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Sun goes protective feral i love this one XD

Ready! It was the first time I drew a comic book, so I could have confused something with the sounds)) For @gaia004 Part 2

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Here's Dusk Lounge - Eclipse Darkstar ❗️ Important WARNINGS❗️ He's kind of a Valentino figure from Hazbin Hotel As I mentioned, Eclipse will be an ucomfortable character. Dusk Lounge has already mention/contain disturbing scenes such as sexual harassment/assault/abuse and worse. Eclipse will be a main causer on these topics. I'm not trying to show him as a good character itself, it just part of the plot.

He was Miranda's right-hand man, the one who actually organized things according to the Mistress's instructions. Loyal to his chosen boss until the day he dies. Eclipse is the executioner/interrogator in the mansion, the one who actually wanted to mark Sun while Miranda watched, but Sun kicked the ember into his face. Eclipse was incapacitated for a while, and eventually, it was Miranda who marked Sun. After Sun poisoned his mistress and fled, Eclipse set out after him unsuccessfully. He's still looking for him to this day.

Please read my tags if you see Eclipse on my site, it's not gonna be always Dusk Lounge version!

[kriimhild]

Wait a minute,

Sun only as far as we know poisoned Miranda, Does that mean eclipse is still out there?

Considering he was her right hand man I can't help but worry but the guy may have a vendetta against sun. Then again it's been years I assume that he's maybe moved on.

yeah. Eclipse has erm...

unfinished business with Sun

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Hold up. Wait. You have an Eclipse in DL? I'm sorry if you already said something about it, but I did not know that. (Kinda surprised by DD as well, but not as much as DL)

In DD he's a part of it for a long time now

In DL he'll be a very uncomfortable character, because he was a right hand to Miranda. I'll make a post about him later with proper warnings

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Hello there. Could I hug Eclipse and moon

it reeeeally depends! from which au? In Dusk Lounge, Eclipse would be probably not happy about. i do not recommend that with him, Moon on the other hand would totally take a hug selfie with you. In DailyDaycare Eclipse would be interested and let you headpat him but they're careful with hugs. Moon would hide behind Frankie and just reach out so you can touch his hand, but he'doesn't trust strangers

[kriimhild]

Hello!/Szia!

I'm sorry to come off as corny or cringy, but I just wanted to say you are my favorite fanfic author. I really love Dusk Lounge and your new AU sounds amazing! I just wanted to tell you that.

Bye!/Szia!

Szia! Aww thank you so much! Can't promise I start the Superhero AU nowadays but who knows? Things are very jumpy here. I do my best on Dusk Lounge, thank you ^^ Speaking of which, I need to buy another wine soon

Sziaa!

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Oof no worries I also got the chapters mixed up^^; Also if moon were to go full beast mode at the lounge would he just lay there? Or be able to walk/crawl on land for a short while till he gets tired.

Since his tail and whole body is meant for water vs land.

oh he would totally walk around the club. it will take a while, but his beast will get along with Sun eventually, and let him put a protectic gear under the tail to not hurt the skin

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hey can I make sun and moon as murder drones? I just came up with that idea! And I watched episode 7, it was sooo cool!

i don't watch murder drones, sorry. saw some clips but that's all.

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look at these dorks! i love em so much ^^

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i'm really flattered to be on the list, but i have to make a quick heads up. I'm specifically NOT the y/nverse type, I only have ocs 😊

I need more dca fics to read, not just because they're all so cool and special and unique-

I want to collect their y/n's in my pocket, and bring back the y/nverse. All of them in a lil pocket dimension (the dca stay in their respective stories, this place is reserved for the self inserts and side characters/family to interact. The boys can have their own pocket dimension)

The y/ns live on the same street or apartment complex, being bunched into groups that are roomies

For example. Bamsara's Solar Lunacy y/n, Paper-Lilypie's CCRT y/n, and bones-of-a-rabbit's staffbot y/n. SB is there so CCRT can perform routine maintenance, plus CCRT can be a but messy, plus they could help clean up after ccrt's kids. SL is where, you may ask? Their room has been vacant for some time, but CCRT and SB keep it clean and regularly dusted, out of respect. They don't know if or when their friend will return, but they'll be welcome at any time.

Naffeclipse's y/ns share a suite, probably.

spadillelicious's LDR y/n could stay with saltciphblr's lovebug au y/n

Again, I need to read more to get a better feel of the different wonderful y/n's

This probably won't be uploaded, maybe someday, but this is mostly self indulgence that my brain has been blasting on repeat all day

Into the y/nverse, I raise you from the depths

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garden buds

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OMG it's my first even drawn piece to Security Breach and Moon XD

Bad Moon

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her soul left her body and never returned

Frankie already regrets

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it's jordan

HE CAN PLAY BASKETBALL!    o.O (yes, I’m lazy to color, bite me)

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Frankie goes wroom wroom! ( She always goes on rollerskate to work if it doesn’t rain)

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No problem, you can tag me anytime! Well... Yeah, I'm gonna chime in a bit on this too.

