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man homelessness sucks ass especially when you have nobody :/

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the path is always red

Pavlo Tychyna, “We Say…” (tr. Michael M. Naydan)  •  Fleury François Richard, Little Red Riding Hood (Detail)  •  Marjorie Liu, Black Widow: The Name of the Rose  •  The Company of Wolves (dir. Neil Jordan, 1984)  •  Vievee Francis, “Bluster”  •  Jakub Różalski, Wolf Bride (Edited Detail)  •  Catherynne M. Valente, “The Red Girl”•   Gina Litherland, Wolf Alice (Detail)  •  Angela Carter, “The Company of Wolves”  •  Daniel Egnéus, Illustration from Little Red Riding Hood

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had a good day and suddenly im creative again and having thoughts in my brain. insane

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what are your favorite ships (or dynamics) from minecraft story mode s1?

oh, this is a toughie! i deeply love mcsm’s dynamics in s1 -- the whole season in general just feels rather charming to me given the humble origins of it all. things are just simpler then, before multiple worlds and gods get added to the picture. and even then there’s that classic do-or-die plot where everything is a dire situation, and everything’s gone to chaos, and life is a never ending motion blur that bleeds together in the grand scheme of a singular mission. i’ll just say off the bat that there’s many dynamics in s1 that i find fun to consider, but as for some favorites …?

jesse and lukas is perhaps my otp of the season, shocking to none. lukas in general is such a great character and it’s hard not to be smitten by his utter logic and slightly edged attitude … seeing how axel clashes against him as well as lukas’s struggle to adjust to a new team is some of the more enjoyable character stuff in s1. he’s so closed off most of the time but he tries very hard to be someone jesse can rely on anyway ; always offering a helping hand, always stomaching his fear to keep moving forward, etc etc. you can just tell that from the moment jesse offers lukas a cookie that lukas is in awe of him most of the time, and is working his ass off to repay that ( in his eyes ) unearned kindness. he knows jesse’s the leader and not only does he respect it, but he admires it and jesse in turn. but never does he lose sight of jesse as a person and this becomes even more obvious in the other sections of mcsm … lukas sees jesse as an equal, despite all his fawning and mooning, and he wants to be seen as jesse’s equal as well. more importantly, he wants jesse to know they’re on the same footing and a team. i’ve talked a lot about how jesse’s ascension to ‘godhood’ / ‘legend’ is a major part of his character, aka that slow stripping of autonomy, so to have a person who views jesse fairly ( despite all the lovesick inclinations ) is of the utmost importance to me. i think jesse brings out the best in lukas, and lukas acts as jesse’s stoic shield, and they’re easily a perfect puzzle piece that slots together juuuust right. they have their flaws! lukas internalizes all his feelings and stuffs them in books, in his head, always dilutes them and can’t ever say what he wants to so blatantly ; and jesse is eternally tied to his newfound life as a hero and, similarly, also can’t ever say what he means, because he doesn’t think he has to say it, just assumes it’s felt in actions and in silence … but no ship is a fave of mine unless there’s some chafing. love them so much, i swear.

besides them though, hm! it’s difficult to say. to be as curt as possible, i enjoy jesse’s relationship with axel and olivia and his dynamic with reuben is so very deep and metaphorical to me, so i can’t help but view it with the utmost favoritism. i enjoy lukas and the ocelots, even if we don’t see much of them. and, obviously, the order of the stone’s dynamics are technically at the forefront of everything in s1 : it is their past that pushes the present, it’s ivor’s bitterness that creates the monster, it’s soren’s mistakes that cost his friends everything in the end. i do wish more was done with the ‘old’ order, because they are the start of jesse’s story and teach him everything he knows about heroism and cowardice and broken bonds … and this is a sentiment that echoes for centuries honestly. there is always a ruined relationship, somewhere, that is echoing into the narrative and changing jesse’s life, even though he is an outsider to it himself. but, ah, i digress. time to ger specific again!

