kosbeku

[kosbeku]

Face reveal.

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still alive. nothing to say. nothing to show. sry/ hope everyones doing cool

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does tumblr move? is it alive? when i look at the thumbnail whilst switching windows, the aliasing is movin funky style. doesnt happen with any other site so i'm assuming tumblr is alive.

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i've been debating deleting accounts and stuff quite often. I can't say its the first length of time i've thought about it tho. this happens pretty regularly i guess. so i won't delete my acc i think since i can really never be sure that i'm sure. Won't be talking for awhile i think. I'm doing better though. im trying to talk more substantively to people i havent in awhile. they were people i originally distanced myself from because it was just complicated to be friends with people for a bit. i stopped talking almost entirely for a bit over a month but i found myself failing to have words to say to them for much longer than that. didnt really think it was helping me to be so alone even tho it felt better in the moment and at times. anyway i'm fine. sorry i don't interact much, even beyond this kind of thing. i'm not that best at it and i'm still learning how i guess

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Yall have any memes I can draw my characters over

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shaking and eyes watering cuz a napkin fell and it scared me rlly bad

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if anyone has like vague suggestions or requests for what to draw, i might draw them. nothing super specific though

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sorry/ not really around much. mood is sporadic and i like to keep [that] to myself

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@mackachu1212 hii hello almost done but i haven't done a lot in awhile so just updating. i've been kinda slow with art for awhile. also for if any details are off or should be changed.

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single balloon looks lonely and the 1 looks ominous

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HI I HAVENT HEARD FROM YOU IN A WHILE

How are you :O)

something something gift art jumpscare. The plan is to paint in the lighting and stuff so some of the colors and details aren't there rn.. I was going to wait until it was done but i lost a lot of progress because blender crashed and the autosave didnt save texture painting and now I'm busy with something else I've deemed more time sensitive.

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clarifying that this it's fine as long as the vibe check comes back positive.

I'm gonna need people to stop following without liking any of my posts. I'm sorry, i don't want to say anyone's not genuine or force people into specific habits, but it makes me so suspicious.

I try very hard to be normal about stuff, but i find it very hard to trust people in really any situation. I just want to be comfortable on my own account so i think I'm going to remove people like that. I'm talking specifically about like two new followers. one i think is an AI shill and the other i think just wants a follow back. Sorry for assuming if that's not true, but i need to be certain of things rn.

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I'm gonna need people to stop following without liking any of my posts. I'm sorry, i don't want to say anyone's not genuine or force people into specific habits, but it makes me so suspicious.

I try very hard to be normal about stuff, but i find it very hard to trust people in really any situation. I just want to be comfortable on my own account so i think I'm going to remove people like that. I'm talking specifically about like two new followers. one i think is an AI shill and the other i think just wants a follow back. Sorry for assuming if that's not true, but i need to be certain of things rn.

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someone and then better view of the secret low opacity rat in the top left corner.

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I probably wouldn't be too hard to find, realistically. I'm not exactly trying to hide it there. I'll talk about things people I know already know about me or show old art that's been here before without much issue.

I guess for the voice stuff its easy since no would ever have any expectation there. I guess it scares me that someone's idea of me is closer to who I really want to be, and that i could somehow break that.

I'd prefer no one goes out of their way to look for it. Not a crime if anyone finds it though.

I've been streaming on twitch. I don't really want to share the second account i use to stream

Not a real reason why I'm sharing. Just wanted to say what I'm up to. Maybe I'll share at some point, but I'm pretty attached to keeping my voice off this name. Just enby on the internet issues.

I wonder if that's relatable.

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I've been streaming on twitch. I don't really want to share the second account i use to stream

Not a real reason why I'm sharing. Just wanted to say what I'm up to. Maybe I'll share at some point, but I'm pretty attached to keeping my voice off this name. Just enby on the internet issues.

I wonder if that's relatable.