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I’ve been dealing with so fucking much in my head and I feel like I should just throw in the towel (interesting metaphor I hear recently).

This may be my final post and I just want to say sorry to my children.

[krasnyy-koldun]

Over the past few weeks I've been noticing weird things happening to me.

For example, it felt like I was literally drowning while on solid ground. Choking on what felt like water when nothing was there.

Another thing is constantly feeling anxious for no reason. As if people were chasing me, or I was watching something horrible happen.

The worst part is looking at some of my friends and/or enemies and feeling completely different about them. As if my thoughts about them weren't my own.

I don't know, I'll have to look into it. I'm going to figure this out even if it kills me.

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Here take some art of my skrunkly

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Things that happened today:

1. Slept in late

2. Got told everyone was to meet at spawn in a few hours

3. Panicked

4. Arrived at spawn where too many people were

5. Got told a government was forming by Cybot

6. Cybot died

7. Kira got shot in the face by Fern (my baby is growing up so fast ❤️)

8. Radio got upset

9. Started planning anarchy

All in all, a pretty normal day

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Everyone is doing such cool things and I'm over here existing for absolutely no reason.

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I feel like I’m losing more of my sense every day. My eyes are turning from black to white. The feeling of death is constant.

I just don’t know what to do.

I keep feeling more and more human, and I absolutely hate it. I don’t know how they live like this.

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I keep feeling more and more human, and I absolutely hate it. I don’t know how they live like this.

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I wonder what would happen if I killed the god possessing my body.

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i always see all these posts about the eldest sibling being the mediator of the family and i’m over here flabbergasted because i don’t think my family has communicated a day in their lives in order for there to even be a mediator

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Currently plotting against my inner demons. They’ve been winning, but not for long.

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Wandersmp is such a good fucking server gotta say I am SO glad to have a fun community survival server to play on with the shopping district an all my friendsss 10/10 will continue to play

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sorry if i was weird the other day i'm but a conduit for powers as terrible as they are strange

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I don't think it's a villain arc? Hilbertz just wanted to make a shop with me! ^_^ They were telling me how it's good for the "economy" (whatever that is) and how we could get rich ^_^! They are super fun to hang out with tho and was really helpful during the build process :) I really don't think it qualifies as a villain arc? We just wear shades and sell things, and even the selling part is most Hilbertz, I just do the building ^_^ You should stop by the shopping district some time to see it :D! It's the big skyscraper! -@beanix05

Ah, you are capitalists. I may have to fix that. Until I do, enjoy yourselves. I hope you have fun.

(Even if you are a capitalist, and I am a libertarian socialist, I will always love you, no matter what.)

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oh no the horrors are back [<- horrors had never left or ceased]

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actually, sir, my favorite hobby is committing blasphemy and horrific sins in the eyes of god

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Beanix, since when have you had a villain arc? And, why didn't you tell me?

(I'm not mad, just disappointed that you didn't let me know. But, I support you no matter what.)

@yourfriendphoenix and I have decided to have a villain arc on wandersmp (version without text and glasses under the cut)

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I'm sure you two will get along great! And, I'll plan for us to all spend time together.

So, I was just in the Nether, and I found an orphan baby zombie pigman. Naturally, I’m bringing them home.

Say hello to Esme, everyone.