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Life update a.k.a. lot's of things has happened!

So.. It's been a long time since I posted something again. Going to try to sum up why and what's been happening. First let's start with Malta. I didn't post that much during my time there. Just a little bit about how it was. The bad stuff. But after I got to change my internship place I liked it a lot more! Dare I even say I loved it there? Being there, living there etc. I liketd it a lot anyways. I was sad to go home. Dreaded it. But the day came to fly home anyway and I was so sad :( My second internship was at a daycare centre. It was a great place. I liked it a lot, most of the time. Though I worked with MUCH younger children than I'm used to. But it was a great experience and it made me completely sure that I don't want to work with children that young in the future. Even though I liked it there and liked most of the children that was there and will remember them always. I don't want to work with children that young day in and day out. I will get bored with it very quickly. The last two weeks there just flew by. And then we were home. I was back home again. I immediately fell into some sort of depression again. That I hadn't felt for a LONG time. My anxiety levels were through the roof. And there was no light in the end of the tunnel. It got a little better after new years. When I made that resolution and got back to more "my old self". Changed my hair to some magenta/pink colour and started to "find myself" again I guess. It also helped a lot that in January we started having group meetings/lessons again. Because then I could get some sort of routine to my days. In February I started an internship working with the new group that's going to Italy. Because I had decided I wanted to go back! It was quite fun. It ended the second week in March, the last two weeks I worked at the school where I've subbed since fall 2015. Since then I haven't done much at all. Trying to get back to Malta. It's a work in progress. I really really really hope it works out! I've ended the lease on my apartment, so I've started packing all my shit up. And sorting out what to keep, through away, sell and bring with me. It's a lot more work than I expected! And hard. I get a LOT of anxiety from it. Even though I really want to go! But I guess that I'm scared. And that is perfectly normal. But it's also very irritating. I don't want to have anxiety all the time! Or be scared, or not have any confidence... Just something I will have to work on and maybe one day maybe it'll go away. Anyways, there you have it. A sum up of what's been since last time. XOXO Milo

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Completely love these ^^

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World goth day shared this on fb. I think it’ll be the best goals for me to have too.. in light of recent events. And also not so recent. And I don’t see the sentences necessarily connected, more like two separate. I really need to care less. It has only given me heartache and anxiety to care about people and things. And I want to wear more black clothes. Get back to more who I was before stylewise. But a bit more modern also.. Anyways. This will be my new years resolutions. Or two of them at least.

XO Milo

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We arrived in Malta on a Sunday and had a week of english lessons. Then on the first Saturday we went around the south of Malta on a hop on hop off bus. These are a handful of the photos from that ride.

XO Milo

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3rd week in Malta

A lot of things has happened since the last post. I’m now in my third week in Malta.The first week just flew by, the second felt like the longest week I’ve ever had! I didn’t like my internship place at all but now I’m going to start at a new place tomorrow. Feeling very nervous about it! :S 

It hasn’t been as good an adventure/experience as when I went to Serbia two years ago. Though maybe it’s too soon to know that yet. I don’t feel like I have grown or evolved in any way like that time. If anything I feel more insecure and anxious. There is still four weeks left though, so maybe it’ll come. On the other hand it has made me appreciate home A LOT more. Missing my home incredibly right now :/ Which is also very different from last time. I liked it better there in Serbia than at home. I didn’t even want to go home when the 4 weeks was up. I felt more at home there than in my actual hometown. But we’ll see how this progresses...

I have sooo many pictures to post and things to share btw. I don’t know where to start.. I’ve barely updated on facebook, I’ve been so tired in the evenings and on the weekends we’ve been busy with different stuff. The group is better this time though. We all do stuff together for the most part. 

So, this was a brief update, more coming later!

XO Milo

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Life update

This will be a well overdue update of my life. I haven’t been blogging that much and when I have posted things it hasn’t been about what’s really been going on. So here it goes.

