la-lolita

[la-lolita]

khoi ! <3 I miss you so much. I hope you are doing well in life too. Life has been great lol, many positive changes, busy, but better. You are the sweetest person i’ve met, I am glad we had the chance of knowing each other. I feel bad for leaving but know your friendship is something I’m forever grateful of.

Hello, this is Lolita, formerly known as Aphrodites-letters, and (sighs) strawberrymilkmami. It’s been a few years since I left, and I am back to properly speak up for myself about the drama that happened between Cupid (now going by Devosin) and I. I will be referring to Devosin as Cupid, however because that’s the name they used to go by during this drama. In this post, I will take accountability for my actions, however I will also explain some parts of the story that I should’ve exposed a long time ago. 

Why now you may ask? Because I feel so much better now. I have matured and up to this day, what has happened still affects me a lot mentally. People may say this is old, or tell me to move on. You can’t move on when there are people out there still thinking you’re a complete bastard not knowing your true reasonings or thinking you’re just finding excuses— its been years, there’s no point in lying, im not even in the fandom anymore, what do I gain lying? You could say I “deserved” it and that “that’s what I get for being jealous” etc. Yet those are simply accusations and assumptions people made, you can’t take people’s/make assumptions and think it’s the truth.

I have finally developed the courage to speak about this topic again and explain properly my side of the story.

—

Faulty Link

I want to clear up the biggest misunderstanding. I never sent anyone anon hate and I can prove it.

Pinpix has stated that she “can track an anon's identity” by using this link. I found this fact very interesting considering it’s been outdated for years at the time Pinpix did this ‘callout.’ 

Pinpix gave out false information about me, then Cupid reblogged it without checking the sources. Not only Cupid, but many of my former mutuals did so without checking the sources. This link hasn’t been working since 2017, yet they managed to ‘track’ my IP in 2023. Anyone is welcome to check the tracking link themselves to see even more comments proving that it no longer works. 

I’d like to mention Cupid had stated this before. 

I’ve never been in Cupid’s server before. So, I clearly couldn’t have been the one sent the hate. With all these facts coming to light, I’d like this to be a lesson to everyone to not jump on hate trains without checking what the ‘proof’ is.

—

Anon Hate

To everyone affected by the anon hate, I’m really truly sorry you’ve had such rude and demeaning people in your inbox. I believe anon hate is such a low act to do and I understand it affected you immensely. 

However, I want everyone to understand that I have never sent anon hate and will never in the future.  —

Copying

Not only did Pinpix accuse me of sending anon hate, they also made some claims about me copying Cupid (most of the post was them talking about this). I’d like to address these.

I’ve never copied anyone. A lot of what I did was take inspiration from trends at that time. Just because some of my posts came after Cupid doesn’t mean I copied her. I did things that were popular at that time, not things that Cupid did. If Cupid did popular things too, cool! But please don’t come after me for also following trends. Fade outs and social media themes were popular then, and many of former mutuals as well as people from other fandoms had similar themes.

First thing out of the way, Cupids are from Roman mythology and Aphrodite is from Greek mythology, so no I didn’t see Cupid’s url and decided to steal it lol, that is so silly. She and I were friends back then and wanted to match names. I also fail to see how our themes and writing styles are similar. To my knowledge, Cupid went for regal themes, while I stuck to coquette, there was a time where I did more simple clean themes because again- it was trending, especially in blogs from big Fandoms such as Genshin. Just because we both used shades of pink doesn’t mean it was plagiarism. 

I’ve never deleted anything off my page after this incident, so I think you’re misremembering. 

My writing format has changed as a progress of maturing. Personal observations are not proof. Not to mention my writings are still up, so if you had proof that our fics are similar, you could have proved it. You have not. 

This says a lot. 

—

Vent

I will take accountability for my venting. I did vent personal things and I regret that immensely. I’m sorry to anyone affected by them. However, please understand I was going through a difficult situation both online and irl, and as an immature 13 year old kid, I didn’t know how to handle it. I didn’t have the help I needed, I didn’t know what to do to make myself feel better. Sadly, I chose a path that not only didn’t help me, but also harmed the people around me. I regret it, and if I could I would have taken a few months offline.

