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@worthyheir gets a lyric one liner.

“and we could live so happily if no one knows that you’re with me.”

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@eledrar gets a lyric one liner.

“see them march like lambs to the slaughter, toy soldiers line up on the altar.”

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[ CATCH ]:     sender manages to intervene and catch the falling receiver before they fall to their death.

a flightless bird descends from sky, dipping and weaving through the air. it dives, wings pulling close to its little body as it rushes toward the ground. closer, closer, closer. at the last second, its little wings snap open and wind pulls it upwards—away from the harm that threatens it below. she is no bird, she knows, no safety to catch her; no wings to pull open and carry her away from harm. in her dreams she is such, a dancing bird, a buzzing bee, a fierce and strong dragon that carries her over king’s landing—away, far away from the pain, the suffering. 

her shining star hovers there, lingers just out of reach. helaena can see it from the window, she can reach her hand out—extend her fingers as far as they can reach, and farther. she doesn’t mean for it to pull her over, doesn’t even realize she’s leaning too far. all she knows is that her star, her star, it’s right before her and she needs to hold it. to reach out her hands and carry it inside. won’t it get cold out there, all alone? shouldn’t she clasp it’s little light in her hands, protect it, and bring it home?

not but a moment sooner, does she feel the pitch of her body. the rush of air, the feeling of a little bird dipping into the wind. her arms are no wings, her body is not lithe enough to dance in the flow of a river. she is no dragon, no great beast with its large maws and leathery wings. helaena pitches, slipping over the edge of smooth stone. not a word crosses her lips—as the dream overtakes her. falling, slipping through the air. hair splayed as wings ought to, dress a mess of ruffles. 

no, it is not her who makes a sound, but her own betrothed who does. does he call out her name? cry for her when the wind pulls her toward her fate, a spin of each butterfly’s wings—leading, guiding, to the same place she has seen time and time again? hands, arms, something locks around her, strong and steady, and only then does she gasp. only then is this real; against his warmth and touch. she sucks in a breath, eyes widening—blinking, blinking, blinking, and seeing, for the first time, that she has pitched over the edge of a window. she gasps again, closer to a yell, curling her hands into fists against jacaerys’ sleeve. wide rimmed eyes pool with a sudden onset of tears, turning her face up to him.

no words come—none able to from the sheer terror that takes over her very being. bare feet scrape the sides of the outer wall of the red keep, but his arms are there. they will not let her fall. whatever had become her feels only like a distant passing dream, too far to touch. what was she doing? how has she come to this place? white-knuckles coil tighter. she does not want to fall.

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My character has amnesia, and can't remember anyone or themselves. Send, "Remember me?" for their reaction.

[lalaenaluna]

LET ME ASSIGN YOU AN AFFECTION LANGUAGE

consumption of a heart unloved Here’s a dining table, here’s a set of plates. Here’s your heart, red and bursting with love. You have tried to love people all your life, but no one seems to understand you. Your own mother perhaps forgot to teach you how to protect yourself, maybe people whom you trusted chose to look the other way when all you wanted was a hand full of love. All you want is someone to take from you, all you want is someone to dig in your heart and eat it and kiss you afterwards - bloody and red. You want them to tell you that you are what they have been looking for, you want to be the one who ends their hunger.

tagged by: @worthyheir

tagging: @zalisdarys, @inheritsnothing, @burnnouts (Robb), @onetrueheir, @realmscruelty + you seeing this <3

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𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐑𝐌𝐎𝐑 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

i rewatched the etern.als. and then i got thinkin. and now you guys are on the receiving end of more protective prompts, but these little beauties are aimed more for the act of actually saving a life! bon appetit!

DIALOGUE PROMPTS.

“ what the hell were you thinking?! you could’ve been killed! “

“ hey! get away from them! “

“ if you wanna hurt them, you’re going to have to get through me, first. “

“ you underestimate how much you mean to me. i wasn’t about to let them hurt you. and i certainly wasn’t about to let them even consider killing you. “

“ i told you before. i’m not gonna let anything in this world nor the next harm you. “

“ you need to get out of here! go! i’ll buy you some more time! “

“ what are you doing?! i told you, get out of here! now! “

“ get it through your head, i’m not gonna just leave you here! “

“ now’s not the time to play the martyr, got it? you’ve got a good long life ahead of you, and i intend to keep it that way. “

“ you need to go now, okay? don’t worry. i’ve got this. they’ll want to be trying a lot harder if they want to keep me from protecting you. “

“ don’t worry about me; are YOU okay? “

“ damnit, [NAME]! i TOLD you not to play the hero! “

“ i can look after myself, you know. but… i do appreciate you stepping in back there. you saved my life. “

“ why are you so invested in keeping me alive? “

“ that was for saving my life. “

“ it’s alright, they’re gone now… are you alright? hey, look at me; are you hurt at all? “

“ are you insane?! run! “

“ were you preoccupied, or did you just really want a dramatic heroic entrance before you saved my ass? “

“ are you okay? “

“ yeah, yeah, i’m okay… are you okay? “

“ hey! why don’t you try picking on someone your own size! “

“ hurry! take my hand! “

“ get in the car! now! “

“ i’m sorry i was late… are you alright? they didn’t hurt you too badly, did they? “

ACTION PROMPTS.

add a “+ REVERSE” to switch the roles around!

