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so wrong, but oh so right

WAYCEST FIC 👅👅👅

Bullets!mikey way x bullets!gerard way

cw: incest, molestation kink, noncon/noncon kink, implied (?) relationship forcing, guilt, uhh a bunch of deaddove shit yk

SUPER SHITTY AND NOT PROOFREAD GIANT BLOCK OF TEXT BELOW

A/n at the end

mikey way had been in an agonizing state of confusion and self hatred lately. Gruesome, even, if ya wanna go that far into it. But the thing is, everything was fine technically, his life was decent, he had a roof over his head, he was doing well physically and mentally- well-Actually.. Maybe not, to him at least, the mentally part.

Here's the other thing, mikey thinks he's been going insane. Not like, psycho killer insane. More like, deeply disturbed and disgusting kind of insane. He didn't want to admit his issue even to himself, he didn't even want to think about it in the slightest, it made him fucking sick. it illed him.. the sheer magnitude of the even hypothetical concept of it made him want to rip his own guts out.

He couldn't.

He just couldn't.

It's impossible, it's sick, it's horrific, it's illegal in some places for fucks sake!

He couldn't bring himself to the idea, no matter how clear the water was he shoved his feelings aside like dead meat. He tried to convince himself he was overanalyzing his emotions, but no matter what he did it all rolled back around to one conclusion; mikey was in love with his brother

But he couldn't actually like him, that's insane!! There has to be something else wrong right?

......

Right?

Oh God this was bad.

Mikey sat at the edge of Gerards bed in his basement, head in his hands, heart pounding, the sudden realization hitting him like a train. All the nervousness, the way his heart beat slightly faster when he touched him, that feeling of affection that was way too strong to be completely brotherly, the arousal that the poor man didn't even REALIZE was arousal until now, fuck. It all made sense now.

He decided to take a deep breath and try to calm himself. He rubbed his face and looked down at the ground and pondered. Mikey knew Gerard would never like him back, fuck no! So that was far off the table. Should he tell him anyways? No, no, that's like asking for a death wish. Actually, telling anyone would probably be painfully difficult and embarrassing for him.

He didn't know what to do, to be fair he had been avoiding his feelings like the plague up until today so maybe he should let it sink in? Make sure he doesn't need to go to a mental hospital? Make sure he isnt- dammit there he goes again with the denial. It was always the fucking denial with mikey, he could never come to terms with anything properly.

Maybe he should just bottle it up and move on with his life like nothing's happening? Probably the worst idea he's had in a while, but unfortunately the safest.

Mikey rubbed his eyes and groaned. Out of all the things god could've fucked him up with he got excruciating incestuous emotions towards his big brother? Really? He was deep into his thoughts until he saw the bathroom door crack open and Gerard walk out with nothing but a towel wrapped around his waist.

Mikey was fucked

For context, the brothers had planned to study together tonight for something and Gerard had went to take a quick shower first, leaving Mikey with nothing but his sick thoughts and a shelf of star wars figurines to stare at. And now, back in present time, the older brother was walking out of the bathroom. Nothing serious right?

Well to someone who didn't have feelings towards their sibling, yeah probably. But to someone who does AND has never seen said sibling shirtless before? Let alone straight out of a hot shower? Like the Pentagon being hit except it's mikeys neuro system

It was stupid, it really was, but god he thought gee looked so hot. All he wanted to do was submit to him and be his dumb little brother, all he wanted was to be his brothers sex toy. And he always has, quite frankly, he just never thought about how he felt in that way before. And now it was killing him.

"hey sorry I uh just forgot to bring my clothes in the bathroom" Gerard said as he walked over to his dresser

"Oh uh yeah no problem" Mikey in a sheepish mannerism, snapping back into reality at the sound of his brother's voice

Mikey stared at Gerards now turned back, admiring the bare wet skin that was exposed as he dug through his drawer of clothes. But his head was then once again pulled down from space when the older brother let out a sudden groan

"ughhh all my pajamas are in the wash dammit!" Gee said annoyed, shutting the drawer and leaning against the wall, crossing his arms and looking down for a moment or two before directing his eyes over to his little brother, who's face was suspicious shade of red...