None of my vents named or attacked anyone. If you made correlations from my vents to people, that is your assumption. These are all subjective opinions made by you without any proof. 

Some of my posts were indeed targeted towards Cupid, I wasn’t healed from the first drama we had and seeing them interact with my friends hurt me really bad. I just wanted the whole drama out of my life, seeing Cupid on my dashboard didn’t help me forget at all. I had blocked her, however when she interacted with my mutuals, I saw her on my page. However, the majority of my vents were from real life issues.  —

Sign Out

First and foremost, I’m sorry to anyone hurt by actions caused by me. However, the anon hate, the spam into former mutuals’ inboxes, accused plagiarism and this supposed obsession isn’t me. You’ve crafted this whole story based on assumptions and false proof, and I don’t want to take the hate in my inbox anymore. It’s been years and I’m not sure why people are still so obsessed with this situation.

Though this section confuses me, since when you said I did the ‘same thing,’ it implies that Cupid has also neglected to credit the art they used.

I have used art without credits only if I couldn’t find the original source. I found a lot of my inspiration on Pinterest, so when I found the source, I could credit them. However, sometimes I couldn’t find it, and wouldn’t have anything to cite. I now know that I should have looked harder or have used another image for my blog, however I was not as mature then. In my mind, I had looked for the source and couldn't find it. Going forward in any future fandoms I join to make content, I will cite everything I can.

As a final message, don’t harass people online, especially if you don’t do your research on the topic or know the full story of both people. In my case I was anxious. I didn’t know what to do or say, I was panicked and was unable to collect my thoughts and come with a proper response. Now, I hope this was enough to explain my side of the story and clear up some things said about me.

Thank you for listening and have a good day.

[la-lolita]

ilysm i’m following you home (lovingly) 💜

Hello, this is Lolita, formerly known as Aphrodites-letters, and (sighs) strawberrymilkmami. It’s been a few years since I left, and I am back to properly speak up for myself about the drama that happened between Cupid (now going by Devosin) and I. I will be referring to Devosin as Cupid, however because that’s the name they used to go by during this drama. In this post, I will take accountability for my actions, however I will also explain some parts of the story that I should’ve exposed a long time ago. 

Why now you may ask? Because I feel so much better now. I have matured and up to this day, what has happened still affects me a lot mentally. People may say this is old, or tell me to move on. You can’t move on when there are people out there still thinking you’re a complete bastard not knowing your true reasonings or thinking you’re just finding excuses— its been years, there’s no point in lying, im not even in the fandom anymore, what do I gain lying? You could say I “deserved” it and that “that’s what I get for being jealous” etc. Yet those are simply accusations and assumptions people made, you can’t take people’s/make assumptions and think it’s the truth.

I have finally developed the courage to speak about this topic again and explain properly my side of the story.

—

Faulty Link

I want to clear up the biggest misunderstanding. I never sent anyone anon hate and I can prove it.

Pinpix has stated that she “can track an anon's identity” by using this link. I found this fact very interesting considering it’s been outdated for years at the time Pinpix did this ‘callout.’ 

Pinpix gave out false information about me, then Cupid reblogged it without checking the sources. Not only Cupid, but many of my former mutuals did so without checking the sources. This link hasn’t been working since 2017, yet they managed to ‘track’ my IP in 2023. Anyone is welcome to check the tracking link themselves to see even more comments proving that it no longer works. 

I’d like to mention Cupid had stated this before. 

I’ve never been in Cupid’s server before. So, I clearly couldn’t have been the one sent the hate. With all these facts coming to light, I’d like this to be a lesson to everyone to not jump on hate trains without checking what the ‘proof’ is.

—

Anon Hate

To everyone affected by the anon hate, I’m really truly sorry you’ve had such rude and demeaning people in your inbox. I believe anon hate is such a low act to do and I understand it affected you immensely. 