[ SHIELD ]:     sender uses their own body to shield the receiver from an attack.

[ EMBRACE ]:     sender quickly wraps the receiver in a protective hug and turns so the sender’s back might take on the brunt of an on-coming attack.

[ SHOVE ]:     seeing the receiver is in immediate danger, the sender runs to them and shoves them out of the line of fire.

[ YANK ]:     seeing the receiver is in immediate danger, the sender hastily grabs them and pulls them against them, out of harm’s way.

[ TACKLE ]:     sender physically tackles the receiver out of the line of fire.

[ THROW ]:     sender throws themselves between the receiver and an on-coming attack, taking on an injury that might have been fatal to the receiver otherwise.

[ DISTRACT ]:     sender causes a distraction to draw the receiver’s attacker/s away from them.

[ FIGHT ]:     just as the receiver is about to be attacked, the sender arrives suddenly and begins to physically fight off their assailant.

[ CATCH ]:     sender manages to intervene and catch the falling receiver before they fall to their death.

[ SACRIFICE ]:     sender sacrifices themselves, either fatally or otherwise, in order to save the receiver’s life.

[ HIDE ]:     sender quickly pulls the receiver into a hiding place, hiding them from their pursuers.

[ KILL ]:     sender, seeing the receiver in immediate and intentionally fatal danger, intervenes by killing their assailant before they can kill the receiver.

[ INCAPACITATE ]:     sender, seeing the receiver in immediate danger, intervenes by knocking out their assailant before they can harm the receiver.

[ AFAR ]:     sender, having been watching the receiver’s interactions with a threat from afar, saves them from an impending attack while remaining distant from them.

[ SECRET ]:     sender, having been secretly following the receiver, saves their life from an immediate threat while remaining hidden from the receiver.

[ REVEALED ]:     sender, having been secretly following the receiver, reveals themselves in the process of saving the receiver’s life from an unexpected threat.

[ REUNION ]:     after spending a considerable length of time apart, the sender reunites with the receiver after saving their life from an immediate and potentially lethal threat.

[ KISS ]:     after having been saved from immediate danger by the receiver, the sender, in a state of intense emotion and relief, kisses them to express these feelings.

[ HUG ]:     sender, having just saved the receiver’s life, pulls them into a tight hug out of relief and a need to steady and support both themselves and the receiver.

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REASONS TO CARRY SOMEONE. ( A PROMPT LIST! )

listen, i'm back home now, i'm thinking about things, and i saw the maxton hall gifset floating around and i was like. yk what. carrying people is elite content, and gdi y'all deserve elite content! as always, DO NOT ADD OR EDIT THIS LIST! and there's a lil spicy addition under the readmore, but i left it there just in case people prefer to have a not-so-spicy version.

[ SLUMBER ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver because they're so sound asleep that they won't easily wake up.

[ INTERCEPT ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver out of the room because they're angry and on the brink of engaging in a fight with someone.

[ ASSIST ]: sender picks up and carries the receiver away for medical attention because they've been injured and can't walk easily.

[ HELP ]: sender picks up and carries the badly wounded receiver as fast as possible to the nearest hospital or the nearest place to administer urgent first-aid.

[ ELATION ]: sender scoops up the receiver and carries them away after a mutual victory, or having just received very good news (or maybe they're both just very happy for some reason!)

[ HOME ]: sender picks up the receiver to carry them over the threshold of their new home.

[ AID ]: sender finds the receiver too weak to move, and scoops them up to carry them to get some help.

[ UP ]: sender finds the receiver and picks them up to carry them a distance after learning they're unable to get up.

[ BAREFOOT ]: the sender picks up the receiver and carries them inside because they're not wearing any shoes.

[ WEARY ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall asleep during a task, and picks them up to carry them to bed so that they can actually sleep properly for once.

[ TWIRL ]: sender catches the receiver in their arms and spins them in a neat twirl just because they want to.

[ HERO ]: sender notices the receiver about to fall from a height, and manages to intervene just in time, catching them before they get hurt.

[ FLASH ]: the sender and receiver are part of a photoshoot, and in order to finish the last of the photos, the sender scoops up the receiver in their arms for the final pose.

[ TRAIN ]: during a training session (for a fight or a performance, dealer's choice!) the sender ends up holding the receiver in their arms during their session together.

[ URGENCY ]: sender carries the receiver away from danger after the receiver is revealed to be unable to move, either due to panic or injury.

[ OUT ]: sender grabs the receiver and lifts them into their arms after noticing them swaying and beginning to lose consciousness.

[ SCREAM ]: sender spots the receiver in a terrified or considerably panicked state, and picks them up to carry them to a less terrifying place to calm down.

[ LAZY ]: sender concedes to receiver's requests for a piggy-back ride home because they don't want to walk anymore, and carries them the rest of the distance home.