"are you blushing?" gerard asked him with a slight smile

"uh- what- oh- no, no uhh," Mikey said nervously, realizing he was in fact blushing at him, "why would I be blushing...?" He said quietly, trailing off slightly while looking at the ground again

"oh nothing it's just uh your face is a kinda red that's all" the black haired boy replied, his cheeks turning ever so slightly pinkish. The color barely noticable but definitely there.

There was an awkward quick silence that lasted almost less then a second until Gerard spoke up again

"uh I'm gonna find something to throw on" he said, taking his weight from off the wall that probably had some water on it from his skin

Mikey nodded. still sitting shyly on his siblings bed, trying to distract himself from his unholy thoughts that seemed to just keep worsening with the realization and the sight of his exposed brother combined

"hey is it alright if I just put on some boxers and an oversized tee shirt? I don't have anything else but jeans" Gee piped up, rubbing the back of his neck

"well yeah sure, wear whatever you want dude" the younger brother answered

"yeah I know I just don't wanna make you uncomfortable" Gerard replied. But it wasn't exactly true, he wanted to creep Mikey out so bad, he always wanted him to feel safe overall of course, but he can't help but want to be all filthy and nasty with him. Fuck what he would give to molest his poor baby brother... But of course he wasn't going to let those vile thoughts roam free outside his brain at this moment, so he settled for making sure Mikey was okay with him being that exposed, to be safe.

"bro you're my brother it's fine, relax" Mikey said back. It was fine in a brotherly sense he supposed, but in his situation his big brother in just a shirt and boxers probably was not going to go well for him but what was he gonna say? 'hey man ya know that's prolly gonna make me kinda horny even tho you're my BROTHER, mind putting on something that covers more? 'specially those thighs, thanks!!'

Yeah... heh

No.

"eh yeah you're right- anyways," gee said as he grabbed a pair of boxers and an oversized guns n roses shirt out one of the drawers "imma go put this on real quick then we can get to studying, aight?" He continued his sentence, walking back over to the bathroom door

Mikey nodded and gave a thumbs up. When he saw the bathroom door close he once again giving his face a good rub, taking his glasses of this time to do so. Fuck, if it wasn't difficult enough for him before... Ugh he couldn't fucking take it. How on earth did he manage to grow a thing for his brother?

After a moment the older boy walked back out of the bathroom, Mikey quickly put his glasses back on.

"kay let's get goin on this" Gerard said to his baby brother as he climbed onto the bed, moving a book out of the way. the light brown haired boy followed in suit. He was a bit distracted by the exposure of his big brothers thighs, God he loved his thighs, he would usually repent from those thoughts and is still trying to desperately, but lord those thighs...

They studied together for a little while and it was going smoothly so far, aside from the part that Mikey was starting to get a small boner. how wonderful!! Totally not a huge issue!! Gerard eventually noticed the little something slightly poking under the paper that was sitting in his brothers lap and felt aroused at the sight... After thinking hardly about his decisions, Gerard decided to shoot a, very far, shot.

As the younger boy was reading something out loud, gee scooted closer over to him, putting his hand on his back to test the waters. He wanted to touch his precious little baby brother so bad... When his hand touched his back, Mikey flinched ever so slightly, not expecting the contact. He wanted to stop it immediately but something inside of him said no.

As Mikey kept reading, the black haired boy kept creeping his hands around on him, he knew it was so, so wrong, but he truly couldn't help himself. He's so perverted for his young, sweet, innocent, baby brother he can't keep his hands to himself. He kept slowly, discreetly, intensifying the way he touched him, squeezing slightly tighter, nearing to more sensitive areas, all very calmly but somehow the actions where screaming ear piercingly loud. Inevitably the younger brother started to get overwhelmed from the not so brotherly contact, his mind began to race a bit to fast.

Theres no way,

He's not touching him like that because he likes him right?