As Chill mentioned, this is one of the reasons why I quit. The thing is, I used to love creating content for it... for a while. I've been out of the big fandom for over a year now, but I still watched a few videos now and then because I appreciate and enjoy the guys' work. It's not their fault that part of the fandom is so immature and often disgusting. I still follow and love the moots' and friends' art, and I'll never change that because I support them.

So, here's the deal... I have to mention that my health condition isn't the best. I talked a bit more about it in one of the public Patreon posts. Since January, everything has been really tough. I was in such a panic about it that I could only eat one sandwich in six days. I'm still going to doctors, but while it was really tough, I just wanted to shut off my brain to distract myself. Since I've already watched every possible video from my favorite streamers, I started rewatching the TSBS. I still love it, and there are often times when I feel a huge urge to draw some scenes, sometimes even the nostalgic feeling of wanting to animate hits me, but then I remember how f*cking annoying it is that the tags are constantly being ignored under my posts.

You have no idea how many comments I got in my askbox after the HW2 video came out saying, 'Oh my god, you're back?' I didn't really know what to reply?! Their artist drew that thumbnail, and I love the thumbnails you guys make, if you see this! But here's the thing, I'm telling everyone, the thumbnail is not the same as my story what I made this drawing for. Okay?

god i love this thumbnail btw

And this is exactly what repels me from going back. The constant comparisons and the mistaken or intentionally misleading titles of my art.

The vast majority of people don't like to read when they're doomscrolling, and especially don't like to click a lot. So if I put a link under my post, if 5 out of 10 people click on it, that's a divine ratio, but that's not the norm.

As for the other thing, I still don't think I'm ready to talk about it. Someday, I'll gather my thoughts properly on it and tell you what the other huge reason was for quitting.

Chill's ramblings about the DCA fandom and personal feelings and issues towards TSAMS (both positive an negative):

(I'm writing this like an essay but treating it like a diary, so if I jump from subject to another, it is because I am just typing as the thoughts hit my head. Sorry for being so wordy.)

I simply feel like I need to write my thoughts down, so why not share them with you. Maybe you can validate my feelings or something, I don't know.

Intro:

So, oof, I got a fic rec from @thedenofravenpuff and I'm loving it so much I really wanna draw fan art for it...

But the problem is that it's a TSAMS fanfic and I've sworn to my name I'll never draw anything related to the show because that will make me engage with a part of the fandom I'm not comfortable with.

My biggest issue with TSAMS:

I have such complicated feelings towards the show and its fanbase and I do not wish to make my life and work more difficult because of it as it already is.

My own work and characters are already constantly being compared to TSAMS. When I first introduced Solar to my fic, he was constantly being referred to Eclipse from TSAMS. Now that the show had a character with THE SAME NAME, it has been even worse.

Dolldrop Moon has been compared to Lunar. Even though the dolldrops existed before the youtube channel was even created (and Lunar made his debut much later).

The biggest issue I've had has always been the fanbase, that takes the show as the canon for Sun and Moon from FNAF and uses it as an excuse to harass shippers like me because they think Sun and Moon are brothers.

I've first handedly seen the damage the fanbase has done to some of my friends who draw, or have previously drawn art for the show besides their own AUs and personal headcanons of Sun and Moon as lovers. I'm sorry to tag you, but @kriimhild and @fablekitty : I've seen how the immature side of the show's fans have treated you, I am so terribly sorry you've had to defend yourselves over and over again for things that were not meant to be mixed up.

I have posted some ideas of a possible Animutant Moon and Sun forming a polyamorous relationship with Solar in the future of "My Dear Daffodil" on my personal/adult Twitter account. Someone kept commenting on my posts that I was glorifying incest, because Sun and Moon were brothers and Solar was their cousin.

The post had "Animutant" in it. Not "TSAMS". These comments came from a person saying they were 19 in their profile. So it's not just kids who can't tell not every fanwork is about TSAMS. It's starting to be some adults too.

Vice versa I've had another person comment on my very clearly SFW Twitter how they're following me because I am an adult artist who draws TSAMS incest. I have never drawn TSAMS art. I ship Sun and Moon, but they're never related with family bond, because I love presenting them as lovers.

Why I ship Sun and Moon:

Because I am a hopeless romantic. I love romantic love. Every single story I write is always about love.

The only exception to this is the Poppy Playtime comic I am doing. But even then, I was originally planning for a romantic love between Dogday and the Player. Yet, I decided to leave it, and keep the relationship open for any type of representation the reader themselves will prefer.

I used to watch The Sun and Moon Show when it first started airing. I loved their playthroughs. I had a big distaste for them calling each other brothers, as well as some of the first "lore" videos they had. My biggest issue at the time was how Moon treated Sun, though. As someone who grew up with an abusive sibling, it sometimes just hit a bit too hard at home.

But it got better after Eclipse and Lunar appeared. Moon was more caring, and I started to really like his character development. There was one episode where Sun explained to Lunar that he and Moon had simply just "decided" to be brothers, despite not having a canonical relationship.