this might be a little surprising but i’m endeared greatly to magnus and ellegaard, and their whole relationship. i’ve written some brief meta on them before although there’s just something about it -- especially since i kill magnus over ellegaard. ellegaard having to pick herself back up, dust herself off, and go back to redstonia after all of that … having to return to her normal life and know that magnus is gone for good, gone forever, and has finally achieved something the rest of the order lied about ; true heroism, true martyrdom, something she even tells jesse was rather fitting given his utmost bravery and ‘awesomeness’. i think it’s obvious that magnus and ellegaard were close / were romantically entangled during the order’s heyday and to know they used to be so close stings extra hard during the season’s events. they’re total opposites! … or so they pretend to be. meanwhile magnus looks like a total nerd without his armor, has this long-coat look and a fancy button-up, all paired with this obnoxious red bowtie … he looks so sophisticated! but it isn’t shocking when you make the very basic realization that in order for magnus to make the traps he does, he has to be sufficiently skilled in redstone to do it all. he’s smart despite everyone pretending he isn’t, despite magnus acting like he’s not all that either, and most importantly he connects with ellegaard in her specific talent and interest -- meanwhile she, in turn, seems to have an appetite for destruction, given her fascination with the command block and recreating it. she’s not nearly as thrill seeking as magnus, but it’s enough, and then it all goes to shit and ellegaard’s alone. something about them devestates me and i do think they were each other’s most beloved in their friend group … even when they’re at each other’s throats and after potentially years of not talking, magnus still calls her ‘ellie’ immediately and she doesn’t correct him, and she walks off with him even after olivia defends her ( something she seems annoyed by ), and they’re together even in the end, spending hours fighting off mobs despite their constant bickering.

i don’t know if i’m explaining it well, but i love them! i do! so here’s a little ramble i sent to my partner about them a while back, where i try to feel out the crux of their dynamic and why it gets me in particular :

anyway i was thinking about the old order and was STRUCK by magnus and ellegaard in a way that was genuinely devestating … was sort of mulling over them and maybe what their ‘flaw’ was in terms of their ( in my hcs ) constant seperation + fiery rekindling + cycle repeats. and i think it’s just … they sort of thought they’d have all the time in the world, i suppose. if people do not age, there is no inherent fear of morality -- not in that sense of … this is always the end etc. and they do view each other as capable in their own right and they are relatively ‘safe’ so to speak … so there is no rush, right? they do not need to conform into something more solid. perhaps they like the spontaneity of their relationship … perhaps they do not need something so firm and strict right now when they know they’ll end up together at some other point down the line … they could. wait! and that actually makes me devestated because no they can’t wait, they shouldn’t have waited -- because they don’t have all the time in the world and their time is cut short faster than either of them were truly ready for. i think ellegaard would regret all the time they ‘wasted’ after … would mourn it greatly, every moment she didn’t have due to her own ‘foolishness’ … could serve as a nice cautionary tale.

since magnus dies, i have a special place in my heart for his dynamics overall. him and jesse ( technically the guy he dies for ), him and soren ( who held him as he slowly died ), him and ivor ( who got him killed, in a way ), etc etc. in my eyes, he haunts the narrative afterwards, even if he’s not as heavy of a presence as reuben is. i could talk about these relationships more in depth probably, yet i’ll try not to for the sake of not making this thirty thousand words long lol! just know that i think all his bonds are fascinating and haunting in a way, since magnus is a dead man walking … he always has been, since the moment he locked himself in that spiral tower in boomtown.

gabriel and jesse is also another core dynamic to me! jesse, quickly emerging into legend as this fast, stumbling thing. and gabriel, the fraud legend, the worshipped by jesse and others, the one who is trying but isn’t enough. jesse getting to be with his idol and seeing gabriel for what he is, which is a tired, worn out man who’s been forced to live a lie for all his friends for years -- jesse slowly realizing that him and gabriel aren’t that different, but they also are, in every way that counts. i love when they chafe against each other due to their different views and i love how gabriel tries imparting toxic ideals about friendship and intimacy onto jesse, who isn’t having it … but jesse isn’t mad at gabriel. he’s just … sad for him. sad that gabriel believes those things, that he feels that way, that he’s at the end of his rope and nobody cares. there is a great deal of pity and understanding, versus gabriel, who is nothing but a ball of crushing guilt near the end. he’s proud of jesse, sure, but there’s also this feeling of -- he’s set jesse up for a horrible life too. at the end, jesse becomes the new and ‘better’ gabriel, and it’s such an odd thing ; to see your shadow be filled and become bigger than it ever was when you once casted it. surprisingly, one of my first mcsm wips was about this, jesse/gabriel, and this complicated turnaround they’re both being shoved into.

since i don’t know when or if i’ll ever finish it, here’s some words from that document :

anyway! wow. i have a lot of love for s1 dynamics! there’s still so many to name! i love how our present cast parallels the old order, i love axel and his bottomless worry for petra, i love what little we get of petra and jesse in this season, and i love ivor’s whole relationship with the order too.

i’m running out of steam a bit ( and lord knows i have even more love for the dlc + s2 relationships ) so i’ll end it here, alas, but … thank you so much for the ask! sorry that i became an incoherent mess at the end haha. i truly became overwhelmed in my desire to name everything i loved and to do it semi justice, as well as sing as much praise for s1 as possible, since i don’t get to do that often. hopefully this is still a fun read regardless of my insanity -- and, even more so, i hope i expressed my love for these characters and dynamics enough.