However, I want everyone to understand that I have never sent anon hate and will never in the future.  —

Copying

Not only did Pinpix accuse me of sending anon hate, they also made some claims about me copying Cupid (most of the post was them talking about this). I’d like to address these.

I’ve never copied anyone. A lot of what I did was take inspiration from trends at that time. Just because some of my posts came after Cupid doesn’t mean I copied her. I did things that were popular at that time, not things that Cupid did. If Cupid did popular things too, cool! But please don’t come after me for also following trends. Fade outs and social media themes were popular then, and many of former mutuals as well as people from other fandoms had similar themes.

First thing out of the way, Cupids are from Roman mythology and Aphrodite is from Greek mythology, so no I didn’t see Cupid’s url and decided to steal it lol, that is so silly. She and I were friends back then and wanted to match names. I also fail to see how our themes and writing styles are similar. To my knowledge, Cupid went for regal themes, while I stuck to coquette, there was a time where I did more simple clean themes because again- it was trending, especially in blogs from big Fandoms such as Genshin. Just because we both used shades of pink doesn’t mean it was plagiarism. 

I’ve never deleted anything off my page after this incident, so I think you’re misremembering. 

My writing format has changed as a progress of maturing. Personal observations are not proof. Not to mention my writings are still up, so if you had proof that our fics are similar, you could have proved it. You have not. 

This says a lot. 

—

Vent

I will take accountability for my venting. I did vent personal things and I regret that immensely. I’m sorry to anyone affected by them. However, please understand I was going through a difficult situation both online and irl, and as an immature 13 year old kid, I didn’t know how to handle it. I didn’t have the help I needed, I didn’t know what to do to make myself feel better. Sadly, I chose a path that not only didn’t help me, but also harmed the people around me. I regret it, and if I could I would have taken a few months offline.

None of my vents named or attacked anyone. If you made correlations from my vents to people, that is your assumption. These are all subjective opinions made by you without any proof. 

Some of my posts were indeed targeted towards Cupid, I wasn’t healed from the first drama we had and seeing them interact with my friends hurt me really bad. I just wanted the whole drama out of my life, seeing Cupid on my dashboard didn’t help me forget at all. I had blocked her, however when she interacted with my mutuals, I saw her on my page. However, the majority of my vents were from real life issues.  —

Sign Out

First and foremost, I’m sorry to anyone hurt by actions caused by me. However, the anon hate, the spam into former mutuals’ inboxes, accused plagiarism and this supposed obsession isn’t me. You’ve crafted this whole story based on assumptions and false proof, and I don’t want to take the hate in my inbox anymore. It’s been years and I’m not sure why people are still so obsessed with this situation.

Though this section confuses me, since when you said I did the ‘same thing,’ it implies that Cupid has also neglected to credit the art they used.

I have used art without credits only if I couldn’t find the original source. I found a lot of my inspiration on Pinterest, so when I found the source, I could credit them. However, sometimes I couldn’t find it, and wouldn’t have anything to cite. I now know that I should have looked harder or have used another image for my blog, however I was not as mature then. In my mind, I had looked for the source and couldn't find it. Going forward in any future fandoms I join to make content, I will cite everything I can.

As a final message, don’t harass people online, especially if you don’t do your research on the topic or know the full story of both people. In my case I was anxious. I didn’t know what to do or say, I was panicked and was unable to collect my thoughts and come with a proper response. Now, I hope this was enough to explain my side of the story and clear up some things said about me.

Thank you for listening and have a good day.

[la-lolita]

Hello, this is Lolita, formerly known as Aphrodites-letters, and (sighs) strawberrymilkmami. It’s been a few years since I left, and I am back to properly speak up for myself about the drama that happened between Cupid (now going by Devosin) and I. I will be referring to Devosin as Cupid, however because that’s the name they used to go by during this drama. In this post, I will take accountability for my actions, however I will also explain some parts of the story that I should’ve exposed a long time ago. 

