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The last two days.

I have been through a whirlwind of emotions and experiences the past two days. It has been a lot for my brain to process and not just glitch out over. From handling drunk people to trying to fins someone who wasn’t in the best place emotionally, and even meeting some inspirational people and seeing my crush, it has been a lot. I don’t exactly know what to do about it all. I’m trying to keep a level head and not dive off the deep end into something either very depressing or very manic, but I don’t think I can control it. I have never been able to control by bipolar, only recognize where exactly I am. I hate not having control. In addition to all the new things from the past two days, the general stress and anxiety of school, unemployment in the family, and the impending parental separation is starting to really take a toll on me. I wish there was some way to just cut in half what is going on in my life. I would gladly take half of this shit instead. Maybe my life and my brain wouldn’t be so complicated, but life doesn’t work that way. You can’t just snap your fingers and suddenly everything is ok. But damn, do I wish you could.