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sometimes i think about the fact that claude perceived dennis’s disgust and anger at him to be like. homophobic. in the weight room thread and if dennis EVER knew he’d be so offended he’d be like am i not the most bisexual guy ever. i kiss guys. HEY. i’m serious i fucking love guys okay. look at me is that not obvious

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yall should play mcsm there’s some real fags in there ❤️

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need my ships to be as unhealthy and as unhinged as shaunajackie is in hit fic wander your own land actually

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endless gifs of matpat 1/∞

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i see a female character and i’m like well actually what if you were butch. what if you suffered from body dysmorphia and hated your female parts or felt indifferent to them and wanted to grow like a man does and be hairy and masculine. what if you were also violent. anyway.

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dennis clarke kinda the realest character ever like yeah i’m brimming with violence but i also cry because my not-gf won’t hang around me anymore

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need to write some real freaky concerning sex between minecraft blocks

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Okay here’s an ask game

Send me a ship and I’ll answer three questions based on if I ship it or not.

Ship It

What made you ship it?

What are your favorite things about the ship?

Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Don’t Ship It

Why don’t you ship it?

What would have made you like it?

Despite not shipping it, do you have anything positive to say about it?

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jesse from mcsm ... i want to know about him for the character list meme

omg i was secretly hoping for some mcsm characters in here so i owe you my life. absolutely adore these silly block characters & it's mandatory i do something with them sometime ... onto our beloved protag tho <3

favorite thing about them : this might sound ridiculous but the inherit godly nature of his character is probably my favorite thing? like most of the game is built upon jesse's responsibility as a figure rather than his personhood -- he's a champion, he's a hero, the slayer of the witherstorm and the admin ... first and foremost, this guy is a statue where people worship and i find that fascinating! it gives him these qualities that's fun to mess with and think about, where he comes across almost as untouchable and is viewed entirely through a myth lense. those dorky qualities jesse held ( his best friend being a pig, that reputation as a loser, simple enjoyments like endercon and posters ) hardly matter in the face of what he's become with time. he's a warrior and a leader and people need him, always, for things. romeo says it plainly! his display of the admin's power in his falsified jesse narrative doesn't gain him awe or anything, since jesse's already earned those things long ago ... they see romeo in all this dramatic prowess and they don't care! they just ask for help and things they need. and this isn't because they don't like jesse, they obviously do! it's just due to this status he's been draped with. he's their poster now, like gabriel once was. only difference is that his throne is built on raw truths and he's done more than the order ever did. i think it's a fun dichotomy : everyone loves jesse because jesse is merely a god, nothing more. people fight and bicker over him the same way they'd fight over interpretations of the bible, y'know? i don't know how much sense this makes but i don't care either, jesse's godly status is literally everything to me when it comes to his character. i love thinking about how his lover(s) might struggle with this concept, because it means he can't be entirely theirs ... he belongs to the people, not them. something the game plays with! when it comes to petra and lukas, they both have these aimed words about how they think jesse should be living. petra wants him to come with her, alone, for adventure ; yet lukas wants him to stay in beacontown and live a normal life ( also with him ). and jesse for most of the season can't commit to either! because at the end of the day he's always gonna be spread thin between everyone, as all things worshipped are. amazing stuff 10/10 !!

least favorite thing about them : uhm nothing. newsflash a lot of these character question things will have this as the response here. jesse is my little statue god he's not unlikable in the least. though i guess it's time to say that the only valid jesse to me is brown m!jesse ( brown f!jesse is also fine i just can't stand her voice sorry )

favorite line : his line about how he's coping with the death of reuben made me ache so there's that. “not really.” when soren asks if jesse's his friend was fucking hilarious i love his mean options ... oh, anytime he calls someone insane or delusional is a fave line because he's so casually baffled by this i can't help but love it. king shit! i think jesse’s lines are all so enjoyable and endearing because of his little wide-eyed or blank expressions that sometimes follow, or the sort of bounce in his voice … mcsm in general has some really good dialogue so props to that always

brOTP : to be completely basic, i love jesse and reuben! it is such an odd little friendship because reuben is quite literally just a pig who a.) can’t speak, and b.) has little character of note besides vague traits most cats have like brave and sassy … but jesse’s love for him and his dependence on him in the first season fascinates me. even olivia finds it weird that jesse’s incapable of going anywhere without reuben! and is offended when jesse claims that reuben’s his best friend when she, a human being, is also his best friend! you can tell that a lot of people don’t necessarily understand jesse’s bond with this little pig ( lukas accidentally saying ‘it’ instead of ‘him’ in episode five is a good example of this ) but it’s something jesse felt so deeply, so earnestly … and it’s a loss he gets better at not voicing although i don’t think he ever quite gets over it either. he never gets another ‘pet’ and probably never gets over that initial feeling he voices of waking up, pretending reuben is there still, somewhere, before having to face a reality without him. and then he has to continually witness other people being able to keep their best friend pets :( it’s like even the universe won’t let jesse really forget and you can tell by his little looks it still hurts as much as the day he lost reuben … sigh. i truly enjoy how weird it is and i also do think that reuben in particular is such a representation of jesse’s mundane past and how it died the second the witherstorm was defeated -- and is a representation of his humanity because he never let power get to his head with reuben, unlike both stella and isa before they learn better. but besides reuben his bonds with olivia and particularly axel is lovely for similar and not similar reasons! and i do get a hoot out of jesse and ivor too as a pair. i’m currently replaying s2 so we’ll see if jesse and jack make this list eventually as well, or even jesse and nurm