Why now you may ask? Because I feel so much better now. I have matured and up to this day, what has happened still affects me a lot mentally. People may say this is old, or tell me to move on. You can’t move on when there are people out there still thinking you’re a complete bastard not knowing your true reasonings or thinking you’re just finding excuses— its been years, there’s no point in lying, im not even in the fandom anymore, what do I gain lying? You could say I “deserved” it and that “that’s what I get for being jealous” etc. Yet those are simply accusations and assumptions people made, you can’t take people’s/make assumptions and think it’s the truth.

I have finally developed the courage to speak about this topic again and explain properly my side of the story.

—

Faulty Link

I want to clear up the biggest misunderstanding. I never sent anyone anon hate and I can prove it.

Pinpix has stated that she “can track an anon's identity” by using this link. I found this fact very interesting considering it’s been outdated for years at the time Pinpix did this ‘callout.’ 

Pinpix gave out false information about me, then Cupid reblogged it without checking the sources. Not only Cupid, but many of my former mutuals did so without checking the sources. This link hasn’t been working since 2017, yet they managed to ‘track’ my IP in 2023. Anyone is welcome to check the tracking link themselves to see even more comments proving that it no longer works. 

I’d like to mention Cupid had stated this before. 

I’ve never been in Cupid’s server before. So, I clearly couldn’t have been the one sent the hate. With all these facts coming to light, I’d like this to be a lesson to everyone to not jump on hate trains without checking what the ‘proof’ is.

—

Anon Hate

To everyone affected by the anon hate, I’m really truly sorry you’ve had such rude and demeaning people in your inbox. I believe anon hate is such a low act to do and I understand it affected you immensely. 

However, I want everyone to understand that I have never sent anon hate and will never in the future.  —

Copying

Not only did Pinpix accuse me of sending anon hate, they also made some claims about me copying Cupid (most of the post was them talking about this). I’d like to address these.

I’ve never copied anyone. A lot of what I did was take inspiration from trends at that time. Just because some of my posts came after Cupid doesn’t mean I copied her. I did things that were popular at that time, not things that Cupid did. If Cupid did popular things too, cool! But please don’t come after me for also following trends. Fade outs and social media themes were popular then, and many of former mutuals as well as people from other fandoms had similar themes.

First thing out of the way, Cupids are from Roman mythology and Aphrodite is from Greek mythology, so no I didn’t see Cupid’s url and decided to steal it lol, that is so silly. She and I were friends back then and wanted to match names. I also fail to see how our themes and writing styles are similar. To my knowledge, Cupid went for regal themes, while I stuck to coquette, there was a time where I did more simple clean themes because again- it was trending, especially in blogs from big Fandoms such as Genshin. Just because we both used shades of pink doesn’t mean it was plagiarism. 

I’ve never deleted anything off my page after this incident, so I think you’re misremembering. 

My writing format has changed as a progress of maturing. Personal observations are not proof. Not to mention my writings are still up, so if you had proof that our fics are similar, you could have proved it. You have not. 

This says a lot. 

—

Vent

I will take accountability for my venting. I did vent personal things and I regret that immensely. I’m sorry to anyone affected by them. However, please understand I was going through a difficult situation both online and irl, and as an immature 13 year old kid, I didn’t know how to handle it. I didn’t have the help I needed, I didn’t know what to do to make myself feel better. Sadly, I chose a path that not only didn’t help me, but also harmed the people around me. I regret it, and if I could I would have taken a few months offline.

None of my vents named or attacked anyone. If you made correlations from my vents to people, that is your assumption. These are all subjective opinions made by you without any proof. 

Some of my posts were indeed targeted towards Cupid, I wasn’t healed from the first drama we had and seeing them interact with my friends hurt me really bad. I just wanted the whole drama out of my life, seeing Cupid on my dashboard didn’t help me forget at all. I had blocked her, however when she interacted with my mutuals, I saw her on my page. However, the majority of my vents were from real life issues.  —

Sign Out

First and foremost, I’m sorry to anyone hurt by actions caused by me. However, the anon hate, the spam into former mutuals’ inboxes, accused plagiarism and this supposed obsession isn’t me. You’ve crafted this whole story based on assumptions and false proof, and I don’t want to take the hate in my inbox anymore. It’s been years and I’m not sure why people are still so obsessed with this situation.

