Prince of Players, Pawn of none
Born with steel reins on the heart of the Sun
Gypsy explorer of the New Jersey Heights
Exalted companion of cocaine nights
'Cos he's a Dandy in the Underworld
Dandy in the Underworld
When will he come up for air,
Will anybody ever care
At an old eighteen exiled he was
To the deserted kingdoms of a mythical Oz
Distraction he wanted, to destruction he fell
Now he forever stalks the ancient
Mansions of hell
Now his lovers have left him
And his youth's ill spent
He cries in the dungeons and tries to repent
But change is a monster and changing is hard
But he'll freeze away his summers in his
Underground yard
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Fay Wray, c. 1929.
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I am wrong about most things. Being wrong
Is just a day in a year and life is long set of sets
I am wrong about my waist, which I think I hate
In the mirror, for being all unbodily and old
Or sometimes too invisible in the mirrors
Which others hold up to me, smiling ...
And my waist has it's own reasons to slide
Into time as some Lamborghini of good reasons
Yes, I know by now it is a very expensive vehicle.
If I total it. What won't I tell my wife.
What won't I tell my husband.
What won't I tell my friends.
What won't I tell my self?
And alas, best speed is fast, it's fast as fate and
Best to be hurtling at it with all the professionalism of
"Not being the best at this". I am terrified of the clich茅
That something good will come out of it.
I am terrified that I am wrong about life.
To be wrong is not the end of the world
But the world doesn't know that
The world doesn't care
That I care about you
But most things in the world do not know us yet.
Must we go so deep to where we may?
I put my hand on your waist, and explore
The engine purr, the oil darkening between us,
The mind leaning it's head back on the seat
With a head between it's dreams of coming
I swear the horizon in us becomes red, thick with need.
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It was a bad situation. Again sliding on the ice, helpless,
On the slanted surface, towards a bottomless pit.
And saw myself was walking upwards, easily
And looking yes, quite happy. Yes he was folding
Even all that time we spent together, sweetly
As a red origami swan. And as I hurtled past him,
I shouted for reprieve: "How did you make it back?"
And he looked at me confused and before I fell in and
Whispered: "What do you mean, "back", my love?"
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No weak men in the books at home
The strong men who have made the world
History lives on the books at home
The books at home
It's not made by great men
It's not made by great men
It's not made by great men
It's not made by great men
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I met myself far younger at a dirt road,
I was biking. It was any year, oh. and I stopped him
and I asked myself what am I doing
'Tony hawkin'. Well you can't do that on a bike,
I said. 'Not with my body' and 'Yeah I don't care',
Younger me said, and he could because
He hadn't yet gone through the divorce but had
already got his face punched in. 'Ok, now i'm going
To show you Your future, you might learn something'
and I handed him the tarot card which was torn
and so dark no-one could tell what was even left
in there or what was it supposed to mean. And He
looked at it and me and just kind of smiled, and
Then I slid past him on my broken bike and he went
Deeper into my future with his shiny new one.
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I was washing at night out in the yard by Osip Mandelstam (translated by Peter France)
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Derek Jarman
- Caravaggio
1986
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feels like i have nothing good to give, so i'm shutting the fuck up until or maybe when i do. take care.
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Lily James and Emily Beecham in The Pursuit of Love (2021)
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difficult to live in a time, where you're compelled by some type of responsibility to understand just what the fuck is going on, and the going on's are like a part of the intro scrawl of an italian post-apocalyptic b-movie.
but more seriously, it's very difficult to keep going. very difficult.
when you're as low, alone, poor and incapable of effecting anything in any reasonable way, as i am. and, after having survived so much, the kind of natural expectation you get, about things getting more fair and easy. that you and everyone else deserves a break. that you get to sit at the bonfire as long as you want.
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