[ CAREFUL ]: sender gently lifts the receiver out of their seat and carries them carefully to bed after noticing they fell asleep and not wanting to waken them.

[ HASTE ]: in urgent need of getting to safety as fast as possible, the sender scoops up the receiver and starts running because it's quicker and easier to just carry them than expect them to keep pace.

[ FURTHER ]: sender, during an increasingly passionate make-out session with the receiver, suddenly takes them in their arms and carries them towards the bedroom to continue their evening in private.

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based on this suggestions blog.  warning:  these are pretty dark/angry  &  could be triggering to some people.  please be cautious before proceeding!!

‘  all i want in my life is for my friends to be able to touch me suddenly  &  me to not flinch away without meaning to.  when will this stop affecting me?  ’ ‘  all i want is to be soft  &  gentle,  but i’m made out of steel  &  anger.  maybe in another life,  i guess.  ’ ‘  beauty is in the eye of the beholder,  so choose to see beauty in everything.  ’ ‘  burning it all to the ground  &  force them to start again.  they made you lose everything.  now return the favor.  ’ ‘  do i ever even cross your mind or do i do all the thinking of us on my own?  ’ ‘  do you trust me enough?  do you trust me at all?  ’ ‘  don’t you dare abandon me.  ’ ‘  even after all you have done,  i will always want you fighting on my side.  ’ ‘  every time i see you smile i fall in love with your brightness all over again.  ’ ‘  everyone i have ever loved is long gone.  i sing to the sky alone.  ’ ‘  everyone i touch gets hurt,  but i can’t stop.  i touch  &  i touch  &  i touch  &  people get hurt.  why can’t i ever stop?  ’ ‘  everyone says i used to be a hero,  but i can still taste the blood in my mouth  &  still feel bruises blooming because of my fists  &  my eyes are still stretched wide  &  terrified.  ’ ‘  everything i love has been taken from me.  what do i have left to fight for?  ’ ‘  fall in love with someone that makes you feel strong.  ’ ‘  friends are more important than any material object will ever be.  ’ ‘  i am aching to hold you  &  keep you safe,  to be pressed against you so that nothing can harm you.  ’ ‘  i am divine  &  you will bow before me.  ’ ‘  i am fucking divine.  ’ ‘  i am in control  &  i listen to no one.  ’ ‘  i am not a good person.  don’t pretend i am.  ’ ‘  i am not accustomed to love.  this is a learning experience.  ’ ‘  i am not worth saving  &  i am not worth redemption.  let me stay in the dark.  ’ ‘  i am so tired all the time,  all i want to do is rest.  ’ ‘  i am too tired to deal with any of this.  ’ ‘  i bow to no man.  ’ ‘  i broke into sharp pieces when i broke  &  i expect someone else to hurt their hands on my edges just to put me back together.  i’m sorry.  ’ ‘  i can give you your wings back  &  i can show you to fly once more,  if you only believe in me.  ’ ‘  i cannot be saved.  ’ ‘  i can’t ask for help because if i ask for help it hurts people.  i can bear this weight on my own.  i have to.  ’ ‘  i could taste the lies in your mouth every time i kissed you,  but i loved you too much to notice.  ’ ‘  i crave affection in the simplest way.  ’ ‘  i deserve to hurt.  i deserve to bleed.  ’ ‘  i didn’t ask for any of this so don’t you dare blame this on me.  ’ ‘  i don’t care if you say my name like it’s poison or like it’s a prayer,  as long as it leaves your lips.  ’ ‘  i don’t fight for you anymore.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to let go of you.  not now,  not ever.  ’ ‘  i don’t want to talk about it.  i don’t want to remember.  i don’t want to heal.  all i want is for it to go away.  ’ ‘  i don’t want you to touch me.  please don’t touch me,  just go away.  ’ ‘  i feel anger deeper than my bones.  i feel anger in my very soul.  ’ ‘  i feel nothing at all,  except for when i feel everything all at once.  ’ ‘  i have fallen  &  though i may miss the sky,  i belong here now.  ’ ‘  i have fallen from a height your mind cannot even imagine.  ’ ‘  i have no home anymore.  ’ ‘  i remember collapsing in the flames with a sword in my hand  &  then i remember nothing.  ’ ‘  i see beauty in everything,  but especially in you.  ’ ‘  i should never have fallen in love with you.  ’ ‘  i thought for a long time that i was so terrible no one would look at me.  now i know it’s because i shine so bright they are forced to look away.  ’ ‘  i was so caught up in the feeling that i forgot how to breathe.  ’ ‘  i will never amount to anything.  i am a failure in the worst type of way.  ’ ‘  i will tell myself that the burn of my loneliness in my chest completes me  &  maybe someday it will be true.  ’ ‘  if that’s what a hero is i’m glad i’m not one anymore.  ’ ‘  if you ask me to,  i will set the whole world on fire,  my dear.  it’s all for you.  ’ ‘  is it my fault?  it’s my fault.  it’s always my fault.  ’ ‘  it’s not murder if they deserved it,  right?  ’ ‘  i’m drowning in emotions that don’t belong to me,  choking on anger  &  suffocating on sadness.  ’ ‘  i’m in love with everything that hurts me.  ’ ‘  i’m okay.  i’m alright.  this is all in my mind.  ’ ‘  i’m ready to give up everything i’ve ever had if it means someone will love me.  ’ ‘  i’m so cold  &  i can’t stop shaking.  i am not who you think i am.  ’ ‘  i’m so tired all the time  &  i just want to be awake again.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting against the pain of being forgotten.  i just want someone to remember me.  ’ ‘  i’m tired of fighting everything in my life.  just make it stop.  ’ ‘  i’m too tired to care.  blow up,  get angry at me.  i’m sure someday i’ll realize i deserved it.  ’ ‘  jealousy burns within me.  ’ ‘  just let me go in peace for once in my damn life.  ’ ‘  loneliness is a disease  &  it leaves me empty  &  hollow,  like sound goes through my body  &  bounces back.  ’ ‘  made of starlight  &  sunshine,  i shine brighter than they all know.  ’ ‘  my anger is righteous  &  my actions are pure.  ’ ‘  my chest aches  &  my lungs burn.  this sickness comes from the inside.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  all i need is some comfort  &  understanding.  ’ ‘  my chest hurts  &  i ache to go back to the sky.  ’ ‘  my shoulders are aching where wings used to be  &  all i want is for them to stop hurting.  ’ ‘  pull me apart  &  piece me together in your own way.  make me perfect.  ’ ‘  righteous fury throws through my veins  &  if you touch the people i love i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  rise up.  you can’t keep being small when you were made for so much more.  ’ ‘  say my name like it’s the only one that’s ever been on your tongue.  ’ ‘  so much blood has been spilled in my name.  time to make you believe it was in yours.  ’ ‘  so you’ll worry about me when i fall silent,  but not when i scream  &  plead for help?  fuck off.  ’ ‘  sometimes people have to get hurt for me to get what i want.  ’ ‘  stay away from my fucking friends.  stay the fuck away or so help me i will destroy you.  ’ ‘  stop treating me like i’m an idiot.  you aren’t better than me in any way  &  you better remember that.  ’ ‘  the bitter taste of regret is ever present on my tongue.  ’ ‘  the world is spinning far too fast for me to stay on it.  ’ ‘  to love them is my divine right.  ’ ‘  voices whisper from the shadows  &  they fill my mind with thoughts of you.  ’ ‘  what did i to wrong to be so unloved?  ’ ‘  what is the point of power if i’m not supposed to use it?  ’ ‘  who the fuck do you think you are?  ’ ‘  why can’t i ever fucking stop crying?  ’ ‘  with a new year comes new tests  &  triumphs.  let’s try to make the most out of it.  ’ ‘  would it really kill you to be honest for once?  ’ ‘  yes,  i remember my wings breaking  &  being destroyed.  i was powerless to stop it.  ’ ‘  you are not required to love your parents,  or to even like them.  ’ ‘  you can’t hate me more than i hate myself,  but you are more than welcome to try.  ’ ‘  you may say you love me,  but you love only a part of me.  i am too complex for you to ever love my entire being.  ’ ‘  you never fucking cared about me.  don’t fucking lie about it.  not to me.  ’ ‘  you remind me of mint.  fresh,  sharp,  kind of cold,  but in a nice way.  i always knew there was a reason mint was my favorite.  ’ ‘  you shine light in even the darkest parts of me.  you are my sun.  ’ ‘  you should fear me,  but you don’t.  i will be eternally puzzled,  yet grateful.  ’ ‘  you touch me  &  my skin burns  &  it burns for you,  always you.  ’