Though this section confuses me, since when you said I did the ‘same thing,’ it implies that Cupid has also neglected to credit the art they used.

I have used art without credits only if I couldn’t find the original source. I found a lot of my inspiration on Pinterest, so when I found the source, I could credit them. However, sometimes I couldn’t find it, and wouldn’t have anything to cite. I now know that I should have looked harder or have used another image for my blog, however I was not as mature then. In my mind, I had looked for the source and couldn't find it. Going forward in any future fandoms I join to make content, I will cite everything I can.

As a final message, don’t harass people online, especially if you don’t do your research on the topic or know the full story of both people. In my case I was anxious. I didn’t know what to do or say, I was panicked and was unable to collect my thoughts and come with a proper response. Now, I hope this was enough to explain my side of the story and clear up some things said about me.

Thank you for listening and have a good day.

[la-lolita]

anyway

— Will I be coming back?

NAH. I’m actually enjoying my life, coming back to this god forsaken acc would be like trauma coming back or some shit. Yeah I still have issues with family but it’s really better than what I dealt with back then. Coming back in this acc, in the same fandom won’t help me mentally.

I’m saying this too because people keep saying or think I’m back like mf no, I just made ONE damn post in this acc to apologize deeply. Leave me tf alone 😭

its really REALLY exhausting. I really do regret what I did and people acting this way makes me feel wayyyy unsafer, trying to look where I am now like bsfr. Trying to find my new acc, if you find it stfu and just block me. I get people are mad like I am mad at myself but let this shit go. If I’m in a better mental state don’t fucking ruin it…

I already apologized, leave me alone, leave this whole mess alone, I am out of the fandom, I am not coming back, stop trying to find me, shut your mouth.

I’m also saying this because again, I don’t want to bring old drama back and for the people to make it a big issue again and tell Cupid who doesn’t deserve this damn treatment.

And not to mention that just because I’m in a slightly better mental health DOES NOT mean I’ve fully recovered. There is still things going on in my life, bringing this back will restart everything I’ve left behind in the past and make me start in the beginning, at a horrible place.

[la-lolita]

anyway

— Will I be coming back?

NAH. I’m actually enjoying my life, coming back to this god forsaken acc would be like trauma coming back or some shit. Yeah I still have issues with family but it’s really better than what I dealt with back then. Coming back in this acc, in the same fandom won’t help me mentally.

I’m saying this too because people keep saying or think I’m back like mf no, I just made ONE damn post in this acc to apologize deeply. Leave me tf alone 😭

its really REALLY exhausting. I really do regret what I did and people acting this way makes me feel wayyyy unsafer, trying to look where I am now like bsfr. Trying to find my new acc, if you find it stfu and just block me. I get people are mad like I am mad at myself but let this shit go. If I’m in a better mental state don’t fucking ruin it…

I already apologized, leave me alone, leave this whole mess alone, I am out of the fandom, I am not coming back, stop trying to find me, shut your mouth.

I’m also saying this because again, I don’t want to bring old drama back and for the people to make it a big issue again and tell Cupid who doesn’t deserve this damn treatment.

And not to mention that just because I’m in a slightly better mental health DOES NOT mean I’ve fully recovered. There is still things going on in my life, bringing this back will restart everything I’ve left behind in the past and make me start in the beginning, at a horrible place.

[la-lolita]

I am not the anon idk what you want me to say. I already have apologized for things I should have and admitted. I am not being ignorant I am simply being honest.

I am not over here telling random writers to support me and shit, I am being genuine about this and the fact that I don’t understand why this is happening or why we have the same damn IP, maybe something went wrong I genuinely dont know. Situations like these are serious af. I am not even trying to get some damn apology or attention or save my name. What is the point? I win nothing lying about something serious.

