lamentinglabyrinth

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Its so much. Easier to delete thoughts than to make them. Digital footprint means nothing if you matter to no one, delete all your thoughts. Your mutuals and online friends dont notice. Its better that they dont see and give a pity interaction just to feel your suffering at the same time.

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Anytime I see a post i make talking or saying anything i just get so annoyed. No one else wants to hear it or see it. Why else do you think no one listens to you? Why no one reads anything you write unless its a direct text to them because awe youre so sweet.

The older you get the more that sweet charm wears off. No one cares. You have few if any original thoughts

What do you even have

Why cant i just die

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"You must be fun at parties"

I know im not fun at parties, all my alters think im a lot to deal with too. They just preserve my brain better than other people physically can because theyre in direct proximity of all my thoughts that are more like screams, especially when i get like this

Ive been telling myself that i dont matter or make any significant impact since i was 15. I'm constantly told to shut up or i talk too much when i barely ever talk and when im not talking it's considered weird and people want to know what I'm thinking.

And usually its "youre not special, no one actually cares, nothing matters. It doesnt matter that you think that thing matters, no one cares about that thing. You don't matter either. It stopped mattering and meaning anything long before you said anything. Someone else can prescribe meaning to it a lot better and present it in a way better way so shut up and stop caring. You dont do it the way they do it, it doesn't matter if its different or "right", no one understands the fuck you mean"

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I hear piano music. Unsure if it's the pre sleep hallucinations or if someone knows how to play piano...

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Bitter that 🎬 can be silly jokey on my main blog and get the interaction and hijack my time and body with the people I want to talk to.

He's gone for like five years and come back to this.

I think he's been like... Around now and then. Barely but he's been inching to the front and I think he's splitting like a damn amoeba. I don't know what to maje of it. Ni don't want anymore pieces. I'm fine with what I've got. I'm already weird at work. Thanks to 🍖🎒 and 🔨 like y'all fuck me up. I'm so tired. 🔨 has so much clean up to do and that's if I let him.

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they should invent a me who is not exhausted by simply being alive

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FUCK holding hands for romantic purposes. hold my hand while walking on an icy sidewalk so if one of us slips we both eat shit

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PLURAL ASK GAME!! ⋆˙⟡

⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★ get 2 know ur sys!!

!! this post is for everybody! u may use this regardless of origin/beliefs, just remember to follow ur own dni

🌸 - how many alters do u have? do u consider yourself to have a high headcount?

🧩 - do u have any subsystems? if so, how do they work?

🍧 - are there any alter(s) who u would consider the “core”? if so, are they the host?

💞 - do u have an innerworld? how complex is it?

💧 - how does fronting work for your system? do u have a “front room”?

🍀 - how do u communicate with ur headmates?

🍡 - do u use alter roles/labels? which ones do u use?

🌺 - who fronts the most? who fronts the least?

❄️ - how often do ur hosts/fronting patterns change?

🥝 - how often do u switch?

🪷 - do you co-front with other alters often? is co-fronting easy or difficult?

🌷 - how long does it take for u to switch?

🌨️ - do ur alters have specific voice claims for what they sound like in headspace?

🌱 - do u have any introjects? what are their sources?

💐 - do u have any hosts? co-hosts?

🍃 - if u have an innerworld, can u see into while you’re fronting?

💗 - do u use any origin/-genic terms? what are they?

🌿 - do u have any npcs in your headspace?

🍬 - has ur system created any rules ur alters are expected to abide by?

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Just when i thought I was done forming alters...

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sys culture is still thinking youre the age you were when you discovered ur system.. its been 2 years

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[Text: This system has OC fictives and that's okay!]

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[Text: This system struggles at work because of their DID.]

[Text: This collective struggles at work because of their DID.]

[Text: This alter struggles at work because of their DID.]

[Text: This part struggles at work because of their DID.]

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[Text: This system is always re-making their SimplyPlural.]

[Text: This system is always re-making their SimplyPlural, please remind them to work on it.]

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[Text: This system constantly worries about saying the wrong thing when talking to someone.]

[Text: This system constantly worries about saying the wrong thing when talking to someone. This is a trauma response they are working on!]

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[Text: This system's psychosis gets triggered easily.]

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Plurality:

Pros- Never alone!

Cons- Never alone...

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I revamped my old system emojis!