I’ve been very busy this fall. I have been working as a sub at a school (though has been doing that to and from since about november last year). I have also joined another project! Similar to the one where I went to Serbia in 2014. But this time it’s for a longer time I’ll be away and it’s in another country. This time I’ll be away for six weeks and we’re going to Malta! :D ^^ Soooo excited/nervous/happy! ^^ 

So since the second week in september I’ve been attending the preparatory program for the trip abroad. And working only for about three weeks during that time. It’s been (almost) two long months, with a lot of things to do, a lot of stress, a lot of tiredness.. But now it’s finally here! The time to go! Early on sunday morning we’re flying to Malta ^^. (When I write “we” I mean the group that’s in the project, just to clarify, hehe).

I’ll be doing an internship at a store that remakes furniture. I think it will be creative and probably quite fun. But I will still try to get to some time at a school there too. Hopefully that will work out since that would benefit me more. But anyways, this will be a fun little adventure ^^ 

XO Milo

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Continuing working on the chairs. This is the second one, I started on it yesterday. Wish I could do more than just a little bit at a time.. but the paint has to dry so.. But I just want to be finished with it all! :/ That’s just the way it is though.. when you’re tired all the time and the paint needs time to dry.. Need to work on my patience.

XO Milo

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So here it is. The before and after pic :) Sooo happy with the result! ^^ There’s three btw. Otherwise I’d be finished sooner. But one was enough for the picture I thought.

XO Milo

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Painting!

I’ve been painting almost every day this week. 1-2 hours all but one day. These pants had no paint at all on them when I started. Considering how my old “painting pants” looked when I had to throw them out (they ripped more than I cared to fix) these don’t look that bad after a week at all ^^ hehe.

So how far did I come in this week? The stools are finished! :) (Pics coming later when I’ve found the before picture). And I’m a little over half finished with the first chair. I must say it’s feels very good to see results now and to know that I’m almost done with this project. Which grew much larger than first planned. I’d give it another week of nice weather and I’ll be completely done :)

XO Milo

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It took a few days.. but today I finally got around to making apple sauce from the apples I got from my dad. One day I will have my own house with a yard full fruit trees and bushes that I can make jams, sauces and such from.. But for now I’ll get it from my dad’s ^^

XO Milo

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Continuing painting finally! 😁 The weather has been so bad this summer and I’ve also been very tired alot, so I haven’t been able to finish my stools yet :( But today the weather is better and I’m only a little bit tired, so it’s time to finish what I’ve started! :)

XO Milo

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"I fit here too" Haha ^^ you can really see how annoyed Litha is with Lumi 😾 #cats #instacats #catstagram #squeezein #annoyed #noroom #cute

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Life with cats... Why do they ALWAYS have to sit in front of the TV?? 😡 One of them always go and sit there for a while when I watch something. Mostly it's Lumi, like it is tonight.

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Omg! Just love them 😍😍

Amanda Louise

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You can't get a new phone and not buy lots of stuff for it! Hehe 😄 These are the cases I got for it. Love them all, they're both cool and pretty I think ^^ But the one with the cat makes me smile a bit extra, hehe 😁 I also got some other small stuff for it, but they're not that interesting to see. I got some screen protecting plastic thing and a bag/case thing for when I go on walks and such. Also some pens because my nails are so long now it's annoyingly hard to write a longer text on my phone with my fingers. I press the wrong letter and autocorrect chooses the wrong word.. Annoying! My patience is very low when it comes to stuff like that. But I love my long nails! 😍 And will not cut them now when I finally have them. I've been trying for sooo many years to get and keep them long. A bit off topic.. Sorry.. Anyways... Love my new phone and love these new cases! 😄 Is it wrong to be so happy about materialistic things? 🤔😕 I don't really care though! 😄 XO Milo

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New phone! So, I have gotten myself a present 😄 And I couldn’t be more happy! 😊 I’ve had the Samsung galaxy s4 for a few years now, it’s been great and it’s still working fine. But sometimes you just want something new. I was thinking about it when the s6 came out but never got around to it. So now I got myself the s7 instead 😃 And I absolutely love it 😍😍

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Maybe I should do like this instead. I often feel the need to try and find myself, I feel lost quite often. So maybe I should try to create myself instead of constantly trying to find myself? Maybe that will work better?