I don’t control the people around me, I don’t know what else to say. Although I thank you for telling me to take care, this is all I’m going to say.

actually this is a finalized post. Many will think im lying but atp idk what to tell you all.

I truly apologize for any of the harassment, but literally I had nothing, and I mean absolutely NOTHING to do with it. I don’t understand why the anon has the same IP as me, idfk. And if any of my moots have harassed I apologize but it’s not under my control.

I will admit I handled this immaturely, I couldn’t help but let out my feelings which was a big mistake. I am aware many are disappointed but what else can I do? I am not the anon what else???

I am sorry? I have admitted my faults but I’m not the damn anon.

I haven’t send asks in already some time, I wouldn’t go fucking harass someone and their friends, it’s pathetic and stupid.

I did use art without credit before, but i realized its messed up and started actually trying to find the artists or put under my pinn that credits to the artists/art is not mine.

Just wanted to say this before actually leaving. I might come back after a few years. I can be immature and I apologize but I’m also not going go sit here and take all the blame. I am being genuine when I say I am not the anon, I don’t understand why had my IP thingy.

But its your choice to believe it or not. I’m not forcing anyone. Hate me if you want I’m leaving this app anyway, don’t try reaching in Discord I am so done I deleted anything I made public.

[la-lolita]

I genuinely don’t mean this is a rude; but I have made it clear in some of my vents that my way of feeling is indeed bad. I have said so before and im not denying it so I am very much indeed aware.

Perhaps social media has effected me greatly. Either way I wish to clear the air. I am aware of what an IP is, but like i said; I wasn’t the anon which is strange. That is why I am concerned and greatly confused.

There is no other explanation i know, and I’m aware I can be childish but I would never go to far like that.

actually this is a finalized post. Many will think im lying but atp idk what to tell you all.

I truly apologize for any of the harassment, but literally I had nothing, and I mean absolutely NOTHING to do with it. I don’t understand why the anon has the same IP as me, idfk. And if any of my moots have harassed I apologize but it’s not under my control.

I will admit I handled this immaturely, I couldn’t help but let out my feelings which was a big mistake. I am aware many are disappointed but what else can I do? I am not the anon what else???

I am sorry? I have admitted my faults but I’m not the damn anon.

I haven’t send asks in already some time, I wouldn’t go fucking harass someone and their friends, it’s pathetic and stupid.

I did use art without credit before, but i realized its messed up and started actually trying to find the artists or put under my pinn that credits to the artists/art is not mine.

Just wanted to say this before actually leaving. I might come back after a few years. I can be immature and I apologize but I’m also not going go sit here and take all the blame. I am being genuine when I say I am not the anon, I don’t understand why had my IP thingy.

But its your choice to believe it or not. I’m not forcing anyone. Hate me if you want I’m leaving this app anyway, don’t try reaching in Discord I am so done I deleted anything I made public.

[la-lolita]

actually this is a finalized post. Many will think im lying but atp idk what to tell you all.

I truly apologize for any of the harassment, but literally I had nothing, and I mean absolutely NOTHING to do with it. I don’t understand why the anon has the same IP as me, idfk. And if any of my moots have harassed I apologize but it’s not under my control.

I will admit I handled this immaturely, I couldn’t help but let out my feelings which was a big mistake. I am aware many are disappointed but what else can I do? I am not the anon what else???

I am sorry? I have admitted my faults but I’m not the damn anon.

I haven’t send asks in already some time, I wouldn’t go fucking harass someone and their friends, it’s pathetic and stupid.

I did use art without credit before, but i realized its messed up and started actually trying to find the artists or put under my pinn that credits to the artists/art is not mine.

Just wanted to say this before actually leaving. I might come back after a few years. I can be immature and I apologize but I’m also not going go sit here and take all the blame. I am being genuine when I say I am not the anon, I don’t understand why had my IP thingy.

But its your choice to believe it or not. I’m not forcing anyone. Hate me if you want I’m leaving this app anyway, don’t try reaching in Discord I am so done I deleted anything I made public.

[la-lolita]

I love you guys.

