koalaofadventures

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the more obsessed they are with me the more I want them

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when you start reading again and it's like oh. oh . the sun actually does still shine.

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"what do you do for a living?" Oh I am a professional hopeless romantic and I read books and cry in my free time.

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Certain words can change your brain forever and ever so you do have to be very careful about it.

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cant believe im letting people online see into my heart. for free

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life is just humiliating yourself over and over and learning to live with the inherent shame of being alive !! do what makes you happy !! it is impossible to live life without embarrassment, so why bother trying !!

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thread

there is something so indescribable about the way all lives meld

we are all connected somehow

there is always a path back to the beginning

held together as a whole

like a quilt, sown together

my PIN is the same as my dads

which is the last four digits of the phone number to his childhood home

when i call my grandparents house

and speak to only my papa who is left

i am reminded of him

my life is the compilation of all the people i have taken the time to know

i hope i am a part of somebody else’s compilation

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love will always find you. Both threat AND promise

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medicine

i used to have a boyfriend who refused to take any medication when sick

im still not sure why

when i asked, he just said he didn’t like the idea of it

idea of what?

giving in?

giving up?

was he too proud?

did he want to feel the pain?

remain in the moment?

maybe this is why he never texted me back

he did not want to admit the moment was hurting him

too proud to admit his wrong doings

did not want to give in to me

did not want to give up his pain

maybe he’s still in the moment

waiting for me

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I will never get over how weird it feels to have tragic and emotional chapters of your life where you just also still go to work, and the grocery store, and see funny videos online all while feeling such paralyzing fear and heartache

life just goes on no matter what

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WE ARE NOT WISE!!!!!!!!! AND NOT VERY OFTEN KIND!!!!!!!!!!! AND MUCH CAN NEVER BE REDEEMED!!!!!! STILL!!!!!!!!! LIFE HAS SOME POSSIBILITY LEFT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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OP must have been eating seasonal fruits when they wrote this!

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there is always some fucking laundry and dust and some other shit

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🚬 🧚‍♂️

Cigarette fairy. Reblog

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life is so ruthless so i must love you as hard as i can. basically

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3/3/22

when you left i realised i didn’t believe in something bigger

before now i had held out hope,

i was looking for signs and waiting to be enlightened.

but now i’m certain

it’s like the door to curiosity has closed,

and all that i’m left with is a world without you.

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i know she loves me

my mother loves me

i know she does because she tells me

i know she does because she shows me

my mother speaks to me in frustrated tones

she is frustrated that i do not know everything that she needed to know at my age

i know she loves me

my mother tells me she is disappointed with me

she is disappointed that my eyes are hers and my words ring home

i know she loves me

my mother will argue with me that i am not allowing myself more time

today we are yelling about rentals

she is scared

she will argue that i am not doing everything she did not get to do

we are screaming at each other

she is scared

she is not getting her point across with raised voices

we don’t lower them

later she will listen to news broadcasters discussing the rental market

loud enough so that i can listen too

she will not tell me to listen

she knows i listen when the advice is not coming from her

i know mother

i am listening

i love you too