No, that's crazy! he's just being a little overly affectionate that's all...

Right?

Mikey didn't know why his brother chose to touch him in this way but what he did know is that it needed to cease or he might cum on the spot.

"h-hey uh, Gerard youre uhh getting a little uh touchy, there- uh-" Mikey chuckled out nervously, flashing an awkward smile while trying to pry his brother's hands off of him.

"hey it's alright, this is what brothers do, I'm just helping you, just keep reading, okay?" Gerard said reassuringly while looking him straight in the eyes, holding the lanky boy still.

Mikey looked at him with almost horrified eyes.

Jesus fuck, he's molesting him

He's fucking molesting him

He was scared, he was so turned on, he wanted it to stop so badly but only because he knew how wrong this was.. sure he was glad that his feelings were somewhat reciprocated but it was so disgusting and sick. He didn't know what to do or say, his boner was growing harder, Gerards hands felt so good violating him like this, but he doesn't want this. It's to wrong. But fuck, at the same time he wants it so bad. He wants him to fuck his brains out but he couldn't fathom thinking of that. His mind was racing a mile a minute, brain filled to the brim with unholy thoughts.

In the end mikey was too stunned to speak. so, as sick as it made him, he didn't fight back, instead he let Gerard touch him. He took a deep shaky breath and directed his eyes back to the piece of paper. As he continued reading with shaky breath the black haired boy's hands kept groping at him, inching his face closer to his as his hands slid up and down his younger brothers waist. Gee was loving this, he knew how much Mikey liked this. He'd been trying so hard to keep his sin stained hands away from him but he couldn't keep it up anymore, so now that he'd let his need take over and his little brother not fighting it? Feels amazing.

but it just kept getting worse for mikey

his boner was growing painfully hard, he couldn't tell if he wanted to start humping gerard or punch him in the face, he wanted him so bad but he knew how wrong it was and it made him want to throw up. he couldn't even concentrate on what he was doing at this point.

Gerard kept getting closer and closer to the younger boys erection, currently groping at his thighs. mikey was on the verge of tears from the stimulation of the touch and his distress. once gee started to reach for the others boner, Mikey decided it was enough

"stop." Mikey said firmly while gripping at his big brother's wrists, trying to pull them away, "stop." he choked out desperately, but Gerard wouldn't move

"hey- Mikey- Mikey calm down-" Gerard said to him

"please Gerard-" Mikey said with tears in his eyes, yanking his arm away from his brothers grasp "please stop! STOP!" he yelled, a tear rolling down his face

"Mikey relax i'm just trying to help I'm not gonna hurt you i promise-" gee tried to reassure him

"Gerard i said stop! please just stop I'm begging you please!" Mikey pleaded through tears, managing to roll his knees up to his chest, cowaring like a scared stray dog

Gerard looked at him with pitiful eyes, he felt bad for his baby brother. he had started picking up on Mikeys when he would notice him blushing when he touched him, well, and that fact that he knows him better than anyone else on the planet and can tell immediately if he had the hots for someone. but he also knew what it was like to feel guilty for having these kinds of feelings towards your sibling, at one point he was just as frazzled as Mikey. he just needed to grow comfortable with himself and his emotions and clearly his poor little boy was having trouble with that.

the lanky boy had is face turned to the side, somewhat buried in his arms and knees. he was holding back tears. he tried so hard not to look at gerard because if he did he would be filled with so much guilt and lust it would probably kill him. that boner was hurting like hell now, he needed gee to fuck him so, so bad but he wouldn't even dare to look up at him...

