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in the year 2000

Apparently I am on a 3 blog posts a year streak.

I started another new job and the biggest shock of all is I love it. I feel almost paranoid saying that out loud like I’m going to jynx it but I truly do enjoy my new day job. I work at a school for special needs students and I do admin work and a bit of design, and it is really rewarding.

Lets see what else happened, oh yes got married, took mega road trip honeymoon, got settled into house and job, now there’s time for ART.

Wedding was lovely, it was like 97 degrees out that day but the day was amazing regardless. All our family pitched in to make it happen, like legit so many people helped it was so touching to be surrounded by all that love. Drew, I don’t know if I’ve ever mentioned him by name anyways Drew my now husband was such a trooper that day. He’s a keeper.

I don’t often share photos of myself on here but our photographer did such a good job I had to share at least one. Also we wrote our own vows and damn near wrote the same thing, how does that happen.

The honeymoon was amazing we saw so much wildlife! We saw a moose 20ft away.

We also got to be in bunch of national parks with hardly any other visitors, it was amazing. Almost every trail we took we were the only people on that trail. it was John Muri-esque.

Ok one more photo from the trip.

We camped all over Tetons and Yellowstone the last night we stayed at pebble creek and camped among the lamar valley wolf pack and heard them howl all night. It was amazing. We then woke up early and met some career “wolfers” who spot with their scopes and track the packs of Yellowstone. A wolfer named Dusty let us look through his scope and we saw the soda butte pack. It is an experience I will never forget, so glad that me and Drew got to share this time together.

So now I have a billion arts I need to art. I have a couple commissions on the docket for holiday season so that’s nice.

I have had a long break from art since my last art show in Northfield. I am a little worried I will be rusty getting back in the swing of things. Strange as it is, it is harder working on a 2nd job when you like your first, when you hate your day job the hate becomes driving force to make your passion job work. Don’t get me wrong I would not trade back AT ALL, I just need to learn to have more discipline to dedicate time to art in my spare time. Maybe the hate of a job that drove art didn’t create authentic art maybe having a job or life that is rewarding will yield more rewards within art. That’s my hope at least.

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i'm picking it up

So my day job has changed... for the worse. I got strong armed by my company into managing a new security account and its quite demanding and just takes all the steam out of me. I haven't made a single new piece of art since starting this new position and that bums me out a lot. 

I know that your "day job" is supposed to be #1 priority but I just can't, I've been trying to be okay with just being my day job since graduating college. I know you are supposed to make a career of your day job and work yourself up but something is literally wrong in my brain and I CANNOT. I don't have it in me, I can't kill off the want/need of having art being my profession.  At my day job my brain is just on a loop of "screw this, this is so stupid, this is ridiculous" and I can already hear some of you saying "oh well just go in with a positive attitude instead of being so negative" well guess what Sally, work sucks all the positive attitude out of me and just chews it up and spits in on the floor. 

I feel like I can't keep wasting positive energy on work, it needs to go toward my art. I have tried to work on art after getting home from work but after the day sucking the life-force out of me I am running on just fumes, and just fumes does not good art make. I need a holiday from work, a very long holiday, and I don't expect I shall return, in fact I mean not to.

I understand it is the world we live in but how is everyone just okay with having 5 soul crushing days and then 2 days recharging where you barely get to do anything else other than chores at home and recharge and finally start to feel like a person again and then its 8pm Sunday night and you are back to square 1. Its messed up. There's nothing I can do to change it which is the worst thing.

I feel like I am trying quite hard to make the transition into full-time artist but still feel years away if not impossible to reach. I know you are not supposed to talk about sales and how you are fairing but I've been doing what your supposed to do and that really hasn't helped me so why not just do what I want to do. Anyways, sales, this year I have sunk in quite a lot of money into booth fees and gallery fees to have my work out in the world to hopefully get some momentum going forward and have seen no return on investment yet. That is a really hard pill to swallow. You often hear people say "the best investment is in yourself" well I have invested a whole lot of time and money into getting my artwork out there and right now its looking like I invested poorly and it's, I'll be honest, heartbreaking.

