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i have forgotten how to enjoy my hyperfixations

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okay so it's not ideal to be making this post on mobile but i haven't been able to use my laptop for a few days and i'm not sure when i'll next be able to, so i'm sorry for any formatting issues.

TLDR; good news and bad news. bad news: the money situation has been steadily getting worse, and days ago things suddenly took a steep spike downwards. good news: i'm not homeless again yet, and change IS on the horizon. (more on that below.) bad news again: we don't have enough money to make it to that point of change on our own. so i'm mortified to be doing this, but i need to ask for help.

longer version: my boyfriend has been helping support me and his little brother for some time now; i have a queue that's overly long mostly due to sickness and bad luck regarding my fight for citizenship, and their dad, who was in charge of my bf's brother, vanished some months ago without a trace. (yes, that's a big part of the issue. no, we don't know what happened. yes, we've done everything we can.) i am working on the queue, but i've been struggling to catch up, and his brother is trying to find a job but is struggling to find one willing to accomodate his disabilities. the longer it's taken, the tighter money has gotten. so we're now at a critical point where we can't really afford to not ask, just on the off chance someone can donate anything to help. ($1 USD is about $20 MXN, so even tiny donations always go a really long way for us. like, i got one donation the other day, and because of that one single donation, i could get groceries.)

as for the change: in the wake of realizing i had some skill with 3D, i also realized i might be able to pursue that as a secondary source of income — something i've long needed, since my eggs were all in one basket (stupid, i know, but back then i didn't have many options) — but there are some final things i need to learn before i can offer that service. (mostly just the unity side of things). my boyfriend is trying to expand his egg-to-basket ratio similarly. if we're successful we should see a lot more financial stability, but right now, as neither of us have yet seen the fruits of our efforts, asking for help again is all i can do to lessen the load.

there's not much else i can say — not all the details of what happened are mine to share. things are still fresh and we all feel like shit. and i know i don't have any right to ask for this when i've already recieved so much goodwill, but it's far from just me in the shit right now, so as mortifying as the situation is, i can't afford not to try.

if you can donate even a little, it would help so, so much. you can do that here:

(if not, sharing helps a lot, genuinely.)

i'll try to update again when things are looking less dire. i'm sorry if fanart and asks slow down in the meantime; TAU is a big source of comfort for me so i'll do my best not to disappear completely, but it's looking like none of us are going to have a lot of free time for a while, so idk how "around" i'll be.

thank you so much for your help.

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Trying to find a way to write a happy resolution. Kinda stumped :/

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okay so it's not ideal to be making this post on mobile but i haven't been able to use my laptop for a few days and i'm not sure when i'll next be able to, so i'm sorry for any formatting issues.

TLDR; good news and bad news. bad news: the money situation has been steadily getting worse, and days ago things suddenly took a steep spike downwards. good news: i'm not homeless again yet, and change IS on the horizon. (more on that below.) bad news again: we don't have enough money to make it to that point of change on our own. so i'm mortified to be doing this, but i need to ask for help.

longer version: my boyfriend has been helping support me and his little brother for some time now; i have a queue that's overly long mostly due to sickness and bad luck regarding my fight for citizenship, and their dad, who was in charge of my bf's brother, vanished some months ago without a trace. (yes, that's a big part of the issue. no, we don't know what happened. yes, we've done everything we can.) i am working on the queue, but i've been struggling to catch up, and his brother is trying to find a job but is struggling to find one willing to accomodate his disabilities. the longer it's taken, the tighter money has gotten. so we're now at a critical point where we can't really afford to not ask, just on the off chance someone can donate anything to help. ($1 USD is about $20 MXN, so even tiny donations always go a really long way for us. like, i got one donation the other day, and because of that one single donation, i could get groceries.)

as for the change: in the wake of realizing i had some skill with 3D, i also realized i might be able to pursue that as a secondary source of income — something i've long needed, since my eggs were all in one basket (stupid, i know, but back then i didn't have many options) — but there are some final things i need to learn before i can offer that service. (mostly just the unity side of things). my boyfriend is trying to expand his egg-to-basket ratio similarly. if we're successful we should see a lot more financial stability, but right now, as neither of us have yet seen the fruits of our efforts, asking for help again is all i can do to lessen the load.

there's not much else i can say — not all the details of what happened are mine to share. things are still fresh and we all feel like shit. and i know i don't have any right to ask for this when i've already recieved so much goodwill, but it's far from just me in the shit right now, so as mortifying as the situation is, i can't afford not to try.

if you can donate even a little, it would help so, so much. you can do that here:

(if not, sharing helps a lot, genuinely.)

i'll try to update again when things are looking less dire. i'm sorry if fanart and asks slow down in the meantime; TAU is a big source of comfort for me so i'll do my best not to disappear completely, but it's looking like none of us are going to have a lot of free time for a while, so idk how "around" i'll be.

thank you so much for your help.

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I should make two ocs that are so reliably comfortable with each other

Unbreakable bond and no fear because they know each other so well

And if they are scared of anything they face it together

And maybe they're a little bit gay w/ each other who knows

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Switching gears from piano improv to digital art again because I can and I want to practice with some of the sketches i have in my notebook

It's also to preserve what's on there because it's physically falling apart at the binding which is not good

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Actually you know what maybe I just need to draw characters healing from the worst shit ever after fighting tooth and nail for peace

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I watched Andor knowing nothing.

And then I was devastated when it ended because it was over.

I was given false hope.

Hope that I'd see my blorbo from my show happy.

Hope that I'd get to see the peace he fought for and deserved.

Now I writhe in agony and I will have to draw him soon (if I can somehow draw Diego Luna...I'm bad at drawing realism usually)

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If you're seeing this, I need to queue up more posts

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Letting this cure

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long for sal

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silent protagonist who is quiet because they've been shamed into being unexpressive

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Not deltarune

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back on this again

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i think about spamton's "i'm never doing that again" a normal amount

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freezer was left open

ice cream melted

big sad

but at least i can have one big bowl of soft serve

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Played piano in front of a crowd today anxiety going nuts