[lalaenaluna]

@zalisdarys asked: ❝ let me do this for you. ❞

the words leave her stunned in her own rooted place,   eyes wide rimmed and fingers unsteady. they flex and curl, trembling with each shuttered breath. she can already feel the touch of a bruise forming against her skin, on her arm, where aemond had grabbed her, pulled and demanded that she take to the skies on her dragon. " I won’t burn anyone, " she’d said, had told him, her brows furrowing, expression drawn and upset. it was a rare night she had not spent all hours in aegon’s chambers, theirs – but more so his now, while he healed and recovered. helaena stayed as she could, promised that she would not allow aemond near the chambers or inside the door. the kingsguard themselves had been informed of the decision, and if not for the metaphorical crown upon her brow then the ire and seriousness in her voice had given them enough reason to listen.

she’d been returning for the eve, with a surprise wine that was delivered to the keep – it’s flavor was rich and blooming with sweetness, and helaena had thought it might make a nice gift to her pained and burdened husband in his restlessness. it decorated the floor now, basin broken and strewn about. aemond had found her first, insisted in no simple terms that her duty was to her family, to the realm, to aegon— to burn. it narrowed her vision enough that the twisted anger on her face gave him pause, but it wasn’t enough – not when his insistence turned into practically cornering her, grabbing her arm and yelling some manner of honor, oath, and devotion to family that made her blood boil even more. the yelling had been enough that even the kingsguard had gathered, however— the last thing that helaena expected was for aegon to appear. least of all for him to step his body between helaena herself and to throw a punch that was – while weak, likely, in his state, was enough for aemond to step down.

