In my time working for the state government, my job sent me to 46 cities in 11 years. I lived in villages with eight people, rural farming communities, college towns. I was sent to every corner of Indiana. And then I came here. And I realized that, this whole time, I was just wandering around, everywhere, just looking for you. I love you and I like you.
You know what my favorite part of Bojack horseman season 6 episode 15 is, it's the fact that death isn't a big relief. It's scary and it's dark and Bojack desperately trying to escape it. You think you don't want to live, don't want the pain, the mistakes but death is so much worse. It's nothingness that you should be scared of. Never romanticise it for it is not something to want.
It's fucking darkness. And it's not kind. It's the end. And I'm really glad the show depicted it as the black slime.
But you may have to live with the fact that your ex has a happy and fulfilling life without you. In order to move on, you need to let go of waiting for the satisfaction that your ex is gonna come running. Cause if they don’t it’s peak for you.