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So. I wanted to end things on a better note than earlier today. If no one wants it, that's fine, but I want it for my peace of mind.

Nothing has been going right for me on all fronts. Personal life, work, online life, it's fucking sucked for a while now. Dreams and goals irl have been shattered and given up on, which has been really hard and stressful, my computer died and my attempt to replace it went so terribly I'm honestly discouraged from trying again, and until really recently (but sadly too late to actually help with anything) the serotonin just hasn't been serotonining.

I vented too much, way too much, and obliterated my safe spaces in the process. I'm sorry I let it get this far.

I've spent today crafting new accounts I'm moving onto, where I will apply what I learned here. It will go better this time, I hope.

I don't know why you would want to, but if you for some reason do... Don't look for me. And if you think you found me, please leave me be.

I might come back someday, feel free to take that as a comfort or as a threat as you see fit.

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Your vibe is oddly bitter and reeks of insecurity

sounds like someone needs to go in the water

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Why are people being so fucking weird about AO3 comments? Devastating.

new type of fanfic author dropped

"I will prevent you from ever reading my stories if you show your unending love for them with silly little pictures that are readily available on your phone's keyboard instead of words."

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Speaking of AO3, my science experiment is cancelled because of the fucking AI scraping and I'm real bummed about it.

"Does that mean you'll share that secret second account on here?" No... I'm still pretty convinced Tumblr is the pipeline to secret Discord book club, even if I can't prove it without risking AI licking my fucking hard work. Maybe if we're friends and you promise me you won't let it within 5 miles of any Discord servers.

Also if you think you found it, no you didn't lmao.

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new type of fanfic author dropped

"I will prevent you from ever reading my stories if you show your unending love for them with silly little pictures that are readily available on your phone's keyboard instead of words."

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why do we even have legal genders anyway. maybe we should not have those

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There's a remake coming out but the company's funding a genocide? Go buy the original from your local media resale shop.

Another game's still fucking 60 bucks and it's been out several years AND the console's about to get replaced by a newer fancier model? Found it for 25 used online.

A particular franchise is made by shitty people? The PS2 title made decades ago is abandonware now, NO ONE who made it can benefit financially from you purchasing it secondhand. Unless you like... buy it straight from their garage sale or something. Try not to do that lmao.

The more and more we get burnt by new games and consoles, the harder I'm driven into the loving embrace of buying games used.

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Explaining to my Australian ex that ice cream trucks are in fact real and not made up for television.

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The more and more we get burnt by new games and consoles, the harder I'm driven into the loving embrace of buying games used.

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Let me provide a breakdown to show that 5k isn't even a dent:

You have the cost of childbirth itself. If you have insurance it's around 3,000. Premature births are billed highest. If you don't have insurance? 6 to 49,000 thousand. Medicaid, which Republicans are trying to slash? Covers about 42% of US births. Of note, location does play a factor. Inflation? The state of your health and your child's? Can make these costs higher.

What about after the birth? Raising the child? The average cost is around... 200,000 at least. For the cost of a single child mind you. And some these articles don't mention inflation. But 200,000 is on the tamer end of what reading. I'm seeing some projections as high as 400,000! Whew.

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There's a certain media I don't speak about by name on Tumblr anymore that would've benefited from having a game on the Philips CDI. The fandom deserves that slice of humble pie.

"But Lea they have [game regarded as bad]" No. Not the same. Go look at Faces of Evil, then come back and try to tell me "game that got fucked over in development probably to get released in time for Christmas" or "game they were scared to do anything cool with so it's bland as fuck" or even "game that's actually good everyone is just cruel to it" is the same as "game made for the Philips fucking CDI".

I know they came into existence roughly around the same time and that it would've made little sense for them to get one on it, but my counterpoint to THAT is I wish the CDI had lived longer. It deserved to cause more problems.

...But that could've led to my parents, who were very attracted to the "edutainment" buzz word, buying one for my brother and I instead of the PS2 we did ultimately get. A scary thought, especially since my initial thoughts about the PS2 were... less than stellar.

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When you fuck up publicly and it gets used as an example to everyone:

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i think that, if a media wants you to ship characters and lowkey to highkey shipbaits with them, people shouldnt get mad at you for shipping them, regardless of what the ship is

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Hi it seems like you made a post but forgot to make it about me?