"hey-" Gerard said, reaching out to put his hand on Mikeys shoulder (innocently this time), but he flinched, still not raising his head. Gee felt like shit now, he paused for a moment

"hey, look, Mikey I'm sorry. i was just trying to help you, i thought you would like it.." he apologized

mikey thought for a second before replying

"thats the problem, gee. I DO like it, and it WAS helping. but it just feels so wrong i couldn't fucking take it..." he confessed all teary eyed and pathetic, properly burying his face at the end of his sentence

The older boy was heartbroken, it was painful to watch. his brother's boner looked like it felt excruciating, he was all guilty and filthy feeling, he was crying, confessing to him how bad he felt. it faintly aroused him but in the core of it all he felt bad for his poor little brother

Gerard sighed

"oh you poor thing," he said. he wanted to help his baby brother so bad, but now he wouldn't even let him touch him innocently "do you want me to leave you alone for a minute? so you could uhh ya know?"

Mikey was truly about to go apeshit now

even if he wanted to, he couldn't. he couldn't take care of it himself. he was so horny he was physically weak. he could barely fucking move!!

"no.. i-" He began to speak, thinking hard if he should really say this or not "I want you to help me.." he admitted almost shamefully. "but we're brothers! I feel so disgusting." he choked once again on his tears

Gerard only grew more pity for him

"hey cmon, you're not disgusting Mikey." Gee said soothingly "I felt the same way when i realized i had feelings for you, and it took a while to accept it, but you can't beat yourself up!"

"what if i do in fact want to beat myself up tho" Mikey said looking his brother in the face now, a tinge of humor in his voice that somewhat lightened the mood

he scoffed "well ya can't do that," gerard chuckled

"oh shut up already" the younger boy grumbled, putting his chin back to his knees

"so do you want me to jerk you off or no?" the older brother asked, leaning in a bit towards mikey, his mouth still faintly curved into a slight smile

Mikey paused, fuck, what he would give to have gerard doing anything to him right now.

but it was so horrible!! he cant do that with his brother, its sickening!!

but that erection was getting pretty unbearable...

he looked at his big brother, he was cute. he shouldn't think of him like that though.. but fuck he needed him so bad he felt like he was going to die.

'don't do it'

'micheal james way don't you fucking do it'

'no'

'i can't'

'but you CAN'

'no'

'....'

'fuck it'

Mikey gave up and kissed gerard with no warning. Gerard was surprised but quickly kissed back. Mikey kissed him hungrily, melting perfectly into his lips like they were made for him to kiss. Soon they were making out, teeth clashing eagerly. the brown haired boy then climbed into the others lap, whining into the kiss in response to the friction on his boner. Gee slid his tongue into his little brother's mouth, licking and exploring every inch of it.

Mikey was so desperate, he couldn't help but hump Gerards lap. He grinded his hips back and forth on his big brother fast as he made out with him, whimpering and whining into the kiss. He was humping him so hard and fast he was like a dog in heat, he couldn't stop himself, it just felt so good.

Meanwhile, Gerard was in seventh heaven. His little sweet baby brother eating his face and humping him like a pathetic horny little dog, Jesus Christ he was going insane, he loved this so much. His hands where all over Mikey, groping at his lower body through his pajama pants. Gees shirt was scrunched up over his stomach from his little brother humping him so aggressively, his boxers now exposed.

Mikey was rubbing against Gerards erection, that he somehow only now noticed he'd gotten. After a couple minutes Mikey broke the kiss and slowed his humping for a moment to get some air, he was panting with his tongue slightly out, his face all red, hair already messed up from gees hands tangling through it, lips wet and sore, he looked nearly out of a porn film.

Gerard was mesmerized, if he wasn't in love with Mikey before, he surely was now. Mikey went to lean in for a kiss again but Gerard cupped his face with both of his hands and gently moved him back, Mikey furrowing his eyebrows and pouted when he wasn't able to kiss him again, still messily grinding himself into gee in protest. gee let out a small chuckle at the cute expression on his little brother's face

"wait, wait, so does this mean yes on the handjob?" Gee asked with a faint smile, trying to hold Mikeys hips still

"well uh- yeah- i guess, but uh.." he said awkwardly, sure he would be glad with a handjob but truthfully he wanted something else

"hm? But?" Gerard asked in a soft, comforting tone. Like how a kind parent would talk to a innocent, confused child.