worry had taken over once shock had worn off, and the queen had scrambled to her feet ( when had she ended up on the floor? ) and take aegon’s good arm in her hands. she hold him, eyes wide and heart hammering. she feels sick. she feels sick. " no—no, aegon, i’m okay. don’t– " he speaks before she can even finish the fumbling words leaving her lips. does he sound angry? is he angry with her? let me do this for you. her ears burn before the tears well, and helaena feels her lips pull into an pathetic excuse of holding back tears. " please. please. let’s go to bed. "

[lalaenaluna]

❥    𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐤𝐢𝐧𝐠  𝐝𝐨𝐰𝐧  ,  𝐚  𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞  𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞  .

tw for distressing themes , depressive tendencies , harsh language , ect .

❛  i  can’t ,  i  can’t ,  i  just  —  can’t .  ❜ ❛  i’m  trying  —  i’m  trying  so  fucking  hard  ,  but  nothing’s  working  .  ❜ ❛  i  just  want  it  to  stop  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  so  sorry  .  i’m  so  so  fucking  sorry  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  in  tatters  and  i  can’t  fucking  do  anything  .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  do  anything  right  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  a  failure  .  ❜ ❛  help  me  —  oh  god  ,  help  me  ,  please  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  tired  .  i’m  so  tired  . ❜ ❛  i  just  want  to  sleep  .  please  ,  just  …  let  me  sleep  .  ❜ ❛  i  don’t  know  what  to  do  .  i  just  don’t  .  ❜ ❛  who  cares  ?  who  could  even  care  about  me  ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  disgusting  and  mangled  and  broken  and  useless  .  ❜ ❛  trying’s  so  fucking  hard  .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  breathe  ,  i  can’t  —  ❜ ❛  what  do  i  do  ?   what  do  i  do  ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  scared  —  i’m  so  scared  .  ❜ ❛ i’m  the  problem  .  and  there’s  nothing  i  can  do  about  it  .  ❜ ❛  i  ruined  it  .  i  fucking  ruined  it  .  ❜ ❛  i’m  such  a  fucking  idiot  .  ❜ ❛  i  know  ,  i  know  .  ❜ ❛  i  didn’t  —  i  didn’t  mean  it  like  that  .  ❜ ❛  how  could  you  do  this  to  me  ?  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  do  this  anymore  .  ❜ ❛  get  the  fuck  away  from  me  !  ❜

[lalaenaluna]

❥   𝐭𝐡𝐞  𝐡𝐮𝐦𝐚𝐧  𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧  ,  𝐚  𝐥𝐲𝐫𝐢𝐜  𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞  .

the human condition, by jon bellion — adjust as needed.

❛  what  the  fuck’s  a  bad  day  ?  ❜ ❛  how  does  it  feel  to  be  you  ?  ❜ ❛  i’m  a  ghost  —  i  called  your  name  ,  you  looked  right  through  me  .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  trying  to  fix  my  pride  ,  but  that  shit’s  broken  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  the  reason  that  i  just  can’t  concentrate  .  ❜ ❛  i  need  you  to  understand  .  ❜ ❛  there’s  an  aching  ,  there’s  a  hole  in  my  chest  .  ❜ ❛  have  i  lost  control  ?  ❜ ❛  maybe  i  don’t  know  ,  but  maybe  that’s  okay  .  ❜ ❛  you  can  tell  them  that  you  are  mine  .  ❜ ❛  all  we  do  is  fake  our  feelings  .  ❜ ❛  i  realized  i  need  you  here  ,  as  desperate  as  that  sounds  .  ❜ ❛  everything  about  you  is  so  overwhelming  .  ❜ ❛  hey  ,  do  i  impress  you  ?  ❜ ❛  you  could  be  the  shoulder  that  i  lean  on  .  ❜ ❛  i  can’t  hold  this  weight  anymore  .  ❜ ❛  your  heart’s  a  vine  that  i’ve  bled  trying  to  climb  .  ❜ ❛  you’re  making  a  ruin  of  me  .  ❜ ❛  like  a  knife  in  the  woods  ,  you  hunt  down  the  good  in  me  .  ❜ ❛  you  make  me  forget  who  i  am  .  ❜ ❛  all  of  your  good  is  mine  .  ❜ ❛  i’ve  been  trying  to  keep  up  with  all  of  these  great  expectations  ,  so  i  keep  faking  .  ❜ ❛  we’re  secretly  out  of  control  and  everyone  knows  it  .  ❜ ❛  there’s  some  things  i  don’t  wanna  know  .  ❜ ❛  the  secrets  you  tell  me  i’ll  take  to  my  grave  .  ❜ ❛  there’s  bones  in  my  closet  ,  but  you  hang  stuff  anyway  .  ❜ ❛  sometimes  i  lose  my  way  .  ❜