[la-lolita]

I apologize but I’ll be leaving this blog for good. My mental health has went to its limits and I cannot handle anymore of these accusations that are false. Unfortunately I cannot deactivate, but I will leave this blog and any asks will be unanswered.

I won’t come back.

And I’ll miss everyone but I give up. I’ll focus more on my life. Dont try reaching anywhere, I won’t be there. I am so done.

i am so sorry, but this has gone too far where it’s absolutely hurting me. I feel so judged over something that isn’t true. It’s best for at least me to leave my passion for writing in the twst fandom at least.

It’s not worth trying anymore, despite it not being true. But yet what else can I do? I apologize for any of my moots harassing but I can’t do anything about it, it’s not under my control.

thank u for the love and support but I cant deal with this any longer.

i love you guys ♥️

[la-lolita]

Apparently the anon has the same IP as me?? Which is strange because I haven’t send any asks and I would never so something so fucked up

I admit I may have been childish but they were feelings that were built up all together, I couldn’t really control them.

But I learned from this mistake that I shouldn’t have been open about my feelings. It would cause people to theorize it was me when in fact; it wasn’t.

I don’t understand why we have the same IP, I swear I never sent those asks. Especially because I know how awkward it is, I would dm first instead of causing some unnecessary shit

Whatever…

In response the pixie’s “ call out” upon me.

What the fuck? Cupids-chamber and I are over, how come you even think it’s about them who I am jealous over? There are billion bloggers, how can you be sure it was them?

about interacting with my moots; it wasn’t even Eros, sure, it did make me a feel little bad but in the post I made “they’re interacting with my fucking moots” i was referring to someone else.

The posts mentioned.

I literally explained why I made these posts. I wasn’t being rude in any way, I was simply informing people about it. On tiktok ive seen people literally get sued for using art that they thought was from the manga but wasn’t. As for the headers in like some of my writing, I apologize, I was going to change that since it was wrong, I do admit fault.

However what I won’t accept is for you guys to make me seem like a bad guy when I didn’t even send any of those anon hate asks!

Just because I said “that one ____ writer” I wasn’t even referring to cupid at all? I meant as a whole, anyone who is referred as a “that one ___ writer” no hate, but I simply expressed that I hate the title,

Many have used it tho? I recall a mutual of mine who used to have their banner twitter style, Eros isn’t the only one to use them.

The otome game was a long time ago, I originally planned it to be with eros but couldn’t, when I could I decided to make my own, simple as that. There was no back story, I didn’t do it because Eros was getting popular, I did it because I was finally able to access my laptop to properly make the game.

not to mention I have given up on it anyway.

I just didn’t have ideas or much requests to work ln, so I told people they can spam, thinking I’ll find something I’d like to write for now.

This is things that have happened in the past, I don’t understand why you are bringing them up. Yes I was known as Aphrodites-letters, because I was obsessed with Aphrodite at the time, I don’t get the issue? Just because someone has the name of a greek god doesn’t mean others cant.

To be honest, I have never read Cupid’s writing, ever. So that’s already a false claim.

what pisses me off though, is that I was being for some time now, emotionally open just for shit to go down hill and people to start thinking the wrong way.

This isn’t even a first time, at this point truly I have lost trust. I was being emotionally open, so this feels like a slap. I have mentioned how I know this is unhealthy, so don’t even think that I’m not even trying.

You say “don’t send hate” when you know how people are.

I have never in my life send anon hate nor will I ever, but thank you i guess, i feel shitter than ever. Now you do realize why I never want to be so open in public

[la-lolita]

using my fucking vents as proof is sickening.

[la-lolita]

In response the pixie’s “ call out” upon me.

What the fuck? Cupids-chamber and I are over, how come you even think it’s about them who I am jealous over? There are billion bloggers, how can you be sure it was them?

about interacting with my moots; it wasn’t even Eros, sure, it did make me a feel little bad but in the post I made “they’re interacting with my fucking moots” i was referring to someone else.

The posts mentioned.