"I uhh- shit, it makes me feel gross to say.." mikey confessed, looking down to the side with shame

"hey, it's alright you can tell me, Mikey. I don't want you feeling bad." Gee comforted, rubbing his brothers face softly. Though, he still wanted to bang him but he put that aside for the moment

"i.. I want you to uh, fuck me.. uh in-instead of the handjob..." He admitted shyly, whispering his words at the end

Gerards fucking eyes lit up

His baby brother wanted him to fuck him? He wanted his dick inside of him? Holy shit, Gerard could just about die!

"r-really?" He said, shocked at mikeys request

It was hilarious, the boy who was crying out of guilt for his feelings towards his brother just a moment ago was now asking him to fuck him! Oh how desperate poor Mikey must be...

"y-yeah I do, but uh you don't have to if you don't want to of course-" mikey began to say, not wanting to make Gerard feel forced into anything, but was then cut off by a rough kiss.

He kissed back almost immediately, his upper body leaning kind of backwards due to how hard Gerard was pressing against him. He grasped onto his older brother as they made out sloppily. Mikey tried to start grinding his hips again, but gee grabbed his hip bone with one hand and held him still (or tried to, at least)

Gerard pushed Mikey down onto the bed, breaking the kiss once again to look at him. Mikey looked a bit confused but horny non the less. The older boy went back down to to kiss at the others neck, leaving open mouthed kisses and love bites all over neck and throat. Once gee reached mikeys collar bone, he kissed and licked and bit as much as his baby brothers skin as he could before his shirt started to get in the way

"sit up I'm takin this thing off of you" Gerard ordered in a breathy voice

Mikey hesitated for a split second before deciding to obey. he sat up and began to take off his shirt but before he could even touch the fabric, his wrists were held together and lifted into the air. Gee pulled his brother's shirt up swiftly and then let go of his wrists to pull it off. He pushed him back down onto the bed and continued to kiss all over his chest. He licked at the left nipple and rubbed his hands over the other, actually- groping at the right breast.

The younger boy moaned quietly, he tried not to enjoy this as much as he did but fuck, it was so hard to do that. he felt so filthy and unclean letting his brother do this to him but he couldn't bring himself to make him stop. He wanted him to keep going, he wanted him to hurry up and fuck him already! It made him feel so gross but he loved it so much...

Mikey attempted to try and hump Gerard again. But he took his hand that was rubbing at mikeys chest and pinned his hips down again. The little brother whined out of frustration as gee then licked and sucked at his right nipple, still holding the others hips down firmly. Eventually the older brother made his way to mikeys stomach area and continued to kiss, lick, suck, and bite all over his body. There were definitely going to be marks from this..

Gerard reached Mikeys hip bones and stopped. Gerard sat up a bit to look up at his sibling properly. Mikey looked like a hot, horny mess. but at the same time, he looked scared, terrified, even. Gee felt bad, he could tell how bad he wanted him to fuck him but he could also tell how scared he was. how scared he was to be doing this with his brother. And the truth was is that Mikey is scared, he was exited and turned on, but petrified for being exited and turned on for his brother

He felt like one of those yucky fauxcest porn stars. He felt dirty, like he needed to be cleaned.

But he just couldn't stop it. He couldn't stop himself from letting Gerard touch him, he couldn't stop himself from kissing Gerard, he couldn't stop himself from asking to be fucked instead of anything more mild, he couldn't stop himself from letting Gerard do all of this to him. He needed him more than food and water

Gee sat all the way up, his hand still at the waist of Mikeys pajama pants, patiently waiting for a sign of consent (even though he would prefer to get into it without warning, and he supposed mikey would too, this was a very delicate moment. He couldn't fuck up anything else.)

"you can uh- you can take them off" Mikey piped up, face a deep red

The older boy shot a quick smile and pulled at the waist band, the other lifting his hips up so he could take them off smoothly. Mikeys heart was beating a mile a minute, he couldn't believe this was happening. This was by far the most utterly gross thing he's ever done or agreed too, but, of course, he had no intention of stopping it

Gerard took his baby brothers pants off and gawked at the erection poking through his boxers.