OTP : sighs and pulls out my list. this is a no brainer but lukas/jesse is probably the biggest ship i have for him! though very firmly on it's heels is stella/jesse and radar/jesse. petra/jesse intrigues me deeply due to petra’s selfishness with him and how often they chafe despite clearly wanting to coexist in each other’s habitats … really, i’ll ship jesse with anyone. jesse/aiden, jesse/cassidy, jesse/gabriel, etc. but lukas is his true love for sure in a literal sense -- the great love and care they display for one another is undeniable in mcsm s2 and i genuinely just view them as canon endgame honestly. any other of my jesse ships are always in a vein of ‘jesse is polyamorous’ or even ‘jesse is having a miserable spell’ because him without lukas as a companion feels odd narratively and makes me sad

nOTP : um. none? for it to be a notp i’d have to hate it or loathe it and jesse is too charming for me to really hate any of his dynamics, even when i find the character uninteresting or, worse, a little grating. there are many jesse ships i don’t have feelings for -- but most of those are just random ship combos i could quickly create with my mind like … jesse/soren, or something

random headcanon : tentatively enjoying the idea that olivia and axel were best friends first until they stumbled upon jesse’s treehouse one day! cue jesse watching them from the window before peeking his head out to stare at them with reuben … and they became a trio really quickly after that, with the treehouse becoming a hotspot for hanging out and passing the sweltering summer days by

unpopular opinion : i do not engage enough with the mcsm fandom to really know what popular jesse opinions are! i just love looking at all the cool art and i don’t read many fics or writing based mcsm jesse stuff … so all my opinions are either unpopular or popular idk! i know back in the day it was a really common opinion for jesse’s and radar’s relationship to be viewed as father and son but i don’t adhere to that whatsoever personally. i also ship jesse with everyone, yes, even romeo and aiden, because i don’t care for so called ‘problematic’ labels on ships that aren’t nearly as toxic as people think they are

song i associate with them : oh boy. i have some ship songs ( ish ) but a quick jesse one that feels relevant?

horse’s head, josh pyke

favorite picture of them : that moment when jesse and lukas are on the horse together, or them standing by the fireplace in the murder mystery ep <3 but i also love any image where jesse is making that blank expression of his

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tyler holt vs matthew (ETN)

MAKE ME CHOOSE , MEME .

this is actually the most rancid thing i’ve ever recieved in my inbox ever i hope you know that!! ugh. i hate to say it, but if i had to choose … it’d be the detective. mat will always win out over every other character thrown at me simply because i was obsessed with that man for years : dedicating hours of my life to watching matpat streams and note taking, rewatching etn s3 for weeks straight religiously, writing fic and voicing my opinions like it was a job i was getting paid for, etc etc. he’s been there for me throughout major points, highs and lows, and i wouldn’t even know some of the people i care deeply for if it wasn’t for matthew’s prolonged presence inside my head. in a life as wishy washy as mine, that man was sadly one of the few constants by my side, and that means a lot -- as sappy as that is. he’s also the bpd character of all time and because of my own bpd ( which is also something i discovered thanks to him, somewhat ) i have sucked up every single aspect of mat to take as my own. there is not a single day that goes by where i’m beating the matpat kinnie allegations, alas. i talk like him, i type like him, i think like him … it’s pretty bad. i adore tyler to bits and pieces and he’s still my babygirl, but he’s still a new baby to me in many ways. sorry, tyler </3 please know i love you immensely and if i had to kill a child of mine you wouldn’t even be close to the chopping block i swear!!

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voxtek’s ceo gets kissed! … more at nine on 666 news!

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everyday i wait to be hit with misogyny claims by the lis fandom because my otp is langfield even though vinh is *checks notes* a submissive bisexual vietnamese man whose worst crime is being dickish and manipulated by an authority figure to make one ( 1 ) bland statement about his best friend’s suicide that he shows immense regret over later. also ig he’s a slut. anyway!

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dennis clarke kinda the realest character ever like yeah i’m brimming with violence but i also cry because my not-gf won’t hang around me anymore