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Yeah, now I'm completely lonely. Not for something I do, my onlys friends have a real life

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The only thing I thought was cute in me I keep seeing comments from people who say it's ugly. Having hair so long they say it's horrible... I- :)

Before, they said it was beautiful and mimimimi but now it's dreadful, the worst thing in the world, "Cut it" of course DI3 MF 4SS BALD HEADS SHORT BORING HAIR B1TCH3S

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I don't know what to say, I want to cry. I don't like it when people die even if they're strangers

I don't have anyone to talk to about this, and I know it's very corny because it's not even in my country, but I was always afraid that this would happen wherever it was happening

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My child self was terrified of living in a world with war and him try to convince is self that it would never happen again.

I can't even feel anything, I only feel sorry for my child self who swore I lived in a modern and peaceful world.

Talvez el miedo era porque sabía que era inevitable

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Sometimes I just want to:

Like, I don't want to look better I just want to have fun FOR ✨ME✨ NOT FOR you<3, so shut the hell f<3ck or I will fkin rip your skin off your face with my teeth 🐑💞🪷😻🎀🦄🫶

I made an Spanish version too :P

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Uhhh, I found that blasphemy is the only thing that makes me happy right now

Obviously I'm not going to insult or bother anyone(just God), I'll be blasphemous in the privacy of my room

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Before seeing my colored pencils generated me a little of dopamine, Now nothing that made me happy before can make me generate just a bit of dopamine.

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If I lived more comfortably I would be happy, if I were happy I would be sociable, if I were sociable I would be productive, if I were productive I would have a job, if I had a job the bug of happiness would be a shekel. But noooo, I have depression and back pain 'cause I'm poor

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I think my paranoia is getting worse. It scares me but at the same time It's relaxing , the worse I am mentally the happier I am and I can forget him.

I have nothing diagnosed, but damn yesterday I thought something spied on me while I slept, And I quickly pass a thought that my mom wanted to poison me, that's the worst and it's impossible, I felt bad to think that even if it was for a millisecond.

I think I've been paranoid since I was 6 years old, I don't want to give details but I lost sig of my mom for a few seconds at a fair and suddenly I doubted if she was really my mom when I saw her again. and when we returned home I did a review of my memories to make sure it was the right neighborhood and I hadn't been kidn*pp3d or something like that .

It is not so serious(lmao it's sounds serious ik) cause I can differentiate reality from a thought, but if one day I can't? That's what terrifies me, but it gives me hope, I don't want to continue living in this reality, I think it's worse than any hallucination(even if it's a hallucination that makes me believe there's an Intruder in my room).

[krismy]

2day is ma 19 birthday ANDDD I wanna di3 ◟(˶> ᎑ <˶)◞

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When I was a kid, I promised to myself to be virgin to the dead, I thought it would be difficult, and damn this shi is so easy like 😭😭😭 I'll never have the love of my life

[krismy]

Emm, I think I'm losing the control of my body slowly... I can't talk, I can barely walk, I can't draw. I think it's mental but that doesn't make it any better.

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Omg when my brain lets my body move to walk🙏 🐇🪽

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I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane I'm not insane

[krismy]

My best friend not only gave me gifts, she unknowingly gave me an anti-depression kit.

I'll post the gifts as soon as I have time to edit the photos.

I haven't talked to her much about what's going on because it's hard to express it in full, but this genuinely makes me feel better ‪‧˚₊*̥(* ⁰̷̴͈꒳⁰̷̴͈ )‧˚₊*̥‬

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A few hours ago I yelled at my Christian neighbors, they're making a lot of noise, I had never screamed like this in my life, they really tired me out, they have been making all that noise every Saturday for months right at my window and they are so fkn irritating, just remembering it makes me angry again

So I think I explode 🦅🐎‼️‼️🐎🐎‼️🪽

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I don't have a hair dryer, so I improvised, I can't sleep with wet hair.

I'm so sleepy ૮꒰ ྀི ◜ . ◝ ྀི꒱ა