lackofspace

[lackofspace]

ok kandreil? where they had a thing, it was small still, kept a secret but developing, trying to be something, then Baltimore and they act like nothing ever happened even with Kevin's bruises and Neil's scars loud.

They are forced to talk about it when Neil coming into the dorm one afternoon after a run finds Kevin packing his stuff.

"What are you doing?" He asks from the door frowning

"Taking my stuff to Matt and Aaron's" Kevin speaks still sorting through his things

"Why?" Neil says moving deeper into the room

"Matt suggested it, the upperclassmen said now that you and Andrew are a couple I should stop trailing behind you, give you some privacy" he pauses "I hadn't realized– I didn't notice I was doing that"

"You are not, Kevin, what?" Neil already agitated comes closer to where Kevin is now gathering the stuff in his desk

"They are better at knowing this kind of stuff," He shrugs "Don't worry, we are still doing night pratices, although you should warn Matt that's something you want or else he'll be in my case about not giving you a break,"

Kevin glanced up to Neil

"Do you? Want a break from night practices?"

"Who are you?!" Neil exclaims more than asks, shocked

Kevin frowns

"Whatever, your choice. Please remember to wash your clothes regularly and tell Andrew to eat real food at least once a day" He pauses dropping a backpack by the door "I guess I should inform you I'm not going to Columbia this weekend, so you can just go after practice if you want"

"What the hell, Kevin! Why the fuck not?"

"Aaron is staying for Katelyn and Nicky says he has to finish a project"

"What does this has to do with you staying? You've come with us without them before" He's getting angry with how confusing this conversation has been

"I guess, but now Nicky and Dan will yell at me if they know"

"You're not making any sense"

"It means you'll have the house to yourselves and I should stay away from you, Dan told me" Kevin tells him like it should be obvious

"Why are you suddenly listening to everything they say? Why don't you ask Andrew and I what we would like?" Neil is desperate, exasperated

"I didn't at first, I thought they had misunderstood but I asked Aaron and he agreed, he said I was using you so I wouldn't be alone, I can't let myself rely on crutches anymore, I know what you and Andrew think of me, I'm just trying to stand with my own two feet and I'm glad they told me it was happening"

With that he grabs his last duffel and backpack and leaves the room

I guess this is really ooc in the way they deal with their emotions, talk and overall openess, I just wanted to write about Kevin being kind of worn out, like he's giving up fighting trying to have someone like/respect him outside of the nest (if you count Jean and the ravens who maybe admired him for being perfect court) he's affected by what happened in Baltimore (Andrew chocking him) but he can't bring himself to talk about it or ask for accountability.

this came to me with Nora talking about how the foxes don't want to listen to Kevin talk about history and I guess misunderstanding him a lot (please know that in this universe Thea does not exist! Jeremy's existence is also debatable bc I think he would be much more present in Kevin's life)