[lalaenaluna]

@onetrueheir gets a vaguely plotted starter.

he had given her a river, flowing with water; a thriving ecosystem from that flicker, blooming into a dazzling garden of love and hope. jaehaerys had been her muse, her boy as much as jaehaera was her girl. not one without the two, and yet, yet, yet. her boy. her shining boy. what could she say? what grief could she instill that the gods she could call upon would right the wrong of stealing her shining star? the flickering light of her night sky, a waterfall of life - he was vibrant, with his loving smile and warmth. talented and brave. he would hold each bug she gave him, no matter how nervous he might have looked, with the same smile. it warmed her, shone against her ribcage. now she stood in the frigidness of a glooming garden, dead and devoid of life. what could she do now, she wondered, knowing that light had gone out?

wander. it was the first and only answer she had, drifting aimless against a haze. drowning in the weight of her grief - pain, as much hers as anyone else. aegon felt it, she knew. helaena was not foolish enough to not see the way his eyes stopped focusing. the way his world seemed dimmer. a sun with no star, a star with no son. their boy, beloved and sacred to the both of them, to the realm - he was heir. her husband-brother never failed to make it know; another display of his very devotion. it was almost too much to bear witness to now. it was all too much now. the same memories an endless stream, a circling spiral of back and forth, over and under. she would wake to the terror she'd felt that night - the way the knife had felt... cold against her throat, her children sleeping, jaehaerys so close - too close. not close enough.

she'd offered her very life to them, but they seemed to only care about the wage they would make from this kill. this murder. this defilement. " I have a necklace, " she would find herself saying, over and over, again and again. how many times could she repeat it? even now, she finds herself muttering it as she steps off the boat. cargo, meant to take people to and from the black queen's domain. dragonstone was beautiful, and if she could focus on more than the weighing exhaustion that held her down, the shake in her hands, and her boy. her shining boy. perhaps she could have gotten lost in its spires and beautiful stone pillars and towers. instead, helaena finds herself drifting from beach to gates themselves, wandering. wandering. she sucks in a breath, and picks at the beds of her nails.

she mulls over what she might say, what she could say. would mother be cross? she muses, quietly, and finds the cycle drawn anew. circling. helaena feels ill - she feels far, and yet, she is not close enough. the guards halt her at the entrance of the stone spires, and the queen - no, she reminds herself, she is not queen here. helaena. that is her name, isn't it? she's still helaena? the woman muses it, muses herself - considers. could she still be herself without the light that illuminated her? a moon without her stars. a reflection of what is, and what is to come.

with what is left of her own might, the girl straightens her shoulders as she remembers rhaenyra doing once. fingers clasp in front of her. " I am here to see the queen, " she tries, voice weary and tired, but the same gentle as a girl much younger than she. all she knows now is the tired, without her light. " please. "

[lalaenaluna]

“Honey, have you been crying? What is it? What’s wrong?”

she doesn't mean to. she'd tell him that, but the words are angry in her throat, twisted and desperate, refusing with all their might to come out. lips tremble and the world feels narrow and wide all the same. had she been falling? was the world pulled from under her feet, only for her to awaken, crying out in the safety of her own bed? wiping pathetically at her face, helaena tries her best to dip out of sight - hiding, badly, from the man she might call father.

she hasn't expected him to come, to run to her aid when she'd first called out - in another life, his chambers are too far from hers. or perhaps they are now? for this, she does not know, nor does she attempt to make sense of it between each panicked breath. " I - am sorry, papa. " helaena shutters, trembling like a leaf in the wind, sniffling as she tries, tries, tries to sort through a dream she cannot seem to grasp. the world is too big, too scary, too much. " I did.. I didn't mean to wake you. "

[lalaenaluna]

❝ just give the word and i’ll kill every one of them. ❞

helaena wants to hold her breath, her eyes widen, blinking rapidly against the notion of the words spoken. picking tentatively at her skin, the nail bed are all but ruined and bloody now. she'd seen her mother doing this, several times - was it an old habit? either way, she tempers herself. lets the slow breath come, and then go. the thought of someone dying on her behalf, from her words... it makes her feel sick. fingers creep up to her throat, breathing caught there for a moment in something that feels too far away and not close enough.

" I - hmm. " she hummed, the noise frantic and worried. " I do not want that... " helaena tries again, tone a timid drone of nothing. she can't breathe, she realizes. why can't she breathe? she thinks, perhaps, she might be asleep. sometimes a babe gets caught in their sleep and suffocates, don't they? the girl wonders, perhaps, that she is suffocating. will she wake from this? " please, I don't want anyone to die. "

[lalaenaluna]

HURT / COMFORT : STARTERS

a collection of quotes, phrases, and sayings for when your muse needs a little TLC. change & alter as needed.

THE HURT:

“Nah, it’s not that bad. I’ve had worse.”

“I don’t think I can walk that far… or at all.”

“I’m fine. I don’t need your help.”

“Will you stay with me? Just until I fall asleep?”

