to in the world. Then you yelp as Legoshi wraps his arms around you, drawing you into his embrace.

"Legoshi?” you ask, patting his back. He sighs, relaxing into his hold on you.

"I thought I did something wrong..." he mumbles.

"Hm? You?"

He pulls back, a frown sitting heavy on his face. "It's not like you to just not... talk anymore."

You purse your lips, before nodding slowly--then once more, thoughtfully now. "...Oh. Ah, yeah. I see--I see why you’d think that."

He scratches the back of his ear with one of his claws. "This is simpler than I thought it would be."

You blink several times at him, unmoved by his conclusion. "Is it."

"Yeah.” He stares at you. "I mean... It's a lot easier to deal with if it's just a misunderstanding."

"I... guess...?” you say, confused. Legoshi had a way of stating things without explaining himself clearly. But in this case, you suppose you were also in the wrong."Sorry... I was trying to work on myself, but I didn't realize how it might come across..."

"I don't...” Legoshi sits cross-legged, his elbows on his knees before lowering his mouth to them. You recognize this as his thinking pose. “I don't mind if you need space, or you don't wanna talk. But... I don't want you to think that I don't want you to talk. I mean..." You cock your head to the side, and he pauses, before continuing in a different manner. "I don't... I'd prefer if you talked to me rather than just... kept it to yourself..." he finishes.

"Okay.” You nod thoughtfully. “I can do that.”

He exhales slowly, as if releasing a huge weight off his shoulders, and it’s at this point that you see something on the ground. 

“Oh no! You dropped your sandwich.”

The remnants of his egg salad lay smushed on the ground, probably from when he lurched forward to hug you. A few ants were crawling on the egg-mayo filling, and the two of you stared for a second. Legoshi sighs. “It’s fine.”

“Here.” You offer him a bite of the omelette he had made you, and he pauses, seeming bashful. You prod it towards his jaw once more, and he opens his mouth, before swallowing. When your gaze meets his, he ducks his head down, rubbing his neck.

Behind him, his tail thumps the floor excitedly. The one indicator of his true feelings. 

"Thanks. I--you know I was supposed to be the one feeding you.”

“I know. But consider this... reparations? For worrying you,” you murmur when he snaps his head up. He accepts your next bite of food with less hesitance, but with a softness to his gaze that has your heart pounding. You check your phone, only to see the time.

"Oh! I need to head back."

"Let me walk you back,” he offers, helping you pack up.

When you’ve said your goodbyes, Legoshi’s walking back to the train when his phone buzzes. It’s a text from you.”

"Thank you for bringing the lunch! It really sweetened up my day. :)"

"No problem. :)” 

He chews on the inside of his lip as he sees the three dots by your name. You’re writing him something.

"When I get home, I have to tell you about this bitch in accounting."

He raises a brow, ducking his head. Sometimes, it’s nice to know things don’t change.