I literally explained why I made these posts. I wasn’t being rude in any way, I was simply informing people about it. On tiktok ive seen people literally get sued for using art that they thought was from the manga but wasn’t. As for the headers in like some of my writing, I apologize, I was going to change that since it was wrong, I do admit fault.

However what I won’t accept is for you guys to make me seem like a bad guy when I didn’t even send any of those anon hate asks!

Just because I said “that one ____ writer” I wasn’t even referring to cupid at all? I meant as a whole, anyone who is referred as a “that one ___ writer” no hate, but I simply expressed that I hate the title,

Many have used it tho? I recall a mutual of mine who used to have their banner twitter style, Eros isn’t the only one to use them.

The otome game was a long time ago, I originally planned it to be with eros but couldn’t, when I could I decided to make my own, simple as that. There was no back story, I didn’t do it because Eros was getting popular, I did it because I was finally able to access my laptop to properly make the game.

not to mention I have given up on it anyway.

I just didn’t have ideas or much requests to work ln, so I told people they can spam, thinking I’ll find something I’d like to write for now.

This is things that have happened in the past, I don’t understand why you are bringing them up. Yes I was known as Aphrodites-letters, because I was obsessed with Aphrodite at the time, I don’t get the issue? Just because someone has the name of a greek god doesn’t mean others cant.

To be honest, I have never read Cupid’s writing, ever. So that’s already a false claim.

what pisses me off though, is that I was being for some time now, emotionally open just for shit to go down hill and people to start thinking the wrong way.

This isn’t even a first time, at this point truly I have lost trust. I was being emotionally open, so this feels like a slap. I have mentioned how I know this is unhealthy, so don’t even think that I’m not even trying.

You say “don’t send hate” when you know how people are.

I have never in my life send anon hate nor will I ever, but thank you i guess, i feel shitter than ever. Now you do realize why I never want to be so open in public

[la-lolita]

…. why do they think I would do that? … thats it I cant….

[la-lolita]

What… the fuck

[la-lolita]

maybe sleep will help me for now..

[la-lolita]

— vent???

Honestly, I’ve been told no one is perfect, but how can I feel happy with myself if I know there are better, more preferred people out there. Because so many people idolize them, are obsessed with them, love them. “Oh but ur amazing!” I’m not saying I’m absolute trash, I’m simply saying that it’s impossible to be happy when deep down there is always that someone that everyone adores, even your own friends. I strive to be preferred, I want to be that somebody that makes content many will enjoy, I want to be better than them. It’s impossible when everyone mentions their name, and you can’t say anything because you don’t want to seem like an asshole.

And then at the end you feel guilty for feeling this way. You feel so guilty that. You envy someone so much to a point where you feel insecure. You start to think you’re messed up and need to calm down, but it’s not even easy to deal with it,

“Just get over them” you cant when everyone mentions them. You can’t when they still do better than you. “Take a break” it never helps. Because I feel like I’m not releasing content that will bring more attention and a higher rank,

And you know what? I sometimes feel like completely giving up. It’s not worth it anymore, I feel like I should give up writing because I am not satisfied with myself anymore.

The shit I’ve gone through and the lengths I’ve done to make myself feel at least important only for it to just not work. It’s so much envy and anger that I have, that all my mutuals know them, that despite all I’ve done to make myself feel better they will always be preferred.

people praise them like some god, it’s not fair. I too try to put effort in my shit, make things excited, but yet I don’t get the appreciation I deserve.

It’s not their fault but it angers me, the way they rub it in the face saying how their post is getting so much attention and likes, asking if this is fame. How they can be known as a “that one ___ writer” while I feel so fucking low.

it isn’t fair, with all that I have done to feel better about myself it’s not fair at all. At some point i know ill give up. Soon, in fact.

I could move fandoms but they will still be there. I can’t anymore.

I’m never open to this because I don’t want to seem like an ass, I can’t tell people why I feel this way, I’ve trusted so many people in the past which resulted to them using so many things I’ve told them against me. I can’t trust people much anymore. Only some, very few.

It’s so pointless…. I think I will give up writing like I’ve given up so many things.