“I’m sorry, I’m just—I’m just really tired.”

“I don’t need a break. I’m okay.”

“It was my fault. It was all my fault.”

“I think I need help.”

“So, I don’t think I’m dying, or anything, and it’s probably not that serious, but… I’m kinda bleeding. A lot.”

“Is the room spinning right now, or is that just me?”

“No, I’m okay, I just… I hit my head. Really hard. I’ll be okay, just give me a second.”

“I’m not sick! I’m fine!”

“No, I don’t think any of my bones are broken, or anything like that. Just bad bruises.”

“Yeah, but you should see the other guy.”

“I’m fine. This just happens sometimes. It’s normal for me.”

“I’ve got a headache.”

“Seriously, though, I’m fine! Stop making such a big deal out of it!”

“I’ve been taking care of myself for a long time. I don’t need your help, and I definitely don’t need your pity. Fuck off.”

“Please tell me I don’t look as bad as I feel.”

“I think I’m running a fever.”

“So, what’s the prognosis, Doc? Am I gonna live?”

“Stop fussing over me! I’m not a baby!”

“Can I stay with you tonight? I just… really don’t want to be alone right now.”

“No, I-I’m okay. It was just a nightmare. Go back to sleep.”

“I… can’t actually remember the last time I had something to eat.”

“You shouldn’t be here. You’ll get sick, too.”

THE COMFORT:

“Honey, have you been crying? What is it? What’s wrong?”

“I think you’d better take a break.”

“It’s not your fault, sweetheart. You did everything you could.”

“You don’t have to go through this alone. I’m right here for you if you’ll just let me in.”

“There’s nothing wrong with you. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you. Don’t ever let yourself believe that there is.”

“You really don’t realize just how many people love you, do you?”

“If you’re not going to take care of yourself, at least let me do it for you!”

“I’m sorry. I know it hurts.”

“You’re not alone, baby. You never have been.”

“Let’s get you some food.”

“You’re dead on your feet, poor thing. Come on, you need some sleep.”

“Stay where you are. I’m coming to get you.”

“Tell me where it hurts.”

“How many times have I told you to be more careful?!”

“It’s okay. It’s okay. I’m right here, okay? I’m not gonna leave you. I’m never gonna leave you.”

“Oh, honey, you’re safe now. I promise. I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

“Go ahead and take a shower. I’ll fix you something to eat.”

“What happened to you, baby?”

“I’ll kill that bastard. I’ll kill him for what he did to you.”

“You look like shit, man.”

“Whoa, whoa, take it easy! You got pretty banged up back there, and you don’t want to go making yourself worse.”

“I’m not trying to baby you. It’s called taking care of my friends.”

“Sweetheart, you’re burning up! Why didn’t you say anything? Why didn’t you tell anyone you were sick?”

[lalaenaluna]

FOR THE “YOU CAN KILL ME BUT DON’T YOU DARE TOUCH THEM” DYNAMICS 

❝  i only want you.  ❞

❝  i don’t need anyone else.  i just…you.  you’re all i need.  ❞

❝  listen,  i’ve lost a lot of people in my life.  i learned how to deal with it but…you’re different.  i can’t take it if it’s you.  ❞

❝  i think about anything happening to you and i— i just.  i fucking lose it.  ❞

❝  you don’t understand.  i need you safe.  not because i don’t think you can handle yourself but because i can’t focus on anything else if there’s even the smallest possibility you’re in danger.  ❞

❝  no one is ever gonna get near you again,  you hear me?  ❞

❝  i won’t let you get hurt.  i promise.  and i don’t make empty promises.  ❞

❝  turn around.  you don’t need to see this part.  ❞

❝  just give the word and i’ll kill every one of them.  ❞

❝  you can’t get all worked up every time something happens to me.  that’s just life.  you’re not always gonna be able to protect me from it.  ❞

❝  no one else understands me.  but you do.  you always do.  ❞

❝  i don’t think i’m the best person for you,  i don’t.  but i do know i’m the one that can keep you safe  ❞

❝  hey—  look at me.  it’s over.  it’s done.  we’re okay.  ❞

❝  who the fuck made you cry i’ll fucking rip their head off.  ❞ 

❝  i know you’ve always got my back.  ❞

❝  please,  let me take care of you this time.  you’re always protecting me but it tears me up inside every time you get hurt because of it.  ❞

❝  can you make everyone else just go away?  i know they mean well but i just want to be alone—  alone with you i mean.  ❞

❝  i know when you’re here,  the real monsters can’t touch me.  ❞

❝   oh,  i am one of the monsters.  but that just means i can keep all the other monsters from ever hurting you again. ❞ 

❝  if you’re gonna keep risking your life for me than you’re also gonna let me patch you up without a single complaint.  ❞

❝  we keep each other safe.  it’s my turn to protect you.  ❞

❝  i killed them for you.  i know you could’ve done it yourself,  but you shouldn’t have to.  ❞

❝   i love you because i know how capable you are.  and i show that love by making sure you don’t have to be the one to always do the hard things.  ❞