It feels like the universe keeps screaming at me NO, and I still don't want to listen. Maybe I am looking for too quick of results? I don't know. I still can't shake the goal of doing art full-time. Making art still feels like my purpose, and any day job I've ever held feels like the opposite. I couldn't care less about any but most of all my current day job. It HAS to be just what I am doing for now to get by, it  will never be who I am, I can say that with the most certainty of anything I've ever said. Stupid America with its job focused identities.

Do I wish I could just make art and not have to sell it to be able to live OMG YES. But that's not the world we live in unfortunately. So I just gotta keep trying to learn how to market and sell I guess which are my LEAST favorite things and I hate that its part of an art career because its the least artistic thing I can think of. 

Ok super long blog just complaining about life hahahaha sorry!

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Come check out the new booth @parleylakewinery #artstock #artfestival #onlyinmn #mnart #mnartist #waconia #exploremn #kvogelart (at Waconia, Minnesota)

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Ok he turned out pretty cool. #bison #bisonart #yellowstonepledge #yellowstonenationalpark #haydenvalley #wildlifeartist #mnartist #kvogelart #acrylicpainting

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IN PROGRESS About halfway done with this guy. Should he be a grumpy bison or a sweet boy? Lol #bison #bisonart #yellowstonenationalpark #ynp #haydenvalley #painting #wip #inprogress #acrylicpainting #wyomingart #landscapepainting #wildlifeartist

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Washington state on my mind #secondbeach #olympicnationalpark #pacificocean #pacificnorthwest #washingtonstate

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Somehow the only 3 photos I took at my open house. Thanks again to everyone who came out! #wabashabrewing #kvogelart #mnart #mnartist #artwork #stpaulart #originalart #onlyinmn

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First complete piece in a while! #backatit #drawing #bluebirds #coloredpencils #graphite #mnart #mnartist #womenartists

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IN PROGRESS blue birds and woman #inprogress #wip #coloredpencils #drawing #drawingpeople #drawingoftheday #artwork #aotd #mnart #mplsart #womenartists #graphitedrawing

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Long time no post. We bought our first hole and have been swamped with moving and projects. More art to come soon now that we are sorta settled. #showcomingup #holycrapgottaprep

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Snow day = paint day #mermaid #mermaidart #walleye #aotd #acrylicpainting #snowday #paintingaday #paintingoftheday #kvogelart #mnart #mplsart #womenartists

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NEW DRAWING. Maid and crappies. Do you say craw-pee or crah-pee? This is important. Lol #crappie #freshwaterfish #mermaid #mermaidart #drawing #illustration #kvogelart #aotd #mnart #fishart #drawingoftheday #coloredpencils

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IN PROGRESS crappie and mermaid. #mermaid #mermaidart #wip #inprogress #drawing #coloredpencils #drawingoftheday #aotd

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Rocky Mountain National Park been on my mind #rmnp #abovethetrees #trailridgeroad #colorado #co #acrylicpainting #aotd #mountains #mountainart #bighornsheep #paintingaday #paintingoftheday #kvogelart

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Sparkle sparkle. What do ya think of this owly? #owl #owlart #birdart #birdpainting #northernlights #acrylicpainting #paintingaday #paintingoftheday #greathornedowl #mnart #mplsart #kvogelart #wildlifeartist #aotd #artist #womenartists

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IN PROGRESS northern lights owly 🦉 #greathornedowl #owl #owlart #owlartwork #acrylicpainting #paintingaday #wip #wildlifeartist #inprogress #mondaymotivation #workinghard #birdart

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Peas in a pod #mamabear #polarbear #tundra #polarbearcub #coloredpencils #kvogelart #drawing #drawingoftheday #aotd #artofinstagram