This actually made me really happy. Because the Old Moon was aroace, the love he felt was simply never meant to be romantic, but platonic. And by making Sun his brother by choice clearly indicated that Sun was always the one he loved the most - in a way that was suitable for aromantic person like him.

And it really made me enjoy the show for a while. Sun is my favourite character, and despite not always liking the way the show presents him, I always feel so much love for him, no matter the AU he is in. So I loved that Moon loved him more than anything, even if it was just platonic. Because I've always been under the impression that the canon Moon loves Sun, and is only under a virus to protect him. For me, the best part of any Sun and Moon AU is to know that Sun is the most important thing to Moon.

Why I stopped watching TSAMS:

And then that Moon I had really started to like, who loved Sun more than anyone else but just platonically, died.

It hurt so much I simply stopped watching the show. I've watched a few episodes here and there after that, but I am having a hard time liking the show the same as I did before.

Partially it's because of the fanbase. Partially it's because I don't find the lore very interesting and some of the stuff a bit repetitive. Partially it's because I am scared to see Sun eventually crumble up into madness, because he has been through so much.

I like the New Moon. He is funny and nice, what I've seen. His relationship with Solar has been interesting, and I genuinely hoped they would've been able to take the romantic route after Moon said he wasn't sure if he was aroace anymore. But as I said, I've only watched a few episodes after the old Moon died, so I don't know either of their characters that much to form any strong opinions about them. I just listen to the Monty and Puppet podcast once in a while and get a little inside to some of the lore that has been happening.

But hey, at least there's fanfics. Which is why I am rambling here today.

Fanfics:

It is a rare treat to find Sun x Moon fanfics that aren't simply just porn, or do not include reader inserts. So since my romance-filled brain needed something to fill the void, I've started reading some TSAMS fics with romance (that wasn't between Sun & Moon) and plot in them.

I know Solar was settled to be a "cousin" to the weird family tree of TSAMS. But I simply crave for Solar and New Moon to be at least queerplatonic. Solar is not from their dimension, no matter how much they decide they're 'cousins' it doesn't make him their real cousin or relative because they're not from the same world.

Sun and Moon are brothers but they technically gave birth to Eclipse, who then created Lunar so Eclipse is technically Lunar's parent and then brother and Lunar is Sun and Moon's brother and... do you see what I'm trying to say?

The family tree is so complicated that I don't think I'm a horrible person for shipping Moon and Solar and reading fics about them. Tell me if I am wrong though.

The FIC that is making me question everything:

So Puffy recommended this fic by @theinfamousdoctorf , "Eclipse Meets His Match".

I'm currently on chapter 40, and I am genuinely surprised how much I am liking this fic so far. It got everything; redemption and character growth, the representation of Sun as the good, glowing angel he is in my mind (for canon, and every AU. He is always perfect in my eyes I love him can you tell lol), slow-burn romance, drama, excitment, plot, jokes and funny moments... even if there are a lot of mentions of sex and sexual pleasure, it doesn't feel out of the place as there is so much more to it too.

Eclipse's redemption to become better and realising he is in love with Sun has been so interesting to follow. Sun deserves the love. I love when Sun is getting loved. I literally ship him with every other animatronic in the games and love it when people ship him with their self-inserts and OCs. Because I love him so much I want him to be loved in every possible universe he is in.

Even bigger bonus to this fic is the second pairing, Solar and Moon, which I already opened up about above. I don't know how much the fic is truthful to the canon lore of the show, but I wish to pretend this fic is the canon now /hj.

I love the characters and how they're written. I love the descriptions of their flaws and hopes and dreams. How vulnerable they can get. How closely they stick together. And as an appreciation for making me tearful and excited about fanfiction in such a long time, I would hope to be able to gift the author some fan art for their fic.

But I've sworn to not draw anything for the show. For my own good. I've got too many awful comments already from the fans of the show despite never doing any art for it. I am just scared it will turn things worse.

End words:

I don't know if creating a new alias would be the right choice. So my main name/account would be spared from the confusion that the show's fans seem to stirr into, where one tsams artwork turns all of the artist' work into tsams.

I don't care if the art style would be recognisible. The artist would be me, but not PixelChills. Just so I could gift something to the author of this fic that is currently saving me from the boredom of being unable to write my own.

Thank you.

(This text has been typed on my phone, so pardon for any typos).

-Chill

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edit! sorry i just saw i have some drafts on my ao3 and it's only chapter 7! :'D

Just read your chapter 8 and loved it!

One question it was mentioned that it's rare for someone to be unable to go into beast mode naturally. Is that the same visa versa?

Like can someone get stuck in their beast form?

Yes. I talk about this a bit in Chapter 9. If someone can't switch into beast mode during their life, then the beast inside starts rotting away, like an unborn baby in the womb, and it begins to infect/devour the host body's mind. So over the years, the person basically becomes like they've been lobotomized, unable to take care of themselves, and eventually they die.