❝   i’m gonna make them regret ever even thinking about laying a hand on you.  ❞

❝  tell me what you want me to do.  i’ll do it.  whatever you want.  ❞

❝  i love you just like this.  i love you when you touch me gently like no one else ever has.  and i love you when your hands are bloody and your knuckles are bruised. ❞

❝  please,  just let me protect you.  ❞

❝  are you hurt?  did they hurt you?  ❞

❝  wait,  stop you’re bleeding.  ❞

❝  did you just wince?  where are you hurt?  ❞

❝  i need you in my life.  i’m not used to that—  needing people.  but i do need you.  ❞

❝  you make me feel things i’m not used to feeling.  ❞

❝  why do you let me close when you’re always driving everyone else away?  ❞

❝   you’re mine.  and i protect what’s mine.  ❞

❝  thank you for always being here for me.  ❞

❝  you see things in me that i didn’t even know where there.  ❞

❝  that’s enough.  let’s go home.  ❞

❝  i’m okay now.  i’m safe.  you don’t have to be angry anymore.  ❞

❝  please stop—  this is scaring me. ❞

❝  you don’t have to do this for me.  ❞

❝   hey stop— stop!  look at me.  they’re dead now.  you can stop.  ❞

❝  i have to make an example outta them so no one else tries to hurt you again.  ❞

❝  killing for you is easy.  it’s right.  it feels natural.  ❞

❝  let me do this for you.  ❞

SCENARIOS

[ ONE ]  for sender to take a bullet for receiver. 

[ TWO ]  for receiver to take a bullet for sender. 

[ THREE ]  for sender to protect receiver and then carry them to safety. 

[ FOUR ]  for receiver to protect sender and then carry them to safety. 

[ FIVE ]  for sender to witness receiver get hurt which sends them into a violent rage.

[ SIX ]  for receiver to witness sender get hurt which sends them into a violent rage. 

[ SEVEN ]  for sender to be hurt trying to protect receiver which makes them bloodthirsty for revenge.

[ EIGHT ]   for receiver to be hurt trying to protect sender which makes them bloodthirsty for revenge.

[ NINE ]  for sender to have violently protected receiver,  so receiver kisses them to calm them down. 

[ TEN ]  for receiver to have violently protected sender,  so sender kisses them to calm them down. 

[ ELEVEN ]  for sender to carefully approach receiver in the aftermath,  gently touching them to try and bring them back to themselves. 

[ TWELVE ]  for receiver to carefully approach sender in the aftermath,  gently touching them to try and bring them back to themselves. 

[ THIRTEEN ]  sender was kidnapped,  receiver shows up to save them.  

[ FOURTEEN ]  receiver was kidnapped,  sender shows up to save them.  

[ FIFTEEN ]  sender executes a third party in front of receiver because that person hurt them. 

[ SIXTEEN ]  receiver executes a third party in front of sender because that person hurt them. 

[ SEVENTEEN ]  sender thinks they’re alone but receiver comes out of nowhere to rescue them from someone who intends to do harm/making them uncomfortable. 

[ EIGHTEEN ]   receiver thinks they’re alone but sender comes out of nowhere to rescue them from someone who intends to do harm/making them uncomfortable. 

[ NINETEEN ]  sender has been devastated by something.  receiver holds them until they calm down so they don’t do anything drastic. 

[ TWENTY ]  receiver has been devastated by something.  sender holds them until they calm down so they don’t do anything drastic. 

[ TWENTY-ONE ]  sender thought receiver died so they set out to get revenge.  receiver shows up in time to stand in front of them before they go too far.  

[ TWENTY-TWO ]  receiver thought sender died so they set out to get revenge.  sender shows up in time to stand in front of them before they go too far. 

[ TWENTY-THREE ]  sender is in a vengeful rage because of something that happened to receiver.  receiver gently approaches to calm them down saying this isn’t what they want. 

[ TWENTY-FOUR ]  receiver is in a vengeful rage because of something that happened to sender.  sender gently approaches to calm them down saying this isn’t what they want. 

[ TWENTY-FIVE ]  for sender to have receiver stand by somewhere safe where they can watch sender kill on their behalf. 

[ TWENTY-SIX ]  for receiver to have sender stand by somewhere safe where they can watch receiver kill on their behalf. 

[lalaenaluna]

@ LALAENALUNA : an indie && mutuals only portrayal of Helaena Targaryen from HBO's House of the Dragon. beloved by Quill ( 21+ , they/them ). A mix of show, book, and heavily headcanon based. ( follows from @drakonquill )

𝐚 𝐬𝐭𝐮𝐝𝐲 𝐢𝐧: dreaming, loss of time, visions, religious and prophetic foresight, autism, bugs, love, grief, loss, remembering backwards, sun and the moon, reflections, understanding more than most, seeing beyond, magic, dragon fire, isolation, motherhood, truth, acceptance, resignation, gentleness, familial strife, and more.

— main/affiliates: tba.

— ship/exclusives: @zalisdarys ( aegon ii targaryen )

— links: main blog. prompts. verses. headcanons.