"take a picture it'll last longer" Mikey said sarcastically as he sat up to get a better view of his brother

"oh don't you start sassing me now Micheal" Gerard chuckled out in response with smile on his face, putting a finger to the other boys bare chest

Mikey rolled his eyes. Gerard then took off his own shirt and checked it aside. His cute chubby figure looked so much better to Mikey up close. he always thought his brother was a very huggable dude, and he is. Now that he thought about it he could really use a hug from him right now... but he was far more worried about getting that god damn dick in him already!!

"fuck gee, hurry up!" He whined shuffling his legs a bit to create friction on his erection

"okay, okay gimme a second" Gerard responded while quickly taking off his boxers

Now Gerard was fully naked. And Mikey could just about pass out from the sight. Mikey then quickly tugged off his own boxers.

Now they were both naked. Mikeys dick was hard as a rock and dripping with precum, he was looking off to the side with embarrassment. it was weird for them to see eachother like this, but it would be worth it.

right?

what if something went wrong.. what if Mikey wasn't able to make his brother feel good? what if he says something wrong? what if someone walks in? what if Gerard just wanted him for pleasure? what if Mikey doesn't like it? would he have ruined their relationship for nothing? he was thinking of the worst now, but honestly its not like they can go back now so he tried to stay optimistic, even though he was about to fuck with his literal brother and that made his stomach turn, he hoped for the best

they stared at each other for a good couple of seconds, eyes darting all over each others body's. like two wild animals investigating new territory

"you- um- you look really hot." mikey said shyly while fidgeting with the blanket beneath him

"you think so?" Gerard asked, he didn't think many people thought that about him

"yeah..." Mikey replied, trailing off as he moved in closer to his brother, eyes half lidded.

they kissed once again. But this time it was a soft, loving, comforting, kiss. But when their dicks touched as they leaned into each other, they realized how bad they needed to fuck.

They broke the kiss and Gerard told Mikey to get into any position he'd like. Mikey decided to be simple and just go missionary. Once Mikey got himself situated, Gerard ran his hand up and down the side of Mikeys body before spreading the others legs. They shot each other a look of mutual nervousness, but Gerards caring temper calmed Mikey and seeing Mikey calm calmed Gerard, So everything was fine.

Gerard grabbed a bottle of lube off the nightstand and squeezed some onto his fingers, taking his digits to his brother's hole before stopping to ask,

"you every been penetrated before?" Gee asked

"no, actually, I'm a virgin in general so um..." Mikey answered shyly

"so I'm gonna be your first time, eh?" The eldest said with a wide, faintly devious, smile

"yeah" mikey said with a small smile, cheeks a bright red

"I'm gonna put a finger in okay?" Gee told his baby brother

the little brother nodded, heart pounding in his chest. Gerard slipped his lubed pointer finger into his brothers tight, unused hole, wiggling it around a bit to open him up. When he achieved that, he carefully pumped his finger into the boy. mikey whined softly in response. He kept fingering him like this until he thought mikey acclimated, Gee then looked up at the younger boy for a moment and added a second finger. He winced at the stretch but the slight pain quickly turned to pleasure as his older brother began to finger him again. Mikey whimpered as his brothers digits moved in and out of his hole at a medium pace. He tried not to moan, he really didn't want to enjoy this. But he was, Mikey loved this..

"is there enough lube?" Gerard asked

"y-yeah" Mikey replied

Without warning Gerard then added a third finger. Mikey winced from the sudden pain, but this time gee didn't seem to care. He finger fucked his sibling as the younger desperately held back moans, the pain soon melting away in his brothers touch. Gerard rubbed mikeys thigh as he moved his three digits deep into the others hole and just barely out again. Mikey gave up and let out a moan, making gees boner only get harder.

