l3vica

[l3vica]

We must understand that sadness is an ocean, and sometimes we drown, while other days we are forced to swim.

— R.M. Drake

[l3vica]

“I just want to get to know you, the real you. The version of you without any filters that you feel like you need in this society”

- 3am overthinker

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“The funny thing is that I always seem to come across as an open person to other people. But the truth is that nobody really knows me, they think they do. But they don’t”

- 3am overthinker

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“Honestly I don’t even know you that well yet but I already feel so comfortable with you somehow”

- 3am overthinker

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“The broken will always be able to love harder than most. Once you’ve been in the dark, you learn to appreciate everything that shines.”

— Unknown

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“Do you know the warm feeling of euphoria when you are getting to know someone, and everything they say makes your more excited about getting to know them”

- 3am overthinker

[l3vica]

“i want to get drunk, tell you how i feel, kiss your face and hold you tight.”

— 7:21 PM

[l3vica]

. .Simply Put. .

*sigh*

. . . .I deeply miss you . . . .

*sigh*

[l3vica]

Not Afraid

Society expects me to be man enough.

But I say that’s BS.

Man enough not to cry,

But bold enough to hold myself together,

But I say that’s BS.

I will continue to cry

And express my feelings vehemently behind closed doors, to my loved ones and

 regurgitate them on paper.

[l3vica]

Time & Memories

Time will find a way to distort your memories,

Time and memories are far beyond our control,

Yet the two mean so much.

[l3vica]

Life

Life might bring you to your knees, 

To your breaking point.

You just have to remind yourself

That you are just the hero of this chapter, 

There is plenty yet to unfold before your very own eyes.

You need to pick up yourself 

And keeping moving forward.

At the end, I am father,

I am my father’s father.

I am my mother,

I am my mother’s mother.

Inspired by Life Itself 2018

[l3vica]

Days

Sitting in the dark. . . 

Looking out the window. . .

Into the void of the silent and dark nights. . .

Filled with tranquility and silence. . . .

Mind full of thoughts,

Thoughts upon thoughts, 

Questions upon question, 

Without a clear vision of the distant future.

ruminating in circles. . . .thinking of a simpler days.

Days I no longer have. . . .

[l3vica]

It’s okay, not to be okay....

So today I watched, When Marnie Was There, 

Full of mysteries and unanswered questions.

Then everything started to reveal itself.

I told myself that I would not cry,

I held it together pretty well.

Then........ then the sound track started playing

And my eyes......my eyes could not hold back the tears.

The tears of compassion and empathy. 

However, I realised there were tears of how I felt,

How I have been feeling,

How I feel I don’t belong,

How I have been avoiding to face my fears.

At this point, it was too late,

I was on the floor,

Curled up like a little kid.

I have never cried for myself for so long,

For my own social anxieties,

For been okay with just me.

[l3vica]

When you don’t cover up the world with words and labels, a sense of the miraculous returns to your life that was lost a long time ago when humanity, instead of using thought, became possessed by thought.

Eckhart Tolle - A New Earth (via abiding-in-peace)

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Better w/o U

Yes, you caught me off guard,

When I was weak and most vulnerable with no direction.

When pain was my friend,

fear was my companion

And my own thoughts were my biggest enemy.

You are dead,

You are history,

You are nothing but a bittersweet memory.

And now you are just someone I used to know,

Almost fading away from the rearview mirror.

As I drift away from the toxic relationship we have had.

[l3vica]

My biggest flex is that I remained nice no matter what they did and what they said.

@dimitra_basdani