After Mikey was prepped enough, Gerard pulled his fingers out and squeezed more lube onto his hand and coated his dick with it. He lined his length up to mikeys hole and pressed it in slowly, the younger boy wincing in pain

"gee- it- it hurts" mikey whimpered

"it's okay it'll feel good in a minute" Gerard reassured in a caring tone, rubbing the others waist soothingly

Gerard then pushed all the way in, biting his lip from the sudden sensation of pleasure. Mikey let out a choked whine. It hurt a lot, gee wasn't exactly small...

After a moment gee began to thrust into his brother slowly. The pain Mikey was feeling started to tone down as the elder moved in and out of him carefully. Soon he started to speed up a little bit, his mouth hanging open as he moaned softly with each thrust. Meanwhile all the pain had melted away for the other. He gasped at the pleasured feeling that spread through his body. Mikey felt like the dirtiest boy in the world, but fuck, it felt good.

Gerard had now sped up to a fast pace, moaning his little brothers name desperately. Mikey was still trying to keep himself quiet, but he simply could not. He's already given up enough with this whole thing he mine as well give up on shutting up. Mikey let out a raspy moan, gripping onto his older brothers shoulders as he fucked into him. Gee started to thrust deeper, drilling his dick as deep into his pathetic, weak, baby brother as he could. The younger boy yelled out moans and curses. This shouldn't feel this good but it did, he hated it but he never wanted it to stop

Gerard was becoming limp from how fucking good and tight his sibling felt on his dick. Gees head fell onto Mikeys shoulder, slack jawed and fucked out. He whined (not so) little "oh" 's with every other thrust

It was so filthy. They're brothers, brothers who are fucking nasty, pleasuring themselves in what has to be the most forbidden way imaginable. But it felt so natural, like they were meant to have this kind of relationship. Like they're meant to be more than just brothers. It's disgusting... But true

Gee continued to fuck into Mikey. He hit Mikeys prostate and the younger let out a loud, high pitched moan. Gerard could tell what he had done and thrusted repeatedly into the same spot, over and over and over. Mikey was overwhelmed by how amazing it felt. Gerard kept fucking him restlessly. his head rested in the crook of the others neck, mikey gripping a chunk of his older brothers hair as he railed him. Soon Mikey he felt his climax building. the warm, unfamiliar sensation felt weird, but good. Gerard was getting close too, his pace started to become more sloppy, Mikey kinda liked it that way.

mikey squirmed as he felt himself getting closer and closer, his g spot still being pounded.

"gee, I- I think I'm-" he tried to alert his brother but was cut off by a rough kiss.

"I know angel, you don't need- ah fuck!- t-to tell me" Gerard slurred against his brothers mouth. But it was true, he didn't need to tell him, he could in fact tell that Mikey was close. (Real brotherly witchcraft right here ammiright?)

It only took a few more thrusts before Mikey came. At this point he didn't even have the energy to let out a loud moan. Instead his body went limp against Gerards and he buried his face into the older brothers chest, letting out a squeak as a huge load of cum released from his cock, cumming all over gees and his stomach.

Fuck, that felt a hundred times better than the orgasms Mikey would get from jacking himself off.

He panted heavily as his weak body leaned on Gerard. Gerard gave him a moment before fucking into him again. Mikey groaned in response, too fucked out use his voice fully. It took just a few more thrusts and gee released his load. He let out a string of moans and curses followed by his little brother's name. His body, too, went limp and both the brothers collapsed onto the bed on top of each other.

The two panted as they came down from their high, Mikey hesitantly hugged Gerard, almost like he was the only thing he could hold on to.

Mikeys mind was fuzzy, he felt amazing. He's touched himself, had other people touch him, but Gerard, even though he fucked him instead of properly touching him which is way more stimulating, made him feel the best. His touch felt so good and so natural, like Gerard was made to love him like this.

But then It hit him. He had sex with his brother. Like he hadn't already realized this an hour ago! god, Mikey felt disgusting, but so, so good... But he was worried, it wasn't even the fact that they fucked, it was the fact that they wouldn't be the same after this. There could be no way they could ever go back to being normal, non incestuous brothers after this.

"um... so, was- uhm, was I okay?" Gerard piped up

"okay? Gerard that was the most amazing thing I've ever felt for fucks sake!" Mikey giggled.

Gerard smiled, resting his head closer to mikeys we he rubbed his side lovingly.

"hey, gee" Mikey asked

"yeah mikes?" Gerard responded softly

"you... you won't tell anyone about this, right?" The younger said, worry lingering in his voice

"what?! Of course not!" Gerard replied, empathy in his voice.

Gerard shuffled to lean on his elbow, facing up at mikey "mikey, I love you, okay? This is our secret, I would NEVER tell a single soul, and I want you to trust me on that." He said firmly, but comfortingly in a way too

"I trust you, I'm just.. I'm just scared.. like I know it's stupid but- you're my brother, gee... And I just feel so bad for liking you like this, you know?" Mikey said

"hm, yeah I get you.. I know it's hard, but don't be scared okay? No one's gonna know, no harm no foul, aight?" Gee comforted his little brother

"it's not about no one knowing..-"

"mikey. Listen to me," Gerard took hold of mikeys hand "I love you beyond brotherly love, and you love me the same, I'm not letting your guilt hold you back from what you want." He tightened his grip on his brother's hand, staring him in the eyes

The truth was that, as much as Mikey did love Gerard in that way, and wanted him on that way, he was still weary about starting a relationship with him that was beyond siblings. And he understood Gerards just trying to comfort him and empathize, but it felt kind of forceful. Bittersweet almost.. Mikey didn't know what he wanted at this point. the emotional rollercoaster he's been on for the past two hours was mentally draining and now he's supposed to have this conversation?

Mikey sighed "look, I love you the way you love me but I just think I need to sleep on this okay? Its just.. a lot" he looked into Gerard eyes with both guilt and pure romantic love.

It was a strange feeling, a feeling Mikey didn't want to feel. He hated this. Loving Gerard like this, feeling like shit because of it, but at the same time he felt so... Good? It was the sex probably, but regardless there was something about it being with Gerard that made it hit harder in a bunch of different places (literally and metaphorically)

Gee thought for a moment. He always knew Mikey had something for him so he was confused why he was so reluctant. It was selfish, but he just wanted Mikey to give himself to him, and he wanted to give himself to Mikey. He wanted him to finally be his to keep.

But, despite having arguably unhealthy and possessive feelings towards his little brother, gee tried his best to respect mikeys emotional boundaries and give him a minute.

Honestly it was understandable. Just so recently discovering feelings for your own brother, being molested by the brother in question, LIKING it, trying to push everything away but failing and ending up having sex with your brother, all while going back and forth between wanting to melt in your brother's hands or strangle him and kill yourself for feeling that way, it was fucking tough. So Gerard let up

"okay, I understand." Gerard says, softening his grip on Mikey.

Mikey flashed a small smile. a sad smile almost, but there were so many emotions going though him it was hard to tell exactly what he felt.

There was yet another moment of silence. But soon broken by Gerard

"but uhh, you still.. love me, right? No matter what?"

"of course, Gerard" Mikey giggled "I'm not gatekeeping my heart from you dot worry" he says in a playfully mocking voice

Gee smiled, Mikey smiled too. but this time, both of their smiles had happiness in them, and just happiness. Almost like something filled a small hole of dread in the air.

The thing was is that the something was love. All this shit, all this pain... It produced love.

So the brothers cuddled up and went to bed.

Even though they forgot aftercare

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A/n: BRO WHAT THE FUCK THIS WAS SO HARD TO WRITE 😭😭😭😭😭 I didn't know what else to call them other than Gerard and Mikey and shit so I just was trying to come up with stuff to refer to them as 💀💀 also I kinda don't like the way every part of the dialogue says "Mikey" this and "Gerard" that BUT WHATEVER IG.....

Anyways hope this was somewhat coherent and enjoyable bc I kinda hate it <3333

P.s me and fine shyt call this the waycest Bible bc of how fucking long it is btw thought that was important

#After quite the while of work...#I FINALLY FINISHED IT

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